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Yes, I'm done... It has been done. Tnx brother. You are extraordinary. My words cannot do justice, you are beyond words. Indeed, I love you. Simply because you are me, simultaneously not me. Beautiful. It's time to fix myself. It's time to leave spritual work behind, focus on personal work.

I don't deny it, somehow I'm conscious of God and simultaneously a fuckings mess. I don't deny it anymore, I have found out what I am, but I have totally ignored doing even the slightest work on who I am, even a slightest work of what they call personal devolopment, shadow work etc. I found myself, at the same time I ignorered myself. It's time to go now God...

Haha sorry for the question Nahm, what a deluded question which only I can find out, using the very source to guide me of course. God, the dark side of spirituality is made conscious of now, it has made me both conscious and a mess simultaneously. @Nahm

@The Awakened Vikingtnx?? You are right. The truth is that I can't help but turn into this "actor", when I see everyone around me playing it. But this is what everyone with this problem needs to hear. There is a solution, a change can happen without the need to play an illusion if you don't want to, at the same time accepting it fully even if everyone around you is unconscious of it, for the undeniably true and real permanent thing is that we are all awareness, no matter if we are unconscious of it. Awareness is primordial, what we are, our entire direct experience and visual field. It's there eternally, beyond consciousnesses and unconsciousness. The only solution, as I see it, is to dissolve the power of fear and fuckings change myself. Nothing and no one needs to change, but myself and my delusions. I'm conscious of this now. Acceptance is key. I accept now everything as it is. The only question, if not the powerful actor, what should one become and how to?

Yeah, I have a lot of inner work and fine tuning to do, immensly. I literally isolated myself for years, in order to figure out what I am, after watching Mooji. It's time to leave it behind now, focusing on this supposed problem with all I have, even if it takes me years. I don't want to become some kind of super human or God around anyone, or some illusion. But there is surely other choices, it's just that I see the illusory game to much, to the point of others seeing it even. But I can't help see what I see, in myself included. I will overcome this due. Tnx ? @Anna1 tnx, your insights are good and helpful ?

@Anna1 Yeah, there is no problem with being in the present moment for me, my problem is when others try to drag me down to the illusion and look at me as non-human for refusing to do so. It's like an ant becoming conscious around non-ants, becoming then conscious that these non-ants are in fact ants themselves s, then becoming conscious that all these ants are unconscious that they in fact are ants but cannot help but being unconscious of it and thus acting like non-ants.

I see, sense, feel and are conscious that my fellow beings including myself is "acting" as One illusion aka the ego or person, everyone acting as their unique illusion. And I can see that they are unconscious of it. This is painful to see, but once you see it you can't deny it. And when I act as this illusion, I can't feel anything but suffer inside cuz I'm conscious it's not me! I believe we have a choice in this matter but are too afraid to take it.

I can't play this fuckings game anymore, this game of pretending and fear, I have becomed too conscious of it. Too conscious that I'm nothing=God=Everything to play the silly game of being a "someone". I have taken a one-directed process/path for too long and too far, to the point of feeling it's impossible to be with others than an illusory actor. But I know it isn't impossible. But when you see your fellow beings literally unconsciously playing a game of one mega personal disorder and literally look at you as insane for not playing along, I don't know what to do.

Nice. I was turned into the spiritual supernatural realm days after meditation. When that passed, it took like 2 years to finally become conscious that I'm The One and Only aka God. Now it's time for the other thing I'm not so gifted with: How to be with my fellow beings. I think beginning with my energy field is crucial as energy is fundamental.

When all is dissolved, what shall remain is love-awarness, the pure energy of love can literally annihilate anything - like light illuminates darkness in an instant. Decide how you want to appear, don't give this choice away to anyone. It's not spirituality against the person or ego, it's only two things: 1. What and who you are - this can be made conscious of. 2. How and what you become around your fellow beings - you can become conscious of this. Both ought to be worked upon to it's very core.

? Never the less Person=Prison Non-person-freedom I can't deny that altough I'm conscious that I am the One (call it whatever) that the power of the One to be living as a human is undeniably the Omnipotent will of God. And the desire to grow and develop oneself as a individuated human being, that is as well the will of God. Yes, it's always love in the end of everything. ?❤️

Depends on you of course, you want it to take longer time, work on the person. You want to do the real direct hardcore work, see the "person" and everything making it up as the mind-created illusion that it is and literally consciously drop it, and operate from a more auhentic level of consciousness and awarness. This will also purify, open up, and uplift your energy field.

Lol. Genuine spiritual work gone far enough will literally annihilate any trace of personhood, make it so obvious that it's an illusion that you have no choice but to operate from another level.

@Bryanbrax There is no person, you can consciously decide to behave like a person aka a robot or as pure being/awareness/energy. Devolopment is fundamental due, if you just develop yourself truly and properly. Deveolping an illusion like the person is not only a waste of time, it's pure delusion. A man doesn't treat illusion like it's real.

Altough you are God and even the supposed ego itself is God, God made this reality in a way where you as a finite being will never be beyond or in any possible way greater than the Godhead itself. It's undeniably true, no matter how conscious a finite being becomes of itself, be it temporary or permanent, there will always be a greater power above you. This is called the Godhead, the One who gave you the possibility of a life, of saying "I'm God". With this statement, one has to be very careful. GOD=GOD YOU=YOU

It depends on how you view direct experience. As pure Awarness, it will never die. As "you", the ego and everything which makes it up, you will quite probably perish. As God, you are Immortal etc. But as the finite ego, you will invetiably die. You are both God and not. See?

It's painful many times, when I feel down and I can sense that I'm giving out low frequency energy, and I can feel, sense and see when others around get negatively affected by it. And it goes the other way around as well. I know for a fact that I have to become a proper vessel for all this energy, in order to uplift others and myself. Energy is fundamental in all interactions, more so than the mind. Maybe it's not as fundamental as conscious awarness, but energy and awarness undeniably go hand to hand.

@Matt8800 It's one thing which hasn't left me yet and no one but me knows this yet, and that is the energy thing. No one knows it, but I can literally feel and sense energy, sometimes it gets absorbed in me and I can feel it cuz it comes like an electric shoot, sometimes powerful and other times not so powerful. I can't see it and absorbe it to me like I used to, or help others by giving them energy from myself, but it hasn’t to this day left completely. It's both a blessing and a curse. Sometimes it simply gets too much, if I'm in a low frequency all I feel and sense is low frequency energy, even dark ones. If I'm up there, it's all good. I just have to figure out what and how to deal with this. It's ultimately a blessing if I only could handle it properly. I think I must begin the work now, I haven't becomed so conscious of this fact until now.

Yeah, that's what I thought as well about these prophets doing miracles. Yeah, God is beyond understanding etc. Just one last question, how do you view yourself in relation to the All? Seperate? A part of it? Or simply it? Surely, since it's The All/The One, you cannot be seperated from it?

Been there, several times. The pain of spirituality is to deal with it's dark side aka the ego. You are being shown yourself to yourself, you are now literally slowly being shown and made aware of "you" - not to hold you down, but to do something about it, to grow from it, to become stronger from it. As you become conscious of the darkness within you, you will become conscious of the undeniable darkness of the ego within everyone. If you go far enough you can even sense it, see dark energy playing itself out - this is because everything is inter-connected as One energy. It's like God asking you "What will you do now, overcome this or let it drag you down?" "Will you give up or go all the way?" For many, giving up is not an option. They have gone to far and deep into it for it to even be an option.

@Chakra Lionhttps://m.youtube.com/watch?v=f2dA46aYMm4&t=204s

For some reason I want to share this experience of mine from a long time ago. Take from it whatever you like. This is to insipire you, fascinate you, to show you just how magical reality truly is. I hope. ? I remember in the good old days when I was in a radical and extreme state of consciousness where I experienced a lot of crazy, seemingly impossible and simply cool stuff which I won't go into detail here. I was watching a video on youtube where a guru gave someone intense shaktipat and somehow I absorved that energy into myself, I could see and feel the energy entering me directly from my computer (no joke). Then I just closed my eyes and let it do whatever. In the instant I closed my eyes, the mind created very vividly all kinds of images which I could vividly see and not control to the point of becoming scary. Then a spirit guide or something came, I think it was the gurus spirit or a spirit which the guru created to come to my aid. But I remember that I (ego) for some reason couldn't surrender to this spirit. I think because of all the light, it was literally made out of light. So my ego-mind or something got it away, and my eyes continued being closed until these images went away. Then I remember just going to the toilet taking a pee, wondering what and how this could happen. Just thinking of this reminds me of just how magical reality is. ❤️

@Chakra Lion Just search on youtube "live recording of Intense shaktipat on tantra practioner". It's probably the first video that poops up, that one with the tantra practioner sitting and the guru standing with full white dress. True and real power shown by the guru.

It's true because I see what I see from direct experience. Buddhism has yet deeper to go, the fact that it sometimes denies the existence of God and is too focused on the emptiness part, proves that.

From what I remember, you came to me for help. So who is who's kiddo here?