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Follow what you feel/intution or force yourself/condition yourself to like something or atleast get habituated to do something that is good for you to do but on an emotional level you might not like (excercise regularly long-term, meditation, reading, learning something complex/hard). Why do I ask this question? I always wondered if its possible for all human beings to be as insightful/broad thinking as philosophers or just people like Leo Gura or many other people, and also be as contributive on a material/scientific level as all the inventors/engineers were that have lived in the past. So I am always thinking an trying it out for myself by basically doing all the things that are good for a human being to do, but that not many human beings want to do. What I have been able to do so far is - Mostly eat a plant-based diet going to the fruit and vegetable side. Changing one's diet is not so hard, because eating is not something you have to do for a whole day. Its just tidbits. There are things that come naturally to me or that I enjoy doing such as - playing/listening/composing music and playing the guitar which I have done for 8 years 2 hours a day average. I grew up with alot of music and was probably already exposed when I was just a few cells developing. Also music being in every medium and also being culturally-reinforced, has made learning music for me a very organic experience. 8 years ago I didn't even think I would be able to play the guitar, I didn't even set out to become a good guitar player, I was just inspired. - talking to people and observing people/humanity, kind of in a pseudo-sociological/philosphical way. Observing comes very naturally to me, my brain seems to automatically want to understand where other people are coming from, what they are experiencing and how their particular worldview is shaped. And my brain also seems to have been calculating every kind of different response of every different type of person kind of like the architect of the matrix. This is not something I consciously do, maybe it's because I am sort of sensitive. - doing research into things such as nutriton or how a videogame or a song was made. These things above I find very easy to do and kind of flow effortlesly, it's what I do everyday. I don't take it for granted that I find these things easy to do or that I like to do them (which in turn makes it easier for me to become proficient at it), it is a gift from the universe/gods, because I can't really say I chose to like these things. But now I am getting to the crux of my question. There are other things I want to become good at, or that I want to be able to like which will give me I feel more technical skills which are more valued in this era which then allows me to contribute more due to me having these skills. One of these skills I want to become good at is programming (and after getting the fundamentals right, I want to go to AI). Now when learning programming I found this a very hard thing to learn. Because it doesn't come natural at all. Actually even the thought of learning programming can give me alot of debilitating pressure/stress (psychosomatic reactions). Should I just force myself to keep studying (even when I feel intense stress that distracts me from the studying?) and eventually the stress will subside? Or is this whole endeavour unsustainible? (since I need to use force to make myself learn) and do I just want too much, or am I naively thinking I can do everything or that a human being is capable of doing everything? Is this intense stress already a red flag, which means I shouldn't even attempt to learn programming because of my inherent lack of pre-emptive emotional interest in programming, which will severely stunt my ability to hold and retain information, as opossed to if I was naturally interested in it?( I want to mostly learn programming, from a reason standpoint, not necessarily because of an emotional spark/inspiration) Lets say that it's true that you never can become truly proficient/excellent at something you have no inherent/organic interest in. Does this mean that we are mostly determined, and that some people will just be inventors and other won't? Or is this something everyone can become and they just have to go through a bout of strong emotional resistance for a few days/months/years and wait till this emotional resistance fades away? Thanks for reading, and I am curious for the answers.

One thing that I found helps, is that even the fact that you think you are limited or can´t master your emotions, is a pattern of thinking that you have learned throughout life (neuroplasticity).

also depends if "seriousness" means intellectual masturbation, or actual effort/non-masturbatory thought-patterns

A bootcamp that is focused on conditioning your mind to do the things that are good in life, which most often most people don't do because as we all know here comfort feels better. And it's conditioned response to choose what feels better instead of what is actually better to do in the long run is as we all know the major part of why we all here are not fully self-developed yet. Ofcourse you have work-a-holics, but I think they are not in the majority. I think many of us are very far from remotely being a workaholic. Ofcourse you also need to think and be self-aware and plan and strategize. But I think most of us know what to do, it's just that not executing your plan feels better. That's why I think we need some sort of bootcamp, ofcourse you could become dependant on the bootcamp, but that should be included in the bootcamp to remind you not to become dependant. 2nd point. What is my story and why am I here? Well I kind of always think of what would be the best thing I could do in life. I found that to be coding/robotics, beause this is the 2nd most highest value I could give to humanity, by contributing to the automation of all work and thereby helping either free the human race or through mass employment fuel revolution. What is even better and more transformative than contributing to automation? fueling or igniting global psychological change, its 's just that I really don'wt know how that will get done, and I think that if people would have more free time or we would have a mass unemployment due to automation I think people would have more time to fundamentally change themselves for the better ( ofcourse this is not guaranteed). I don't fetishize technology, I think that alot of technology is used just to entertain the first world, not actually to add real value to humanity or to free humanity from mundane resource gathering/crafting/administrative work. Note that I'm not necessarily passionate about going into technology or that it makes me feel really good or something to do it. This is because 1. I found out that all emotions and feelings are inside you, so everything you think you 'like' is just arbitrarily conditioned by growing up in a random enviroment with stimuli you didn't choose and then get connected to certain emotions that were always inside you and therefore you think you HAVE to be a musician or an actor or astronaut. Most people think they have to do 'what they love' for an occupation, or else they'll fail in life spiritually, emotionally and mentally. I don't agree with this because of my aforementioned reason above. 2nd point, notice how most people's life purpose is always something like art, drawing, making movies, writing books, becoming musician, game dev. Notice how its never become an engineer, roboticist, inventor etc... I think this is because becoming an engineer, roboticist, inventor etc... is just much more difficult and uncomfortable. It gives very little instant gratification. Now drawing or music for instance gives relatively quick feedback and gratification. I have been playing music for 8 years now everyday, so it's not like I'm talking out of my ass. Now some people are gonna give me the argument, 'but we need artists, we need writers, where would society be without shakespeare, mozart'. My response to this kind of thinking is, that you are extremely naïve about the state of art today. I would say that we are completely and utterly over-saturated with art in this society. Why because making art and consuming it appeals to our culturally reinforced wants. And 2nd very few people will ever become mozart or whatever most people pursuing creative stuff end up living paycheck to paycheck or starbucks. Not saying all do, just most do. Let me know what you think and thanks for reading.

I'm curious though, how can you work too hard? I mean the people that regret working too hard, maybe they regretted it because they compared themselves to current hedonist culture and they wish as old people that they could've indulged more. But now I look back on regrets like these that often get mentioned, I actually wonder if worrying about wether you work too hard or not is a good thing. Reason is most of the time I think people worry about wether they work too hard or not, is because hedonist values get reinforced and emphasized alot from my perspective. The idea that you should squeeze as much good emotions as you can with whatever means (aslong as it's not illegal drugs) out of every moment. The thing is this mostly results I think in people watching Netflix, lazing around, staying in comfort, playing vidya, travelling etc.. also talking about my own primitive mind here. let me know what you think.