Aggressive Action & Results Journal

[Optimized Life]

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This journal is Finished. 

NO MORE THINKING POST

life is all about action, im doing a disservice by posting continously

I wrote a very good post here about Affirmations and subconscious programming ... but how much have I done yet?

action oriented journalling now 2 days per week max, with stats like this : 

(1) Stats 

- "No fap day 16" 

- "Caffiene consumption daily = 100MG (dropped from 200mG)" - Mixing with 400 L theonine capsule daily 

- Business focus hours per day = 

- X APproaches per day 

- Mushroom trip on sunday, integration efforts  = ... Goal was to build rock solid inner game and becoming more fearless ... Progress in real life 11 days later = ..... 

- Diet progress & Discipline > 3 junk cookies this week, 2 coke zeros, average sleep 6.75 hours 

Targets & goals for improvements next week 

(2) Brief 5-10 minute Analysis/Reflection 

"This week i have made some progress - focus is a 30% better, X is better, caffiene is down ect... But i still notice myself being a little indecisive, hesitant and caring what people think of me sometimes, I am not fully in my power yet or in beast mode yet., so for next week I need to .... 

This is what I need. 95% Action and golden weekly Reflections with metrics. The Insatiable NTP mind will always be there but I need to transmute it into action oriented thinking (With 95% action!) instead of random thinking about aimless things, like creative ideas for making money ,or building skills, but these idea

 

Edited Monday at 10:35 AM by Optimized Life

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Monday 14th July 2025 (NEXT STATS POST WILL BE AT SUNDAY 20TH JULY - I SIGN OFF)

• No Fap day 4 
• 15% Body Fat 
• Physique and looks - In decent shape & muscle tone, but hard to maintain alongside working and becomes expensive eating enough protein, hydrating, , skin care, SPF, minoxidil to reverse and prevent bolding - All moderate expense overall BUT HIGH QUALITY Food and protien that is expensive, I want to eat grass finished organic fresh beef and not cheap supermarket stuff, every day, this impacts aging, libido, mood testosterone, even physical appearance and skin tone, elite diet is worth it, but not if you can't pay rent, so I just need to get more fucking money i have high agressive standards in life, eating the supermarket beef its like dating a 5/10, just sucks 
• Finances > $4,500 - $5,000 current total savings and net worth, no way near enough for me given life expensive, contingencies, desire for travel, even business requires operating costs and some investing risk before hitting big profits 
• Personality and spirituality > Inconsistent - I'm hungry, driven and passionate ect.. but this gets neutered by wrong environment, stress, caffeine addiction, overthinking, indecision, the culture surrounding me, inner game is essentially inconsistent but the raw fire and potential has always been there - Time to try moderate dose of mushrooms with trip intention and take it seriously (NOT FOR RECREATION) 
• Mushrooms Logistics - Don't have a dealer and unsure where to find it, need to use requisite variety here, give myself 1 week to find it max 
• Caffeine Addict - 150 - 300MG per day 
• Sleep Quality > Mediocre, (quantity fluctuates)
• Emotional State > Chronic Stress, Frustration, Caffeine Jitters, Resentment, Anger 
• Cold Approach > active this month but very inconsistent > Due to stress, bad logistics, lack of time and energy and mostly just logistics and access  

Short Term Goals 

1. No Fap day 10 + and ongoing integrated, no edging or setbacks 
2. 12-13% body fat locked in and sustained 
3. Minimum $10K savings in bank ar
4. Minimum 3 clients 
5. Mushroom trip secured this week towards my goal, reprogramming in progress 
6. Caffeine reduced to 100MG pill per day, no more buying coffees, hot chocolates, lattes >> Adds up to $50-$100 wasted per month stains my teeth, and leads to overconsumption 
7. Achieve native level fluency new language, for the new country I want to move to> 5 new words per day, and 1Hour+ passive podcast listening per day while doing chores 
8. *I'm not making approaching a goal because (1) i already can and do approach but (2) the root issue is 100% logistics and access so i need to focus on the root issue, I'm not a pussy I just need to fix my life first and move 

A quick note on AGGRESSION (My final ever "theoretical segment" I will write , everything going forward will be 100% stats based 

The core of this journal and my life philosophy is centred around aggression.  It's very important not to forget this word. I cannot "just take action", everything must be aggressive, like a lion chasing a gazelle, wolf like, "not yeah I do self improvement bro it sounds cool bro", nooo. I'm not meant to win, no one is meant to win, life is a fucking corrupt pyramid scheme and I'm not even American no I'm meant to be a slave, fit in, be poor and get a 5/10 GF and live a boring empty life, safe and predictable and unfulfilling boring empty mediocre slave existence , and just taking action wont overcome that, only agressive, daily uncompromising warrior energy wins. This is the core of philosophy in life going forward, without aggression, failure is absolutely guaranteed.

Edited Monday at 11:32 AM by Optimized Life

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1 hour ago, Optimized Life said:

A quick note on AGGRESSION (My final ever "theoretical segment" I will write , everything going forward will be 100% stats based 

This will be my LAST theoretical reflective post on here but I had to do it, it's too important 

Aggression MUST Authentically Come From Within 

It's a Spiritual Emotion 

You shouldnt be merely logically aggressive or try to "be agressive bro" its bottom-up not top down (but logical awareness of the concept still helps) 

I do not mean "I'm listening to tate and he says agressive men win, I should be agressive yeah make those calls !!" 

nonononon

You walk to the bathroom, theres a specific spiritual form of aggression that coarses your body, even calling it "Aggression" is way too simplistic and dumbed down, but you feel into it you feel it, its a specific emotion, for me as an intuitive + 8W7 especially, I fucking feel it and as soon as its in my body i know im in winning mode, its like a combination of anger determination courage passion deep desire, once i feel that in my body i know its on, only path is too feel it for longer every day and i think mushrooms can help me with this, i dont wanna feel anything else, any other emotion or state is useless to me, this is who I am and the mode from which i live and breathe, from that comes endless action and life, ofc no fap is 1 indispensible component to this, but its not all, its deeply desiring things too, in a spiritually angry obsessive way 

Edited Monday at 12:43 PM by Optimized Life

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Tuesday 15th July : HARD RESET NEEDED 

1. Desperate, Impatient State of mind

• I have been desperately trying to make money, hustling and scrambling, frustrated and hating my life

2. Caffeine

• I did well quitting caffeine for about 3-4 days last week but then bounced back and have rebounded even harder and now i'm consuming 200-400mg per day, including caffeine in late afternoon, sleep quality is down, and i'm now craving sugar more because of this 

3. Sugar and Teeth 

• I had very good sugar and junk free discipline for weeks and even whitened my teeth
• But I still had a couple more shades to go 
• Whitening isn't merely a vain cosmetic treatment but actually a test of disciplijne and patience : If you consume any fluid caffiene or sugar it not only undoes the whitening results (wasting both time and money), but is actually even worse than not whitening at all and causes stains because your enamel is hyper sensitive! 
• So what happened is I would whiten, wake up, tell myself no caffiene or sugar but then I'm tired and "neuped it for the grind" so 1 small slip up leads to another, then that stupid fucking "everything in moderation" and "just live a little" mantra starts attacking my brain and I slip up once with a mocha, then eventually its a coke zero (super bad and acidic) and then cookies CK O
• So in 1-2 days I have reset my smile by 40-60% (the deep cleaning is still there but) the surface shine can be undone very fast in this way, I now have to wait 3 days to reminelarize, then whiten again, AND not consume sugar, caffiene, cocao ect.. for 7-10 days and do 7-10 days of whitening every single night then i will finally be back to baseline, even above it, then in 2 weeks I can gain hollywood smile AND not have a sugar or caffiene addiciton 
• If quitting caffiene specifically is too much for atm, I will stick to just caffiene pills 100MG, and even this can be hard because theres such a psychological pull of drinking a mocha from those machines, or a coke zero, they really mastered their marketing and business models, selling addiction is efficient business my god 

So to Conclude, I have reached peak frustration at undoing weeks of progress in 1-2 days, I commit to FULL DIScIPLINE now, fuck this "moderation" bullshit it's too draining, way simpler to just go all in 

10 DAYS OF CONTINIOUS DIET DISCIPLINE, NO MORE ADDICTIONS, NO MORE SUGAR, NO MORE BUYING MOCHAS AND WASTING MY TIME MONEY, WHITE TEETH. THERE ARE OTHER WAYS TO GET DOPAMINE, I DONT NEED A 2 SECOND MOUTH TASTE, I AM FUCKIJNG ANGRY. DISCIPLINE 

NOTHING ELSE 

DISCIPLINE IS MY ONLY GOAL FOR NOW 

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Edited Tuesday at 07:02 PM by Optimized Life

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Wednesday 16th July 2025

• Woke up earlier today with sunrise, feels good 
• No Fap Day 6 (Edged last night got dangerously close to relapse)
• State of mind - Motivated but much unresolved underlying tension, resentment, regret, anxiety, pressure
• Day 1 of hard reset - No Fluid Caffiene/sugar or dark pigmented fluids - 3 days to remineralise then restart whitening
• Taking 200MG Caffeine pill with 200MG L theonine - NO Caffeine after 12 today (Have no aura ring or advanced way to quantify/estimate my sleep quality but I know it's far from ideal and late caffiene is the 1 thing in my control right now)
• Making a note on mindset and why "Discipline" is not actually "DISCIPLINE"

Thoughts : 

1. I literally gain energy and power from consistent discipline, Ironically true "discipline" leads to no discipline at all, because it just becomes part of you. This is why a hard reset (at least for 30-90 days) is the simplest, lowest friction, lowest decision fatigue solution that just works. 

2. Again - I GAIN ENERGY from discipline, especially when I'm seeing the visual/financial/internal results of my hard work. 

I am not "disciplining myself", there is no resistance, I am excited to not eat cookies, I'm excited to sleep better, I'm excited to hit the gym every day, I love the gym, I love the process, I love being strategic, this is all love! This is actually fun!, how could I forget this, this leads to more fun overall, the net effect, 10 times more fun. If you work hard, look good, feel good, smell good and improve logistics for example, you get way more girls, what's more fun, a hot girlfriend, or a cookie for 3 seconds? 

Edited Wednesday at 08:12 AM by Optimized Life

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Wednesday 16th July 2025 (2)

Confirmation : High quality meat significantly affects me, I'm a super responder - Yes it's hella worth it & (not even that expensive )

I will never lower my standards or go easy route again, supermarket meat it's like another level of garbage, eggs/veg/fruit are the only decent things a supermarket can produce, but not meat 

From this day forward, I commit to high quality fresh meat, i will make the money for it, every day 

Edited Wednesday at 04:12 PM by Optimized Life

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Thursday 17th July 2025 : Completely Destroyed : No Fap

• I got thrown off and have fapped 3 times in 2 days, breaking my streak again
• No Fap is with 100% certainty, the most important self improvement habit, for making money, getting women, internal mood, everything. There is nothing more important than no fap 

5+ Days to heal and rebuild, I was almost at a fucking 30 day streak not long ago, I'm so disappointed. 

I won't be posting on here for a solid week because there's no point, It's gonna take me some days to regain my magnetism, the fact that leo even encourages fapping is criminal tbh, it's such a massive blunder that it almost revokes him of any value he's ever provided, telling men to fap often is like suggesting they box with a glove behind their back in a world where life is a giant boxing ring. It is more harmful to society to encourage fapping than to sell most drugs, cigarettes or alcohol. If I had to chose between life long fapping or smokijng id chose the latter every time, without doubt, I'll have some wrinkles but at least I keep my mostly power mind and body intact. No Fap is a spiritual sacred discipline, I have lived at 10% of my potential for the past 3 years just because i was influenced by people on here that it's trivial and stupid, and I fucking believed it somehow. Tragic. 

Edited 14 hours ago by Optimized Life

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Thursday 17th July 2025 (2)

You cannot let setbacks slow you down

I will fight harder despite my recent faps, but I will have to fight different battles : 

No socializing or approaching for 5 days 

But during this time :

I will restart my whitening progress 

I will regain my no fap momentum 

I will take a moderate dosed mushroom trip for personal growth and try to integrate it 

I will work out every day 

I will wake up early (6AM from now no exceptions)

I will build a military like discipline 

I will continously listen to my new language podcasts when doing any chores or non verbal online work/tasks, with no days off 

I will go harder at prospecting to find new clients and think about how to resposition my offer 

I will not waste a single penny on junk food, coffee, lattes

I will come back after 5 days stronger, ready, and the no fap will be a true force multiplier 

Within 10 days, I will be on warrior mode again, even stronger than the previous time, right now I am 15% of my true self, but I'll keep grinding anyway. No Fap is fucking sacred man, I significantly respect leo about 200% less because of his stance on no fap, its his biggest blindspot and blunder, im not sure if i can even look at the guy the same way now the way I see it, he kinda repulses me, fucking fapper 

Edited 12 hours ago by Optimized Life