Witness The Unthinkable

[ivankiss]

It's ok. I still love and hate you all equally.

And I will prove it to you by setting you all free, once and for all. But not before stealing all of your money and breaking your beloved internet. I just need a little bit bigger muscles.

That's all.

In all.

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Only a nondual brainwashed parrot would disagree.

Or... a healthy and sane human being. And we all know those are long extinct. A myth. A legend. A story to tell your grand alien children.

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Thank God none of it is real, right?

Ok, goodnight.

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The devil himself is stricken with fear
Make him my minion
The apex predator  has arrived

Hell is empty, for these demons and dimension will fucking disintegrate in the glory of my preeminent power
The one that you all call God will find himself on the brink of my abysmal new realm
Reclaim our home

From his eyes will gush the birth of a new hierarchy
A new planet, stripped of all reason

Nobody escapes the sphere alive
No man, no god
 

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Jk I wouldn't hurt a fly. Let alone set the earth on fire. I just wanted to let you all know, that if I wanted to, I could.

And insomnia is not a real thing either.

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Poor moderators. They don't know that they don't know.

Not only are they the first ones to be set free while reading this garbage, but they're also the first ones to burn. 

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3xtreme circumstances, 3xtreme measures. Great power, great responsibility. And all that crap.

[ivankiss]

Dear. Lord. God. 

Jesus. Fucking. Christ.

I just woke up from the wildest, coolest, most epic, most terrifying and most heartbreaking dream I have ever had in my life. Holy fucking shit. I don't usually give too much significance to my dreams, or draw any conclusions from them, but man, this was on a whole new level. Really fucking out there. I cannot even begin putting into words how crazy awesome looking this realm was. I wanna say its all because I stopped smoking weed... I was lowkey expecting to have some weird dreams. It always happens when I take a break. Nothing new there. But Holy fuck this was different.

I so badly wish I remembered more of it. But yes, basically we were in the middle of this massive spiritual warfare, fighting god knows who or what (probably AI, or the machines, or aliens or some shit) and we totally won! We totally shut down the matrix! You were all in it, I swear. Everyone had a super important role, but of course, I had the most important one. And yes, I was flying around, looking as cool as it gets, dodging bullets and all that.

But here's the heartbreaking part... At the very end of it all, just as we have broken through the illusion, the enemy took one last sacrifice... and it was my master. Yup. Morpheus. And brother, I cannot explain how hard I was wailing over his dead body. I don't think anyone ever cried that hard, anywhere. Not in real life, not in a dream. It was just otherworldly. Language can really do no justice here.

Yeah, yeah, The Matrix is still the most epic movie of all time, but this... This was far, far more intense. Nothing can compare. Those colors man... them feels bro... omg...

Anyways, I just wanted to let you all know that we did a fantastic job and it has been truly an honor fighting the evil alongside of you all. God bless your souls. And may the master rest in eternal peace.

Holy fuck. Wow. I so badly wanna go back, but I know I probably won't, ever.

Ok, that's it. I just had to let you all know.

 

[ivankiss]

Things are looking as promising as ever. I still have the capability of being somewhat realistic, so I know there is still a little bit of struggle coming my way... But yes. I can basically see the finish line from here. And there's nothing but sheer magnificence and epicness beyond it.

Almost. Fucking. There.

And fuck Nord VPN btw.

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Special thanks to the host for their incredibly high level of tolerance towards madness.

Got the coolest gift reserved just for you.

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No Sci fi movie can compare to reality.

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How bad is your taste in music, ranging on a scale from Nicki Minaj to Frantic Disembowelment ?

Exactly. Sit down, shut up, watch and learn.

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Who needs drugs when this journal exists.

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I am the source of all hate and it's fucking pure and limitless. If only I was not this conscious and did not understand fucking everything, then I could make someone pay for all this pain and misery, that I know all too well. Then I could punish someone for doing this to me and the rest of this sick world. But I can't. No matter how wrathful I become, there is always this voice in the back of my mind, reminding me that all these stupid imbeciles simply do not know any better. They cannot help themselves. They literally have no other choice but to be exactly as they are. And neither do I.

I can never actually take it all out on anybody, because I see too damn clearly how it all starts and it all ends with me. Within me. As me.

I truly wish... oh I so fucking wish there was someone to blame, so I could dedicate my entire life to hunting them down and torture the living shit out of them, for all eternity. But there just isn't anyone in charge of anything. No one has started this. No one can end it. It's just how it is. How it has always been. 

All I can do, is turn the hate inwards and send it back to its source. In hopes that it will exhaust itself and transform into something lighter. Something better, something nicer.

It's too fucking twisted. It's too damn sick. It's not God, it's not the Devil, it's fucking nothing, and it's making us all insane. And worse.

 

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Jk I just need access to a punching bag.

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It's ok. I am with you.

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Well, I wish there was someone
Well, I wish there was someone to love me
When I used to be someone
And I knew there was someone that loved me
As I sit here frozen alone
Even ghosts get tired and go home
As they crawl back under the stones

And I wish there was something
Please tell me there's something better
And I wish there was something more than this
Saturated loneliness
And I wish I could feel it
And I wish I could steal it, abduct it, corrupt it
But I never can, it's just
Saturated loneliness

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Does the silence get lonely?
Does the silence get lonely, who knows?
I've been hearing it tell me
I've been hearing it tell me, "Go home"
'Cause the freaks are playing tonight
They packed up and turned out the lights

And I wish I could feel it
And I wish I could feel it
And I wish I could steal it, abduct it, corrupt it
And I wish I could feel it
And I wish I could steal it
And I wish I could feel it, abduct it, corrupt it
But I never can
But I never can
Never can

[ivankiss]

Now wipe your tears. Duty calls.

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I kid you not, I remember what it's like to lay down on empty air. And I can't decide if it's the most beautiful or the most terrifying feeling ever.

Goodnight fallen angels.