Tyler Robinson

@UpperMaster I think you can probably get some stage Red stuff from him about success but much of it would be based on grifting, I don't know how far that would take you. Some people who are too desperate and don't care about morality as long as what they get might actually see the appeal with this dude.. But his success is not for the long term. Because long term success is based on something you build. Not on boasting. If you thought that life is totally meaningless then you might actually find value with his lifestyle because at the end of the day Stage Red focuses on getting what they want by any means. Although it can do collective harm, it is useful for the person who is doing it. I'm kinda confused when it comes to morality because it's very Stage blue and I don't like that, anything that contributes to everyone's wellbeing is good

Just an interesting video I thought I would share. Getting back to ego death.. What the guy describes in the video I would say is actually awakening. You are aware that you are not your ego, but the ego still has it's effect on you. I would say what ego death really is, is when you have been living in an awakened state for a while and have noticed your ego so much to the point where you no longer properly identify with it. At this point you may have an identity crisis and go through some hard times... Is this correct? Has anyone experienced this and if so how did you deal with it? I had this realisation that there isn't really a 'me' (awakening) the other day. It was very profound at the time and then I became scared, worried of the implications it would have on my /love life etc. Then I started to see more of the positives to it. Since then I have been very calm and still for the last few days. At the same time, I feel like I've uncovered something that is non reversible. It sounds awful but its a bit like opening pandoras box LOL. I feel like I don't have a choice in being on this path now and that more is going to unfold without my will. The only thing I can compare this feeling to is from when I experimented with drugs for a while. I spent a few years experimenting with drugs and had a few experiences where I was high and actually believed that I had uncovered another reality, the way it really was... This reality I thought I had uncovered is very similar to what I feel now. The more I think about it the more I trip out. LOL I just hope I don't end up in a mental ward..!

@Oeaohoo I hope you feel better

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Well you did see what happened on January 6. So we know how dangerous Trump can be with his propaganda.

@puporing what do you think of this one? I really love it.

So far what benefits have you seen?

I actually had a window experience on my first mushroom trip. I looked out my bedroom window and realized I was eternal everything and I could fly. Yet there was no "I", so it was more like there was eternal everything and flight. Then there was a desire to fly. It was so beautiful and free. . . Yet, in the back of my mind, there was a soft voice that said this could be harmful to me and to go downstairs. I didn't understand. There was no difference between jumping out the window or walking downstairs. In this mindstate, rational and intuition are flipped - so rational thinking seems to be some odd sense that I don't quite get. I ended up walking downstairs and later realized what it would be like to actually jump out a window or cliff on a high dose of mushrooms. I've had to deal with harm anxiety while tripping. For me, I reduce the options. For a while, one of my anxieties is that I would send inappropriate texts / emails to my friends while tripping. So before my trips, I would drain my phone battery and put the phone and charger in a place that is difficult to access. IBut I felt relatively sane during the trip so I did end up sitting in my 5th floor balcony looking down at people walking by. Didn't desire to hop or anything I couldn't even do this sober, let alone tripping. I have severe anxiety of heights with sharp drop offs.

I'm a firm believer in tolerance. I have been extremely depressed and had to cope with really frightening thoughts and feelings that could have turned into actions. From that perspective, I feel like I can understand evil. I believe that there is potential for absolute good and evil in every person. I am no better than the worst criminal in the world. Maybe I am just more fortunate. Don't hate people who are less fortunate than you. I try to live by this guideline.

Does traveling help you in any way in the spiritual sense?

How is this? But my mind is Going all blank on it.

Haha I was thinking the same.

Exactly.

I want to introduce you to the Zeigarnik Effect. The Zeigarnik Effect is the tendency to experience intrusive thoughts about an objective that was once pursued and left incomplete. The automatic system signals the conscious mind, which may be focused on new goals, that a previous activity was left incomplete. It seems to be human nature to finish what we start and, if it is not finished, we experience dissonance. you can read more about it here. http://www.psychwiki.com/wiki/Zeigarnik_Effect Currently what I am doing is i am making a list of things that I have left unfinished since i can remember, especially from childhood. As we all know, things get in the way of what want to pursue, especially when you are a child and you have homework and chores and maybe your parent's pressure to succeed and do well in school and extracurricular activities. It makes a huge difference to me and it feels like I am able to feel so much better about everything just by giving my inner child room to breathe and enjoy things that for one reason or another wasn't able to at that time. --- I am doing this as a therapeutic exercise. I am aware that this could be seen as just entertainment, or mind titillation as Leo would say, but I think it's the intention behind it that makes a huge difference. It's not just mindlessly play video games and watching tv, but doing it with a purpose and the intention to honor the child within. A sort of right of passage. Hope you find this helpful. "there is a tendency or “need” to complete a task once it has been initiated and the lack of closure that stems from an unfinished task promotes some continued task related cognitive effort. The cognitive effort that comes with these intrusive thoughts of the unfinished task is terminated only once the person returns to complete the task."

That's what basically any psychological diagnosis is. I wonder if most people recognize this and instead get lost believing there is actually some physical or "real" thing (or perhaps a common underlying thing) called bipolar, schizophrenia, depression, etc.. I think there's a lot of room for refining how we think of psychological diagnoses. Yet, I would say that how people are diagnosed and labeled by a psychologist/psychiatrist, etc., is a lot more nuanced and refined than, say, your friends or even oneself reading some books or watching some videos and then feeling like they know how to use the terms properly (which I think should include knowing how the terms were devised in the first place-- the method). Whether one can stop "being a sociopath" is the same as asking whether one is capable of dropping those behavior patterns. I wonder about this. Like, whether some psychological disorders can be altered simply by free will etc.. This goes into the whole "what is and isn't possible" debate, rather than the "what's really really really really really hard to do vs. what's pragmatically doable". Or even I consider maybe some things are just "baked" into the mind. Hardwired, and are unchangeable. I imagine that exists, especially in things like psychopathy where they say the actual brain and nervous systems are different than the average person. Seems like trying make a turtle turn into a bear, though, not as drastic since I have heard of tests where they deliberately train a psychopath to do empathy and they've seen parts of the brain light up associated with empathy. Though, apparently, permanently inducing that empathy in a psychopath hasn't happened.

@Kksd74628 totally.

I think he is being so reactive because he is depressed. He probably needs therapy. There's something unsettling about the post.

Aww sorry to hear about that! I hope that gets sorted out soon.

What do you think a relationship is for? What do you get out of it?

So far have you been able to make money?

Actually true. We have a survival instinct that sort of pushes us to do the best that we can all the time with regard to our circumstances..

Is it me or do you sound really depressed?

You don't have to deny yourself or your circumstances. You are who you are. You might want to look into ego development. You are always a body of constant growth.

Yet you are okay sharing yourself!