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Probably will use a gentle approach though. I really got fiery right there.

Ok so this thread is called becoming an alpha for a reason, and an alpha takes no bullshitty approach to people lying to themselves about how much they hurt someone or not. I will try and confront my family very soon, and they need to hear what I got to say. I can't take it that I cannot even answer a phone call without being abused about it. Because that's abuse when you have to tell your fam about every step and move you make. I'm done. So done. And you know what else I'm done with? This Christian approach to respect-hierarchy, as if I'm a child of someone I cannot have healthy boundaries and expectations from the people my life depends on in the early years. They don't own me just because I came to this world through them. I'm an individual, and an adult now. Someone has to awaken them to the realities of the 21st century!!! Some of my expectations from parents: understanding, open-mindedness, HONEST kindness, honest and healthy severity & discipline-making in the home, calm collected speech, rationality, emotional maturity, and brutal self-honesty. Probably more but that's kinda my personal business anyway. Probably having too much on my plate now. Focusing on career and self-development. I have multiple business ideas which all would take up my time. I would have to work 18 hours a day solid if I wanted everything I am planning. Already got some art video requests coming in that I will have to finish up sometime soon. And general art requests too. I'm kinda overwhelmed. OK, so for a basic shadow work you just talk your heart out either by journaling or by recording your voice. Read it over and over again, or listen to it multiple times and take notes. What do you notice? What would you like to improve? What are your strengths and weaknesses? What is your real motivation in life, the hidden motivator? And so on... Brutal self-honesty is the only shadow work you'll ever need. Bullshit, I'm just an unhealthy stage Green individual. None of those. A friend helped me realize it was fear of disappointing. It all starts in childhood, wanting to please parents. Then we project it to others in adulthood. Gaining awareness on the issue helped calm the fear.

@Bojan V Hello! I hope you are safe too! Take care in these changing times!

Working with certain demonic entities helped me shed a light on how Abrahamic religions focus on a god I won't name, but the point is that he is a god like other gods, not the ultimate absolute god, as that is everything and everyone. Neither is he the Source, because the Source doesn't have a mind of his/her own, OR said otherwise, we all take part in co-creation through the Source. In the Old Testament it is clear he is a god of war, of the air and of storms. Didn't really do the research, but Holy Trinity seems a different concept from the war god from the desert. My point with all of this is how I called the god of Christianity an angry, all-controlling god out of intuition and experience some while ago, just to later find out I wasn't even wrong. Christian esotericism however has some value, but it's not my cup of tea. Also the religion of Christianity morphed into so many things and evolved into so many other things lately and in general over the course of time, that I cannot even say what it is or what is worships, but everything about it is just a mix of the pagan religions, astrological symbolism and myths, sprinkle that with some true wisdom and a hint of Truth and you got yourself Christianity. I don't condemn it, was just gaining clarity lately. I focus on Hindu philosophy nowadays as there is less drama and hypocrisy on the path of Hinduism. In other news, I am working towards a career, but I don't neglect spirituality either anymore. I just need to find healthier ways to practice it. My career focus is first getting my finals diploma, which requires many hours a day of studying mathematics, literature, anatomy/physiology of the human body and I don't even know??? Sucks failing that exam so many times in the past, but I won't give up so easily. If there is a way to something I want, I will find it. I noticed on myself that back in the day I was like, I had an idea ok? The idea was great and achievable. I just sucked at getting information on how to achieve it. So I dreamed about the goal, but I didn't know the journey. And I just dreamed and waited for a miracle to happen. Dreaming doesn't give pragmatic results. You need to combine it with action while you mold your nature to the requirements of society, life, universe... Then I'd love to finish a university in either computer engineering or software design. Idk what the options are, but I'm interested in IT so... Worked through my repetitive negative behavior some. The answer was self-love. And huh, I just remember Leo teaches it in one of his episodes??.. Strange, because I am talking from experience that self-love will solve all your problems. Guess Leo was ahead of me. Great episode, everyone should watch it.

In one of Leo's episodes with life advice for young people one of the first things he mentions is that there are certain states you can access where you know that you are creating your whole reality. How can one achieve such state?

Minimalism is a big one. Less objects you have, less cleaning you have to do. I try to gift or donate objects I don't use anymore, especially objects that take a lot of space like big plushies and clothes. And I never really buy anything unless I am using it RIGHT NOW, like objects for current workings and usage, and I tend not to buy so many clothes anymore, but I have clothes put away for each season. To be wastefree, when I buy cosmetics I apply only a little bit and it takes months until I use it up. And I only buy 1 cosmetic for each need (one cream, one foundation, 1 shampoo etc.) But cleaning for me never takes more than 20 minutes. What I have a lot of are books which makes it a little bit tricky to organise... I put 1 type of book in one place, for example a bunch of novels, a bunch of dictionaries, a bunch of politics and history... That might take a little longer.

About shadow work... I uncovered two core fears yesterday: Fear of getting inner center disturbed / getting punished Fear of being "bad" I think these are typical Innocent archetype fears. The remedy is that.. I can be bad if I want to. It's okay to do/think/feel bad things, it's part of human nature. No one can disturb the center, as the center is eternal and unmoved. And the outer layer of peace cannot be disturbed without my will / if I ignore the disturber.

I need more order in my life, so I'm going to have a daily routine, for morning, afternoon workings, evening schedule and nightly stuff. This is part of the emotional mastery, being able to stick to something, being strong enough to stick to the plan. Morning routine (7-12): Shower; Skin, hair, nails, teeth care Sungazing (starting 20 seconds, adding +5 seconds daily first 2 weeks, +10 after) Practicing Self-Love for 1 hour Psychic visions Biokinesis (eyecolour, hearing, autophagy, nitric-oxide, indium, HGH, height, Tulsi, 5G shield, silver) OM chanting meditation (45 minutes) Attraction/charm meditation (20 minutes) Neville Goddard-style manifestion (15 minutes) Afternoon work (1-6): Protein-rich lunch Draw 2 hours (estimated 5-7 artworks) Gym routine (fullbody): Cardio: stepper (1000 steps, +100 daily until 8000, hardness lvl: 18-10), bike (10 minutes, +2m until 30m; hardness lvl 7, +1 every 3 days), rope skipping (10 minutes)... and I'm not working on running yet Legs: 3 sets of 20 reps each: calf-raise, inner thigh, outer though, leg push, leg raise, bodyweight push Abs, arms,back: 3 sets of 10 reps each: leg raise in air, arm push, arm pull, shoulder raise, shoulder push, crunches, weight pull type 1, weight pull type 2 Neville Goddards-style manifestation (15m) Evening routine (7-10): Second and last protein-rich meal, but mainly vegetables Reading (spirituality, magick, loa) Subliminals Exam prep Neville Goddard-style manifestation (15m) 3 rounds of prayer And now comes the REAL work.. Night workings! (11-4) When I will have a job, I will work these hours, but till then, spiritual work: meditation, contemplative practices, totem animal, astrological soul path and ascension, crystal frequency therapy, animus/anima, making youtube content, writing journal, kundalini yoga Let's get to work!

That's a really good perspective.

Thanks guys, every reply was helpful!

I start to realise I'm a Spiral Wizard. Either that, or my Spiral-progress is really scattered through my life-areas, for example.. Mind is Yellow/Turquise, behavior is Purple-Lower Red Thought processes encompass higher knowledge, behavior is instinctive and defensive Lifestyle is tribal/mystical, family oriented; Hobbies are revolving around compassion and interconnectedness My sexuality is primal/carnal; My emotional connection is divine, universal My relationships are "tribal" (not meant literally), "help me and I help you"-mentality-based, trying to find my "tribe"; My relationship with my Self/God is whole Spirituality is a mix between spirit worship, ancestor-honoring, totem-honoring and becoming ONE with the You-niverse Life purpose is about teaching, sharing; Lifestyle is about commanding respect and order I will later on explore these life areas in more detail, possibly more facetedly (exploring more facets, each facet in plenty of detail.. )

@Fkdel Hey, so I thought I might elaborate on this a bit.. My shadow work is totally intuitive, but I do have some things I do every time... First I get my ego in a very vulnerable state. Then I do difficult practices that challenge me. Then I get into a "total power"-state from overcoming the difficulties. And then I let the fire of passion burn away insecurities (my shadow is the Inoccent-shadow, revolving around fear, naivity and disperation, not anger and toxicity as you would expect), and it's a journey of becoming whole again and embracing What Is. So the process summarized, chronological order: Get ego to be very vulnerable and exposed Bring (mental/emotional) difficulty in your life Overcome difficulty through intuition and insight Let the passionate fire of victory melt away every impurity in your Spirit Aim to embrace entireity / All That Is I hope this helps you and everyone that follows this thread.

I call it progressive. ?

@ivankiss aaaaa thank uuuu my first fan ???? I used to be very ashamed of this stuff but I'm glad I didn't delete it. I realised in the end that you just have to (((vibe))) with it ? and go with the flow But in all seriousness, there needs to be a very specific state of mind to enjoy it. Or else it is total cringe. Maybe it's good for an exercise for you people. To test how conscious and open minded you are. If you cringe you lose guys. ? and you guys need to meditate 1 hour for every cringe you get Gogogogo

It's good that you awakened to these things, but don't judge yourself too much. Maybe you needed to go through this to learn something about yourself. Use this information to improve your life. Set real, tangible goals and work towards them. Goals that have an outcome that inspires you and makes you excited to wake up in the morning. Try to put the information you accumulated from youtube and podcasts into practice.

Convince your mind that you are enjoying it. Simply sit down to meditate at least 5 minutes visualizing how much joy is in that work.

You can try meditating for 30-60 minutes in the evening or drinking some calming tea. Also shut down all lights at least an hour before bed, the light of your screen is stimulating to your mind and that's why you can't sleep. Also don't work out before bed, working out is best in the afternoon, some say between 3 PM and 5 PM. Try going to sleep 30 minutes earlier than the other day until you reach going to sleep by 11 PM. Also set your alarm to wake up earlier and don't lay around in bed during daytime. Have some nighttime routine every day that will prepare your mind that you are going to sleep, and after a while you'll get used to it and that will signal your brain that it's time for sleep (for example prepare your bed to be comfortable for sleep, wash your teeth/take a hot shower, change into pajamas, keep the lights off for an hour before bed, maybe do some calming breathing exercise, drink tea). Also know that it all depends on you, no amount of motivation from others can help if you aren't willing to follow the advice that you are given by people. Take the decision that you will go to sleep early and work on it.

Once I had a discussion with someone I assume is a stage Orange guy, and I noticed they don't really tend to care about analyzing the world or having deeper conversations other than things that they do or what they have or want to have. Stage Green is a rarer, but they seem to have a lot of blind-spots too. It's good to see more and more people moving up to Yellow. I'm happy for you! ^^

You don't need to argue with anyone, but if you feel differently about something I don't see any reason to just say 'ok' and hide your true feelings. If you care about what your friend says they should care about what you have to say too. People argue because they feel attached to their point of view, people who are open about things just discuss them simply even if they don't agree with each other's opinion.

Not everyone ends up being like their family. It's not always the family that's influencing our behavior and way of being, but it's more about the resources we consume.. the music we listen to, the books we read, the movies and videos we watch. You decide what becomes of you. My family is also always stressed about something, but nobody will tell I am like them. I simply distanced myself from them, I hang out with my friends, read, spend a lot of time alone. Avoid them when they are caught up in the drama or fighting. Try to spend most of your time away from them if they are bothering you. Just react calmly to everything that happens.

I have had OBE before, randomly. Yes, we have an energetic body that can travel outside the physical body. I kept hearing all this no-self thing around, but do you ever experience that? In your experience you are someone, you have an awareness and feelings and senses. You never are not yourself.

I wouldn't. I know there are friends of mine who searched for my name on the internet before. Some people do that. I posted quite a few personal posts in the past. It's really helpful to just have an anonymous username. After all, most of us come here to ask for help in personal problems. But thanks for the idea of thinking like my real name was my user, it really shifts the perspective of what I should and shouldn't post.

A friend of mine told me he was reading a book on smoking and he said it helped him because it didn't just tell him what the bad side effects were but also the good effects. It helps knowing the full picture not just the bad things. So awareness is definitely helping people in quitting. Obviously smoking is bad for your health, but knowing both sides can give you perspective on what you are doing. Another factor is willpower. I think willpower is most important. I used to smoke cigarettes sometimes, no idea why, it just felt relaxing. I realised they are too expensive and I also started coughing, so I gave most of my cigarette pack to someone who was smoking more than me and I quit since then. There's a website that tells you how much you spend on cigarettes, it might help: https://www.quitnow.ca/quitting/calculate-my-savings

hi anyone from romania? i never see you guys around

Hey guys. I am unable to love anyone else than myself. And by myself I mean my EGO, not the True Self, which is God/Everything Real. I feel scared that I will be scarred for life again like last time/ first time I fell in love. I still feel deeply for my first lover, but I repress it. How do I fall in love "safely"?