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@Nickyy Interesting way to look at it... I wonder. Do you have any sources to cite to prove this, please? <3

I just finished watching this video... I feel like it has an important message. I will only eat local home produced dairy and eggs if I do.

I was considering eating raw semi-vegan... (raw fruits/veggies + milk, honey, eggs and fish) Wouldn't beat up myself if I ate a candy once a month tho

Ok........ and next step! What is Turquoise?? I've been in SD Turquoise for a short while and it was eeeffiiinnn MIND BLOWING!! I need to study systems thinking more again.. Kinda neglected myself with all the job hunt and dating game......

On my list of books soon!!! <3 Does he have Systems Thinking on the books list?? Maaaan need to check out that list again.. I loved this post. I was thinking the same. I think ever since childhood I was Green/Orange. In teens I became Christian due to the school teachings and I was very fragile and naive. But yeah the ideology ruins the whole thing. We are already a whole as we are. Maybe unhealthy SD Green is like so..? Healthy SD Green makes a lot of change in the world.......

There are healthy and unhealthy manifestations of every SD stage. So you can be an unhealthy SD Red, like animal abuser and mafia, or a healthy SD Red, like a football player that is successful and loved. You can be an unhealthy SD Purple, like being obsessed with ghosts and unhealthy superstition, or a high value SD Purple, like a shaman for example, or a forest/white witch. You could be a conservatist SD Blue, or you can have SD Green elements and become a saint! Green can be unhealthy if you judge others who are not on your thinking. I think I might be SD Yellow. I don't feel offended when people hurt animals.. I mean I am obviously against it and sorry for the animals, poor things... but I understand that this person is psychologically damaged or unhealthy SD Red, I mean I see it from "above". I don't feel like posting animal cruelty things on Facebook. But obviously I love animals, dogs especially, and sometimes I buy food for stray dogs or poor people. Idk. My friend told me he killed 3 bunnies in his childhood and I felt a deep empathy for him instead of judgement.. cause I knew he was sorry for what he did. I feel bad for killing insects sometimes, must be similar with bunnies.. maybe worse. Also I'm bisexual but I keep it secret from my heavily Christian SD Blue family... I know they would accept it if they knew because they love me... or they would just tell my sexologist or the priest haha. Who knows. I never thought about coming out to them... Honestly I just respect their opinion. *shrug*

I went on a date with a guy who was 26 and he said he dated a 33 year old german teacher once. It's legal here too.. where do you live?? I know a 40 year old history teacher who dates a 14 year old girl... she smokes weed and drinks a lot. Awww agreed. Loved the "love and develop each other" part. Age is really just a number, and real life has nothing to do with internet culture..

Yeah... he is still abusive. Like yesterday he called me and said there are rumors in the small town i live in about me And called me "you megalomaniac schizo"... ouch. i was like whaaaaat those psychos can suck it who cares about gossip ???? *angeryyy* And yes, I used to be very submissive because of his narcissistic personality. But in the end, I outgrew him. I like mature guys, but they tell me I am too childlike for them. Need to grow more... !

I'm the same way. I think it's related to being ignored by people or having a low self esteem.. inferiority complex. Which also becomes a superiority complex. Two sides of a coin. yeah.. we all missed @Shin

So is it a good thing? Or no? Yup jujitzu... i actually wanna do that. And what do you mean sensitivity and physical aggression come together? Interesting... I talked to @Elysian and he was worried that he would beat me up but honestly he doesn't seem the type to hurt women.. He promised to protect me from others. And yeah saying I love you I love you I love you every day kinda annoys me too.. Nono, I don't like it either.. it's annoying... Once a week would be enough... or when I say something nice to him. @Shin Dude, Shin... I don't even like him. And I dumped him cause he hit a man unconscious.... ugh. I said I wanted to find friends to drink with in my town and he asked me out. I am not like him. I am very developed and mature myself on daily basis. I have a psychotherapist I work with. She recommended Joe Dispenza book to me.. nice. I am not needy at all, and very detached, doing my own thing.... HE IS!!! I verbally fought with him on the phone about the ugly scandals and his drinking problem. He doesn't even contact me anymore... THANK YOU JESUS!!!.

Feedback please!!!! <3

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Explore your emotional side with her. Intellect doesn't have a place in emotional realms. Nor do emotions in the dimensions of the intellect..

Lmaoooo @wk197 When I was 17 (im a girl) I got a 28 year old boyfriend. It lasted 4 years, we broke up recently.. I am almost 22 now and he is 32. *shrug* The sexual life was fiiiine... Besides... being older like that, made him more mature. He also was the one that introduced me into hardcore spiritual practices, since he communicates with angels and all. I mean he used to. He is cool. Too bad he is emotionally and mentally abusive because of his borderline disorder..

Loved reading this. I don't really identify with any of these, I just... am. Today I visited a guy friend and he said I'm the first girl being in his home. I was like... why does it count like I am a girl? I am. I just am. I don't really identify with being tall or weird or a woman even, I just am, and I experience. It honestly was weird.

Just thought you might've found it interesting. And hmm.. maybe you're slightly masochistic??

It was actually a joke Meaning us Europeans are weirdos. hahaha If you were in Europe you knew what i meant by "Europe stuff".. we are weird sometimes with our history and all Here are some quotes from the novel to help you understand the philosophy of sexuality.. (they are in a train, the 18 year old guy, and other passangers: the mother and the girl... whatch what happens..)

Um... well?? Not sexually explicit, it was just a kiss taken too far and psychoanalyzed.......... Europe stuff...

Excuse me but wth is alpha and beta what does it mean??? im not being mean i just dont get ittt

Well yeah, exactly how you describe it in the OP... just being yourself and going with the flow. Forget this whole culture of alphas and all these weird terms. Do your things and be authentic, honest and genuine. Which is very sexy. Trust me, better be weird and yourself, than faking stuff. It's just... ugh ew, nope. Spend more time alone, knowing yourself, your strengths and weaknesses. Explore your mind, your soul. Find yourself. Out with the junk and just be.. YOU! That's the whole idea of all this journey. It works for females too. Ever since I am myself I am very confident even when I say dumb isht. Many people say I am naturally attractive through being me. When I was thinking in terms of alpha female and popular hottie and all that, I had a deep rooted anxiety... And trust me, I am so much better and more popular and beautiful, inside and out now that I don't think like that!

It's weird but sometimes sexuality comes from a place of guilt, shame and pain. Something you find disgusting and shameful can easily become an object of extreme sexual pleasure. I don't know why. I think it's just human psychology... Forbidden fruit.. going into places that disturb you..... Exciting! There are many books, novels that talk about this. We had such one in high school, to read... "Adventures of Esti Kornel." Read it! In one chapter he gets a kiss on the train, when in teens.. from a psychically handicapped girl. And she like tortures him with her tongue and some juicy bits there.. ?And that becomes his first sexual experience. And it describes well through psychoanalysis how these things happen and manifest. Have fun reading it!

Hello dear, reply from a female member here... Been there but with males, now guys call me hot and beautiful and jokingly strangers invite me for a cake in town or coffee lmao and i get a lot of dates. I usd to be very masculine and weird and kinda autistic to the max but i grew it out, so maybe I can give some advice, honestly u dont seem bad at all, you just got a self esteem problem Ok mate so... stop this isht with "beta" and "alpha" and omega and stuff and whatever. It doesn't translate to nun in the real world, you got me?? People who use these things are always depressed and comparing themselves with others. So do yourself a favor and don't. Please. We are all just humans. Doing human things. In my eyes I don't see any human being being uglier or prettier than the other. Even with deformities in my eyes everyone is the same.. eventually I see people's souls cause I'm clairsentient but that is some philosophomythical isht that doesn't have place in this thread... anywayyyy So you gotta like get into this flow state, you see?? I don't know/care how you do it but I can give you some advice. First of all, forget about all the looks and personality and attraction thing. Just be yourself. Be super authentic, radially honest and adorably genuine. Girls usually love that, whoever you may be. So just be natural. Be yourself. You mentioned masturbating a lot and playing videogames. Dude, just get a pair of sneakers and get outside in the central park and move your butt a bit. I mean seriously, it makes such a difference!!! It sounds ultra basic but it rewires you completely.. I mean just go outside for a walk every day, force yourself... and just go... and look in people's/girls' eyes. You'll get used to it. Not in a creepy way but in a relaxed way. Look at people. Study them. Just dont stare at boobs or body ...das creepy af... Seriously, all people on this forum need some nature walks honestly. It changes so much. I never thought it would but that's what changed me. And find some cool hobbies, live a life of your dreams. Be your own best friend, your on most intimate lover. Trust me, it means sooo much... And girls sense it. And answer me this: How is your relationship with yourself? Maybe go to the gym or to the library and read books. Buy Leo's list.. I bought it and will read stuff this month, I plan so... I'm just so busy. And well, you're lucky cause you got a job. I don't even have a job for 4 years now and people still enjoy my company. All I did was explore spirituality, detox from social media and learn some social skills... First it is hard. Especially to talk to strangers. But here's an exercise... You possibly have interests, right? Maybe even your ps4 games... join some facebook groups on that for a start and leave comments. Or leave lots of youtube comments ESPECIALLY REPLIES!! it is not real life talking but great practice and means a lot Try it. You learn to socialize. And I recommend higher consciousness topics though... lke spiritual groups and all that or diet and lifestyle or some interest or hobby you have or plan to take up Philosophy groups, photography groups.. And quit porn. Try real life sex. Hook up with a good one from okcupid. Or look for a girl in a Facebook group where you share interests. I think you can still use social media for communicational purposes, but not to binge porn and dumb stuff... Go on an inner journey and seriously, let go of porn and things that take up your life. Connect with reality more, you seem like you need it And. Forget. Beta. Incel. And. Other. Shit. We just all cute humans. I hope this helps. Maybe message me in private if you wanna have a chat.. you seem like a good person and I really feel your pain and would like to help as much as I can. Define success .. YOUR WAY!!!

I used to date a guy for 4 years and he payed for like almost everything. We didn't live together tho... but he payed for everything!!! I'd say if you rent something do the rental 50/50, and have the other things you buy your own and hers/his. And yeah as a male you are the provider so maybe pay 60/40? Be a bit easy on her.. and take her to concerts and tea.

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verry noice <3 and ye for me i think i feel more borderline-like.. okayz dude thanx!!! ok good thanks!! and yeah i love to do this i moved back home for a while so i have time mates kicked me out long story..