Manuel's Journal - Spiritual Wok / Emotional Healing / Financial Freedom & more

[manuel bon]

i came back to NL, I was strong and motivated. I went to the gym and had a great session. The day after I got sick. I was so sick for a whole week, I had 39°C fever, now I'm okay, but I am not normal 100%.

This year I have been sick many times, I don't know what's up with my body, for sure it's psychological. I can't wait to feel normal again. 

When you are not okay physically, when some sickness really puts you on your knees, only then you can see how valuable real normal health is.

[manuel bon]

🟢 Meditation

I haven't meditated for some days now. I am feeling low, depressed, and pretty empty. I watched Leo's video titled How to fall in love with life. It's a great video, even though often it focuses too much on falling in love with consciousness, which is too deep and developed as a topic. At the beginning he says that it's important to have awakenings into the nature of reality to love consciousness, but I don't think this will really help my human life situation. But the rest of the video was really great, motivational, and inspiring. I want to live a fulfilled and meaningful life, I want to get better and be proactive!

[manuel bon]

I meditated for 20 minutes; my mind was very active, but still, I managed to simply observe it and my body, which was hurting at some moments. 

I also played 2 hours of guitar, I'm pretty satisfied, even though I recognize that my hands and forearms are not in the best shape today. But still, I'm pretty okay with how I studied. Maybe towards the end I was not so focused, but it's okay.

[manuel bon]

Today I did my first session with a new psychologist. She's actually my meditation guide, but I discovered she is also a therapist, so I decided to meet her. In the last 3 years I had like 4 psychologists, and finally today was the first time I really felt like it was a good and helpful session. I'm happy I started this new journey, also I want to journal more, better and actually let myself grow.

I just finished a 20 minutes meditation, and it was very relaxing. I did a body scan visualization, and after that I was counting my breathing. 

Today I was pretty physically tired, I didn't sleep much, so I drank some coffee. After this meditation, I actually feel lighter, with less physical tension, and better in general.

[manuel bon]

Today I meditated for 20 minutes, and it was not the most focused practice, but still, it was very relaxing, and I enjoyed it a lot.

I am happy lately. I am eating healthy and exercising, practicing properly, and I'm having good days.