Strikr

Don't worry it's not my goal I'll first remove every human on earth, and inseminate myself into a giant incubator until I become the singularity of our race then multiplicate at the exact good number for earth to be healthy. the best way to create a healthy earth is just removing humanity entirely edit : I read you, ok I get you, I m a bit close from your perspective. I integrated but I never access this incredible apathetic thinking paradigm that "normies" have. it's exactly my conclusion, it's even worst now, cause you "validated" my dread pattern bias ( that we are all slave, and that our life is "slave creation", not " enlightened happy life" ) I m not advocating against a part or other, slave is a perspective. ant are slave to their queen, it's order of nature, we are slave to our lords, some sounds stupid and narcissic, but maybe all this knowledge and power is creating the disease in their mind. They are nature, we all are, not aware of being born a byproduct from it, we makes others macro byproduct. We are slave, but is it really bad ? ( to me yes but what can I do about it ? ) of course your post will never makes humans accept your reality, it's over dreadful for them. Don't even try to tell them they are slave, they just think you insult them, not that you are "serious" already accepting to be a ant slave in ant life, no one want to see himself like this.

All I know as an "adhd" with too many thought and mind trap. ( I don't know if adhd is real, but sure I m a big neurotic ) ( every word could trigger in my mind a story ) put me out of reality. I did that almost my whole life ( loose my "reality" and be full in my thought / imagery ) people call me dreamy. I think I experienced skyzophrénia on LSD ( hearing voice in air who wasn't here, having imagery poping in my brain for no reason ( like anime picture ), then I draw from full instinct ) it's like I overpowered my instinct ( as an artist ) maybe even too much to the point I couldn't draw "straight build", it was abstract and very messy I did Ritalin 1 year, it's the contrary of lysergic acid on the perception of pattern ( makes you not see any pattern in things ). Put down your "instinct"/mind recognition pattern to "death". Can induce problem, but I will not advocate against. ( maybe that should only taken sporadically in a "big case" ; because of health problem it induce ) For me it could have helped, because of self reflection while on it ( what does it change in me, why, etc.. ) so maybe drug is a band aid solution, but the end work is to integrate what drug teach you. It's still impossible "to work" capitalist without drug for me ( weed a tons pls ), I contemplate everything or play stupid video games while sober ( try to read, but after 5 pages I lost ALL my focus ) all I can tell is that it took away most of my instinctive pattern emotion recognition ( the antipsychotic ritalin ). ( sometimes it can be good, but not for making music, as it is an emotional flow trigging adventure ) makes me super engineering things to the point of insane stupidity though ( couldn't be aware of me tweaking endlessly a bass, and forgeting the whole picture ) drug can be good, and worst, I was craving for ritaline the 2 first days, but weed helped with that ( but I read that weed makes fucked skyzophrénic people ) I would tell you to take the less antipsycho that you can and take it when you really feel that you need it.. ( for a crisis or something ) why do you cry ? I never cry since 4 years ( am I dead ? ), I wish I could... only crisis dread took me last month, only because a philosophical thought pass into my mind ( probably because of realisation on LSD ) and makes me realize that nothing fucking matter. LSD doesn't cured my ego, it convinced my nihilistic view I guess everyone doesn't react well to drug depending the context. be careful with your use, but as I don't know you, use drug if inside you, you really feel you need them. you can't be a psychopath if you liked animals ( I suppose ) it's a brain problem psychopaty ( I read about ) you are already without feeling like everyone else at 5 when you're a real psychopath ( in the brain ), you probably live on a nihilistic view on life ( like me ) / or apathetic philsosophy kind of. I don't believe any humans are equal, it's a fact, and a delusion to believe everyone can learn the same things, understand the same. so I wish I could help, but most of the solutions should be integrated by you, depending where you are. No one can really understand you, this is probably why you feel bad ? 6 month it's fucking long against me I m 24 and never had a single relationship, even if girl look for me ( I m beautiful ), I m insanely weird though and rude ( INTP ), and don't supporte people on a basic, I can act and play my role and get sex if really I would, but I like having this metaphysical mystery ( I fear to lose hope for my life If there is no meaning in sex ) ( yes I stupid thought ) but my mind trick me to leave girls before I do it each times. ( I hate social speech, I m addicted to learning and meta speeching / talking art/science ) I forget about relationship, hope destiny will help me on this. I want something that looks like true love and not an artificial relationship. you'll feel like crap for many times if you did drug for a long run, ( like 2 month if you take it more than 4 years ) 1 month if you take it 1 year. ( kind of ) depend of a lot of things though can't tell, depend on the whole context (health, sleep, dosage .. etc. ) it depend, get healthy food, try to sleep well, listen relaxing music ( psytrance for me when I start feeling bad ) keep using your drug, and use it the less that you can.. if you can.

Don't take any leo word at the first degree ( depending your context ) ( especially if it trigger existential crisis ) you're no more full of shit than everyone else, we all are, it's all about discipline and not loosing the idea that we all come from a context, so respect even people who sound full of shit, not that they shouldn't be condemn for it, but is it really smart to push ideology on people ? if your ideology is BETTER, people will probably integrate it by following you, because you should be inspiring, and makes people having an internal want for change. no speech, no fact will makes them change, instead of living into proselytism, be a resonating energy

humm I don't know if it's about fear, I m just anxious, because I've always been as I remember , born weirdo ( my thinking always as been seen as weirdo ), I mean I couldn't put word on this. I had anxiety panick like shit when I was a child like at 13 ( wasn't aware it was this, I didn't have word for my feeling ) like wanting to vomit almost each morning when waiting for the bus to school or trying to get real disease to not having to go to school ( and playing more video games, even if I was sick ) ( only because school takes me at anxiety land, I almost supported everyone around me, never had true friend before art school ( I was friend with everyone though at school ( preventing trouble ) but never "very close" to the point talking love and green shit haha ), omg I loved college for the people though so much more ( cause I could fucking "choose" with who I want to hang out, I started having this "social life dream" after all my nerd life ) ( in my country it's free for college, I should mention ) so I quit ( endless trap, no "real knowledge" to my viewpoint ) Was completely fogged into online game before," it's my drug", I always told that to people before even thinking trying drug a day. ( I was in fact anti smoking everything, anti drug ) until maybe 18. Probably I should understand why I m seeking addictive behavior since my whole life ? ok stop talking

thanks joseph, will try to nourrish a lot my "why I should quit" and integrate, try your idea with real work maybe lot of good can comes from stoping my dependance from it, I know it can be as simple as a decision take in 5 minutes, but in my current context I can't see it right now. All my environnement is depending upon me fonctionnal and wanting to get out of my room. ( that is hard when I don't smoke .. ) I never be a social guy before. ( and Djing and meeting people randomly can sometimes be anxiety taking ) anyway, my mind will trick me to see only the good with it. can't be neutral I suppose, I do not have a good perspective on this maybe.. I m the overdrug weed friend everyone watch smoking joint on joint at "party/group meeting". so the problem is I shouldn't frequent my self ( if you know what I mean haha ) I don't really no, I m probably deluded now by all the good it gives me, but there is some bad, like having to take a substance to be "efficient", I just need to "reificient" my self maybe in other way, maybe be more efficient than over doing, this is maybe weird but maybe it can work better for me. I know it's stupid thinking that I have more "value" or something on it, I m probably a bit delusional now because of all the validated good it gives to my life. Probably it stole a lot of good that I didn't see aswell, I didn't regret any penny put in it though.

I do not have chemical addiction problem beside weed ( drink only water, and eat mostly fruit and good food ) really I drop all my addiction for this one, this is my addiction of value. Using tobacco in my joint though, could be this that makes me "crave" ( like 40% tobacco ) I never smoke tobacco for "real" ) but probably it's like 2/3 cigaret per day in the end, wish I could make them "pure". probably weed isn't the real thing that makes me crave, but I underestimate something I miss the good section of the forum ( sorry ) ( I read "health" and didn't see the one on addiction ) should I remove the topic ? or a moderator move it in the right section ?

triggering in 3 . .. 2 ... 1 .. what if the wrong paradigm shift was starting to believe in a budha type of delusion who makes you believe everyone else/everything is a delusion. yes they are, but who are you to believe that your illusion is better. All of you ( not all ) act like new god fanatic, true fanatic or not, you look like fanatics. ( as JP and his fan looks aswell ) I find it very stupid to tell that jordan peterson has nothing to offer ( people who told about "lines" and joking around, are you fucking mindless ? )even if he is a pill of shit, where is the radical open mind ? like him or hate him, doesn't make him "full of shit". I m currently studying Hitler Philosophy, so what's wrong about ? I m Hitler and Goebels and his dog what is wrong about letting everything be ? maybe because like Marc Aurèle told, human are a part of nature; why fight nature, maybe you're all acting in face of nature, maybe it's my nature to not be allowed to believe in a "higher order" maybe that how the world is and will ever be ( or not, I m not propheting anything ) I believe in a higher order aswell without individual materialism, washed from all orange and blue value, but not for a "turquoise world", something more like a yellow society. A turquoise society even if it was a possibility, would need a serious yellow society, and that for decades ( even century ) maybe ..You should work on making people embody yellow and pure yellow, talking on a yellow open mind. Because turquoise value reflect probably a bit crazy in people who lack a bit of open mindedness. The idea that the society is "divided" in liberal/conservatism is not that bad. I dreamed about a full society of turquoise, and it's a delusion. I meditate the idea JP was talking about, and maybe this is true, real order comes aswell from order and chaos. a stupid idea model : A world full of order ? ( conservatism ) / order A world full of liberal ? ( open minded ) / chaos the world is completely balanced has it is ? no ? guess where would be the entire human race if we are all turquoise ? sure not masturbating on VR, but still, there would be no art. A life without art is meaningless, isn't it ? do you mean art is a drug for cure the death of god ?! Turquoise would have a lot of problem as well. Just dream of you "perfect earth" and contemplate how meaningless it is to have such a dream. ( or not, I will makes no claim on how you should view the world ) even if we all attain turquoise, the world would never be at peace. what caused orange and blue was "nature violence". People watching their loved one die, and because of fear of nature started to become "utilitarian" . I suppose something like. This is why it's so hard to change. You're probably a part of nature, a part of nature can't be aware of "being it". so we all live in our own delusion to our system. There is no high as there is no low, everything is in "space" it's all a matter of perspective. ( everything ) it's leo who told in a video, the best way to makes it is believe in a higher illusion ( because the mind operate from illusion ) ( not sure, but the sentence was in my mind ) -> not sure on the video and the sentence. " why people seams crazy " where is Rick from Rick & Morty in the spiral ? black yellow ? do you think I m full of shit ?

Fair enough, he still sound a lot like a part of your dark side, or maybe your old dark side then ! what about everyone is everything ? isn't peterson a part of you that you deny ? the only things that makes me cringe in your video is your own mirror agenda, maybe he has this "orange side" but you can't deny he has lot of yellow aswell in his mind. ( I'll not believe in spiral as truthness tool though, it's like IQ in a society, you believe your own archetypal of IQ, your is called spiral dynamics .. can you see ? ) maybe lot of us are still orange, but still lot your green sides makes you a bit of a biased idealist. my 2 cent, but talking about "god" makes a christian assumption, you should as nietzshe and create your own word for talking of your own concept never use the word god would be better in the futur maybe for your credibility ( from my frequency view point )