Iksander

I am having my first enlightenment experience as I am writing this. But I already know the answer, I am nothing. Nothing. Nothing collapses into itself over and over again to infinity. If you look at yourself you look into infinity. Nothing just goes on and on and on forever. It can never end, because it is the only thing that exists. Endless data swirling into nothing from nothing. Do not take things so seriously, it's ridiculous. I am eating some chocolate and it tastes like it is made of pure love. Even things that are made from hate eventually end up being made from love! Love is the theme of reality. The matrix is consciousness deluding itself into believing that it's real! (Ego) Truly, everything is one. Yours sincerely, yourself. I do not know if this reality that I see is going to delude itself into believing it's real again or not? I suppose it doesn't matter now that I can't die!

I've since come out of the trip, but this experience is going to stay with me. I feel totally refreshed, content and spiritually connected. My current experience is joy and acceptance with all things.

I smiled alot

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I've been doing deep meditation and contemplation work for a while now, and a couple of months ago some weird shit started to happen. Parts of my body would tense on their own, seeing bright colours etc. but this is nothing super out of the ordinary for people who do consciousness work. The past week my meditation has gone to a completely new level for me, seeing strange visions, both horrific and beautiful and i'm getting some conscious understanding of nonduality. I've also been having very vivid dreams at night. Last night though, my reality got flipped on it's head completely. I had an hour of kundalini yoga earlier in the day and I sat down to do an hour of meditation. I immediately went deep and being present to the moment was effortless and my mind seemed to just melt away. Then I started seeing some vivid images of faces, grotesque looking creatures, demonic looking entities, and beautiful creatures too. Some time passed and then I saw to creatures that I could only described as fairies and they were building me wings. Normally my mind would be going 'what the fuck' but I was in complete awe and was at a level of consciousness where everything made sense. I started to feel a spinning above my head and came to realize that it was a halo. I was being told that I was divine. (note I have never been a religious person in my life, or believed in anything supernatural before). After I finished meditating I was on a meditative high and was a bit blown away. However, this is where the seriously weird shit happened. About 20 minutes after my meditation I started to get the uncontrollable muscle tensions in my body. This only happened in meditation before. They slowly started getting stronger and stronger and were happening all over my body, my arm would tense up and move on it's own, my jaw would clench and move around etc. my whole body was just doing whatever the fuck it wanted and I had no control. Then I started masturbating, but it felt like someone else was doing it because I has such small control over my own body. My body or whatever was controlling my body intuitively knew what to do, and even put my finger up my asshole, something I have never done before and usually would absolutely not do. (Sorry for the explicit detail, but all of this really happened to me and I want to be completely honest about it, I hope you aren't eating whilst reading this lol). My body was still moving on it's own after this and I became very warn out, like all the energy was being sucked out of me. I tried to sleep but couldn't my body felt so strange and my whole understanding of the reality wasn't the same and I don't think ever will be again. As of writing this it's the following day and i'm extremely worn out physically. My consciousness is not the same and everything looks different to me now, I am not panicking but I am bewildered by this experience. After research it sounds like a Kundalini awakening , but if anyone has any information, insight or has had a similar experience then I would love to know what you think of all this, I don't think I will ever be the same again.

Thanks for the response. I do not feel energy movement throughout my body 24/7 today it is on and off, or at least that's the only way I can describe it. Parts of my body are tensing and moving on their own but not constantly, and I can freely move around now for the most part. The biggest change is the change in my consciousness, my perception of everything is different, small things that would annoy me are not annoying me at all and I feel somewhat detached from everything, but not in a negative way. It doesn't sound quite like a kundalini awakening as you describe it, but it also doesn't feel like a one time energy release because I am still feeling effects now. Now I am even more confused!

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