Finished the LP course

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I am functional but not really happy on adhd medication. I feel like I am constantly on the run. 

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Maybe I should run to places and that let it go when I am there..

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I am so tired. Am half done with one project. I am actually kind of motivated to do more but I think I need some rest. 

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Hmm Mango Soy Joghurt with Protein milk make for somewhat of a Lassi. 

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I loved myself at impro today because of the medication boost. (The good one, not the elvanse shit)

A friend of mine said that I was completly normal though. Idk about that .. maybe he says it because he feels threatened ... that would be my likely explanation but that would be the first time he would lie to me like that but that I am actually just normal also doesnt seem likely to me. Hrmpf..

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On 7.9.2026 at 3:25 AM, Jannes said:

In a district in germany a far right party has probably won and will govern that district which is historic as it didnt happen since 1945 I think. Fuck me.  

In the podcast that covered it the women had such a put on or maybe put on sad/ suffering voice. 

Yesterday I saw a few more angry looking men with short hair and in red joggers then usual. 

That event might have brough some of them into the sunlight. 

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I managed to nap with medication today. Not sure if I should be worried, that kind of indicates that their effect isnt as strong anymore. On the other hand a nap is nice. I can substitute a bit with coffeine the coming days if I need to. 

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I am letting my sides grow a little. I am getting more accustomed to more then my super thin 5mm sides. Maybe I cutting a transition again, havent done that in a long time, mostly because a straight cut takes way less time. 

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Big Task 1/3 done.. Wohoo !!

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I think my new Lassi recipe is becoming a staple. 

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Headspace music is top notch, I have got to say. 

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Took an hour or so off. Hmm I dont know what to do with free time lol. I will fall into a bit of a purposeless hole I feel like when I am done with this. 

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Ma date just wrote me yesterday that she is busy this week but more flexible afterwards. 

I think she wants my full attention when we spent a date together which is understandable, but I kind of want to get the date earlier so I can now earlier if its time to move on or not. I feel like I am not totally free atm. If I was I would maybe start something else. 

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Although I am busy with university stuff anyways, not that it makes a huge difference. 

I feel like on medication though I am more goal oriented in that regard ..  which isnt that bad .. 

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Not sure about what to do next with my current housework. I have got about 6-7 pages where I explain the history of how family evolved through specific events and how social work looked at it. 

Now I have to crank in how social work looks at families today. I have got current positions from modern studies at hand and prepared, so I want to put that in to safe time. I have also got a whole study analyzed of the experience gay families have in schools. 

Maybe like this, I use the book I got recommened to reflect the current positions of social workers of gay families and maybe correct or add to that the scientific consensus which I prepared. And then do the study for what reason .. ? 

Hmm I need a better plan. Maybe I can work out what I already do have and then built around that. But its so condense the scientific consensus, I feel ike its better to use it to proof something.  

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So my youtube blocker really puts me in a though spt right now. I was just googling how to do a chop block in table tennis and there are explanations but none of them really explain it well, I probably need a video for it. 

But I blocked all of that. And unblocking it just a few times fucks with my head. 99% is way harder then 100%. 

So what now?

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Found a new RV group. It is tacted in 25min working blocks with 5mins break in between. Its psychologically very relaxing, you just need to go sheep mode. I was very productive but men am I toasted right now, I hope I an keep my cognitive performance up for the coming days. Now I play a little well deserved table tennis.