Vipassana

Been a habitual smoker for about 2 years. Went through a lot of deception and now I am finally ready to give the plant the respect it deserves and stop abusing it. I have some mushrooms left and im planning to take it to introspect this addiction and conquer it. Basically playing the victim game and stalling out the clock until i sabotage myself which then might extrinsically motivate me to quit but that is a recipe for deception. If you guys have any advice on how to take a methodical approach and make the most out of this sacred experience.

Doesn't get more authentic than this.

This might be my life purpose

@Sri Ramana Maharshi Thank you so much that was perfectly explained.

@deci belle good question. maybe i just want another distraction since im gonna be sober

@Slade im planning to take it then sit for meditation

I have no idea how to articulate this but i'll give it a try. I've been experiencing moments through out the day where my mundane often overlooked rationalizations and meaning collapses and i often burst into a blissful utterly meaningless laugh or i have moment of self deception where i feel like im deluding myself. I have hundreds of mini insights occurring on the subtle parts of my psyche through out the day although they are very abstract and i cant really recall them. I am basically floating on a psychological trip where shit literally doesn't exist until i put my awareness to it and even that is fallible. I just need some insights on how to become grounded and gain clarity. i've been meditating for about year now, not eating animals even tho i eat vegan junk, and been listening to theory but i also my own addictions and neurosis. i dont really know what answer i am expecting from you guys but lmk if u have any insights on how to understand this mind fuck

@Joseph Maynor probably because of my zen devilry. i m addicted to smoking weed and i justify my addiction using pseudo spirituality

@ajasatya i meant my comment dawg, i was deceiving myself as i was typing

@Vipassana This reply ^ = Self Deception P 3 intro lmaoo

@ajasatya He's speaking thru itself, as itself, to itself, living within itself, dying to itself forever and ever. No Leo, NIRVANA, SHIVA, VISHNU, JESUS, MAHAVERA, perfect, elegant, no need for growing up

@Leo Gura He'll lose all his fur. He just needs 2-CB up his ass.

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just installed these habits bc of how much attachment i had towards whacking my meat to pixels on the screen. any advice?

Great advice guys! Im about a week in and i am enjoying both of these. I have a lot of inner neurotic energy which i would usually release but now im being mindful of the process and thinking in terms of solitude and perseverance. The little war i am in with myself before my cold shower is the place for most growth for myself. but anyways, im planning to no fap for 90 days then do a 7 day dark room retreat, wanna get in touch with my kundalini energy

Equanimity comes when you're aware of the negative emotions arising and passing however you're drowning in this wisdom / realization everything is changing every moment

As you start experiencing the Negative Emotions, turn your awareness into your body sensations. There is always a subtle annoying body sensation so just at that moment just ask yourself "What am i avoiding in this moment that is true?"

I had one of my peak emotional experience after completing the 23 minute guided meditation whilst peaking on LSD. Its honestly something there is no way I can describe with words. I was having an confusing trip where I couldn't let go of my phone because I didn't want to stare at the big ass elephant in the room however after doing the guided meditation, I gained ultimate clarity. But my point is If you're having a difficult trip, don't hesitate to watch leo for a short amount of time because you will gain much clarity over what is happening as you're tripping balls

day 2

Eat a shit ton of clean healthy fats and work out.

@playdoh watch leo's experiences with psychedelics, even if you don't want to take them, "Leo does Mushrooms" is a great video to gain a understanding why shit feels mundane and why we think sex, money and drugs are the only emotional peaks we can reach.

literally everything is Deception until we escape the materialist paradigm. The fact that this is a forum and we watch leo to tell us this shit is itself a deception. Your every experience / connection with the universe should be like a self help leo person but its not leo bc it infinite.

I've been in that loop for about a year now, im only 18 and haven't yet constructed a tangible purpose for myself. I am and have been half ass aware of this deception for about a month and now I finally took some action and bought the life purpose course. Now 3/4 through the course definitely have a lot insights on what I want to be doing on this planet but I act like a victim when it comes to family pressure. However I live in a city of infinite opportunities so going to get growth for a few more years using all the tool I can regardless of my ego being stroked. I meditate everyday but thats about it. All the times I watched leo over the last year I was so unconscious whilst the video was playing, I can now watch any video and gain shit ton of insights loool. But yeah the purpose of this comment was shit always changing dawg. Everything changes. Stay woke.

language is the biggest fucking barrier