Nevon

So i asked myself what's really going on here,what is reality? Reality seems to become weird and mind blowning, i realize there's a fiction going on and i am playing this character I look at my hand, what are this thing? the word "hand" it's just a word,why it is here? then i heard my ego say i am being born, as long as i can remember i was being born it's just an idea that someone told me and i belief it without doubt,what's really going on is just an appearance came into existance. Ok..hmm right now there's a appearance,i can't tell what is this,everything i used to know is just a concept,so ever since the appearance came into existance, it did not go anywhere, its just colour morphing and changing,when this particular weird shape object (i used to call it the body) goes to sleep then the appearance dissapear and reappear again with another storyline with less vivid experience(and i used to call it a dream) ,when the body wake up the appearance switch to main story line. So there is an appearance,this oval shape visual field it's just at there,there is nothing outside the oval shape appearance,even i close my eye, the oval shape is still there,this entire oval shape appearance is litarally floating,because outside the vision field is just nothing there. So there is everything and nothing at the same time, intresting. I don't know am i enlightenment yet, even the thought i am enlightenment it's just a thought Right now i understood every meaning its just a concept, i ignore all the thing i used to know, now i dont know anything, based on my direct experience that happening right now i realize there's an appearance that constantly changing

And this appearance includes everything

I don't know what is inside or outside,i only know there's an appearance happening right now

Let's don't talk about concept,In actuality we don't really know it's physical or non physical, it's only there's sensation on my palm thats it.

I use my hand to hold a bottle, i felt pressure on my palm,isn't that a solid object?

as Leo mention in the video, you have to sharpen the ability to distinguish what is Concept and what is Actual(direct experiences), so by looking at your hand you bring your awareness to the "Now" moment and strip away all the concept, so you experience the reality as it is.

No, i put on my headphone and listen on youtube and meditate.

Last night i experience psychedelic with avalokitesvara mantra(aum mani padme hum) for the first time, i felt my 7 chakra activate and line up and immediat my consciousness switch into something else,i was in pure bliss for 30minute

Does yoga exersices lead to non dual awareness?

But Leo ,I don't understand why the "content" within the screen are not real, but based on my direct experience it's there,i don't understand what's real or not real, all i know is the content keep changing,as i go to sleep the screen turn off and then the screen appear again as a dream,and then when i wake up the content change back to main channel

When i am on relax mode, the kundalini take over my head movement, that shit freak me out

Open your throat chakra, let the energy distribute in balance

Based on non dual perspective, everything is you, include the shadow figure, so what's the point of affraid of yourself.

Based on my psychedelic exploration, the soul does exist.

Thanks for the summary

I feel you man, the ego doesn't wan't their reality get screw with

Because chasing cheese caused suffering

I think it take certain level of knowledge as foundation in order to escape the maze

Yes,there was a me but the me i am reffering it's not only the ego, but the totality of nothingness and everything, hence i perceiving things as not me and the object over there are saperate,more like sensation arising to consciousness. I would like to know more about what do you mean by no experience and experiencer in non dual

Based from my direct experience,this experience it's like floating on nothingness, the time & space exist within it, as i turn my head around look at the room, the substance underneath the wall ,flooring,ceiling seems dissapeared, and then i walking around and observe, feels like i din't move at all, its just the experience changing and morphing, i look around the object in my room, it comes very clear to me there is no saperation, everything is just one thing and its the same thing.

I do meditate on ketamine, it's not the usual psychedelic like LSD or DMT,i do contemplate this substance very much,it work very well on me and lead me into 7 chakra full blown kundalini awakening experience,ever since that day the serum of non dual awareness kick in but there's degree on it,my main practices still direct observation on reality and self enquiry,as Leo said using the feather to soften the rock until the rock disappear.

1. Stripe away all the belief that you had before, literally every single belief. 2.micro self enquiry lol, when nothing to do just do the conciousness work eg:why do i believe i am the body 3.watch leo video 4.direct observation on reality with no science apply on it,look at things infront of you and start contemplating where is this object appeared in? you may come out with some answers like time & space, and then what's grounding the time & space?

Its kinda shocking to me, all this while i was brainwashed into i am a person living on earth and surround by many planet, and now i realized i am the universe and the everything its the same thing, its literally one, exactly like how martin ball describe me talking to you its just me talking to another version of myself

I do psychedelic occasionally, but this non dual experience makes no different when i was on sober mind or tripping, as i look on the floor ,intellectually i know there is substance underneath the floor, but based from my direct experience its only surface that floating on nothingness

After watching leo video what is consciousness",in the video leo describe the first order reality and the second order reality by using lego analogy,but i still can't get it, If someone use a hammer hit on my skull then the sense of self dissapear,but the body still there,then where do i go?am i supposed to identify myself with the first order reality?seems like there is no way for me to identify myself in first order reality on unconscious state.. i need more explaination for better understanding