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@Shinlet me first reach enough strength to reach 90, then we'll talk, ahaha

Day 13&14: Not much going on.

Day 11 & 12 Man, I'm losing track of time lol. Today I finished my thesis so it's time to sleep. I got bags under my eyes the size of Antarctica. Right now I have to be aware that I don't relapse. Its a common theme for me to give into ego backlash after something 'big' has happened. But atleast I'm aware of it now so that's a start.

Day 10 Last night I had pretty intense sexual fantasies. Again, it's that ego-reward system. I worked long hours that day so something inside me wanted a to have a reward. I felt tired but couldn't sleep. It's that adrenaline-focus thing where you have too much coffee but at the same time you're tired asf. Normally a perfect time to soften the edges with a nice fap and then fall asleep. I did a guided meditation by Mooji. This made me more aware of the observer-me which gave my thoughts some rest. Fell asleep after that.

Maybe pick a different time slot. In the evening, morning or afternoon. Have you tried this?

Day 9 Interestingly, I don't feel tingling sensations in my spine anymore. I used to have it quite often during semen retention. I'm still not 100% sure what this tingling sensation is but my gut tells me it's related to Kundalini, life energy and semen retention. The neck twists and jerks are slowly coming back and so are the sudden hand madras. Maybe this process paused for a bit because I passed out and hurt myself pretty bad and now it's all coming back because I feel better physically and mentally. Dunno. I'm not someone who thinks this stuff out to the bone, I rather accept it and go with the flow. What matters is that I feel better. ALIVE. All that is passed. Or past. Passt. Language is complicated.

I definitely second that!! Love that feeling of flying. You literally feel like a bird, right? It's weird but to me it feels orgasmic everytime it happens. It's Freedom my dude. It's your mind processing your deepest desire! Just think about it.. Why would you fly? WHY? Free will! Breaking out of the 'mind-matrix' (credits to @Joseph Maynor)! Spreading love... ...and birdshit Jk <33

Day 7&8 Hyper focus my dudes. My dick doesn't even exist.

Day 6 I like cheese tomato sandwich with mayonese. Don't hate pls. Dutch cheese and mayonese are the best. Trust me.

Day 4&5 I'm feeling better energetically by the day. Not at the same level as before the fall and during nofap, but still. Small steps. It really feels like I'm back in the game after being sick. Like I'm the old me again, joking around with people, doing weird shit and random dancing. Feels guuud. And weirdly I feel no graduation stress or panic of any kind. I used to be stressing a lot because I always started way too late with work. But now it looks like I got my sh*t handled. I'm pushing myself to the limit (productive wise) but it doesn't affect my stress or energy levels. It just has to be done, so it becomes more effortless, I dunno. I'm thinking out loud atm What does trigger me tho is that I have 0 free time. Literally no time to do hobby stuff. Man. I want to produce music so badly. I want to paint I want to draw I want to aaaaaaaaaaaaa aaaa!! FUCK! School first. Then I'm free as a fucking bird. Finnaly.

Appreciate the support mate.

Great question, thanks. It can apply to so many areas in life.

Day 3 Im slowly gaining more strength and I'm feeling better. Wounds are healing pretty fast. Blood test results were also positive. Its time to get out of the pit again. Align with my purpose and goals. I'm working over 12 hrs a day for my graduation the last few days so I can't take things slowly, sadly. BUT I'm confident that it will all work out in the end. Deadline is in 10 days.

Day 4 I typed a whole story but lost it because of Internet connection.. Summary: Monday I fainted and landed with my head on the ground. Went to doctors but they couldn't find any cause (healthy diet, no stress, not tired etc) so that's weird. Currently sick at home on the couch. Relapsed because I felt vulnerable asf. Currently not in my best state, mostly physically.

Day 1 Nothing serious going on today.

Day 4: relapse Hooray! Lessons learned. Fell into my lower vibrations, again. The 3/4 th day are the hardest for me. I think that's because I used to fap that frequent and homeostasis is trying to bring me back to that rhythm. So I have to break through that barrier. Energy wise, I feel more energetic than yesterday. But still less energy than during nofap. Moving on!!

Make it 100

@winterknightI haven't read every post in this thread, but I deeply respect the time and effort you put in answering everyone here.

Day 3 Less energy, more studying.

Day 2 No cravings, thoughts or sexual fantasies today. My mind is focused on my graduation at the moment. Deadline for the thesis is January 24th so fingers crossed. Running feels VERY good. Yesterday I tried running with music on but that didn't work for me. Too much distraction I guess. To surrender completely to the moment, to the silence of running is more freeing for me. Only thing you hear are the sounds of footsteps and breath. It's a meditation in itself. You completely merge with the experience and at a sudden point the act of running becomes effortless. The running does YOU!! Woa Amazing

Day 1 AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAANFKDKDKXNCLSLXMSLCLVLFKSNXKCKFKEKD Nice. I feel nice. Nice is such a nice word. So... kind... so... Nice. Okay so I started running yesterday and today in the evening, ending with a nice cold shower (3 mins or so) and I'm feeling GOOD. Im feeling balanced as fuck. No sexual urges or fantasies today. I relapsed twice, shorty after another. If I compare my overall energy with now and during nofap, it has slightly decreased because of the relapses. But I'm breaking out of this loop. I can feel it! I must! Cheese cake!

Day 4: relapse I slipped again, I can't really justify it because that would only be my mind talking. It's scary how good and energetic I still feel. I don't beat myself up afterwards and I don't feel drained. But this is EXACTLY the trap. This is exactly why my mind justifies watching porn and masturbation. Mind is like: "ohh, it wouldn't make a difference now, would it? You felt great after you fapped the last time! Nothing will be lost dude! " Fuck! It completely overshadowed my goals. Only now, afterwards, I think about what I wanted to achieve with nofap. We continue to fight the beast. My mind should be trained enough to withstand these sexual urges. God it feels good to be honest!! Haha <3

Day 3 Nothing serious going on today. This night I woke up with very intense tingling sensations on the backside of my neck (spine, throat chakra area). My head was shaking heavily like before, but this time the actual pressure in my neck was more intense and it was focused on one single point. This lasted for about 10 seconds and then it faded.

I love this forum

@Shin Nice journal man Keep it up