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the shift is only in the mind, I worked like "hell" 14 hours a day on multiple stimulant/ ( weed, ritalin, thea ) after taking 4 step back with some psyche, I understand now why I couldn't start my business, even if my skill is "high" now. this makes me realise that I dig so much that I wasn't seeing the light anymore ( kind of the idea ) ( too much work ) ( I m on computer ) ) I wasn't focus that much on monney, but in my case, this is a bit of a problem aswell. There is tons of "work" to do, on many aspect, not only the thing you want to buss Some musician around me, are so much into monney, that their music has no soul, they just push and push on people or create value in their social relationship to them, they are little guru. reality is : there is almost no shortcut in "making it" in fact the road is all there is ( you'll see.. ) it's knowledge, self reflection, and work on taking the good road for yourself. But dreaming is one thing, you should act the music inside you. that's exactly like leo told, there is no "recipe" to success ( what is success anyway ) do you reflect that you really want to be rich ? what's for ? fuck hookers and then end your life because you never had this fulfilling meaning inside you, you should create a powerful meaning for your entire life, it's better than monney ( I m not sayin monney is bad or good, it depend a lot, like many things ) Monney can bliss you, or she can makes you miserable. Do not start like me to feel ( like I was 2 years ago ) that you're in a bad position because you're not where you want to be. ( this is a mindtrap to "anxiety" ) the mind take action, so take care of it. Why do you think "rich people" can still commit the worst for their life even if from our perspective they are rich, successful and then, should be happy. doesn't work like this.. it's a kid dream. I m not sayin becoming rich isn't a good goal. For instance, me as a creator, I want to be billionnaire. Not for fuck hookers all days or doing coke, but only to create something greater than myself for the whole community. But for being a part of this, I need to take the egocentrical road of my own business. To get the "trust" of people. the hard thing will be to sustain on the road, you'll see the hardest isn't the physical work at all, it's really more about the mind ( and of course you should work/effort ) learn, practice, self reflect, integrate knwoledge that align with your "life purpose". You should create something of value for you, and then share it with the world ( this is only my view, do as you want ) yes there is a recipe, the one you'll write for yourself. it's more easy to read it, than "get it" I m still in the process of getting it. As we will for ever. Even starting with a book as simple as Napoleon Hill could be a good thing when you don't know anything about "mindset business" this was just a part of my road, but I m not sayin this a great book, it depend where you are, and what you can "believe" right now.

I'll never ever be green then LOL. And I always be against orange. In fact I was green when I was a child ( until I transcend to nihilism ) I always protected nature, until people started to run on me and my "green childish way of thinking" I always wanted to cure everyone, to be kind to everyone. But society fucked all this, at 13 I probably shifted to Orange for many years. ( you helped me transcend yellow, so thanks you, even if I m still tainted with many orange in myself ) I have a tons of work to do to live from a true yellow perspective. ( if this mean something ) I just buy nothing, if this is possible. I put 2000€ in my computer on 10 years and I m still having the power to destroy a current mac at 1500 buck. so being green is starting to be holy fucking stupid, cause Apple is made by evil himself. Job > Gates ( it's a joke, I do not believe one of them is better ), they both did LSD btw. ( just a note ) They are both "yellow" living in a orange society. It's not because we all need to act orange to be understand that we all are. ( be aware than when I m saying stupid or smart, it's just talk ) I don't mean it. Everyone is fucking stupid and smart. I m yellow af ( this is why everything is a joke to me ) absurdism and nihilism is largely above green. Green is silly, and I m not talking about a orange perspective, as orange is aswell stupid af to me. yes blabla, what if leo you never transcend green and delude yourself being "yellow", you did display what I would call a yellow thinking, but this day you're abusing acting like a green. ( to my sense ) ( And orange aren't nihilist at ALL. they are egocentric, self centered, they are hedonist at their best ) Nihilism isn't red neither. what do I mean by nihilism ofc, I mean someone who can see the world from ALL perspective and give a sense of meaning at their life from nothingness ) like a computer programmateur, without emotion about the code, just watching how it is working. ( I do not need yoga to have faith and value ( sometimes ), I just pick what I want, like a character in a videogame ), it means, accepting life even to the point of thinking that all the yoga thing is just a path to truth. ( not the truth in itself.. just a way ) like suffering and being an outcast is another one. self reflection is all I was doing since a child, for a lifetime, cause life even on drug ( I mean computer / internet until 21 ) then weed. And even baked off, everything still sounded borring to me ( needed to find meaning in myself ) I never was aware that it had a name ( "self reflection" ) of course I have a tons of work to do on myself as I rush everything. I m not sure all green are open minded, many of them act like it to get profit from society. Like Nietzshe told in his writting ( I m reducing ), there is many philosophers who talks, but all their talks is a dream they create because of the disease in their soul and their feeling of insecurity. Human is incredible to creates solid shit meaning from nothing. Deny it all you want, green/orange. I want to help everyone, so for me all the moral is a human thing, it's not how I conceptualize yellow, and If I m not yellow, it's simple, I'm not at all in the spiral. Tell me now that I m orange if you want, I probably is, like fucking everyone we are born into it, look at your own recent post leo, they all sound orange/green, nothing yellow there. ( or I don't get it, or you're starting to be deluded because of all the dmt : with all my respect and I respect you very much leo. maybe not you to me, though. ) you're just all green thinking you transcend something, it's normal lower stage demonize people at higher tier, so people at lower stage can't get me at all. ( can you see it ? ) [joke] if you was a real turquoise, as it's in the spiral, you would just quit the whole forum/youtube. This forum is the proof you can't transcend green/yellow. ( or leave it ) you need it to walk I conceive. Yellow are creator, yellow are artist without bondary of creation. Artist are above green, but artist comes all from green/orange. green and orange are the same pattern thinking, instead of projecting their ideology on themself they project on dream/associated to their feeling with the world. if this is not a delusion, what is it. If starting to be a hippie was a thing. And I m talking in a life of electronic music maker, everyone around me use drug. And believe me whole those green could all be orange if you really watch deeply everyone. I can't even tell the difference between someone orange or green, they are all egocentric in their way. when green start all to want your green ( weed ), you know they are all a bunch of orange fa* in disguise. ( for the joke ) Hippie/green ( most of you are on the forum ) I don't very like the idea of color though, it's a quick ordering, who isn't very accurate, but not accurate. It's like a big map astrology, of course we see meaning in it. It has been made by guy who believed in budhism firstly. what If I create a spiral dynamic with 3 stages : Idiot, no that idiot, very smart. I could put the whole human race in those case aswell. I'm not denying spiral is a good map, but it's fucking absolutely not the territory. It's over reducing thinking to a meaningless affair of categorizing people by what you perceive . difference with orange, is only that : they are hypocrite, orange are not. They are "evil" but they assume it 100% to being egocentric. now you're all triggered, I liked watch this forum, you're all funny. But you have my respect, it's not easy to work on self and delude his mind at this point. We all have work to do. if someone now come and hang my hand and tell me, all of this was a joke and a dream, I would say, ok .. what's next lvl ? I m not sure many of you would do that. I would be sad that I loved my mother though and that she wasn't real. would makes my body and mind very sad, but I already accepted my faith. If god is all and powerful, why fight against his music ? do your own, god makes all of us musician, god doesn't have judgement he likes everything ( even hate and war ). He just like them beating the world. the dream program us to fight that is clearly the case.. survival/transcend call it how you want.. No matter how. Nietzshe call it the "will of power" and this is accurate. You should focus on the fundamental tone you can hear, not on the cover that you see with your eyes and brain. If there is no evil, god created it by giving us the power to create light or darkness, we should stop the assumption that god want the world to be "perfect and stable", there is probably nothing more than the music, and music is a flow a stream, it never ends, why transcend anything ? transcend all the things you want, but turquoise or red, we all end in the void/infinity call it how you want. So why fight ? study music instead of reading. everyone play his role.

and who is the last genius you read ?

they even write their own little happy comment to makes people buy more

ok leo isn't wrong about JP, there is some gold, but a tons of bs aswell ( as in anything ). He has a agenda being aware of it is great, but if he is a bridge in "spiral dynamic awakening" ( like transcend blue to orange ) where is the bad in it ? maybe we shouldn't demonize him, cause he just do his part. You can't be a "green or yellow" thinker, if you didn't get the limit of "orange/blue" so peterson push those limit on people, is that wrong ? I think in 10 years he will be probably yellow ( or not, who knows ) if he study really more than just making monney maybe he will. But why hate on him ? is popularity is maybe going too far, but he isn't as evil as anyone else ( maybe just be careful listening to him, but this advice work on anything, even you leo ( but you told so, so .. ). He try "to undestand", and that is a good fundamental for advance the whole society. Just imagine a world full of "turquoise", what would happen ? I'll be complete HS, but do you all think of "Nietzshe" ( who is cited many times by peterson ) was a orange ? He was non dual and didn't believe in "moral" or christian value, he doesn't believed in materialistic happiness, he doesn't believed in happiness in fact as a true state, but only like a delusion of english culture. ( he say german wasn't hungry for "having a pleasurable life" he told this is an english delusion value ) I m reading currently Nietzshe and his view on spirituality isn't : blue/orange/green. ( to me ); and he was aware of the WHOLE idea of budhism ( and was thinking it was the most "smart" dogma value, because .. read him if you want to know, me talking about it, I reduce his view on it ) Budhism look a lot like a soft version of nihilism, and most people here are old nihilist. Why "nihilist" are pushed to budhism spirituality ? so maybe he isn't yellow, but he is surely not in the first tier, maybe he is just a bridge to yellow without being one, cause at his time, no one was even "orange/green", but mostly all blue. maybe complete outcast from the spiral, but if you give me his "place", I would watch for cue.

brugluiz > Keep it man, you don't need this, you need to face your life ( I m really telling this, even for myself ), avoid your tricking thought pattern, my mind is tricking me almost all day today. those are not medecine advice though, so as I told you in your topic, be careful you'll feel SHIT, you must accept it ( as I did ), very hard for me at first. But if this is becoming too hard.. you know what you have to do.. if you can tappe slowly, just takes the minimal to not feel side effect, your brain will start to get that the shit loading is over ( like 3 mg of your shit, I don't know what you take ), take it only to not experience Side effect, do not take it for the feeling it induce, the more you sleep the best you'll feel. ( they will probably be there for a while, those tricky induction that lead you to feed up your body with a load of shit ) today I was obsessed with weed topic, my friend call me to get out, I tell them no. I m currently in my own "fight", I do not have time to relapse, we must remain strong

Yes, I wouldn't believe it, but this is exactly what I m experiencing right now. I m living the backslash. as my ego ( or fear pattern thinking ) was saying to me that I would not be happy without x and I should run to not die in misery. I drop this thought, I m happy right now, because it sound stupid to be sad anyway. if my state change, he do this : change. nothing is better/worst, it's only a context, like leo told in another topic, you can be rich and still miserable. true the process is "painful" and there is nothing you can do, but accept the change of perspective. you can try to cling on the older illusion ( my feeling, not because I just read leo ). Do not forget, we still are in illusion self reflection existential crisis induced by LSD is still shattering my perspective. ( induction of thought ) as an adhd, I m living on a tiny LSD trip since day 1. ( I always had pattern recognition abuse, like a schizophrénic, but with thought : instead of noise/voice/picture ) I find a guy who was attracted to me only because I remembered him on LSD. ( I was quite sober or only on weed ) ( he is the one who provide me in LSD btw, a good soul ) meaninglessness and solipsism was really high ( I had a sort of existential crisis 1 week ago while eating hash ) it's really messy in my mind currently as I quit a lot of substance addiction. ' I realize I should heal my body from dependance first before having real thought about anything ' I can't have decent thought while addicted. I m quitting drug and the depression is passing more and more ( as I work on every trait of my life ) ( I feel inside me a call for a radical shift ) it's like my "thinking of myself" try to desesperately cling on my old "me image" and old habit are hard to change, but I m currently re-building myself, not for being without ego ( I don't believe in ego ). Someone without ego, isn't human, being a human is being an ego. I think we can control it, makes peace with it, change our identity. But I don't think ego dissolve or can be beat, if ego was beaten, that would mean you don't need to eat. Cause the day you'll need to eat for your life, or you'll wait to die, or your ego will come back. Delusion to believe we can defeat ego, yes we can make peace with it though I think the process is normal, as I attach my thought to my old me and my "old dream". I still want to makes something of my life and discover a bit more of this reality, I loosed the anxiety feeling related to my goal ; I started entering the process of accepting my fate and "being" I think my ass is still between two tables

7 day without fap, no need I even watched porn before, not even a bonner. ( I violent myself, like, really man ? ( I do not wanted to fap, just watch evil in the eyes ) is that what you want, fuck you, I'll not fap. ( kind of ) Sleep is easy because I wait until I can't do anything but sleep ( I m not working currently ) it's was mostly drug that appeal my animal side for hand work. It was a sort of poison habit that I had when I was high. But after a long reflection, I don't want to get a life jerking off 1h per day, 400 hours per year. and this pleasure is only a delusion, fapping on alienated girls mostly hooked on drug, that's a bit sad if you really think about it. And you're fapping on this, seriously. I think they shouldn't be a total no fap though, maybe 1/per month if you can discipline. Hope this will give me energy to get out and met girl again. I think it's probably placebo on the physical side, but it should work a lot on the mind, and so impact the body for "real". 1 month without ritalin aswell ( I did use this shit for a year with some break ), not really hard to stop it ( 2 day of feeling shitty, weed helped ), as I reflect that it makes me artisticly stupid. ( even if motivated to tweak endlessly my project ) and 2 days without weed. ( i smoked 1g per day for 3 years ), no sugar. I only used coffee to fight "tiredness" but I don't like the taste. the effect is just right for "tiredness induced by quitting dopamine induction" Probably I'll not be allowed to stop weed on the long run ( currently thinking about using it like a psychedelic though, not like a habit ) ( but will discipline me very very hard ) and reflect a bit more the idea; I only drink 2 thea and smoked 4 tiny cigs those last 2 days ( because head crap, I don't like the taste and utility of smoking cigs ) ( there is none "real" for me in cigs ) it's only the habit of putting smoke into my lung.. this is very stupid habit. I'll not condemn everything. I used a random online game for 2 days ( forget addiction ) would have been better meditating. But I wasn't in the mood with my recent "breakdown ptsd" ( only 1 day, but a really hard day on my mind ) probably played on me recently quitting everything I abuse. it worked, but the game almost sucked me, discipline and thinking about my futur helped me just unintall the shit before I remplace addiction for another ( I uninstalled it, and reflect how shitty it was to loose my time on it ) worked on drawing a girl that I find beautiful on internet / writting and reading books on philosophy today. Hope to be free of most of substance addiction, I did sport this day aswell. Will focus on becoming a better artist and read more instead.. motivation is currently dead. didn't do any music since quitting ( weed ) Maybe LSD just take over my mind. ( I did use 300mcg on 6 days without never using psychedelic before ) alone in my room. ( it was great ) ( I do not meditate really, I use to listen tons of ambiant electronic music with eyes close though and try to focus only on the music ( that induce thought and idea ) . I had a crisis after eating hashish. ( do not ask me why I did this ) I feeled like crap in my mind, and I had the feeling that I should end my life right now ( I didn't and started shy away from those thought ) ( the hash was probably half poisoned as usual ) and that everything is completely bullshit. Now it start to feel better, I start forget about my precious past identity and try to work on taking a real ownership on me and build a new one that is better shaped to my natural instinct. ok I mostly talked about all my addiction, but nofap benefit is something I m really curious ( as youtube show me a tons of video about nofap ) this is even why I've seen this topic right now. how are you doing besides "placebo" how is your current lifestyle besides quitting porn guys ?

ok if I believe you hard without taking DMT, as I had this idea while doing LSD. one of rick & morty episode illustrate a bit the idea ( simulation created while you walk ) you sure you're not deluded ? WHY I CAN T MAKE POP HOT GIRL IN MY BOX !! maybe.. I CAN ?

sorry for your loss, really. wish I could help every human being... I had a theory while writting, but I think on the contrary we was "iperemotional" but suffering was so intense for taking all this feeling in, we start to mindfuck ourself and kill our emotion straightly ( and young ) ( started nurture & avoid our emotion ( not the bad thought, but the emotion ) ) / could be something like your parent giving you the idea ( "ignore them" ) because people call you by a name when you're a child for instance. but if you take seriously this kind idea, it can makes you maybe emotion apathic. It's only a theory ( because they was the emotion was a cause of our suffering ) we control it or kill it ( with drug, with philosophy, anything is good to kill it ), we fight it at the source ( this is almost a reason why you're on this forum today ) one of the reason ( avoid suffering ) and of course drug that you take, increase this feeling of being ' dead ' this is exactly their goal. Killing your feeling. You're not that alone, we are the weirdo happy family. Be happy and don't eat the psychiatric propaganda and delusion for truthness they see the world from a perspective, they don't even want to destroy you, it's just their nature to stabilize the system ( this is what I want to believe ) yes tape "slowly" and takes the minimal to have no side effect from withdrawal. wish you the best, take care brother, if you feel bad don't hesitate to pm me

I get the sense of dread existential crisis, most materialist budhism from our society conduct to "real nihilism", leo don't get this at all, cause he probably never experienced it ( or hide it ) because he isn't living the anxiety lifestyle. Maybe it's only me. I read a tons of people trying psychedelic and not having after it a "meaning in life" but a tons of " apathetic crisis ". All I had on LSD is my nihilism validated as hell. ( life is a system of bullet who eat/suck each other infinitely on themself for no reason at all ) this was my feeling. Maybe it isn't LSD though but only my subconscious fear or something, cause I had a good experience the day I did, it's mainly me anyway. I meditate about question that trigger me crisis, sometimes it's best to avoid knowledging yourself about reality and integrate what you learn before going more. Rabbithole thinking.. what did you expect ?

is this working ? I mean, outside of a "dreamstate." I m sure people talking about succubus talk about their "lucid dreaming fantasy". if this was real, they never come for me when I asked, I m maybe a bad magician

Don't worry it's not my goal I'll first remove every human on earth, and inseminate myself into a giant incubator until I become the singularity of our race then multiplicate at the exact good number for earth to be healthy. the best way to create a healthy earth is just removing humanity entirely edit : I read you, ok I get you, I m a bit close from your perspective. I integrated but I never access this incredible apathetic thinking paradigm that "normies" have. it's exactly my conclusion, it's even worst now, cause you "validated" my dread pattern bias ( that we are all slave, and that our life is "slave creation", not " enlightened happy life" ) I m not advocating against a part or other, slave is a perspective. ant are slave to their queen, it's order of nature, we are slave to our lords, some sounds stupid and narcissic, but maybe all this knowledge and power is creating the disease in their mind. They are nature, we all are, not aware of being born a byproduct from it, we makes others macro byproduct. We are slave, but is it really bad ? ( to me yes but what can I do about it ? ) of course your post will never makes humans accept your reality, it's over dreadful for them. Don't even try to tell them they are slave, they just think you insult them, not that you are "serious" already accepting to be a ant slave in ant life, no one want to see himself like this.

All I know as an "adhd" with too many thought and mind trap. ( I don't know if adhd is real, but sure I m a big neurotic ) ( every word could trigger in my mind a story ) put me out of reality. I did that almost my whole life ( loose my "reality" and be full in my thought / imagery ) people call me dreamy. I think I experienced skyzophrénia on LSD ( hearing voice in air who wasn't here, having imagery poping in my brain for no reason ( like anime picture ), then I draw from full instinct ) it's like I overpowered my instinct ( as an artist ) maybe even too much to the point I couldn't draw "straight build", it was abstract and very messy I did Ritalin 1 year, it's the contrary of lysergic acid on the perception of pattern ( makes you not see any pattern in things ). Put down your "instinct"/mind recognition pattern to "death". Can induce problem, but I will not advocate against. ( maybe that should only taken sporadically in a "big case" ; because of health problem it induce ) For me it could have helped, because of self reflection while on it ( what does it change in me, why, etc.. ) so maybe drug is a band aid solution, but the end work is to integrate what drug teach you. It's still impossible "to work" capitalist without drug for me ( weed a tons pls ), I contemplate everything or play stupid video games while sober ( try to read, but after 5 pages I lost ALL my focus ) all I can tell is that it took away most of my instinctive pattern emotion recognition ( the antipsychotic ritalin ). ( sometimes it can be good, but not for making music, as it is an emotional flow trigging adventure ) makes me super engineering things to the point of insane stupidity though ( couldn't be aware of me tweaking endlessly a bass, and forgeting the whole picture ) drug can be good, and worst, I was craving for ritaline the 2 first days, but weed helped with that ( but I read that weed makes fucked skyzophrénic people ) I would tell you to take the less antipsycho that you can and take it when you really feel that you need it.. ( for a crisis or something ) why do you cry ? I never cry since 4 years ( am I dead ? ), I wish I could... only crisis dread took me last month, only because a philosophical thought pass into my mind ( probably because of realisation on LSD ) and makes me realize that nothing fucking matter. LSD doesn't cured my ego, it convinced my nihilistic view I guess everyone doesn't react well to drug depending the context. be careful with your use, but as I don't know you, use drug if inside you, you really feel you need them. you can't be a psychopath if you liked animals ( I suppose ) it's a brain problem psychopaty ( I read about ) you are already without feeling like everyone else at 5 when you're a real psychopath ( in the brain ), you probably live on a nihilistic view on life ( like me ) / or apathetic philsosophy kind of. I don't believe any humans are equal, it's a fact, and a delusion to believe everyone can learn the same things, understand the same. so I wish I could help, but most of the solutions should be integrated by you, depending where you are. No one can really understand you, this is probably why you feel bad ? 6 month it's fucking long against me I m 24 and never had a single relationship, even if girl look for me ( I m beautiful ), I m insanely weird though and rude ( INTP ), and don't supporte people on a basic, I can act and play my role and get sex if really I would, but I like having this metaphysical mystery ( I fear to lose hope for my life If there is no meaning in sex ) ( yes I stupid thought ) but my mind trick me to leave girls before I do it each times. ( I hate social speech, I m addicted to learning and meta speeching / talking art/science ) I forget about relationship, hope destiny will help me on this. I want something that looks like true love and not an artificial relationship. you'll feel like crap for many times if you did drug for a long run, ( like 2 month if you take it more than 4 years ) 1 month if you take it 1 year. ( kind of ) depend of a lot of things though can't tell, depend on the whole context (health, sleep, dosage .. etc. ) it depend, get healthy food, try to sleep well, listen relaxing music ( psytrance for me when I start feeling bad ) keep using your drug, and use it the less that you can.. if you can.

Don't take any leo word at the first degree ( depending your context ) ( especially if it trigger existential crisis ) you're no more full of shit than everyone else, we all are, it's all about discipline and not loosing the idea that we all come from a context, so respect even people who sound full of shit, not that they shouldn't be condemn for it, but is it really smart to push ideology on people ? if your ideology is BETTER, people will probably integrate it by following you, because you should be inspiring, and makes people having an internal want for change. no speech, no fact will makes them change, instead of living into proselytism, be a resonating energy

humm I don't know if it's about fear, I m just anxious, because I've always been as I remember , born weirdo ( my thinking always as been seen as weirdo ), I mean I couldn't put word on this. I had anxiety panick like shit when I was a child like at 13 ( wasn't aware it was this, I didn't have word for my feeling ) like wanting to vomit almost each morning when waiting for the bus to school or trying to get real disease to not having to go to school ( and playing more video games, even if I was sick ) ( only because school takes me at anxiety land, I almost supported everyone around me, never had true friend before art school ( I was friend with everyone though at school ( preventing trouble ) but never "very close" to the point talking love and green shit haha ), omg I loved college for the people though so much more ( cause I could fucking "choose" with who I want to hang out, I started having this "social life dream" after all my nerd life ) ( in my country it's free for college, I should mention ) so I quit ( endless trap, no "real knowledge" to my viewpoint ) Was completely fogged into online game before," it's my drug", I always told that to people before even thinking trying drug a day. ( I was in fact anti smoking everything, anti drug ) until maybe 18. Probably I should understand why I m seeking addictive behavior since my whole life ? ok stop talking

thanks joseph, will try to nourrish a lot my "why I should quit" and integrate, try your idea with real work maybe lot of good can comes from stoping my dependance from it, I know it can be as simple as a decision take in 5 minutes, but in my current context I can't see it right now. All my environnement is depending upon me fonctionnal and wanting to get out of my room. ( that is hard when I don't smoke .. ) I never be a social guy before. ( and Djing and meeting people randomly can sometimes be anxiety taking ) anyway, my mind will trick me to see only the good with it. can't be neutral I suppose, I do not have a good perspective on this maybe.. I m the overdrug weed friend everyone watch smoking joint on joint at "party/group meeting". so the problem is I shouldn't frequent my self ( if you know what I mean haha ) I don't really no, I m probably deluded now by all the good it gives me, but there is some bad, like having to take a substance to be "efficient", I just need to "reificient" my self maybe in other way, maybe be more efficient than over doing, this is maybe weird but maybe it can work better for me. I know it's stupid thinking that I have more "value" or something on it, I m probably a bit delusional now because of all the validated good it gives to my life. Probably it stole a lot of good that I didn't see aswell, I didn't regret any penny put in it though.

I do not have chemical addiction problem beside weed ( drink only water, and eat mostly fruit and good food ) really I drop all my addiction for this one, this is my addiction of value. Using tobacco in my joint though, could be this that makes me "crave" ( like 40% tobacco ) I never smoke tobacco for "real" ) but probably it's like 2/3 cigaret per day in the end, wish I could make them "pure". probably weed isn't the real thing that makes me crave, but I underestimate something I miss the good section of the forum ( sorry ) ( I read "health" and didn't see the one on addiction ) should I remove the topic ? or a moderator move it in the right section ?

triggering in 3 . .. 2 ... 1 .. what if the wrong paradigm shift was starting to believe in a budha type of delusion who makes you believe everyone else/everything is a delusion. yes they are, but who are you to believe that your illusion is better. All of you ( not all ) act like new god fanatic, true fanatic or not, you look like fanatics. ( as JP and his fan looks aswell ) I find it very stupid to tell that jordan peterson has nothing to offer ( people who told about "lines" and joking around, are you fucking mindless ? )even if he is a pill of shit, where is the radical open mind ? like him or hate him, doesn't make him "full of shit". I m currently studying Hitler Philosophy, so what's wrong about ? I m Hitler and Goebels and his dog what is wrong about letting everything be ? maybe because like Marc Aurèle told, human are a part of nature; why fight nature, maybe you're all acting in face of nature, maybe it's my nature to not be allowed to believe in a "higher order" maybe that how the world is and will ever be ( or not, I m not propheting anything ) I believe in a higher order aswell without individual materialism, washed from all orange and blue value, but not for a "turquoise world", something more like a yellow society. A turquoise society even if it was a possibility, would need a serious yellow society, and that for decades ( even century ) maybe ..You should work on making people embody yellow and pure yellow, talking on a yellow open mind. Because turquoise value reflect probably a bit crazy in people who lack a bit of open mindedness. The idea that the society is "divided" in liberal/conservatism is not that bad. I dreamed about a full society of turquoise, and it's a delusion. I meditate the idea JP was talking about, and maybe this is true, real order comes aswell from order and chaos. a stupid idea model : A world full of order ? ( conservatism ) / order A world full of liberal ? ( open minded ) / chaos the world is completely balanced has it is ? no ? guess where would be the entire human race if we are all turquoise ? sure not masturbating on VR, but still, there would be no art. A life without art is meaningless, isn't it ? do you mean art is a drug for cure the death of god ?! Turquoise would have a lot of problem as well. Just dream of you "perfect earth" and contemplate how meaningless it is to have such a dream. ( or not, I will makes no claim on how you should view the world ) even if we all attain turquoise, the world would never be at peace. what caused orange and blue was "nature violence". People watching their loved one die, and because of fear of nature started to become "utilitarian" . I suppose something like. This is why it's so hard to change. You're probably a part of nature, a part of nature can't be aware of "being it". so we all live in our own delusion to our system. There is no high as there is no low, everything is in "space" it's all a matter of perspective. ( everything ) it's leo who told in a video, the best way to makes it is believe in a higher illusion ( because the mind operate from illusion ) ( not sure, but the sentence was in my mind ) -> not sure on the video and the sentence. " why people seams crazy " where is Rick from Rick & Morty in the spiral ? black yellow ? do you think I m full of shit ?

Fair enough, he still sound a lot like a part of your dark side, or maybe your old dark side then ! what about everyone is everything ? isn't peterson a part of you that you deny ? the only things that makes me cringe in your video is your own mirror agenda, maybe he has this "orange side" but you can't deny he has lot of yellow aswell in his mind. ( I'll not believe in spiral as truthness tool though, it's like IQ in a society, you believe your own archetypal of IQ, your is called spiral dynamics .. can you see ? ) maybe lot of us are still orange, but still lot your green sides makes you a bit of a biased idealist. my 2 cent, but talking about "god" makes a christian assumption, you should as nietzshe and create your own word for talking of your own concept never use the word god would be better in the futur maybe for your credibility ( from my frequency view point )