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because it's a "green" type of framing reality. it's political not spiritual, but nature thinking, is alright, joy & life

it's a good answer, but this relate more for people who already did psychedelics or intense meditation/breathing/inquiry

if meditation doesn't work, may I suggest my "way" as I come aswell from a background of gaming addiction. ( until my 20 years old ) > reading a lot of philosophy about humans and thinking. ( Nietzshe for me, but stay away from Nietzsche, it will rape your dark soul time, just take a crazy philosophe you feel a "love for" ) it's a good way, more "active" and efficient aswell. ( yogi need to be "smart" aswell ) > if reading isn't your thing, another "low" thing, is being the best that you can at a video games/art style ( drawing, music, etc.. ). remember, there is "truth" in almost everything, sometimes what looks like a back foot, is a front foot. your mind can't tell what is good or not. just accept to do the things you feel will lead you to " best being, best truth, best awareness " ( I mean, being "godlike tier" at this thing ( games,art ), not just "playing around" ) it creates a solid "ego". then you can see the limit of your own. ( worked for me this way, not sure for you, the good way, is your way )

I only did 2 months ago, 2 weeks and 3 real trip and like ~ 8 days microdose ( LSD / mushroom ) ( I microdosed for those weeks aswell, to "stay in" the idea ) maybe it helped, maybe it turned me with the worst month after haha, "dark soul" just use them as "I feel it" and I took many years before "deciding" it was ok. I try mushroom prior to this 1 year ago for 2 days in a row psychedelic show you how YOUR mind is working, it show you a state close from your dream, it show your subconscious to the conscious. any question you try on psychedelic will turn VERY different than your usual questionning. I don't believe that psychedelic really "drug you" they have nothing to do with "happy drug such as mdma, cokaïne and all stimulant" they do not makes you happy, they makes you feel "hell & paradise", yep you'll feel fucking good, but if you change of thought, you'll create "hell" aswell. ( only mental though ) show the "working" of the mind and how thought impact your move/perception. they just remove all your current processus, the "drug mental belief defaut mode" I don't feel a need for doing it, I feel just meditate, sport, yoga, washing my mind/body and living in balance can makes me as now/good as on psychedelic. had others mental realization that still change my life, for the good. But if your mind is a computer, be sure to be a good hacker. Because psychedelic is "hacking". Sometimes it work, for some, it's too much. It's like living a powerful experience, especially if you never used psychedelics at all. It's "normal" to turn "crazy" after those insight. just do it once, and get the call right, then, you'll see the path more clearly. ( even steve jobs & bill gates used LSD for instance, this helped me think twice, when I was very "orange" )

non sense, you can even awaken without "real meditation", Not that I believe it, I experienced it. I did psychedelic with intent, no regret, without it, I would probably never be where am I now. people who fear psychedelic, good luck meditating for 10 years the only path is wanting truth at all cost.

I m currently reading a book on kundalini and collected one or two on Reiki ( ) best way is my own practice, I have no monney really and that's better this way, and I do not feel the need to go see others for doing my own work. I just want to do the "full inner work", I want to understand things my way, lonely way most of the time. but I have energy and pure trust in myself currently : meditation, yoga, sport, breathing, reading, drawing, music, eating well balanced, no pills/no drug. ( I m not a dogma vegan of some sort, I focus on fruit and vegetables, but I do not cry on a chicken legs or fish, especially if someone ask me to eat meat, I'll do it because I prefer "respect people food invitation". ) doing things my way

maybe you didn't read me well, I only meditate since a month, but we can say that using weed and wanting to understand "music" everyday is kind of a pre-meditation practice. ( wanting to understand arts are a way of meditation ). And yes.. being skeptical for everything kind of made me what am I, ( as we all have our challenge though, I cannot tell, where you're, or where I m and what really plays on helping me, it's all relative ) I'll not say I m a genius, but psychedelic just destroyed a door and show me something "large", > "wanting truth" and philosophy for truth ( and leo for this ) kind of helped and all thinking disolve, I use thinking to destroy thinking, ironic and paradoxal. ( but it has taken a lot of time and many books, books that I choosed to read, not leo advices or anyone advice, I mean, people can help, but find your help, from a place of wanting "the truth for you" ) follow your path and believe you can find the truth by yourself in all part of the world ( there is better part, but if you can't see why, they are maybe not for you right now ) I think this is what helped me in my path and can be abstractly apply to your own ( believe in yourself and what you put your mind on ) Even if that is playing " mindless video games ", I mean there is better way, but the best way is the one you carve for yourself. I m still having trouble with kundalini energy raising, but I m reading on it, and still fixing my own path. but meditation has been working "high" because I could disolve my own thinking by using.. thinking ( this thought is pure "non sense" ! focus on doing "nothing" being "nothing" ) ( at first ) now I can just "connect" to "no thinking" the thing is, there is no one way, and some people I feel : meditate 5 years and never get where am I now ( and I m still at the early stage of this path ) good luck, believe in yourself first. Sometimes bumpy roads, are the good roads.

France is god free source <3 at 25 years old though especially ! > 600$ a month just roleplaying for finding a job ( as long as the country stand haha, no politician would dare to stop it ) > you don't need to be a "wage worker", but the mind of people is still very blind to this, so they are socially pressured to work. > healthcare : 120€ a year ~ ( then they cure EVERYTHING, psy, teeth, etc.. ) I have been healed once for 0€ wasn't assured for weird reason, they just fix my head, and then right : go away ! they never call'd me back no real fear of lack, it's "root chakra" for everyone and food is great, we take care a lot, even if there is a lot of meat and cheese. ( it's high french quality ) > best advices for life is taking opportunity where they are, starting "in" your land. and never be "lazy" though

I m doing my way to find if Reiki is real for me. sport, yoga no mind, meditation no mind. healthy diet and trying to be more balanced in my body in all ways. Any quick tips ? Reading a book about ?

what is fun, is I never meditated before this month, until I "feel it". ( smoked a lot of weed while laying down and listening to music for observation purpose those last 3-4 years ) and I used psychedelic 3 month ago ( and meditate while on LSD ). ( I m not a regular user at all of psychedelic, I just abuse 3 drop and 10 microdose day in 2 weeks to see the limit. ) I can completely be out of this world while meditating now ( sober ), without any thought of "reality" entering. I can even loose track of things in front of me, like if they have no label for my mind anymore. But as a guy who is "fuck society" hella fight club style life, since I m 6 it probably work easy for me to disconnect and be in "fuck it mode", as I m almost jealous of people bullshit worry in fact. I always did things when "feel it" when it's right time for me to do things. I drop all fears aswell ( I maybe have still a bit of chaos that I want to keep inside me, but I need that for my lifestyle, and I don't need to be "FULL enlightnment" not currently ) currently need chaos, and so I m keeping a bit of it for now.

and a piece of cake with your thea ?

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We are all, everything. it's only a matter of perspective, time, perception. psychopath, empath and all labels are "humans labels created from a human mind, and spread in others human mind" in "reality" there is no label, everyone is a killer and a lover. if tomorow Zombie start to eats your whole city, believe me, maybe you'll even become a psychopathic cannibal. Who could have known ? why not diagnos it before ? the sick, is only the one who do not conform to the people paradigm, those people who call you "sick". there is no solid label in reality, only a bias toward a self perception. means nothing is really, real, it's only mind fuck game to play with words and label, and model. they are useful, to guide, and maybe this, I m not sure.

Pasta alla carbonara. (good food)

almost all markets are "falsehood" on the cover. even leo. it's your choice to push the monney and "trade". Things have the value you push on them and believe they have. Your own delusion. or you can get "full enlightment" for "no monney" at all. " no price, I didn't say that, everything has some sort of price " but some "can't believe it", so they will have to cash out until they are well fucked to get it.

Am I even in control of my mind ? Am I in control of the shape of my life ? Are my thought created by me or by an external things ? isn't direct experience still an idea from the mind ?

not sure, 30 days ago, it was really weird weeks for me, it's like I m in a new life, though "nothing change" but everything changed. edit : ok I m done for tonight, get me on PM if you want to talk.

Like drug I m doing it day per day, way better. I was inside my mind since I m 5 years old day by day, at my pace now. I m very what you all call "conscious" and "in my body" and in "direct experience", it's still very new and I m still in my "house" with the same kind of people around me, so I m doing it my way. the trick is for me, what destroyed my thinking though : wasn't meditation, it was exactly this : thinking too much to the point of crash. all thinking started to spiral up, and show me it was all "infinite imagination" and then.. my mind started to crash in infinitum rework. This is why I cling more to thinking than meditation ( even If i like it a lot since this "crash" ) But I think there is still something like energy and all thinking cannot be wrong, nature cannot be wrong about "thinking", it's something powerful that is here for a reason ( or we don't have the same definition of " thinking " ) we cannot deny the thing that thinks, maybe even deny it, is a "thinking thing trick" " proof you're all here writting through your mind with your thinking "

I think there is only one way to know it nahm. I'll just quit the forum and let the universe speak to me. I m already dead, but I think I have some stuff to be doing before more work, I m the only one to know it I suppose, you all try to guess what is it. ... how can I abandon something I don't know about ? what is love ? humm I should inquiry and not in my mind. Death and evil ? haha, that's where I m born baby. maybe meditation will show me the way, "universe will show me" I don't worry that much. "my curiosity is worry" @now is forever : -> no :laugh:

I don't see the point in talking with everyone, I m still confuse why I did even create this shit topic. All I can do is listen to music, all music, again and again and again, dancing aswell, and meditate to keep the energy and the tchat "clean". I don't see the point in thinking a lot, no more. Speaking to people is now becoming even worst than "shitty", I feel like a permanent actor, having to play my own role. my new "me" is : violent music, love music, dance music, calm music, ost music, listening music all day. and drawing drawing drawing drawing and playing to be good with people. or playing to even be angry, just for the fun.

What if I "awaken", but I m not like all of you, you all presume there is a way and a "end" and a "path", we all know it's "infinite" and you believe I m in my ego/mind. I wouldn't presume such things if my spine wasn't weird and that I feel pretty good all day. ( neutral good, no real thought or "problems" only if I "create them, like right now ) that's not even placebo. I feel good/bad it's hell and paradise, it's a dream state. I m just playing right now, I m not even sure someone here can provide me with anything, cause I get it, it's all "about me" ( without being egoic in this sentence ) I have a pure diet that I follow through intuit, and I m doing body push up everyday now, I like to suffer even more now to contrast something, maybe there is still piece to work on, I hope so, I need it. it's not like I want to be strong or something like this, I didn't choose to "awaken/kundalini" it's like I fucking need it now to upgrade myself, like a bird need to fucking plane, I need to suffer more now for whatever reason.

Yes but I don't like being borred, that's probably even worst than living war for me. Maybe I'll choose war, if there no choice, but as I have no choice, even further self actualization will not be my choice apparently. what's the point then for you to post on this forum then, just playing, doing your bird thing ? what if you're "wrong" about humans being as a part of nature, and we are the hand writter. what's the point to awaken people ? nothing ? why do you keep fucking posting if you believe in pure nothing ?

nothing change, but everything change to "me". I feel like a dream walker. Everyday looks like a dream now, every morning it's almost as if, ho yeh I m still here. fuck I was almost happy being asleep, now I can see that. Everything in my life resonate different now, all thought etc.. it's like my mind is rebuilding himself I aswell have this "kundalini" / energy thing. It's aswell a product of my mind / body ? what's this ?