The Seasons of Life

[Raphael]

Sometimes every day is different, sometimes they are the same. For me, they have been pretty chaotic in the last four years with a variety of emotions. I changed in many ways, gained some maturity, and lost some things. I wouldn't say that my situation is ideal; things could be better, but I'm happy to be in a much more stable state than I was two or three years ago.

This journal is going to start like the first one that I created on this forum: I know where I'm going, but I'm not sure where this journal will go. I'm here, but I'm not sure why I am here... maybe because I want to progress?

- 24/08/2025

[Raphael]

Life after psychosis

In July 2023, I was transferred to the psychiatric hospital after a psychotic episode. Symptoms started much earlier though and they were typical symptoms of a psychosis: auditory hallucinations (hearing voices), delusional ideas, and false beliefs about reality. I didn't really know what was happening to me at first; I was seeing a psychologist but I didn't tell him that I was hearing voices. Nevertheless, at one point, he told me that I was having a psychosis. Before telling me that he told me to do some Reiki, so I started to go to a Reiki healer. I did many sessions and progressed a lot but it wasn't enough: at a point everything crashed and this is where I was transferred to the hospital. I stayed at the hospital for one week, I don't have many memories except that I woke up with my hands tied to my bed and that I got beaten by other patients.

I started taking medication after I got out of the hospital but they weren't that effective, so my psychologist recommended another psychiatrist. The psychiatrist put me on antidepressant and antipsychotic and this time it worked. They actually have been pretty effective on me.

As time passed, I started to feel better. The psychologist that I was seeing quit the country so I had to find a new one to help me. I started a new therapy and discovered pranic healing. I made more progress and gained in maturity. During this empty period I also learned to drive and got my driving license two months ago. Though, as this is life, I still experience ups and downs but normal ones now. I now know how bad things can be so even if I don't have that much I'm overall satisfied with my life. My main objective is now to relaunch my freelance business so that I don't need to rely on the government's pension anymore.

- 27/08/2025