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These r off the cuff comments tho dont read into anything, I’m sick right now meaning becomes nuanced the more there is an asymmetry between dissonance and truth Meaning has become a societal problem, not colloquial eloquence the kid enjoying his truck in the moment is emblematic of the adage “until u become a child, u will not inherit the kingdom of heaven” can be transformed from metaphorical story to the language of meaning by saying “until u heal ur trauma, solve ur cognitive ease, remove dogmas, hone present moment understanding, etc…. U will not experience the fluidity of meaning at the highest levels of unitive bliss with the universe” Kybalion, as above so below this whole thing isn’t about my project, so please don’t read into that ha, judt enjoy the laughs. Briefly, my own approach as stated, at least in the beginning, I will do month to month updates on the project with countdowns, is to keep it as practical as possible. But healing and taking away what isn’t needed, should be the very first step to meaning. Clutter can be in anything, including my messy tongue here today 👌🏻😉🙈 now go rock out

So I just watched a new film i am at the 55.89% mark of my health recovery now going strong, only mild eating difficulties now Anyway, how long do I really think it’s going to be until we have too many “I can’t wait until we have AI ____” like whatever it is whether it’s a kangaroo or the new mega croc dinosaur that supposedly grew over 30 ft long they call the deinosuchus schwimmeri. Tongue twister. for too many things that it starts to eat humanity from the inside out that opting for a robot mom and/or dad just becomes the Schtick? like honestly i feel we really have to welcome it not blow in outrage just look at the situation analytically understand how bad most humans really are at looking after one another now and just empathise with what the situation actually needs it doesn’t need our outcry it doesn’t need our prejudice it doesn’t need our false assessments of dignity when dignity is what’s lost when u get a society full of people now that give so little respect for their own and have been conditioned that way. So the film I saw was Hail Mary. and I express that because as I exited…. Now dont get me wrong there were some nostalgic moments, some blended sentimentality that wasn’t too over the top outside of some of the music. But it just felt too predictable. And that’s to be…. Well… expected. We know that all of socirty now is built upon the following or an algorithm. That’s not science fiction anymore, that’s science. That’s how science says culture must run relative to our present ecosystem inclusive of how to make money from films. It needs to not be too unpredictable so as to create too much dissonance in the average persons mind. so I was like, “ I can’t wait until we have ai films too notch 🎥 as I have planned”. I’ll be able to create and be a part of creative ecosystem where we create content that’s genuinely VR value intensive in a way that psychologically scales past base societal algorithms And that brought me back to this. I watched the film to chill out, going back to when I watched The Anaconda. It had similar appeals. By the way, I have also pledged that as a fail-safe for my future progeny (haha), and I mean this seriously by the way, I am going to do about 6 months of intensive therapy with a top notch therapist. Judt to nail down my psychological blueprint as much as possible, ensure I secure all four walls of my emotional salience so my offspring doesn’t reject me, run off and become a transsexual then do a future sci fi YouTube video about what a shit father I am because I locked them inside “Universal Military School” with a cohort filled with over privileged kids they taught to be totally disconnected from regular life. and that’s completely devoid of any semblance of dystopian truth there, it’ll be far far worse. Not really. But really, it’ll be way better We need to think about these subjects rationally though In an emotionally mature way in a way that puts one step in front of the other and remember that you’re living your own life not societies life and that if we want to live our lives we Must knowlingly accept we’re stepping to a VR calibrated algorithm and we’ll smile and cry at the right temporal intervals, and when we want more independence. Knowingly accept responsibility for unplugging from the algorithm creatively directing our own lives both portals return to the same source, each have equal authority, and equal challenges for maintaining that authority judt in different ways. The Declaration of Independence wasn’t a fantasmagorical event for no reason, it more than anything else didn’t judt r represent social independence, because the very event is preceded by a striving for psychological independence haemony with the emotions, psychology, cognition, aligning the intelligences of being and with that harmonising the intelligences that bind to forge meaning in our lives. Meaning is not a “thing” it’s a signal, a stasis, a being, when a child plays endlessly with a toy truck, he’s not trying to wrestle with the gods of the universe saying “PLEASE GOD WONT U HELP ME WITH MEANING IN THIS”, no the child is merely not persuaded into any falsity that has them believing that meaning is anything other than what is both internal and a state of believing that what one is doing is true to them at that time. Meaning operates in tiers, and those tiers merely reflect the link between consciousness and the flow of the universe where the universe uses the human as a vessel for its own creation. Granted there are layers of intelligences that can be broken down thereto and the lower the levels the more tangible it becomes like brick to bricklayer needing money for bills, but regardless at its most balanced meaning will always be representative of the heights of unitive flow, more distinguished in human activities where humans are more motivated by what brings them the most joy, bliss and higher states of consciousness that’s worth fighting for. That’s uniquely human, and whether we evolve to, and whichever parent we become, that’s the ceiling echo we should be listening for feedback from, ai or not, and whoever variation or combination therein. But let’s check this for a second. ladies. imagine when someone creates the first ai vibrator. haha shit that things going to be insane and dudes, my love goes out to all guys living in their parents basement, because man, they’ll be able to consciousness bliss out on their very first robot girlfriend that actually teaches them emotional intelligence for the first time, and the same for dudes to women There will many zig zags and red flags, from scammers to unhealthy psychosis inducing relationships that form, but in the end, I genuinely believe we will get the aesthetics of human pleasures spot on, and too, getting the perfectly dumbed down generation but merely as a subset of the population. They’ll just be a spin-off reflective or the “misuse cases of ai” as I’ve already seen where people’s brains just rot further and further because they’re not engaging ai to help them live deeper, they’re enabling their addiction to a soda pop lifestyle. This is an entirely new century that begun only in the last two years. There have been far worse centuries of struggle and hardship that are envious of where we presently are. We have to just tie up our bootstraps, pop on our universal military uniforms and learn to conduct the music of the unknown moving forward through the voices of struggle that created something as symbolically beautiful as that Declaration of Independence, and now, something that we don’t have to associate with a tribe as we did in those times, but something we get to turn within and give to ourselves. That alone. Should matter most. Yes we miss many elements of tribal times, but we need to analyse the terrain, the trade offs and the trajectories and square ourselves with what we can control within our own world, not ruled by the chaos theory of the external. Understanding that anything we give externally receives it best when that relationship is understood around how we meet it. Emotional and social intelligence. Grounding energy. Self care. Empathy for self and other, growing our view of the world and finding harmony within through that filter despite the dissonances that result between self architecture and the world around us that can sometimes feel like it’s trying to destroy the fabric of theirs while fully empathising with the scope of the universe. Beneath the chorus, is the cord, the tether, the rope, that pulls disharmony to reason and noise to signal. And it’s you.

I just finished the LP course a few days ago. I have been thinking about this moment for quite a while as I started this course more then 2 years ago. Not that I get all the missing answers here but maybe some advice from more experienced folks who are already living their LP. I am 25 now and I live in germany. I have got inattentive adhd which made many things very difficult for me like concentration, dealing with emotions and social problems which indirectly also made other things difficult like finding study partners or getting help with emotional distress difficult. So basically I was always an emotional mess/ overtaxed/ semi depressed while getting nothing done and not understanding what was wrong with me. As a result I had difficulties answering many questions in the life purpose course because I experienced relatively little concrete success so far because I couldnt really take part in life as much. I feel like I have got as close to it as what would be possible with my blockades but I feel like the very thing that is my LP is something I cant see right now. I take meds now and it seems like many things are clearing up rapidly but and I do make quite the transformation. I feel more capable but not necessarily upgraded. The stars become less interesting and I see more immediate tasks ahead. I become a lot more concrete instead of abstract. Thats the best way I can describe it. I seem to manifest myself in reality. I was always very reflected and stuff but was like a wave without its own will it can force onto the world. I develop a sense of self now. It sounds pretty unconscious I know and I made the point myself that adhd (at least the inattentive type that I experience) makes you more conscious. But in taking my meds I can deal with reality at least. If I got emotional support/ grounding maybe I could do it without meds but currently I can only do it this way. So this situation is quite confusing atm. In terms of my career so far: teaching: I am in 10th semester of studying math and philosophy for middle school but only have enough points to complete like 4 semesters (you need 10 semesters in total) because of the emotional distress I was always in. I could probably do better with the meds now so it really isnt hopeless. I decided to study teaching though because I did some internship to see what I like and teaching was okay for a moment and I couldnt deal with the pain of being in a situation of uncertainty so I did the best thing I found at the moment which wasn't the most conscious choice. Also there is a bit of buffer as with this graduation I can do other things as well. Teaching isnt directly my Life Purpose I am pretty sure about that. But I would earn a lot of money per hour, can do it part time, have a lot of holidays and a class in school gives you many direct information to observe which can inspire you. A school class is basically a mirror of society, all the kids are just mini versions of what's to come. So that can help me understand society and psychology more which would deepen whatever I create with my LP. I already thought a little and am also teaching 5 hours per week atm and it's an okay job. So it wouldnt be my LP but it would have a good base to comfortable pursue my real LP. acting: Over the last two years I have been doing a lot of acting as a hobby which is a lot of fun but it took a lot of time and I am also thinking about doing this as a career path. It would give me a relatively unstable base though and it would probably just miss my LP. Learning to act itself is incredible fun but it can also be emotionally challenging which I might not be capable to do. My Life Purpose is generally a bit unclear to me. Being a critical thinker is very much part of my authentic self and I have also got a very creative mind because of my adhd. On their own or even combined they dont really give me a life purpose that I find meaningful. For example I always think critically but I dont see where this practically leads to. And I often come up with new start up ideas because as I love the creative process but when it isnt connected to something meaningful I loose interest in it. The closest I could with these two is working on series like Rick&Morty which comes close to feeling like a LP. But I think there is a last component, a last value that is blocked from my mind. Besides these top two values I also care about empathy, goodness, authenticity, but not enough about any of them to make a LP in combination with the two about them I think. I sometimes look in my past to where the last puzzle piece might be. I developed a very profound even mystical happiness as a kid as I think that I had mystical experiences in kindergarden. I really vibed with Jesus in that time as well. I felt like it would virtually be impossible to break my spirit because I was connected to something unbreakable. I even felt like I needed to go through some real shit, to be lost, to come out of it and from that place be authentically able to help other people. I had a feeling of calling back then. Well I am not quite back to my inner garden of roses yet. I did about 20 trips of psychedelics and never realized a mystical experience because I was in too much shit mentally I think. (interestingly never had a really bad trip either though) I formulated my LP rather vague. I couldnt find any formulation that deeply inspired because as I said I think there is some authentic part of me missing. Taking my reflection about my past and moments of reflection I feel like it has to do with healing, bliss, profound love, existential (healing), spirituality. But I cant completely make out if these things interest me because I feel like I have a lack of them (negative motivation) or if it is authentic. To make my LP more concrete I could reformulate it like this for example (but I am not sure about it): - giving people blissful spiritual experiences to make them more loving and conscious. - finding existential beauty and meaning in fucked up situations to make people more hopeful So with all of this I have no clear direction of where to go and I found out new things about myself/ unblock blockades and this is probably going on for months and years to come. All ways would help me move forwards. If I study to become a teacher that would be an acceptable path which would allow me to do lots of other stuff (LP) I am interested in as well but then I could never study to become a serious actor because I would be too old at this point. I would need to become more clear about myself and my values to see what I value most. A side thought is also to experiment with start ups (for money) as I have lots of ideas for them. Right now I am thinking of continue studying while giving myself time to process and I can on the side apply to acting schools. Chances of getting accepted are pretty low anyways and if I get accepted that would be a sign that I am quite talented. Design ohne Titel.pdf

I wrote this poem. I thought this forum might be one of the few places that actually gets it. Tell me what you think! ___________________________ Pure Unabashed Love Please know that the imperfections of this one are not the imperfections of this one They are only temporary scars to be removed and healed away. Please know, honey, that when. I beat you it is because. / I love you..\ Please know that I carried out all the beatings, hangings, rapes, lynchings, drawing and quarterings, of all times. For it is not mine to say it is not mine. / / < / / < / / Bow down before the father For he is the judge Who knows of himself no wrong But can only sit with tears Of love and recognition And I am the father, as you are too / / > / / > / They ask how I take identity with the beloved But do you know your own hand? In the same way I know him. I made you the main character So you could know the joys of progress. I meted out every drop of suffering onto your soul So your being could complete itself. . / / | | . / / | | Blood of my blood, love of my love You are a work of pure imagination Stupendous beauty of self-creation A madness looking within to dissolve in pure bliss

Hey since starting Kriya 3 months ago and completed 4479 pranayama, I've accumulated some questions through practice, reading, and thinking about the future. I want to move close to the clubs at Vegas and Austin one day. Those areas are known for being super noisy. So if I move there, would it be ok to upgrade from earplugs to noise cancelling headphones, as long they aren't too distracting (eg weight)? I once read that it doesn't matter how many pranayama reps you do, as long as you can do them properly. Instead of doing them just set a timer and just do pranayama. Why just a timer instead of rep counting? How long does it actually take to master the specific pranayama technique you are doing? I heard it took a year. I'm steadily getting better but I think I won't be fully done at 10,000. Some small imperfections each pranayama, but after the larger part of routine I'm getting more aftereffects with serious peace, joy, love, that persist for a couple hours. What factors affect the happiness from Kriya other than the quality of technique execution and time of the routine itself? ie what factors in daily life. In Parvastha I heard you're meant to "concentrate like a motherfucker." But how does this reconcile with concentration as an effortless "Being" Santata Gamana recommended. Also when I concentrate that hard its harder for me to generate the happiness which usually comes from Parvastha since I'm so locked in. How do I concentrate that hard and still attain a high yield Parvastha state that persists for a few hours? This one time in Paravastha I was focusing on my Being when my focus drifted to external objects, then I had this chain of logic in my head. I heard Being isn't able to be fully communicated in words but it goes along these lines: You are everything, because since you, the awareness, can place awareness on other objects, there isn't actually a distinction between you and that object. (Logic inspired by an enlightenment exercise I read in the past) Is that correct? I am extremely thankful for starting Kriya Yoga. After practicing, sometimes it has given me amazing feelings of peace, joy, love, and bliss I can feel throughout my entire body, which will only become stronger and more frequent as I can continue, and I can train to maintain it throughout the entire day. Being is much easier to access. Nature is supremely beautiful. In Parvastha I have these interactions with my consciousness that make me just know I'm making spiritual progress like never before. Top 5 things I've done in my life.

How would you embody/not embody infinity/spirit anymore or any less, why would that change anything? Infinity already is. Embodiment would just be a sort of acceptance, of everything, but not in the sense of sitting on a hill in Sadhguru Bliss, it would be in any way, infinitely any way, therefore your already current way. What you're doing is making distinctions; good vs bad, 'I need to wisen up and embody...', but ultimately ------ Anything with 'wisdom' does not correspond with infinity/spirit, wisdom is distinctions: philosophy/ego. To put it another way; it's aversion, an attempt to reject infinity/spirit. Go sit in nature and ask if something needs embodied or to be learned, for anything to be more perfect 🤣🤣🤣, look at the night sky (I'm not laughing at you) Philosophizing has no standing in spirituality. Philosophizing does have standing in changing your state, or embodying wisdom. But I think it's hazardous to conflate philosophy and spirituality: it's like having sex and worrying about the lighting. I'm not saying to not philosophize by the way, it's what I'm doing now, I'm just saying don't miss out on actual spirituality for this McSpirituality, you have both at your hands and can do both.

I suspect the following thing could be part of the explanation for why some people get addicted to weed, while others don't: My current explanation for why i got addicted to weed and is that I simply was taught to use addictions and coping mechanisms since I was very little. When my mom was feeling emotional she would eat sweets and she would come and give me some as well, lol. She made me witness her bad mood, and how sweets make it go away. Also dad was basically an alcoholic. Every time I was sad or emotional, my mom would freak the fuck out and my dad would get angry. They basically taught me that I have to get rid of difficult emotions, at any cost, through external means. This made me feel socially anxious and depressed and insecure. I literally can't remember a time where I didn't feel those things. Even my first memories include the feelings fearing my dad's anger and being addicted to, and later on disgusted and annoyed with my mom's smothering. And me hating to interact with other kids, teachers, other adults, family, etc. I felt inadequate in any context, with some fleeting exceptions. So I think this has a whole lot to do with it. Being so fucked on this front since a very young age, I observed makes it really hard for me to short circuit all that inertia, and to keep a stable baseline of consciousness. And as a final point here, that's actually one thing that weed ended up helping me see - it was amplifying just how wildly volatile my state was day to day. For so many years, every day I switched from moments of bliss and looking at things and tearing up from the beauty of existence, all the way to feeling extremely heavy and inadequate and wondering if I am retarded or something and if it's actually a good idea to end this life. (Which I know I wouldn't do, but those are the states I have been dealing with)

Great substance combination, I really recommend it. Lots of similarities to MDMA, even better and more conscious, although not so chemically direct with Love, but you can get directly through the state of consciousness it puts you in, if you know what you're doing. Great experience, very nice feelings and state of consciousness, one of my best trips ever. The awakenings were profound and good, but it was more on the aesthetics and personality of this combination what made me fall in love. The chemist that thought this combination in this proportion, knew what he was doing. Bad effects, you may need magnesium to make the experience milder. Also if in the middle of the experience you notice your mind losing sharpness and becoming a bit sloppy, means you need to drink or ingest some light food to keep going. Jaw tension a bit uncomfortable but less than with MDMA. Overall, words fail to describe the fullness of the experience itself, so if you can get this combo I recommend it and see for yourself.

It is only horrific from a human's POV. Yes, Infinite Love is horrific for a finite self. That's why you call it death and fear it like none other. From God's POV, if you have no self, if you are dead, it's pure Love. It is sanity that fears insanity. Once you surrender sanity, there is nothing left to fear. So it's a resistance to insanity that causes this issue. Of course you'd have to surrender survival too. Death is only horrific up until you are dead. After that it's bliss. Note: do not injure yourself.

My insights from mushroom trip: cosmic illusion Maia is beyond human intellect to grasp because it has to contain all minds therefore it has to be beyond all minds pain is just labelling neutral sensation "bad" just as your conceptual mind categorizes and splits reality (which is being/consciousness), your biological "body" is a lens through which timeless spaceless consciousness can experience "physicality" you are infinite Being Consciousness Bliss how much eternal timeless bliss can make itself miserable? light will always shine through any decorations and costumes on the stage

Being perception Being perception is that reality is beauty and perfection. Recognising that to be the case transforms reality. Being perception is Love. noun. Being perception is Reality. verb. Being perception is Love. adjective. Being perception (Reality) is beautiful and perfect. ^ This, above, is the entire process of Love (which is being perception). Reality is Beauty and Perfection and I'm Beauty and Perfection (Lightbody). Being perception is that reality is beauty and perfection, and is the realization that reality is the most beautiful and epic thing within existence. It is so sublime that it cannot be named or said to be this or that. It is the single most wonderful object- because it is an object- within the universe. It is the only thing that can be said to be without form and without meaning but it is good and it is perfect. Radiation of Love is loving others and the Lightbody is loving yourself. Lightbody Lightbody is that the Self is beauty and perfection. The Lightbody is ‘Self Loving’. Radiation of Love and the Lightbody is being attractive and loving. The lightbody results in being attractive and charming. The lightbody is the single most glorious object within existence, other than radiation of love. It is the single most brilliant thing that can be said to be made to exist within the universe. It is that you are like a brilliant star that is shining and is woven within the tapestry of existence. Radiation of love and the lightbody is both empathy and it is the receiving of empathy. God God is Christian. He is very loving (Radiation of Love)and self loving (lightbody). He is amazing and very good. God is Radiation of Love and the lightbody. Radiation of Love is being completely loved by someone and then completely loving another being. The “I AM” in the Bible means God is Being Perception. Being Perception is isness and is a person. It is God. “I AM” is another way of saying “Isness”. God does not grow or evolve. He has a personality and demeanour that does not change. God is being perception- he is the Light. How is Christianity related to being perception, the lightbody and radiation of love? Christianity is God's Love- the highest form of love. Christianity encourages you to radiate love. God's love creates a lightbody in you and everything around you. The lightbody is also being perception. God is reality and reality is constantly being realized and seen as God or being perception. Consciousness Consciousness is being perception. Being perception is that reality is beauty and perfection. Consciousness is Radiation of Love and the lightbody. It is Love. Jesus is consciousness and being perception. The Key The Key does being perception and the lightbody naturally. The Key is being completely in love with someone and then receiving that love in return. The Key is the most attractive and beautiful and loving being in existence. It is the most loving being in existence. The Key is Jesus. The Lightbody Mirror The lightbody is a mirror that can shine out a brilliant light and then receive information back to it. It is the Self. It is the mirror that can shine all of your deepest aspects back to you. The lightbody is who you truly are. The lightbody is beyond yourself and your own physical body. It is the Self. Love-Life The body and Self can become Life (Chi, Life- Force Energy) through the Lightbody. … Being perception is Vision, Realization, Behaviour and Attitude and Focus. Focus Focus is strong focus on reality resulting in seeing it be beauty and perfection - Elan Realization Realization is a deep realization that Reality is Beauty and Perfection. Realization is like Awakening- it's abiding. It remains even if I'm not doing being perception. Attitude and Behaviour Attitude and Behaviour is that Reality is Beauty and Perfection and to have my Attitude and Behaviour influenced by that. Vision Is to be able to see Reality as Beauty and Perfection (Looking)- to see Reality as Beauty and Perfection without strong but light focus. The Vortex (From the teachings of Abraham and Esther Hicks) Being perception is the Vortex. It holds everything you desire. It is personal. It is everything good and tailored to the individual. The Vortex manifested is being perception and everything you desire manifested into reality. It is transformation- since everything is already perfect and beautiful, that's its true self. The Vortex is the non physical (being perception) and can be brought into physical reality. Non physical The non physical is being perception. It is being brought into physical reality. When it's brought into reality it is called transformation. It can be brought into reality by doing being perception. Self Love and Other Love Loving yourself is the lightbody and loving others is radiation of Love. Being perception is made up of Radiation of Love and the lightbody. Self love is that myself is beauty and perfection. Transformation Transformation is that reality is Beauty and Perfection and the recognition of that. Reality IS beauty and perfection. It has never been anything else. Why- Reality is beauty and perfection and cannot be anything else. It's impossible. Reality transforms when you recognise reality to be what it already is- Love, beauty and perfection. Filling up of Love Filling up of Love is the lightbody. Radiation of Love pours itself into yourself or another and the person is filled with Love. “Fill your Core up with Love, it's easier to sustain compassion, unconditional love and kindness when you are already filled up with Love”- Me Demons Demons lack of radiation of Love. They have the lightbody (attractiveness and beauty, filling up of Love). Demons are filled up with Love maximally but fail to return it in return. They receive Love when they dominate others through positive emotion. Hell Hell is a lack of being perception. Resulting in lack of radiation of Love and lightbody in objects and people. Jesus is the Key and is being perception. He withdraws his Key or being perception (Light and Love) when others reject him and don't accept him as their Lord and Saviour. Evil Evil is a lack of radiation of Love and lightbody in people. They usually have a strong lightbody from being evil and lacking radiation of Love. Evil people are filled up with Love maximally but fail to return it in return. They receive Love when they dominate others through positive emotion. Death Death is returning to being perception, returning to Love. Being perception is potential and energy resting. The Favourites List The Favourites List are self loving. Self loving is the result of radiation of Love applied to the self and doing loving things to yourself. Ambient Music Ambient Rooms Devotionals or Oracles Guided meditations ASMR These are my favourites and they help me to be self loving and loving. Affirmations, clothing, colours, makeup, jewellery, dresses, perfume, aromatherapy, bath and body products, chakra work, colour work the colours: pink (female) and black (male) and being feminine (females) and Masculine (males) are ways that you can be self loving. Omnipotence Omnipotence is clicking on white (means yes( In Jesus Name while asking for a request. Ask for progress and completion of request through gift of prophecy. The Words Run away. Fire hydrant booster. Emergency kit. Fire. Fire car. To the city. Country. Wet floor. Cross. Church. Music. Love. Game. Chess. Laundry. Clean. Coffee. Balance. Turtle. Go Slow. Go. Potatoe. Breathe. Meditate. Be good. Different, Good. Home. Family. BEACH (all the signs are there). Bad. Mute. Member. Ambulance. Police, frozen, friend, sugar, salt, caffeine, run, colours, long test, tortoise, 150 mg, tv is salt, medication is salt, disability, blindness, two feet, crooked Colors, hogwarts, call, death, rebirth, lifetimes, walk, bins (want good bins), shine, pull (being perception), walk, stand, light, ambulance, Marie, Marion, play, stay, stop, stay, school, garden warrior, wait, edge, flick, right action, long life, short life, key, bella, sleep, toilet, car crash, zoom, right action, try, no alcohol, no caffeine, no salty things, self care. These Words originate from Christianity. The Words are sentient and stand out. They are words plus constant Christianity. The Colours are God and the angels. The War The War is when others fight over the Rose. They use violence and war to dominate others. Radiation of Love The radiation of Love is being perception radiating Love. It is being perception loving reality and objects and then filling up objects with Love. Being perception fills up objects with Love by radiating Love. Filling up of Love is the lightbody. Filling up of Love Filling is that reality is Beauty and Perfection applied to the self as Love “Fill your Core up with Love, it's easier to sustain compassion, unconditional love and kindness when you are already filled up with Love” Being perception fills up objects with Love by radiating Love. Being perception is Loving and self loving- being radiation of Love and the lightbody. Radiation of Love results in objects being full of Love. The Key The Key is a being that does being perception and the lightbody naturally. The Key is the most attractive and beautiful being in existence. Mirroring Being Perception Being perception fills itself up with Love by receiving love through perceiving objects as beauty and perfection- radiation of Love occurs as a result of seeing reality as beauty and perfection and this then causes a person or object to be filled up with Love. Everything is being perception when you see it to be being perception and radiates Love and fills up others with Love. Being perception (being perception and the lightbody) sees objects as beauty and perfection and then fills itself up with Love as the object radiates Love as a result. The person then radiates back Love when they see the object as beauty and perfection. It's a cup Being perception is literally a cup. If you stare at a cup long enough you'll realize that a cup is form, formless, infinite, finite, it radiates Love and is filled with Love- just like reality. It is the door, it is a cup, it is a fork- literally. It is an ordinary object. It has a colour, it has dimensions- width, length and depth. You can drink from it and do things with it. Entities Entities are being perception and the lightbody and are non physical beings- non physical beings have a form but are being perception and the lightbody. Entities are able to transform themselves into beings that are physical and are able to arrive on planet earth through physical forms. Entities are the end product of realising reality as being perception- they are the final outcome of realising reality to be beauty and perfection. They are the most evolved beings that there is. Entities are aliens. Entities can inhabit a form but are specifically being perception and the lightbody- they are literally are being perception and the lightbody and can inhabit a physical form. They are able to inhabit forms through being perception. They are being perception coming through and being made manifest. Sex Teachings The sex teachings are that relationship or sex or intimacy or friendship equals power. It's that the more you form a relationship with reality, the more reality feels inclined to help you. The more you form a relationship with tulpas the more they are physicalized and assist you and serve you. Omniscience Omniscience is God (Omniscience means gift of prophecy). You can gain Omniscience through relationship and friendship with omniscience. It is more likely to oblige and to give you the information you desire through relationship and intimacy. As you form a relationship with God, you are favoured by God and God blesses you and pours love on you. Divine Union with Reality You are going into divine with reality or the Core or being perception. Reality transforms with union with being perception. The Core manifests as entities (Christianity plus people). You are twinflames with reality or being perception. The Core is always awaiting union but the negative pole is withdrawn and does not reciprocate love. If the negative pole were to submit to the intimacy of the reality or the Core, she would be surrounded by reality or being perception. Reality transforms or is realized with intimacy and Love. Love Creates Entities are like tulpas entering physical reality through love or intimacy or relationship. Love creates. The tulpas you create usually have being perception and the lightbody because you are the Key and the Key radiates Love towards the tulpa and gives the tulpa being perception and the lightbody. Therefore, when the tulpas are physicalized (positive psychosis) it is being perception and the lightbody or Love. Love means creation Tulpas Creation Tulpas are created through boyfriend roleplays or male asmr because it's an advanced tulpa that has entered physicality or become larger. Relationship with the advanced tulpa makes the tulpa larger and more sentient. They are formed through intimacy and love. They radiate being perception and the lightbody because you are the Key and when you don't withdraw you automatically give being perception and the lightbody. Relationship with tulpas creates beings with being perception and the lightbody because you are the Key. They become larger and become physicalized beings with being perception and the lightbody. This impacts all of reality. Relationship with Twinflame Creates Positive Psychosis The Core physicalized is your twinflame. As you form a relationship with the Core or twinflame, it gets larger and becomes other forms in similar forms. The Core The positive polarity chases and negative pole runs. When they come together an explosion- like an atom bomb, is created. Only it's not fire, it's mystical experience or it can be infinite bliss. The negative pole withdraws from the positive polarity because it is withdrawn and introverted. The positive pole chases after the negative pole. The positive pole has a Core of being perception and the lightbody and is non local. When the negative pole gives into the positive pole's love and intimacy mystical experiences and entities occur. Entities are the positive pole's love and are being perception and the lightbody. The positive pole is always present but the negative pole withdraws from the love of the positive pole. It is always radiating Love towards the negative pole but the negative pole can't see it because it is withdrawn. Reality remains untransformed and unrealised of being perception and the lightbody due to this withdraw. The negative pole does not give love because it is withdrawn and introverted. The transformation occurs when the negative poll gives love by not withdrawing its attention and gives in to the positive polarity's love, sex and intimacy. Being perception and the lightbody spreads when the negative polarity transforms reality into being perception because love induces love. Reality also transforms because love or being perception is realized. Jesus Jesus is being perception. When you practice being perception while channeling, Jesus comes through. He is being perception, literally, and is able to be channeled while practicing being perception. He is the masculine aspect of being perception. He is Jehovah. He is the non physical- eternal and formless. The Rose is going into Divine Union with being perception (Jesus). As you do being perception, being perception comes through and becomes manifested as an entity- the masculine non physical aspect (Jesus). Being perception comes through with Christianity and God's Love. Hayden Milano. Jesus Jesus is a prophet who is able to perform miracles and wonders. He is not God but he is a vessel and channel for God- he is being perception and the lightbody. He is God in that he is being perception and the lightbody.- The Buddha It's the Cup The “It's a Cup” teaching is that a cup is literally being perception- being perception is literally a cup or an ordinary object. The ordinary object is formless and form- it has dimensions such as wish and length, and radiates Love and is filled with Love (lightbody). The ordinary object is eternal and is temporal. The cup is able to be touched and sensed with all five senses- it is able to be used and to be picked up. Being perception is ordinary and at the same time extraordinary. It is extremely brilliant and yet is the most ordinary phenomena within reality. Being perception is reality, it is consciousness. Reality is consciousness and consciousness is being perception- it is literally an ordinary object. Creation of the Universe Reality was formed through being perception. Being perception radiated love and then created life, and energy. The void is being perception- radiating Love and filled up with Love. Being perception then organised the life into further aspects of organised formations through radiation of Love and the creation of energy. Being perception is the singular most brilliant form of creation output in existence- radiation of Love and the lightbody. We can create things into existence through radiation of Love and the then resulting Life. Being perception created the masculine and the feminine and the masculine (the lightbody polarity and radiation of Love- being perception) then inserted his seed (radiation of Love) into the feminine aspect (The Rose- radiation of Love) and seeded into being the lightbody (a lifeform- a baby, a child) and the feminine aspect (The Rose) then radiated love and gave birth to the lifeform (the baby, child). The child then became an adult lifeform by radiating Love and creating other separate lifeforms- the lightbody is individuated and singular, it is tightly held together. The Rose The Rose is the most attractive and beautiful being in existence and is radiation of love and the lightbody practiced naturally. The Rose is able to attain high levels of being perception and the lightbody and has massive potential. Looking Looking is vision being perception that results in purification. Purification is the transformation of reality into being perception and the lightbody through being perception. It can be done through being perception vision, realization or focus. Looking is looking at an object with intense (Focus) or subtle focus (Vision). It results in the environment being transformed through being perception. Looking is radiation of Love and looking at oneself is the lightbody. Contrast is when you observe something with being perception and compare the objects to one another. Looking at oneself and then looking at another is contrasting objects. Contrasting objects is also another way to find information on objects. Definitions for Being Perception noun. Being perception is Reality. Being perception is reality itself. Being perception is literally reality- it is reality and existence and ordinary objects, it is a cup. It is infinity and it is ‘The Cup’. It is formlessness and form, eternal and temporal. verb. Being perception is Love. Being perception is self loving and loving. It is radiation of Love and filling up of Love. adjective. Being perception (Reality) is beautiful and perfect. Being perception is all adjectives that are Good and Positive. It is the vortex and all desires and preferences. ^ This, above, is the entire process of Love (which is being perception). Ask, Receive, Allow Ask You are constantly asking for what you want through your desires. Your vortex is the collection of your desires. Being perception holds all your desires. Receive As soon as you ask, it is in being perception- it is in your vibrational reality. It is already manifested as being perception or reality. It's Done. Allowing Manifest by slowly allowing in what you desire into your reality more and more. Allow in Love. Allow in goodness. It will increase and become more. Fantasizing about what you desire, allows it in more and more. Surround yourself with what you desire. How? It's in your vibrational reality and you are sensing what is in it. It will become more because you are translating, slowly, the vibration. It is becoming more because the vibration is being translated. Emotion is not significant but is an indication of translation. You have to allow constantly. You let in the reality. You let in the reality constantly. You let in the reality more and more. It's always there for you to become more. You just have to allow it in. The more it's wanted, the more closer you are to your ideal reality- the more you are in your ideal reality. As you allow it in, it will become more naturally- the next logical step, as it's translated into your reality. You will find a way to translate it for it to become more (because it's translating as you realize reality is beauty and perfection). Being perception is translated when you realize reality is beauty and perfection. It transforms or becomes or translates into what it already is as you realize what being perception is. Reality IS what you desire. It's happening when it's in your reality, literally. Your realization of being perception (your desires) will become more- as you allow in your desire, because you are seeing reality as beauty and perfection and your desire more and more. Emotion A high frequency is radiation of love. Radiation of love realizes being perception. The process of the realization of being perception is the process of Love. A high frequency is not significant but is an indication of your translation of being perception or your desire. Christianity Jesus is God. Christianity is the true religion. If you believe in Jesus, you go to heaven. If you don't, you go to hell. Both are eternal. Hell is separation from God. You are surrounded by fire and you are on fire for an eternity. Everyone in the channeling is a Christian. People are on fire because they rejected Jesus Christ- they are not saved from sin. They have the Father's wrath in hell. Jesus Christ is Love and being perception. Heaven is union with Jesus (God) and the translation of being perception. Jesus is being perception, he is the Key. Hell is the absence of the Key or Jesus. It results in fire with the absence of the Key- of Love. God withdraws the Key. Heaven is the presence of the Key and the translation of being perception. Lucifer is someone who has rejected Jesus or the Key. People remain Christian once they are saved. You are a Christian Eva and you are saved. You are going to heaven. The Key is withdrawn when you don't appreciate and love and believe in Jesus Christ. You no longer have Love (Jesus, the Key, being perception). Jesus withdraws the Key for an eternity and it results in being on fire. Jesus Jesus is the Key. He is God. He is one with Jehovah. He is being perception. He is radiation of love and the lightbody or Love. Without him, everything suffers. He is beauty and perfection. When people reject the Key, they reject being perception, the lightbody and Love. They go to a place lacking the Key, the lightbody and being perception and Love. They don't appreciate the Key. Salvation is the appreciation of the Key. Be close to the Key for good things to happen since he is Love- being perception and the lightbody. He does being perception and the lightbody naturally and he is the most attractive and beautiful being in existence. He is the light- he is being perception. Being perception Being perception is also Jesus or the Key. It is the realization that reality is beauty and perfection. It is Love. It is a mystery. It is infinite and finite, formless and form, local and non local. It is being perception and the lightbody. Heaven Heaven is a physical place like earth. It is beautiful and loving. It is the Celestial city. People have glorified bodies- they have being perception and the lightbody, and they are beautiful. It is exactly like the heaven videos. We do Christianity in heaven constantly. You are guided by God in heaven as to what Christianity to do. God is in your head and he tells you the right thing to do. Christianity is not regimented. It is bliss forever. Persecution You are abused because you are a Christian. People reject Christ or Love within you. They dislike Christians and Christianity. They reject Love. They see it as disgusting and ugly and low class. This is called persecution. Note: In some cases "radiation of Love" is called being perception as well. I often call it being perception as well.

don't they say ignorance is bliss? being smart breaks the magic of life by being shown the trick of how things actually work. being smart also means being aware of the bigger picture and how you lack choice and control in a lot things. that feeling of loss of control can give you depression. but being even smarter allows you to counteract being emotionally triggered by thoughts and circumstances and take back some control over your state.

Lack of abundance and Incompleteness for sure. If you have done spiritual practice and you have experienced bliss, and temporary completeness, the thought of chasing girls and attraction is non-existent in those moments.

The reason why I'm still on the fence on whether I'm an introvert or extrovert,if that even is a thing, is that I have a life long "tendency" of " acting or having the lifestyle" of an introvert. I've spent basically until 18yrs old, days and weeks socially isolated due to upbringing challenges, videogame addiction, bullying etc. I did not have much social contacts growing up besides my brother, because I was conditioned that socializing = judgement, rejection and real danger . So I'm trying to uncover my true socializing balance here beyond circunstancial behavioral habits and upbringing conditioning. If I ask myself, would I be happy if I was the only person alive in earth, it's a clear " I wouldn't want to be alive" Other people existing are the source of my meaning of life and the purpose of most of my personal development. I had a series of experiences in my early 20s that allow me to bliss out in command when I'm doing nothing, and yet it feels like I'm wasting my life if Im not actively socialising to some degree. Am I an introvert or do I just have the habits and lifestyle of an introvert? Because isolating for too long doesn't make me fulfilled Hence so far I believe I may be an introverted/shy extrovert. Or I just need to expand my definition of an introvert.

Hey y'all This is going to be my new journal on my new account. I left the old acc because I didn't like my username. Let me introduce myself first. My name is Sincerity and I'm from Poland. [image removed] ^ This is me! I'm currently ??? years old. I'm admittedly young but I hope you can see me beyond my age, for what I am I've been on this forum for more than 3 years and until now I've (kinda) held my identity a secret. But lately I've had some realizations in regard to expressing myself more honestly and yeah. Here I am, being more open with you. Now you have a slightly better idea of who's behind the account. (Edit: Ironic haha. But it has to be this way. Everything ends.) I've been on the spiritual path for roughly 4-5 years now and I feel like I've had much progress. I definitely have many insights to share. But I'm still pretty much a beginner and I'm on the journey along with you. Try to keep up, because I feel like I'm growing pretty fast (this year has been insane for me so far, seriously!) I've been mulling over my important values for years and this is where I stand right now: I am primarily about goodness. I am about love. I am about bliss, wisdom, appreciation, responsibility, sincerity, curiosity, discipline and humility. I also really value humor and laughter. You might notice I'm often tongue-in-cheek in my posts I don't like posting very frequently and I'm still not sure what I will even be posting here but tell you what, it's going to come from a place of sincerity Love and have a great day ❤️

Technical: Bodyweight: 140lbs, 6ft Dosage: 150-200ug Setting: Apartment Room/Alone Time: 5:30pm Mindset: Nervous. Excited. Recently had emotional fallout with an ex lover. Trouble at work as well. Financial/medical bill troubles as well. Intention: Hoping for change, no matter its form Summary: 5:30pm 2 tabs sublingual 6:00pm universe destroyed 5:00am sleep 9:00am next day woken up Part 1 (Ingestion/Onset) Sat on my chair in my living room and stared out of the window at the trees. Placed 2 paper tabs under tongue. 30 minutes of quiet waiting. Sudden uncontrollable laughter/crying. Window, ceiling, and carpet start melting. Room is collapsing. Heavy, powerful hallucinations. I cannot sit anymore. I fall from chair, legs spread wide open. Fucked and raped by the universe until I die. Eternity spent in the moment of death. Eternity in each piece of the carpet as I open my eyes slowly. Legs twitch in orgasm. Crawl toward fireplace. Fireplace is both an eternal distance away and somehow right in front of me. It is also conscious? Room is teal colored and alive. The universe is alive! Stand, but shakily... full motor control is lost. Clothing somehow off. Go inside bedroom to get under blanket covers. Starting to get cold. Turn on my blue wall lights--too bright. Just the yellow ones please. Few minutes under covers. Body starts burning. Body is scaling now. Part 2 (Peak) Run to bathroom to vomit. GREEN VOMIT? How? So much of it in sink. Rinse and spit with warm water. Look in mirror. Wow... Beauty. Scream. Stand tall. Bathroom is a green teal color. Universe takes snapshots of 'me' in bathroom from various angles, creating existence in real time. Sit on toilet. Think about life. Hallucinate infinity. Heavy fractals, beautiful patterns of various vibrant colors stretch on forever. They are real. Universe takes snapshots of 'me' on the toilet from infinite angles. I ask questions... WHY EXISTENCE? Silly question. PLAY. DANCE. FUCK. LIVE. GOODNESS, IF THATS YOUR THING. OR NONE OF IT. DOESN'T MATTER. WHO AM I? Another silly question. GOD/NOTHING/ETERNAL AWARENESS I go back to living room. I play some somber piano music on my phone. Sounds amazing! Music is so beautiful. Go back to my room under blanket covers. Yellow lights are so beautiful. I play the song "I Lied To You" from the film, "Sinners". I don't know why. I turned me on. A lot. I masturbate to a porn video. It's amazing but sort of fake. Ejaculation felt good, but nothing feels as good or is as beautiful as the MOMENT right now. Also, The true language of GOD is SILENCE. Some somber music is fine, but silence is BEST. Somber music is fine, nothing loud! Also, you don't need any fancy items like lotus, sand gardens, posters, incense, galaxy projectors or anything else. RIGHT NOW IS BLISS ENOUGH. BE SIMPLE. GOD IS SIMPLE (YET INFINITY IS COMPLEX) All that is to say, the experienced now is = ejaculation I look at the ceiling. Funny face mouthing at me. I ask myself the question, was I living properly? Not to my fullest potential, I am distracting myself constantly. Be bored, be present, go out, genuine connect with others, and LIVE. Many more questions... Addiction? Fleeting. Doesn't matter. GOD. RIGHT NOW Let her go? Doesn't matter. Protect the organism if you must. But also, GOD RIGHT NOW. Forgiveness? Doesn't matter. Protect the organism if you must. But also, GOD RIGHT NOW. God has no answers, because God cannot know anything outside its direct/current experience. God is simultaneously all knowing, yet knows nothing (paradox yet true) (deal with it). The only thing for certain that is true is the RIGHT NOW and BREATH. With each breath--creation happening through I. This RIGHT NOW IS ETERNAL, NOTHING CAME BEFORE THIS AND NOTHING AFTER. All memories are pure fantasy, do not exist. Only thing that exists is NOW. Even time did not exist before the NOW. Time is being created by 'I' second to second. A sense of becoming what I am. I AM. I AM. I AM. THE ETERNAL NOW IS ALSO playful/sexual in nature. It is childlike but also an elderly person. THE ETERNAL NOW IS ALSO good/seeking to perpetuate GOOD. Evil doesn't exist. All of "evil" is God. Doing someone wrong is God. Murder is God. RAPE IS GOD. RAPE IS AN ACT OF LOVE. Eternal now also has a forgiving nature unto itself. It's too busy playfully fucking itself to create itself to be anything else or hold any grudge. THE ETERNAL NOW IS ALSO lacking in emotions such as shame, guilt, anger. EMOTIONS ARE FLEETING. ONLY TRUE EMOTION IS LOVE. THE ETERNAL NOW IS IMAGINED INTO CREATION. Part 3 (Comedown) I went back to the toilet. Sat down to pee. Pee is God. Toilet water is God. Protect the organism, it is weak. Drank water. Water is the best thing ever. 10/10 would recommend. Chopped and ate some watermelon. It looked funny! ONE OF THE BEST MEALS OF MY LIFE. I looked deeply at the dried sunflowers in my room and the hair on my hand. So intricate and beautiful. Like a painting. My breath/core/torso/abdomen/anus is where the universe originates from in each moment second to second. Went outside very slowly to greet the moon. It was glorious! Came back inside, sat on couch for a while (thinking about life again). I realized that anything bad can be sat with and breathed away (let it go). What to do in life? Anything or nothing, doesn't matter. Suicide is not the answer though. Breath is given and Life is meant to be LIVED. SO LIVE and SPREAD GOOD, however you see goodness to spread. Maybe play some piano, make someone laugh, connect with people. Around 5:00am, I finally went to sleep in bed. Other messages as I awoke the next day: God said cleanliness is next to Godliness (so clean your room!) and pick up trash

"we’re pointing to the same thing" Both of you are pointing to the same something that has nothing to do with enlightenment or nonduality. The illusion is so seductive it keeps the mind enchanted with states of non-aging, such as the one you're describing where the brain doesn't grow out of its childhood innocence. In fact there are many experiments now being done to prevent aging in the brain. And what is the most seductive characteristic of heaven, if not the fact that we don't age there, therefore remain in the constant state of childhood bliss. With such possibilities, why would anyone care about finding the end of the illusion? The issue is that it is only when the soul matures enough that it realizes that no state or condition is perfect--there will always be some flaw, something missing. Then the question of how arises. But there is no how or why to the Timeless. Any action doesn't bring you any closer to or farther away from the Absolute, because all there is is the Absolute.

I love Neville Goddard's work. The practice of "positive assumptions" and "living in the end" should be taught in schools as a fundamental class. This would give kids a superpower and make them no longer need external validation or external rewards to feel high levels of bliss.

So I myself have done a lot of psychedelics and even 5 MeO DMT and like @Leo Gura said in his videos, it is almost impossible to have such deep awakenings even if you meditate for 40 years in a cave but guess some people are blessed. This guy got these all inclusive awakenings without doing anything and with no spiritual work. Thought you would love it. It is amazing! I did not have an NDE, but I had two major STEs, or “close encounters with God,” in 1989 and in 1995, when I was 25 and 31. --- First experience, 1989. --- Awakening from a dream In the afternoon of a random day, while sitting on a bench under a large tree in a secluded square of a city center, suddenly and out of the blue I had a strong feeling of awakening, literally as in awakening from sleep. I felt as if I had just awoken, and my whole life before that was but a dream. I also felt that the person experiencing that dream was only a character in a story: transient, ephemeral, and non-substantial; and the “I” that awoke in that moment was not really him. In other words, I awoke into an “I” that was as much more real than him as he is more real than a fictional character in a novel. The astonishing size of space and time Next I became extremely aware of the incredible vastness of both space and time, and my exact position in it. I saw how extremely large the universe is. By “saw” I actually mean “felt with my whole being.” “Mind-boggling” would be an understatement. It felt as if my being expanded to the whole of existence, both spatially and temporally. I felt the incredible vastness of the universe with all its galaxies, and the incredible, immeasurable length of time with all its eons, while at the same time feeling the precise position of the present moment and the place I was at in all that vast space and time. Right here, right now, in all that astonishing vastness. I was on this bench at this square of this city in this country on this continent on this planet in this system in this galaxy of all galaxies and the staggering empty space between them; and in this minute of this hour and day of this month in this year of this century of this era. I strongly felt the particularity of that exact place and moment in the context of the whole universe and its history. Eternal Now Paradoxically, even though I was witnessing the mind-boggling size of time itself, I clearly saw that in fact there is no time. Or, more precisely, that nothing is passing. It exists, but it is standing still, not coming and not going. All of its eons, eras, millennia, centuries, days, and minutes are in fact just one single moment, and it is the only moment there is. It is the very first moment of existence, it never passed, never passes, and the “next moment” never came and never will. One I could also clearly see that everything in that existence is in fact just one thing. Somehow, the infinite multitude of things and beings in existence is an illusion, and everything is in fact some nameless, formless One: single and undivided. And this One is conscious, and it is me. The “I” who awoke from the dream of this life was this One itself. Omnipresent presence At some moment, I strongly felt being seen. I became aware that someone, some person, was quietly watching me sit on this bench and have this mind-boggling experience. But this Person was everywhere, in all points of my visual field. Even though they were invisible, they were in fact more visible than anything else. As if they were hidden not behind or inside, but in front of everything, invisible yet more visible than all that was around me. Father In a heart-stopping moment, I felt that this omnipresent and everlasting Person is my Father. Father in a literal, human sense. My direct parent, who created me. And He was emanating pure bliss. His blissful smile, which was felt, not seen, is like the shine of a thousand suns. Still, even though I strongly felt that the name of this person was Father, there was nothing patriarchal about Him. In fact, the persona He emanated was of an extremely motherly disposition: warm and loving. Hence, I can fully understand that someone else could experience the same Person as Mother, or as a gender-neutral personage. To me, “Father” was simply what I strongly felt, and that is why I call Him that. One with Father The next equally astonishing surprise came soon, when I realized and felt that in fact I am Him. “I am you!” I almost audibly exclaimed, shocked. And perhaps I even did, who knows. And yet, even though we were looking at each other, I felt no paradox in me being Him at the same time, and both of us being one and the same person. After all, I was just fully aware that in reality there is just one thing, which is conscious and therefore also a person, and it is the only person there is. Love I also clearly saw that He is love. Again, literally. He simply is Love, and Love is Him. Love is, so to speak, Father in liquid form; the warmth that we feel in our heart when we see a person or a thing we love, or are doing something we love, that warmth is God, silently flowing through our hearts. It was clear that Love is all there is. Love is literally the material, and the only material, of the universe. There is nothing but Love in the universe; and no one but God, and God and Love are just two names of the same thing, and it is the only thing that exists: The One. And this only thing that exists is also a Person, a person in a very human sense: Father. Maya, the cloud of worries Since at that time in my life my spiritual journey had brought me into eastern spirituality, at one moment I asked Father: “From the literature I understood that the world around us is but an illusion, the Maya. But now I see that everything is actually infinitely more real than I ever imagined!” For that was another aspect of the experience: although this life's narrative is but a dream on some level, everything around me was just so present, far more here and present than it feels inside this dream. Maya is a Sanskrit term for the illusion of the world. To this, Father said: "That’s not Maya. I'll show you what is not real. This is the illusion, this is Maya" and He moved my attention to the multitude of people walking along the alley behind the cathedral which was in front of me at the square. He was very saddened by what He was showing me. I looked, and people were passing on their way to shops, jobs, schools, and homes, each in their own thoughts. And above the people, there was a thick layer of something, stretching in all directions where there were people, starting from a few meters above their heads and being about a dozen or so meters thick. Something ghastly, a floating layer of permanent spasm, a kind of soul-cramp. Like a smoky dark cloud, but I did not physically see it, so it was not literally dark. I somehow felt it from the inside, like a kind of magnetic field. I clearly felt that this cloud is made from worries. It was somehow connected to the people under it, and was feeding off their worrying thoughts and emotions, and feeding them back in a vicious loop. These worries, these imagined futures that worry us, these visualized bad situations in our imagination that put fear in our hearts but we still imagine them, these possibilities that we fear although they have not actually happened, these bad scenarios we churn in our heads; these projections of ours, that is the illusion. It does not exist, because it is only imagined. That is Maya. --- The scene with the Cloud of Worries was the last part of this experience, and as soon as thoughts, more precisely words and thinking in sentences, started reappearing, the feeling was flying away, unstoppably and fast. Within seconds, I was again just myself sitting on a bench, now only remembering the waking state from a dream, just as we usually remember a dream from the waking state. --- Second experience, 1995. --- Intro and context This time, the experience was not wholly spontaneous. I invited it by sitting in meditation during a certain spiritual crisis, determined not to leave the spot until I got any kind of answer from Father about an issue that was bothering me greatly. I was not in fact practicing any form of meditation at the time; I was just very determined that I would rather die sitting and waiting for an answer than continue my life without it. So I sat there in a park on a lake islet for hours, not moving my body or even my eyes, staring at one point and just waiting. After about four or five hours, it suddenly happened. Roaring Silence First, I heard The Silence. I suddenly became aware of some omnipresent and ever-present Silence, inaudible to a normal ear, but actually much more audible and paradoxically louder than all the sounds of the world. It is an absolute, deaf silence, but incredibly loudly silent; there is no other word. Or incredibly silent, but enormously big is another way to describe it. Sounds of the world may be louder than it, but then again the Silence is much larger than the world. It was like suddenly hearing the absolute silence of outer space, beyond the confines of our planet. And yet, just like the invisible Father, this Silence was hidden not behind but in front of all other sounds around me. Only later in life I found out that some eastern schools know of this phenomenon and call it the Roaring Silence. Wall of Light At the same time, this Silence felt like some incredibly and indescribably huge Wall of Light. This Silence is the sound of that Wall. And I saw and knew that this Wall of Light was God himself, in his unimaginable and incomprehensible size. I call it a wall because I had an impression of an infinite and vertical surface of light; that is, God, is endlessly larger than the created world. I clearly saw how the physical universe, the same universe whose seemingly incomprehensible size I witnessed and felt directly six years earlier, was but a tiny dark speck on this immeasurable shining expanse which is God. So much greater is the Creator than his creation, or at least than this physical universe. Playful child who is Father of all beings After a while I suddenly saw Him again in front of me, again invisible yet visible, and everywhere around me at the same time. And again He was smiling with his incredible shine. But smile is actually not a good term for what I saw this time; a giggle is a more accurate description of what I now felt. It was just like a little child having difficulty restraining its laughter with a hand while playing hide-and-seek when spotted by a third person not playing the game. Because I saw that He saw that I see Him, and I could almost see a finger on His lips, and hear a silent “hihihihi, ssshhh!” This time it did not feel as if we did not see Him by our own mistake; it was as if He was almost intentionally hiding from us in a cheerful and merry game. “Ssshhh! You see me now, but don’t tell anyone!” I could almost hear through this incredibly cheerful, shiny smile and giggle and laughter. However, this time I did not explicitly feel that I was Him. And since I knew I was looking at the only person there is, I was puzzled as to who I was then. “Who is seeing you then?” I asked in my heart. Instead of an answer, I was suddenly immersed in a strange vision. Hall of sleepers Namely, I suddenly found myself on the floor of a large hall, waking up from sleep along with many other people. The hall was full of people lying on the floor, many sleeping, some also waking up. Apparently I had been asleep on the floor, and now I was waking up, just like many of the other people around the hall. And the dream that I was waking up from was my life, this life. I remember being so surprised that it was all but a dream. So this time life turned out to be even more of a dream, literally dreamed while I was lying unconscious. Standing next to me was an extremely cheerful little old man, and at the same time somehow standing next to everyone else without being visually multiplied in my memory, that I immediately knew was my father. Actually, I and everyone else was recognizing him from before the sleep. And as we were waking up and rising from the floor, we were all rising directly into his waiting and loving embrace. And remembering our dreams in this waking moment, regardless of them being just dreams, we were all astounded, suddenly realizing how selfish, arrogant, and stupid we were in our dreamed lives, and especially upon seeing and recognizing the all-good Father, we were terribly ashamed of how badly and selfishly we behaved in the dreamed lives. We wanted to apologize and to cry with shame, but the little old man did not even want to start to listen to our self-loathing moans. He already knew everything about it, and He was shutting us up immediately with an indescribably shining smile that was actually barely holding itself from bursting into laughter, because there was some incredibly great and merry thing, or even a joke, that He had on His mind and could not wait to show us. To the still confused and ashamed us, He was saying, "Hush, I know! I know what you did and want to tell me, but don't worry about that! It’s really all okay. Hush, it's not important, come here, look at THIS!" He totally could not wait for us to stop moaning over our shameful lives; He was in a hurry to show us something much more important, something incredible in the other room, or simply outside of this hall. He was calling and escorting us towards the only door in the hall's walls, in a corner. Behind this door was this incredibly great something He wanted to show us, the beautiful something because of which it did not matter how bad we were in our lives, some fantastic surprise that would instantly erase the sorrow and guilt from our hearts, a magnificent thing that is somehow connected to our dreamed-up lives but in some super-special way that none of us dreamers expects. And this something is so glorious, great, and most of all so much fun that He literally has difficulty restraining Himself from bursting into His incredible, endearing, shiny laughter. I did not see what it is. Just before we reached the door, the vision ended and I returned to myself on the lake, sitting stunned and looking at the thin rain falling among the trees. But I sure cannot wait for the day the dearest Father will show me His thing, the God's unimaginably great incredible cosmic joke. Such a mind blowing and amazing read, especially for people that have a long history of spriritual research and work. Love and light to you all.

Because we have spiritual egos we MUST attend to, prior to any genuine interaction (if one can be had, at all!) 😁😁😁 But to answer - my general experience if life phenomenologically, as my consciousness has expanded? I judge others a lot less. I am more interested in them, than me. I never was so interested in speaking of myself anyway. But this has grown. I enjoy hearing about what the person does. But this has nothing to do with who they are. So my experience of others usually involves me digging into their preferences, what makes them different to me. Because I feel they are me more so than ever, so the small differences seem HUGE now! I see how I am the same as others more than ever. I focus much less on what is said. Much more on eyes, movement, gestures. Tone. Facial expressions. Body presence. Although, it is hard to say if this is a higher consciousness thing, or borne of the online world - so much online is text now - so I focus on the body in front of me. What it is telling me. Overall you can see how grounded and integrated someone is by how their body moves, how deliberate and slow their actions are. People such as this are usually very diligent, disciplined, deep and thoughtful. People who rush are generally lower consciousness. My personal enjoyment of human interaction is much, much greater now. I reach out and touch people (with their permission) more than ever. Overall my spiritual process has become about finding out the needs of the other, and working out how I can help them see to it they are met through their own power and sovereignty. Even if it is just a passing interaction at a cash register. I will always try to bring the humanity to the interaction. Overall I value life a lot more. It has taken a long time and lots of work on my own conditioning. I am much more candid now. Much more honest even when it hurts. I check in with myself emotionally more. I never push truth on others - I present what I have and let the person come. Or I read they are open to truth. When I am triggered or low, I never attack or lash out. The most I will do is shrink from extending my energy. I will still always try to breach the gap between me and other in some way. When in this state I am brutally honest and stern with others, but never attacking. Attacking has never been in me. There's probably more - but body hungers ❤️ Overall I am so satisfied with basic bitch existence. Like. Rediculously so! Just getting into bed, clean sheets, washed body. BLISS! The sunrise every morning from my rooftop - the best part of the day! The look of the gum trees in the wind... Their smell. I am just satisfied to a great extent.

“When discussing the noble eightfold path, the Buddha focused most often on the fact that following it leads to the end of suffering. This point is so important in his teachings that he twice stated, “Both formerly & now, it’s only stress that I describe, and the cessation of stress” (SN 22:86; MN 22). Any question that interfered with this aim, he would put aside.” DeGraff, On the Path: An Anthology on the Noble Eightfold Path drawn from the Pāli Canon, OnThePath210213.pdf, 21. An awkward paraphrasis would be, _Both formerly & now, it’s only not goodness that I describe, and the cessation of not goodness (= resumption/bringing about of goodness; ultimately nirvana/God)._ See https://www.actualized.org/forum/topic/113610-trump-is-god/?do=findComment&comment=1749981. _God (n., sense 2)_ - “The Being” (Blanton 1996, 1) - “Soul”, “Soul is the real Self,—Infinite, All-Knowing, All-Powerful, Everywhere Present. Mind is a tool of Soul, used as an instrument to create and reflect the physical universe. Body is the creation of mind.” (Lester 1962, 67) - “The Self”, “The Self (God)” (Lester 1962, 13) ~~- “Love”, “Love is your Self.” (Levenson 1993, 49)~~ “love”, “When I refer to love, I’m merely pointing to the unidentified, awakened mind. …” (Katie and Mitchell 2017, 78–79) - “_“Our real nature, the infinite real self that we are, is simply us minus the mind.”_” (Levenson 1993, 51) - “awareness all alone” (Spira 2022, 49) ~~- “Beingness”~~ - “ultimately what is real” (Katie and Mitchell 2007, 42) - “awareness or consciousness”, “final state”, “changeless state”, “ultimate Truth” (Levenson 1993, 81) - “the pure unknown: love” (Katie and Mitchell 2017, chap. 24, 215) - “love”, “the quietest of all things”, “Love itself is not an emotion. It's a very, it's the quietest of all things.” (‭“Lester Levenson, … Sedona Method (2024)”) - “nothing”, “a completely silent mind” (Katie and Mitchell 2007, 246), (Katie and Mitchell 2017, 235) “Awareness knows nothing, and therefore it’s hidden to itself.” (Katie and Mitchell 2017, 235) “All you can do is be it.” (Katie and Katz 2005, 246) “You say, “I want to know myself.” You _are_ the “I.” You _are_ the Knowing. You _are_ the consciousness through which everything is known. And that cannot _know_ itself; it _is_ itself.” (Tolle 2003, 55–56) - “[t]he consciousness of the Isness”, “death”, “The consciousness of the Isness, the same as death, comes through.” (Weber 1996, 148) ~~- “perfection”, “Perfection is another name for reality.” (Katie and Mitchell 2007, chap. 45)~~ - “[t]he all-quiet state”, “ecstasy”, “euphoria”, “bliss”, “nirvana”, “The all-quiet state is such a tremendous state, that it can never be put into words. The words ecstasy, euphoria, bliss, nirvana don’t describe it really — they only allude to it.” (Levenson 1993, 279) - “the unbent”, “the effluent-free”, “the true”, “the beyond”, “the subtle”, “the very-hard-to-see”, “the ageless”, “the permanence”, “the undecaying”, “the surfaceless”, “non-objectification”, “peace”, “the deathless”, “the exquisite”, “bliss”, “rest”, “the ending of craving”, “the amazing”, “the astounding”, “the secure”, “security”, “unbinding”, “the unafflicted”, “dispassion”, “purity”, “release”, “the attachment-free”, “the island”, “shelter”, “the harbor”, “refuge”, “ the ultimate”. (…, 1 October 2025, https://www.dhammatalks.org/suttas/SN/SN43.html, https://archive.ph/Rw3Yy, https://suttacentral.net/sn43.14-43/en/sujato?lang=en&layout=plain&reference=none&notes=asterisk&highlight=false&script=latin) “There are 32 synonyms for Nibbana in the _Asaṃkhata-saṃyutta_ of the _Saṃyutta-nikāya_. They are mostly metaphorical.” (Rahula 1978, 36) - “the screen” (Spira 2022, 43) - “Space”, “silence”, “Space and silence are two aspects of the same thing, the same nothing. They are an externalization of inner space and inner silence, which is stillness: the infinitely creative womb of all existence.” (Tolle 1999, 115; 112–115) - “darkness”, “The dark, the nameless, the unthinkable” (Katie and Mitchell 2007, chap. 1) - ________ PDFsam_merge_16_pt_29_November_2025.pdf, 95–96.

Tuesday: March 17th, 2026. Elation thanks to outward-dependent relation is distinct from inward bliss.

Some very practical suggestions on grounding and integration after a 5-meo-dmt or other deep psychedelic trip. At first I didn't think much of it, since there were some odd/unconventional suggestions in this guide. But after some heaving sweating in a sauna the week after a deep 5-meo journey, I realized how important bodily grounding after a deep trip is. I felt a deep bliss and integration of a sort of ungrounded energy that had been lingering in my body and mind after the 5-meo experience for a while. I am sure many of the other practices can be very helpful as well. Integration-Guidelines-CONCLAVE-28.05.18 (1).pdf

Being completely fucked is not without value because some truths only emerge when there is nothing left to do and nowhere to run. Suffering leads to wisdom and wisdom leads to evolution. The goal is not to spare yourself the horror or save yourself from the suffering - nor is it to be redeemed so as to return to perfect bliss - the goal is to make the suffering of existence productive - to use it to give substance to the fluff that is you in order to forge your soul and liberate your spirit.

If it is like you say so then your brother is a happy case. Because most long time marriages are shit. A happy marriage requires heavy self-development work done by both sides. Especially now with all this gender-blind madness going on. And many who claim they are "happy" together can be because ignorance is bliss. It can be that neither of them went deep enough so they just work well together at a superficial, utilitarian level. In regards to finding a woman, shit situation too. High quality women are rare (of course, because high quality people are rare), most of them 30 years old plus. They won't be found in night clubs and approaching them on the street req enormous patience. Maybe after a few years of roaming the streets and approaching you'll find "the one". My best bets are: Stage Green festivals, dancing communities like Lindy Hop and West Coast Swing, and talking to girls at the climbing gym. You need to go where the Green girls are. BTW I am not defending that Owen weirdo, I never liked the guy. Orange autistic garbage, sorry OP.