Tyler Robinson

Ok I have been working on my trauma a lot. I have done shadow work as well. But I really don't know If I'm making much progress.

@flowboy while pondering over the question in the last few hours I made a list of what I would see as important differences between genuine and phony people. These aren't tools or strategies but these are just broad descriptions of how genuine and phony people will differ from each other. Just general pointers. Tell me if you find my observations interesting or if you have anything to add to it. Genuine They will not play social games They will ask you back after you have reported something to them They will show emotion in their eyes while you tell them how bad you feel.. Like they will cry with you. They will mirror your emotions back to you. This will be the biggest difference between someone who is phony and someone who is genuine. Genuine people will show a lot of emotion. They will cry. They won't be cold at all. Even if the genuine person is emotional, they might not be too vocal about it. They might have deep emotions. Maybe they went hungry to bed. They didn't turn up to work on that day. They won't kiss ass They will be bold and brave They will not be sweet They won't flatter They will always do a follow up They will be intensely loyal almost like a dog These people won't look attractive They won't be diplomatic They will be a bit harsh. Very politically incorrect as a result of this they will be in lot of trouble socially. People will boycott them because people will not appreciate their bluntness They will be a bit autistic They will also be naive and gullible easily trusting Others They will be Empathetic They will have zero agenda They will be frank about their flaws They will be vulnerable to their partners They won't play victim They won't be interested in public impressions. They will fail to attract people They will be courageous They will mostly be honest They will do what they said they will do They will keep their word They will have high moral integrity These people will be considerate PHONY PHONY people will be very icy cold distant ... They will not show much emotion at all. PHONY people will flatter, play social games, people pleaser, extroverted Phony people will be shallow, fake, superficial, charming, sweet, flattering, love bombing, narcissist These people look attractive They will be diplomatic Always playing victim because they want social attention. They will be smart, clever, intelligent with a lot of foresight. . They will be manipulative They will operate from egoic place . They will be hypocrite . They will be predatory . They will be two faced They will people please They will praise publicly and apologize privately They will have cult leader attributes Their spirituality will be fake and designed to impress. Very grand. Elaborate. They will say big things. Nothing will be simplistic about their spirituality. Much of which they will never practice or follow. They will be the literal definition of "never practice what you preach." They won't like you for your heart, they will like you for your looks or status They will try to be the center of attention They will act like groupies They will have low self worth They will have fatal self esteem They will prefer to be in groups.. A tight knit group

I felt like you wrote everything about me word to word like a psychic. I'm actually really good with intuition. But..... I guess with people who manipulate me emotionally, my intuition shuts off temporarily. And or I numb it down subconsciously so that I don't have to believe it. My intuition is very acute and has often saved my life. I frequently get psychic premonitions about people I deeply care about where I wake up in the middle of the night realizing I should do something to avoid an unwanted outcome. But if I'm feeling very empathetic towards a person, it will shut off my judgement chamber of my intuition. Btw I'm myself a big liar, so it's hard for me to be a lie detector since I give a green pass to most lies. I don't see a liar as a problem, I easily forgive them since I have myself been one growing up, I used to lie an awful lot to my parents, my entire childhood was learning how to lie, to the point that I became such an expert at lying that nobody would be able to tell the difference between when I was saying the truth versus when I was lying, I got bolder at it with time and much more skilful at lying effortlessly and lying almost became my second language. At the same time, I had no moral inhibitions with lying, I did not suffer guilt or remorse nor did I judge other liars as bad. I don't judge anyone who lies to me. My brain is wired differently so I don't think my brain would ever see lying as a problem. It doesn't bother me at all if anyone is lying to me. I simply don't see any problem with it. But there's an important difference. Although I lie an awful lot, I never lie about my intent or emotion or sentiment. I'm emotionally always completely honest. That is, my heart is always pure, it's never phony or inauthentic. I will never tell someone that I like them without actually liking them. I don't do that shit.. My heart is always in the right place, even when I'm lying. I'm not phony. I am not able to tell if someone is being phony. I easily get manipulated believing that someone has my best interests in their mind, later realizing that they were simply bullshitting me.

Sexuality compatibility. Both should climax at the same time. Mutually seducing each other.

Fucking soul leechers

It's my fault. Its my fault It's my fault I got emotionally involved. I feel like cutting myself.

I feel like hurting myself. I'm getting panic attacks. I want to kill myself. Because I'm not able to get over a breakup. It's hard on me. I'm going nuts. I don't understand how to deal with breakups. I'm inevitably attracted to any guy who approaches me. I can't hold back the temptation of wanting a man. And then when the relationship fizzles I go into a fit. I go nuts. I get deeply emotionally involved.. And when he is not emotionally involved to my level, It drives me crazy. Right now I want to hurt myself pretty bad for wanting and needing a man. I want to kill this need but I can't.

Where do I begin To tell the story of how great a love can be The sweet love story that is older than the sea The simple truth about the love she brings to me Where do I start? With her first hello She gave a meaning to this empty world of mine There'd never be another love another time She came into my life and made the living fine She fills my heart She fills my heart with very special things With angel songs, with wild imaginings She fills my soul with so much love That anywhere I go, I'm never lonely With her along who could be lonely? I reach for her hand, it's always there How long does it last Can love be measured by the hours in a day I have no answers now, but this much I can say I know I'll need her until the stars all burn away And she'll be there How long does it last Can love be measured by the hours in a day I have no answers now but this much I can say I know I'll need her 'til the stars all burn away And she'll be there

My inner feelings never recognized never heard..

Thoga Thoga Thoga Thoga Thoga

I just want to thank the universe that I can enjoy a lemonade on hot summer days.

If you are, then drink lemonade.

Whatever happened was for my own good.

Whatever is in my heart will always stay in my heart

I don't need to beg anyone

Extremely glad for the first time. Great news.

Never heard much about 5meo except this place. Has anyone tried it? I guess some of you have. What was your first experience like? Any thoughts/things you remember? Or any negative experiences. I'm curious. What does 5meo do? Please no vague/quirky answers. Cut straight to the point.

What are my current issues? - I'm facing some health issues. -------------------------(((((------------------------ What are my current pursuits.. Goals ? - spiritual awakening - lsd reports - art and writing - I have to invest in self care -------------------------(((((------------------------ General remarks/ comments / advice - I don't want to be a part of the forum anymore. It can be heavy and cumbersome to manage - also one thing that I learned today was- people who exist today may go poof tomorrow. So it's best to not invest too much trust into the internet world. - the forum's a tad toxic. - advice is pure self focus and actual work and less talk. Enough discussion on the forum. Current issues Tooth ache . Having severe tooth ache. And slight obstruction from a tooth. A part of the tooth has come off in an ugly way. So I find it difficult to drink anything because it hurts everytime I try to swallow, my tongue meets that obstruction Lower Body pain Extreme hunger Constant tiredness Bad menory

Finish boat race goals tomorrow morning.