Goal tracking

[NewKidOnTheBlock]

I was thinking today of this topic of having children. I've come to a conclussion that, unless you made a kid by an accident - which is of course very common - as long as we are asumming any level of conscious, "premeditated" (lol) intent of having children before an act - I would say it is a society's job to convince us to want to have children. So far, it isn't doing a very good job at it. So.

[NewKidOnTheBlock]

Imagine becomming a hacker under the disguise of penetration tester. That would some epic Palpatine moment for sure

[NewKidOnTheBlock]

Somewhere along the way - not sure since when exactly but I can pinpoint some specific moments in my memory which heavilly contributed - I've learned to associate positive attribute with lack of effort, investment, or nonchalantness. This shit is pretty common in our culture and it's like a default mode of literaly everyone. Look, I don't give a fuck, I'm putting in no effort and I'm still getting XYZ, I'm so fuckin cool. It pretty much defined the term coolness and spread like a cancer everywhere. A lot of the times, you can just look at someone and immediately see that this is a part of this person's software.

[NewKidOnTheBlock]

I've purchased chess.com yearly diamond membership, it's kind of a throwaway money but I don't give a shit, let's see how much I improve over the span of a year, why not. A side quest of sorts. Weird thing is, for some reason I'm playing these competitive, high level games with 2000 ELO bots and always barely lose them (while winning over lower rated bots almost all of the time), but I'm still stuck in 800 - 1000 ELO range while playing 10 minute pvp matches, and regurarly getting crushed. Makes me think how reliable these bots actually are, or how reliable is the chess.com's version of ELO measuring system, or both.