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Anti-fungal diet It has been almost 3 weeks since the start of the diet and I see great improvement in my health. Mostly my gut health. Although it is not perfect at all, it has become tolerable. Cutting sugar and grains helped me a lot. A few times I had some fruit (raisins yesterday), but that seems to be ok. I am using probiotics now to help healthy gut fauna to grow again. Soon I will start with using citrus seed extract, which is supposed to crush the fungi!

Yes, HD vision happens to me from time to time. Sometimes it seems more 3D than 3D

“I become a transparent eyeball; I am nothing; I see all; the currents of the Universal Being circulate through me; I am part of God.” ― Ralph Waldo Emerson

Double slit experiment I was inspired to look into this experiment by a topic created on this forum about quantum mechanics books. This is kind of crazy. That is what I am experiencing. It seems like a crazy, mystical thing that I discovered, yet it was revealed to science! My god! How come our society is still the same if this is taught in schools? Well I know how. Nobody gets it. I remember the time my high school teacher was telling us about this experiment. It baffled me and I asked - "How?". He said he had no idea. So it was revealed to the public, but I think it is mostly seen as just a weird thing and not many people take it seriously. But it should be taken VERY seriously. It proves that we are in a dream world. This world is NOT solid. Matter is a joke! Oh my god!

The chi master - Paul Chek It is mind blowing for me to see this different side to spirituality. Enlightenment is not the only thing out there to explore. There seems to be a whole world of possibilities connected to a balanced 6th chakra.

My notes on genius from David Hawkins' book "Power vs Force" "Genius is by definition a style of consciousness characterized by the ability to access high-energy attractor patterns." "Genius and creativity, then, are subjectively experienced as a witnessing." "From our studies, it appears that the alignment of one’s goals and values with high-energy attractors is more closely associated with genius than anything else." "A formula followed by all geniuses, prominent or not, is: Do what you like to do best, and do it to the very best of your ability." Not sure if it tells you much without the context of the book though...

Purpose vs Purposelessness My two previous posts show my two selves. One is of the beauty, of the being, of the peace and of the all. The other is a self which wants to be human, wants to interact and give, wants to be a badass and show the world what it is about, wants to make a difference and wants to be seen and heard. Both of them are me it seems, although each in it's own way. How do I strike a balance between the two?

Walking, Being I am walking, yet I am just being. I am sitting, yet I just am. All is flowing, all is being. All is beauty, all I am?

The crushing lack of purpose The only real purpose I seem to have is consciousness work. And that really is a kind of purposeless purpose. At times, this becomes very crushing and I see the incredible value of a life purpose. Of a compass, a mission, a dream. If I don't really focus my attention on a predetermined goal what is there to keep me going in times of trouble? What is there to keep me going when everything seems to be meaningless? Well, nothing. I have been resisting looking deeply into the matter of life purpose for a long time. A part of me is saying, that it is just a mind game and I should focus on consciousness. And it is a mind game! But it does not make it inferior in any way. I have this mind, I have this life, I have the opportunity to act and create. And I clearly see that it does not REALLY collide with consciousness work. These are two different levels. I can be conscious and at the same time allow myself to create something meaningful inside of this beautiful illusion. What would be the point of playing, if I am not taking part really?

Noticing the nothingness where my face is supposed to be.

The play of the mind "The mind is racing peace is here. So much chatter, but it's still. All this chaos, amongst order. Feeling bound, without border."

Thank you all. I see it is just more doubts and drama from the mind. It got me again

In the past I have been very deliberate about my mediation. I would choose a technique and a set time and be very sure to bust it out. Lately I allow it to be more free. I sit down with no real technique in mind. I mostly just sit, sometimes scan my body if I feel like it, sometimes go into inquiry or some sort of contemplation if that seems attractive. It feels very good, but am I not missing out on some huge gains by being strict with one particular method? What are your thoughts about it?

That's kind of what I have been doing I guess. Well of course, it is so pleasurable to sit in my own being. That is why I am reluctant to do for example labeling or concentrating, as that seems like a drag. But my concern is whether it would not be also beneficial to develop a skill like deep concentration on an object or something of that sorts.

I am free Beautiful words. Thank you for the reminder!

Boredom Sometimes a state comes, where I feel bored. There is nothing to do. Nothing worthwhile at least. There is really nothing. And it is terrible. Or is it? -What is so terrible? -Well, the nothing. The lack. The emptiness. -Ok, let's have a look. When I have a look at the ugly, terrible emptiness, it is not so bad at all. It is just empty. And with time, it becomes even quite cozy. So what was so painful, if not the emptiness? Well, the thought of it.

I am not exactly in the infinite-depth-love-mode 24/7, but there is greater self acceptance present even when some of my shadows are coming up. Also I have started doing a little loving-kindness meditation and with that I can access my heart energy very strongly now. No, the trauma is all healed up. But during the experience and some time after I was sure I have been scarred for life. Can't wait to see The retreat was in Czech Republic.

A message to my little scared self "Here, everything is ok. Can I stay for just a while? please don't send me back out there. There are problems thousands issues millions choices to consider... Let me stay here for a little. You can stay my little darling, you can stay all day long, but if life keeps on calling, you must go, oh you must go. Just remember, little child, you can come at any time. Here, everything is ok."

Paul Chek. A holistic coach and an extremely wise man talking about so many aspects of life. Check out his youtube channel, which is mostly fitness based as that is his domain of mastery, but not only. A great, I dare say, turquoise stage video would be:

Thank you for your answer. Is the book you are using supposed to be read all at once or is it a gradual read as you progress?

Anti-fungal diet After my Darkness Retreat I was rather confused. The night I came home I binged on some sugary food, the exact opposite of what I should be doing on my diet. Is it the emotional stress I experienced in the dark? Is it the "not too rich diet " I was eating in there (mostly buckwheat and millet with some salad)? No worries! We lost a battle, but the war is ours! I am going on There is a lot of guilt associated with the binges. Emotional stuff to work around. This time it was not that bad though. As I saw the binge coming, I saw no real sense in resisting and in stead I focused on the emotions arising with it and loving them. The "I love you" mantra was my guide during this late night experience making it very educational and possibly growth promoting. What is amazing is, that I kept repeating the mantra when I went to bed and found myself saying "I love you" to myself in my dreams! Strangely enough I had a lot of dreams associated with guilt and fear this night, but the magical words seemed to dissolve all thatI woke up feeling pretty terrible in my body (from the crap food) , but blissful even deeper inside. Thank you! I love you.

I don't know much about yoga. I only heard a little from Sadghuru, about how yoga is supposed to safely and gradually align your whole system to ultimately ease into higher consciousness. Is that the case with the yoga you guys are practicing? Are there any physical exercises? What is the goal, is is supposed to balance the practitioner emotionally and energetically also or just get you real high real quick?

With all the consciousness work you have been doing lately, do you experience a lot of dark side of meditation stuff or paranormal experiences? If so, what kind? Some saints like Ramakrishna and AnandaMayi Ma were so flooded by samadhi experiences that they had trouble functioning normally in the world and needed the help of their disciples to even get around. Aren't you worried that this might happen to you eventually?

So I have been learning to mediate and self inquire. Beautiful practices. During my sessions I can sit in peace, fulfillment and clarity. However, I cannot sit like that all day. I get up, go about my business and although I try to keep my awareness sharp, I get distracted. How do you keep concentrated? When interacting with people, using technology, performing difficult tasks... How do you stay keep the meditative state going?

Openness "Oh Openness, you take it all. every person you take in tough emotions? bring it on terrifying pain is welcome thoughts of pros and of the cons! I just wonder, where's the limit? What will stop your mighty love? I keep looking, I keep searching, but all I find is... more Openness."