Carl-Richard

My favorite technical death metal instrumental song

I'm oldschool :> It was my girlfriend in middle school who made it back in the MSN messenger days lmao

I remember one time on MDMA with two buddies of mine, we smoked weed at the end of the trip, and one of them said "weed is so dirty in comparison to MDMA", and I was like "huh? it's not dirty, it's mystical"... in between our short-term memories refreshing every 15 seconds and nobody being able to remember what we were just talking about

@Moksha Bingo. It's about focusing on something. Let's say you set a rule for yourself that says "for every right or left turn, take a right". Just by that alone, it's safe to say that you'll end up in a very different place than if your goal was to always take a left. Now imagine that taking a right is always 10% better than taking a left. If you keep doing that consistently, you'll soon be in heaven, only because you put your mind on something slightly better than the alternative. So put your mind on at least something that you believe is good, and every action you take will be a step in the right direction.

I think he means GHB and its related compounds. It works similarly to alcohol, but it's a dodgy substance when it comes to dosing and such.

Haha, you should see me now ?

Thank you

Haha great

Ah. What did you think was complicated about it? The one about how often you exercise?

Lol. Rocks have egos? Rocks can think?

@The Mystical Man ?

Not milking the udder.

Any side effects?

Does your autocorrect on your phone have an ego or think for itself? Does Google think for itself? That is essentially what you're saying.

I've noticed a weird phenomena that I think most people can relate to in some way. So we all probably have experienced something like this: you watch a YouTube video and you have the thought "ah, I should show this to this person". Then as you keep watching the video, you start taking the perspective of the person you were thinking about and trying to understand the video as if you were them. If this is say your little brother, your understanding is probably contracted and limited down to some point, and you will be watching the video from that contracted level of understanding until you snap out of it, because you don't have the processing capacity to watch the video simultaenously from both perspectives (your own level of understanding and his level of understanding). So, I've noticed something similar happen when I took a statistics class in university, and it was very annoying, because it was of course interfering with my ability to learn. Here is how it usually worked: some student would ask a question about something they didn't understand in the lecture, and I would tune in to that level of understanding and sort of construct their perspective based on the question and how much I knew about this person from before, etc., and then I would keep watching the lecture from that contracted perspective for no reason, and I would have to consciously snap myself out of it to return to my own level of understanding. This is very annoying, and I can't really control when it happens. The worst part is that I don't even need any concrete external cues to get into that contracted mode of understanding, because I used to have this belief like many people have that "math is difficult, I don't understand math", and it's like I can sometimes connect to this mental archetype spontaneously during a lecture and it will interfere with my understanding in a similar way. Said more simply, I can sometimes have intrusive thoughts that destroys my confidence and puts me in a bad mental frame Other times, it's just a general vibe I will pick up on, an infectious cloud of incompetence floating across the room. Anyways, I also see connections with this and the autism-psychosis spectrum (see my previous thread). As a person "on the spectrum" (the psychotic end), If you're very used to creating elaborate mental frames based on subtle cues, that is what mentalizing is, that is what conspiratorial thinking is, what paranoid persecutory delusions are, what perspective-taking is, hence "compulsive perspective-taking syndrome"

I guess that is one aspect of psychotics or artists: their identity is fluid and constantly changing. I had severe problems figuring out what I wanted to "be" in life. Took me a while to even get a clue. I guess this is what actors feel when they lose themselves in a role. Bryan Cranston and Heisenberg? He said it changed him. Heath Ledger and The Joker? No need to say anything. Jim Carrey said that Jim Carrey was his best role

It doesn't happen very often. It's like a mode I can get into. Have you seriously never done that though (watching a YouTube video from somebody else's perspective)? It has to be something decently intellectually challenging, like one of Leo's videos, and preferably a person you know pretty well. In fact, I remember watching almost the entire video on SD stage purple once from my little brother's perspective (he said he listened to it at work once, and I wanted to see how he would've experienced it).

@Thought Art The thread is 1.5 years old. There is a reason why there is a message discouraging you to revive old threads. I lock old threads that display a significant lack of continuity and are not recurring threads or mega-threads. Some examples of discontinuity are when a large chunk of the posters are inactive members, or the posts contain information about real life events that are outdated. Quoting inactive members or echoing outdated information creates unnecessary clutter and confusion. I can start asking people to start a new thread when I lock it.

MDMA is very unique. You will struggle to find synthetic alternatives, let alone natural ones.

Nothing beats the feeling of smashing out a heavy set at the gym. Plus there are usually saunas there and free soap There are limitations to bodyweight exercises. There is a difference between doing 30 reps of push-ups and 6-12 reps of a bench press for example. The more reps you do per set, the more it turns into an endurance exercise and less a strength/muscle-building exercise. Endurance training is quite systemically taxing, and it causes a different physiological response than maximizing the recruitment of muscle fibers, and frankly, I generally prefer the latter over the former by how it makes me feel. It's probably because heavy weight training increases testosterone levels while heavy endurance training increases cortisol levels (which is inversely associated with testosterone levels). Some people prefer endurance training though, so you have to find what you like. You can go very far without a gym membership if you're smart and use things that are available (like this clay pebble brick thing I found at our family cabin), but the gym is both more optimal and more convenient for achieving the best results when it comes to strength/muscle training. Besides, gym girls

My lowest point was probably when I dressed up as Heisenberg at a Halloween party and drank so much vodka that I couldn't stand upright. I fell over the railing halfway down a set of stairs and luckily only bruised my back. The cops were called because of noise complaints (there were like 50 people in a 4-story apartment). My friends ordered a taxi for me while I was laying on the ground, threw me inside and basically teleported me to my house. I kept saying the wrong address, and I had to pay the equivalent of 300$ the day after for puking in the taxi. I wasn't able to enter the pin to pay the taxi driver, and I emptied all the contents of my wallet all across the neighborhood. I wasn't able to enter the code for the front door, so I banged on the door and screamed like some cave troll until one of my roommates opened up. My brain was completely wrecked for the whole week after that. Literally the day after, we were dissecting pig intestines in some laboratory class in university. It was truly disgusting and I was definitely the useless member of the group. I probably lost a few brain cells that night.

One of the three. There was the needle phase, then the abyss phase, then the serene phase. Interesting. Seems to map on pretty well: contractions causing poking sensations, moving down the birth canal feeling like entering the abyss with organ-like structures, and being born feeling like coming out into the light

Because the ego is not in control.

Lol. Who knows? My dad knew a shaman once. It was so oddly specific: three phases with different types of pain, progressing in the same order every time. I wonder what a dream specialist would say about it. I also had a very significant awe experience that is imprinted into my memory. I was watching the stars when I was maybe 3-4 years old, and it was like I became the night sky and traveled among the stars. It's a really faint memory, but at the same time rich, and sometimes I can connect to that same headspace. I don't remember if it was a spatial-temporal out-of-body experience, or a vision in my imagination, or an expanded sense of perception.