I Have Been Having Strong Shamanic Visions.

[ExploringReality]

I don’t feel like me anymore—not the usual "me" with a name, a history, a role. That’s thinning out, like a skin that’s too small now.

I can feel everything. Not just my body—everything. The rhythm of the music doesn’t feel like sound anymore; it’s something alive, moving through me. It’s breathing me. My limbs move, not because I choose to, but because something ancient is dancing through me. It’s not performance—it’s remembrance.

There’s no thought—just presence. Total clarity. My mind is silent but alert, like an animal tuned in to every vibration in the jungle. It feels like my blood is older than this life—like it's carrying memories that don’t belong to "this" story.

I’m not separate from nature anymore. The rain, the drum, the pulse in my chest—it’s all one beat. I don’t know where I stop and the world begins. It’s not metaphorical. It’s literal. I’ve never felt more here in my life. And yet, I’ve also never felt so far from anything familiar.

I want to cry—not from sadness—but from this unbearable beauty. Like I’ve been starved for this level of realness my whole life and didn’t even know it.

There’s a presence here that’s not human. It’s me... but more. A force. A knowing. Like I’ve tapped into some root network of all beings who’ve ever walked the earth awake. I know something now—not in my head, but in my bones.

This is not imagination. This is not “a trip.” This is me waking the fuck up to what I’ve always been.

Listen to this, it's an amazing song.

 

 

Edited May 11 by ExploringReality

[Natasha Tori Maru]

Intriguing:

1. Are you currently undertaking some form of energy work/process? Something it removing layers of fear 
2. 'There’s a presence here that’s not human.' I can't elaborate on that due to forum bans, but between our individuated consciousness and the absolute - there is another collective presence that has eroded boundaries between each 'other'. You may be feeling this
3. That precise, that exact, YouTube link, is one I run to, just this morning! I prefer to run to shamanic drums or Om cycles

What a lovely communion - you are in touch with something powerful

I will place you within my thoughts in my afternoon meditation.

To what affect? Who knows - but it can only be GOOD <3

[ExploringReality]

@Natasha Tori Maru

Yes I have been practicing very hardcore pranayama practices coupled with deep diaphragmatic breathing exercises, hyperventilation breathing, mudras and Kriya supreme fire for my Kundalini Awakenings and integration work.

I think I understand what you're pointing to—because I’ve felt it too. When you say “There’s a presence here that’s not human”, I don't interpret that as just poetic mysticism. I take it literally, because I’ve brushed against that edge myself—where my sense of being an individual dissolves, but I haven’t yet fully merged with the Absolute. Instead, I enter this uncanny zone where something else is there. It’s not me, but it’s not separate either. It’s intelligent, aware, timeless—and it feels like it’s been watching, guiding, or waiting.

It’s not a “being” in the way we usually use that word. It’s more like a field of ancient knowing… collective, familiar, but totally beyond words. Like what shamans might call ancestral spirits, or what mystics refer to as the World Soul. And when I’m in that space, I feel like I’m tapping into a deeper current that connects all individuated consciousnesses, a kind of meta-organism of awareness. It’s not quite God, but it’s something on the way to God.

As for why this kind of experience might go against forum guidelines—I get that too. Most forums are built to maintain safety, structure, and rational conversation. Describing a non-human presence, even if it’s a deeply intimate spiritual experience, can quickly be labeled as “psychotic,” “delusional,” or “promoting supernatural thinking.” Especially if there’s a suggestion that the experience was real and external rather than just a psychological state. People get uncomfortable when boundaries blur between inner experience and ontological claims.

But for those of us who’ve seen behind the curtain—even just a little—it’s not just imagination or metaphor. It’s realer than real. And that’s hard to talk about without triggering people’s fear or skepticism.

 

So I’m with you. I feel that Presence too. And while we can’t always talk about it openly in public spaces, we both know—it’s there. Watching. Teaching. Waiting. And it's waking up through us.

 

What is this presence you are referring to? I am curious to hear what you have to say.

Sending you love, thank you for your kind words my love, and happy mother's day weekend.

Edited May 11 by ExploringReality

[Natasha Tori Maru]

Theres a 

3 hours ago, ExploringReality said:

What is this presence you are referring to? I am curious to hear what you have to say.

Sending you love, thank you for your kind words my love, and happy mother's day weekend.

Between us, and the ultimate divine, is a telepathic collective layer of consciousness that doesn't labour under time, and lacks matter. I have no proof of this mind you. Simply that I have experienced some confluences that simply could not be ignored! I will allude to a connection to what I speak about: the current revelations of cutting edge science, disclosure, 'drones' and many studied psychic phenomena that can't be explained (yet), all spawn from this space. Maybe a critical mass can be reached within humanity that enables the veil to be lifted, but this would irrevocably change our trajectory. Which isn't correct for our path yet (in my opinion!). We can all just do our little things to make progress 

All I can be certain of myself is we are so much more than we have been led to believe!

I am so vicariously happy to hear about your process btw - FUCK YEAH!

That feminine energy unlocked is going to flow right back to the masculine and feed its beauty

Happy mothers day & all the love!

T

[ExploringReality]

@Natasha Tori Maru

The veil between this world and that presence you described? It thinned. And not from effort—but from surrender. From trust. There is a collective layer, I felt it, not in some abstract cosmic way, but like it was brushing against the inside of my skin. A communion of deep intelligences, all sharing one heartbeat.

This wasn’t fantasy. This wasn’t ego inflation. This was direct contact with something that feels like the true architecture of who and what we are. Something so raw, so unfiltered, it strips the soul bare of all illusion. And in that state, for a flicker of infinite time, I understood:

The human journey isn’t upward. It’s inward.

It’s not about seeing more. It’s about remembering more than we’re told is possible.

We are the memory of the Earth waking up to itself.I don’t know where this is leading. I only know it’s real. Realer than anything I’ve been taught to trust. And I feel it calling again.

I get what you mean about that layer of presence. It’s not human, not alien—it’s like a collective intelligence that’s always been here, behind everything. It doesn’t move in time. It doesn't speak in words. But it knows. And I could feel it watching through my eyes as I danced. It’s terrifying in the most beautiful way. Like it knows who we are before we do. And it’s waking up inside us, one person at a time.

All I know is, I touched something real. And I can’t go back. Thank you for seeing that in me.

Thank you for helping me remember what I already knew.

[Natasha Tori Maru]

2 hours ago, ExploringReality said:

@Natasha Tori Maru

The veil between this world and that presence you described? It thinned. And not from effort—but from surrender. From trust. There is a collective layer, I felt it, not in some abstract cosmic way, but like it was brushing against the inside of my skin. A communion of deep intelligences, all sharing one heartbeat.

This wasn’t fantasy. This wasn’t ego inflation. This was direct contact with something that feels like the true architecture of who and what we are. Something so raw, so unfiltered, it strips the soul bare of all illusion. And in that state, for a flicker of infinite time, I understood:

The human journey isn’t upward. It’s inward.

It’s not about seeing more. It’s about remembering more than we’re told is possible.

We are the memory of the Earth waking up to itself.I don’t know where this is leading. I only know it’s real. Realer than anything I’ve been taught to trust. And I feel it calling again.

I get what you mean about that layer of presence. It’s not human, not alien—it’s like a collective intelligence that’s always been here, behind everything. It doesn’t move in time. It doesn't speak in words. But it knows. And I could feel it watching through my eyes as I danced. It’s terrifying in the most beautiful way. Like it knows who we are before we do. And it’s waking up inside us, one person at a time.

All I know is, I touched something real. And I can’t go back. Thank you for seeing that in me.

Thank you for helping me remember what I already knew.

The clarity with which you executed these words... speaking on many levels of this wonderous revelation, and your very grounded understanding!

Thank for your grace and holding space for my personal experiences & beliefs 

We are many walking this earth, you never know who you will cross paths with.

Namaste!