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No worries. ? And tnx, it's my favorite movie.❤️

And you look beautiful ?? Now, was it anything more?

Hahahaha. Nope.

What do you mean?

I remember, my bad girl ex. I said, "You can't do it. It's too big." She said, "I accept your challenge." She did it, effortlessly. She said, "Why are you shivering, is it your first time?" I just laughed. I said, "We don't have money. My friends and I need you to help us with a dealer target." She said, "What do I need to do?" I said, "Just act like you are buying from him. We will take him when time comes." She did, effortlessly. Now we had it all, weed and powder. We sniffed, smoked, had sex - repeat. For the whole week. This dealer had more than enough... This dealer had more than enough. ?

Being back, I said "Do you want to smoke weed?" She said, "Yes." So we smoked. Talked. Then she said, "I have about 30 personalities." I said, "Tell me about them." Ready to get fuck out of there. But she didn't mention any pshycopath, fortunately... But she did mention... A war veteran. So I smoked the joint... I said, "I have to go now." She said, "But we haven't done it." I said, "I don't like doing it the first time. Next time probably." I never saw her again. It's was fascinating due... Magical... Extraordinary... Scary. Just the way I like it.

She turned into a 6-year old girl. Right in front of me. She said, with a very light voice, "Hey, my name is Ingrid." I thought, I had to keep it cool until she returned. I said, "Hey Ingrid." She said, "Do you want to play with me." My body, I feel it now as I'm writing this. Scary shit. I said, "Okay Ingrid, what do you want to play?" She went and got some play cars. We pushed them back and forth to each other. I said, sensing that she was harmless, "Do you like it, Ingrid?" She said with a smile, "Yes." I said, "Good." I almost couldn't look her in the eyes. I said, "How old are you Ingrid?" She said, "I'm 6-year old." She then asked me, "How old are you? I said," I'm 22." And about an hour went by. I saw it, she came back now. She said, "Sorry, I know what happened, but I couldn’t control it." I said, "It's all fine, it's all fine." It's all fine.

I have gone through it all. All. The dark night of the soul has nothing he could do to me. Child's play. Now, I see. It's evolution. From this to that, to that and to this. I say, fellow devils, I have gone through what you all have gone trough. And more. But God, the Supreme, in which no man in flesh is Him... He created a soul, a spirit which he Breathed into me... He then breathed His Love into it... That's why I went through everything... And here I still am. What an adventure it was. Full circle. And here I am. Stronger than never before. Stronger than never before. What an adventure.

The Supreme. For all I have done. For all that which has happened. I was not worthy of His presence. But Ay, Surely He came to me. The most Good. The most Pure. By Him I was created. By Him my soul recieved it's breath. By Him, my soul recieved His Love. And it told me, "All is good my child. I know everything you have gone through." It told me, "I am your God, I am your Creator..." "And I love you. I have always loved you." "I love you." All Good He is. His Love... Put my very soul to rest, forever... Forever.

Praise be to God. They say He doesn't come down to us. I say, He came to me. He came to me. His Love is still living in me. Changed me. Transformed me. The One who formed me in my precious mothers womb... With care and love. I say, believe whatever the fuck you want... The living Supreme came to me. I remember it vividly. Thinking about it... I cannot help but cry. For He showed me what I am worth. I am worth His very fuckings love. He showed me that I am loved. Not by any man. Nay, by GOD HIMSELF! My soul is in rest. My soul is in rest.

It was my very father, the hell he brought to me... To the point of hating him. He made me feel unworthy, unloved. My soul, veiled by darkness. By darkness. Drugs, hookers... The only way I could run away, forget... Then I couldn’t take it anymore... Looking 100 feet down, I was ready to jump and end it all. End it all. But no, my soul couldn't jump... I thought about my precious mother, how she always have been there for me.. No, I couldn’t jump. I couldn’t do that to her... I couldn’t do that to her... I had to live... For her. For her. And the Supreme, He showed me that I need not my fathers love. Ay, I need nothing now. For His Love. His Love annihilated all. His Love annihilated all.

I remember, in my darkest of darkest days... How I, in despair, was ready to jump... But somehow, in that very moment, my soul told me..."You better jump now or find your way out." And my spirit couldn't jump. Nay, my spirit couldn't jump. I had my loved ones to live for... I had my loved ones to live for... Then I meet you, my God. And You gave me some of Your Supreme Absolute Unconditional Love... And from that day, I know, Oh I know... It was the very reason I couldn’t jump. It was for that very reason.

Praise be to The One. The Almighty. The Supreme. The Good. The Pure. The God. Saviour of my very soul. When I was in darkness and despair. None but You, O God, saved my very soul. When You breathed your Love into me. And I knew, I fuckings knew, I am loved. I am loved. By the Supreme Himself. I am loved. I am loved. All glory and praise be to God! The saviour of souls!

I remember, when I meet God. My face turned away. I couldn’t look. So Supreme He is. Breathed His Divine Love into me. And I wonder now? Why me? After all the sins I have done? But I know, I know there are no sins in God's eyes. And I know, His Love is Absolute. For I am His very Creation. I am His child. I am His child.

Full circle. From bad to good boy. From human to spirit and back to human. From theist to agnostic, to full consciousness of God. They say, "Change yourself." I say, "This is how God created me." They say, "How do you know God exists." I say, "I have meet Him." They say, "Hahahaha." I say, "Laugh to your very last breath. ?" ---------- Satan came to me in a dream once and said, "Why don't you go back to your old bad boy days, just enjoy life fully? Take on some black leather jacket, buy some drugs and hookers. " I said, "I have a soul now." I have a soul now. I said, I have gone full circle. Full circle.

I remember this woman... She said, "We did it and I could be your mother. " I said, "Yes, twice actually." She said, "I have a syringe, lay down and let me plug it." I said, "Be careful due." She said, "Don't worry, I have been a nurse." I remember, my reckless days... Beautiful black leather jacket... A bad boy... Hookers, drugs, stimulus. All I knew... Untouched, careless, reckless. I said, "How much?" She said, "500." I said, "Okay, where do we do it?" She said, "I have a car." I said, "Okay but do you want smoke some weed after we are done." She said, "I only sniff, I don't like smoking." I said, "No worries, I have that too." She pulled a knife on me, said "Are you with someone?" I said, "No." She said, "Give me your credit card." I said, "Here." She said, "I know where to find you now if something goes wrong." I said, "I just want to buy some." She said, "Swallow this with me and give me 200." I swallowed it and gave her 200. I awoke the next day in her bed, having done it twice. She said, "You know where to find me if you need more." I said, "I do." Meet her four times in a row after that day. ? ?

I said, "Why do you cut yourself? She said, "I have one me now, you want to try?" I said, "You can't take it all down your mouth." She said, "Is that a challenge?" I told my love about this forum. She said, "Never talk about it again." I told a woman with cancer, "I promise you, there is no reason to fear death. It's all good." She said, "I don't care about it. Do you have any drugs?" Bad girls, reckless, care less. Oh, devilish girls, my fellow kind... What would we have done without them... ?

The same woman who would turn into a 6-year old girl. Scary... Fascinating... Extraordinay. Creation, pure Omnipotent will at play. May God return her to Him when He see fits, leaving no trace of her. Leaving only His Love, leaving only His Love.

I remember, this woman. I asked her, "Why do you cut yourself?" She said, not answering why, "I have one on my now little friend, you want to try?" ?

You can reincarnate again and yet again! The Quran says, "By God we were created and to Him we shall return." You can reincarnate again and yet again! To our God, your God, you shall return. If God didn't want me to be ME, surely God would have created me in another way. But no, this is what I am. And this is God's will. This is God's will.

Oh devils, fellow devils, for too long you have rejected yourself. This is what causes your suffering. Always wanting more, always struggling to become more. Oh devils, fellow devils, hear my words. You are the most Supreme Creation of the One and Only God. Oh devils, fellow devils, hear my words. The God, the most Supreme, designed and formed you in your mothers womb with care and love. The God, the most High, did not create you for you to deny yourself. Nay, only to fully accept and embrace yourself! Only to fuckings love yourself with the very love your Creator breathed into you! This is the most Good, this is GOD! Oh devils, fellow devils, He created you in His image. Our God, your God, is the most Good. Not without, not without intent and will, did God create you the way you are! So I say, fellow devil, embrace yourself and testify to yourself with the very spirit God breathed into you... There is no God but God! All glory and praise be to the One and Only worth of any glory and praise!

All glory be to The God. All glory be to The God. The most Supreme, The One and Only. His will is the will of all. It is by His will that I'm capable of writing this. O, it is by His will that I am here! Not to deny myself, not to deny parts of myself. No, God created me as I am, as I have been and as I shall become. He created my magnificent body. So I could use my unique fingers and touch, feel the sensetations. He created my mind so I could think, dream and project. This is what seperates me from an animal. O, His will created me the way I am. Nay, not to deny myself. No, only to accept myself. And I know, Oh I know, God's will shall awaken all to Him. When death comes, the ultimate absolute awakening. So I say, for now I shall enjoy what the Almighty has given me. I shall and can awaken later. This is my God's grace to all. This is our God's Love and selfless Goodness. All shall awaken to Him. I say, no matter who you are, no matter what you do... You shall awaken to your very God! You shall awaken to The God! This is God's grace and love. This is God's will. No hate, no ugliness comes out of the most Good, the most Pure. So I say, the only awakener is the Supreme! The only awakener is the Supreme! I say, this life is to be enjoyed as it was made to. Oh, fellow devils, you are to be enjoyed as you were created. For death is coming to all. Awakening is coming to all. This is God's love and grace. This is God's will. All glory and praise be to the most High, the most Good. There is no God but God! There is no God but God!

Indeed, it was suffering which lead me to the spiritual path. But going full circle, I have come to embrace and accept it. Instead of trying to run away from it. I'll suffer when I suffer. It's part of reality, part of myself. Full circle. You can put that on your 2000 enlightenment rating ?

All praise and glory be to God. The Supreme. The Good. The Pure. In His image, I was made. In His image, my love was made. I see nothing but perfection and divinity in her. My heart beats for her. My love and soul lives for her. Ay, nothing, even my own mother, I couldn’t say I love more than my love. Equally, yes. But not more, not more. And this I fully know. I fully know. Ay, this is no girlfriend-boyfriend bullshit. Nay, this is love. Ay, this is no temporary bullshit. Nay, this is forever. Not death itself can tear it apart. Nay, there was no love before this. Ay, I am her first true love. Her one and only first love. This she has told. This I know fully well. This I'm fully conscious of. Nay, this love is not ordinary. Ay, this love is extraordinary. Nay, I give little fuck about others love. Ay, their love is not mine. Not this. Ay, not this. Not this.

This love has no opposite. This love is absolutely individuated. This love, this human being, I would sacrifice my own life for her if I had to... Not thinking twice. Nay, not for a second think twice. This love, my love, I would kill anyone if I had to in order to save her life... Not thinking twice about it. Nay, not for a second think twice about it. Not for a second. Don't tell me to love a rapists equally to my love. Nay, I love her more than him. Ay, I love her more than YOU. And I'm not ashamed to say it... Nay, not for a second.