So I wanted to go to another state for a while.

[Sabth]

And I'm looking through the hotels and the prices. And being the fucked up that I am now, no I wasnt, I dream that the place that are next to me now had turned been turned into a mix or sorts of hotels combinations. Mind you this had never happened when I'm young. My life are straight and right.  equal. Nothing ever changed or disrupted. But now.. if I am God, or if idk because things are dangerous now. Imagine if its something that I deal with earlier this year. January 1st. And now its still is what I'm dealing with. The only difference is that it includes others when before this only I knew. And it would only be me. 

And I did went to that area , and see a lot of myself or my colour/theme there. I shouldnt be. This is why idk what to do. 

 

So I had to run sneaking out without anyone knowing and go? Because they've turned everything into me wherever I go ?; if I searched about  x somewhere here they would make it x here. 

 

Like back then it would just be a topic , now it would be a physical thing. I said whatever I write would become a reality people mimicking you or , now im looking for a hotel , and then they turned the building next to me into a combination of hotels and that building. () It wasnt . It wasnt a building. A waste of my fate. 

It wasnt what I wanted. I saw there are four levels of it. All brand new . And a few other things. I walk in all part of it. 

[Sabth]

I didnt even went out in the middle of the night. But in my dream I did. Whose will was it? Whose intention? 

[Sabth]

So what I say or do matters now. And not before. 

Because it will shape my reality. 

Edited Wednesday at 09:45 AM by Sabth