Tyler Robinson

I have never mentioned that occasional use is harmful. Sure use it occasionally if it gave you a spiritual spike Occasional use of high dose caffeine has helped me too. But that doesn't mean that I'll tell people to regularly consume caffeine. It's same with Marijuana. The most dangerous and most common unchallenged assumption on Marijuana is that it's considered apparently non lethal and casually harmless. This is wrong. It is not what it appears. It's a hidden drug. It does harm just like alcohol. But just like alcohol it works silently and it takes significantly long periods of consistent use to actually see it altering behavior. It's no worse than smoking and drinking. The major problem being that most people flippantly believe it to be less dangerous to smoking or drinking which is a huge myth.

Take it or leave it. And your negative opinions don't phase me a bit. I'm staunch on this. I'm done with the thread. If I get more info on the dangers of weed I'll keep posting in the future.

Do whatever you want guys. I am not going to stop spreading the message. I know from first hand accounts that weed is dangerous, addictive and does a lot of harm long term. I have got no time to keep debating and arguing endlessly. You can enjoy your weed the fuck you want and keep arguing with me over peanuts. But my message might reach someone, at least one person here and if it stops them from being addicted to weed, I will consider it mission half accomplished. I'm not closed minded on weed. But I have seen too much to not ignore it anymore. If you're doing weed, make sure you do it occasionally. Because it's highly addictive and regular consumption will change you over time and you won't like what you will become. Take my message or leave it. Who gives a fuck.

This is your opinion. Fine. I have seen people and how addicted they get. I already posted so many videos showing how severe the addiction can be. Not everyone is same. See what this doctor has to say

That's probably because you don't do it regularly. People assume that weed is not that bad. Weed is just as bad as alcohol.

Medical cannabis is a whole different subject. When people talk about doing weed, almost 98% of the time, it's recreational. I like how people cherry pick and immediately jump on the bus of medical Marijuana when majority of the problem is people addicted to recreational weed, which what the main strength of the topic was all about. Nice way to deviate the subject. By the way "like any other tool" is another evasion tactic you're using. No.. Weed isn't like coffee. Weed is not like any other tool. Weed is an exceptionally potent and harmful tool.. I even posted videos to make my point clear. Weed that is manufactured now is much more potent then the weed decades ago. But you won't bother to watch that.

And I'm talking about addiction Just because you aren't doesn't mean others aren't. Weed is more addictive than traditional psychedelics. Go teach someone else.

I'm talking about people who took Marijuana daily.

Watch this. https://youtu.be/721maHvPax8

@Juan@Juan I wasn't talking about medical cannabis

@amanen This is because you see them short term. I saw my loved ones over a long period of time like a full year and saw them completely change gradually with weed use. In the moment, chill. But long term irritable.

Good job!!!!!!! Although I'm not against medical cannabis. I guess the legalization of weed might help with the use of medical cannabis and might make it cheaper and easily accessible.

I speak from experience My friends used to do weed. I've seen many people whose lives have been turned upside down. It's a severely addictive thing. I have done weed myself. It's very dangerous. If you didn't do weed, you shouldn't talk about it. Kinda naive.

And lots of people actually don't use it responsibly. To be honest, I haven't come across a single person who used it responsibly. Almost every person admitted they were addicted to it. It takes a lot to break a weed habit. You should give disclaimers when you talk about severely addictive substances.

@Leo Gura but you should also let people know that it's too bad.

@amanen the problem is weed is unlike any other drug. It gets you hooked before you know. It's severely addictive. Most people aren't able to control their craving for it. It's not like porn, where you could tell someone to do it in moderation.. There's no moderation with weed. You cannot simply switch off weed the way you do with coffee. You take weed and when you get the habit, you do it regularly. That's the highest risk with weed. It causes paranoia, dehydration and the person turns into a shell of themselves. I've seen people who were addicted to weed. They act weird, get triggered easily, they are a hair's length away from having a mental breakdown. Weed makes you happy in the moment but increases the tendency to rage at people. It makes people paranoid, anxious, unstable, volatile and irritable all the time. It's lethal long term I'm actually disappointed that it was legalized.

I saw many lives destroyed by weed. It's a Cancer.

I blocked him. It gave me a panic attack.

@Leo Gura you do ton of drugs God. Are you in one piece?

I don't like weed. Don't promote weed here.

Chapter45 - Shame Entry1/45 On 8/14/2022 at 1:47 AM, Tyler Robinson said: I live in guilt. On 8/14/2022 at 1:50 AM, Tyler Robinson said: I couldn't be the perfect girlfriend. I couldn't be your girlfriend. I feel like hiding my face in the shadows. I feel like running away from your shadow Can you hold me tightly and tell me that it's okay? I think nothing will change even if you did that. The damage has been done.. I'll live in your condemnation. On 8/14/2022 at 2:11 AM, Tyler Robinson said: Even God knows I wasn't untrue. On 8/14/2022 at 2:23 AM, Tyler Robinson said: Because I can't change it. Only God can. And only God can do justice. On 8/14/2022 at 2:42 AM, Tyler Robinson said: God is the corrector. The one who does justice in the end. Satan is the protector from bad karma and the great enemy.. I do feel ashamed of myself for the things I did. For the way I hurt you. But I also feel helpless and wish things weren't this bad. I look up to you. I admire you And you are the only one I really and deeply fell in love with. Forgive me Vincent. But I'm loving you always. You are my special love. I will be with you forever and I'll always love you. You're everything I want. Everything was an accident. I wouldn't have wanted to hurt you in a million years We are one Vincent, we are one. I was walking towards the grave to meet you. Only waiting for you and nobody else. I forever belonged to you Vincent I know you wouldn't have left me. You wouldn't have wanted to. You cared for me deeply. You left because you found it difficult. But you knew I was perfect Now I'm ashamed You would have wanted to know everything about me In hindsight I wasn't worthy of you. And I should have known that. But I would have given up my life for you I loved you that much. Vincent, I'm your perfect girlfriend and I wanna be your perfect future wife too.. In fact I feel like you are my husband. The only man I would have wanted as my husband was you. I know you love me. That's why you wanted a tattoo.

Entry5/44 I'm actually a very friendly and wonderful person. I'm really cool with people.. The only thing that destroys me is the negativity from haters that bogs me down Well...... It's finally over Never in my life again will I associate with such people. Big lessons learned. I learned a lot actually. I know the first sign when someone is trouble. The judging shaming types. Those are the ones to be avoided at all costs And the next are the savior types They act all cute and loving and compassionate and that is all just a front. Another lesson that I learned is that being too close to people is the biggest recipe for disaster. Because when you get too close their hearts get a bit colder and harsher and they show you their real side. So never be too close to anyone. It's a bad idea.. It's these so called intimate people who are the worst. Not to be trusted.

Entry4/44 I don't want any fake attachments.. Fake sympathies. Fake friendships I cut the cords long ago. Emotionally I'm in a happy place than before. I was way too anxious and suicidal back then. I went through some really harsh and cruel experiences especially on this forum.. But I'm out of that now. It taught me valuable lessons about how you can be manipulated in the name of someone trying to help you. There is no pure intent there. Only a facade of trying to help. But doing more harm instead. Away away away. I'm so glad I could finally put my foot down and throw people out of my life.. I invited them out of sheer trust and goodwill. I felt preyed on. Completely preyed on. I was taken advantage of. My Vulnerability was.. Thankfully it's over now.. I wish I had an angel to help me.. To show me a way out of this delicate mess.. I was so innocent. And my wings fell in a trap. And I suffered so much. So much hurt pain and betrayal I claim myself back now.. If you fuck up someone and they start acting all messed up around you, then don't be surprised, you did it to them. I didn't know those people were so toxic. If I would have predicted what was to come, I would have run for the hills. People fuck me up emotionally and then call me a weirdo. Don't play games with me. Hurt me. Abuse me. Then when I begin to act strange. Blame and shame me. It's blatant abuse. When I finally put my foot down and say a firm no and remove people from my life, they suddenly act like I'm a criminal You know what's toxic.. When a person gets mad and pissed off that I don't give them attention anymore or that I have dropped them from my life, It's the most potent sign that they are and were the most toxic persons in my life. And I should be more than happy that they are out. Finally its peace. No thanks I don't need anyone's pity. I'm just glad that I will no longer have to deal with such people and I no longer have to feel messed up.

Entry3/44 Sometimes I felt like I couldn't deal with things just because I just wasn't too used to it. My tears fall on the back of my palm, I think of all the days gone by, who I was, what I was, I feel terrible how I was enmeshed into something I never wanted to be a part of. Only because I was so naive and inexperienced, just because I had childish yearnings and impulses that I acted on. Because I didn't have enough mental clarity or anyone to guide my hand. I felt abused. Tortured. I cried for days thinking why I suffered the way I did. I had done nothing wrong to deserve it. I try to give an inch and a mile is grabbed from me. Always. Looking back now, so many things are weird to me, the way I acted, the way I craved for things to be, the things that mattered so much back then, just don't matter anymore now. Back then all these silly things were such a big deal, how things appeared. Not anymore. Now they have suddenly taken a back seat, I was thrust into the future by accident or by fate, just to be out there and make something of myself, life felt like a blur and I was racing against time to make it to end with no rest in between, I simply had no clue, I was a clueless girl who came from a clueless background, who knew nothing. So much of whatever happened only because I had not a single clue about the world around me. I just kept sleepwalking through it like a maniac lost in a distant world. I had to learn so many things and I had to learn them quicker than my brain would allow me to. I made so many mistakes that I was hardly forgiven for, why, because I just couldn't be skeptical enough to doubt everything around me, it never felt necessary because I had such an innocent heart that wouldn't allow me to believe that things were not truly in my favor. So I just let things happen. Now when I look back, so much of who I truly am was missing, in those days such things mattered that now by comparison. look very fickle. It seems I have matured over time to realize that absolutely nothing really and truly matters other than what truly and forever belongs to me.. Things that I would have likely thrown a fit over back then look unnecessary and timid now. Things that made me angry two years ago don't make me angry anymore. I understand how people feel much better, I can see through things, I can understand how they feel, and this isn't much that I would expect out of people anymore, it feels like I'm at a calmer place where I already know how things are going to pan out, how people act, how they react, everything feels like an NPC, everything has become so predictable and boring that the same thing keeps playing endlessly like a broken record to the point that I no longer need to know what's it's outcome is going to be, I just know, it comes to me like something that springs out of a blurred memory. Nothing has to make sense, there's nothing to sit and figure out, because it's all out there already. All I have to do is just absorb the experience and let it pass.. Then there are times when I ask myself - are you really growing or are you just trying to get by? Because nothing seems really sustainable at this point, how did I even make it so far is just a wonder. On 8/15/2022 at 5:03 AM, Tyler Robinson said: I wish I was sleeping in the arms of an angel. I feel so tired and heavy and stupid.

Chapter44 - A Lot of Drama Entry1/44 On 8/11/2022 at 0:59 AM, Tyler Robinson said: Excellent. When you're too attached to something, the end result is only drama and nothing else. On 8/11/2022 at 3:32 AM, Tyler Robinson said: I'm so tired ugh.. On 8/11/2022 at 11:24 AM, Tyler Robinson said: What if I gave myself growth points in terms of percentage? On 8/11/2022 at 1:53 PM, Tyler Robinson said: Like.... I'll keep a baseline percentage at 4, just a random small number. Tracking my growth Mathematically. Everyday I can say I'm growing a little bit, in any direction, that's irrelevant.. Today it's 4.1% growth in me. On 8/13/2022 at 11:59 PM, Tyler Robinson said: I want to keep a calculator like a tab meter. Tab meter. It's always 0.1%. 20 points is 0.1 percentage