Tyler Robinson

List of entities Nelhemina Gaurzeugus Alpha Male 1 Larka 1, 2 and 3. Gaurgoul - any night entity that is ghostly and romantic. A skeleton. Rooberstifin Snake Puerevirden

Another entity that I felt when I was waking up is an ancient man who I have fallen in love with and who is kinda critical, harsh and ruthless His name is Puerevirden

I will call it Gaurgoul

Four kinds of people (romantic relationships) PHONY Shady Sneaky Stingy PHONY - phony are people who just pretend to be nice. But they show their fakery later. You feel that fake vibe. They don't mean what they say. They never turn good on their promise. They are pretentious. They are selfish. They say sweet things and later turn their backs on you when you really need them..Disingenuous. Hypocrite. Backstabber Shady - shady in my opinion would be a guy who is dating an underage person. Like they are aware that they are exploiting someone's weaknesses. They know that they are obviously doing something that gives a fair advantage only to them. They are not innocent at all. For days I had been looking for a definition on this. Or an example of what I would think is shady behavior. Obviously this is phony too because the person is not being genuine in their intent or they could be genuine with their words and sincere in their actions yet their shadiness means this Genuineness is pointless. The intent no matter how pure is still meant to benefit one party alone. The intent is calculated and selfish. Other examples of shady people - they use and throw people. They have a history of breaking hearts. They have scammed someone financially. They hide their affairs from their partner. They have covered up their jail record. They have mistreated many people. They have mistreated someone with impunity. They have been ruthless. Their friendships are pure convenience. They have committed atrocities, let's say their past partner has committed suicide because of their cruelty to them. Etc. Shady people can be way worse than phony. A phony can cause temporary feelings of betrayal and disgust and mental anguish. A shady person can literally put your life into jeopardy if you are involved in their master plan without knowing what it is about. They can pretty much screw you up for your whole life. Sneaky - a sneaky is a person who chooses to do things behind your back mostly. For example they might have been gossiping about you with their friends without you knowing it. They might be spying on you secretly. They might be doing silly stuff behind your back or when you are not around just to get away with it. They could be lying to you over little things from time to time. This is not a very harmful behavior. It's simply dishonest but maybe without mal intent. Stingy - a person who spends too little time or money. A person who is not generous. Too calculated, cold. Not selfless. Not giving. Especially when they have a lot of money. They are always thinking what they got to lose. They never want to do anything that doesn't suffice them in some way in the future. They plan everything meticulously and eventually cut you off to meet their own needs. They might not be shady or sneaky. But they abruptly cut you off when they need to in order to fulfill their plan. They keep you on a razors edge. They are careful in how much they barter with you. They never have friends who they don't need. They will constantly judge you, constantly calculate or weigh your value in their life. And cut you the moment they find you unnecessary.

Green Flags for genuineness.

I will call it Gaurgoul

Okeee I was a bit sleepy when I posted the entry above. The last sentence is a bit garbled. That's why.

Why you never told me that I belonged to you. Yesterday I felt a bit shy when you were talking to me and you told me how much you love me.. You came so close. You told me that you would die for me. I just need your love. When you asked me - what do I want most from you? The answer is nothing. You were going to be away from me again. In a distant land. I think the only thing I ever want is that you stay safe and never suffer from others. I hope you will remember me when you leave me. I cannot ask much from the kit.. Rethink

A few hours ago.... I walked into the kitchen. And I suddenly felt like someone (a ghostly presence) was watching over me. They seem to have taken fancy at me. They were creating this strange sexual tension. Similar to Succubus /Incubus And they looked like a skeleton

I thought of another entity. Gaurgouls. I've realized that my spiritual path is through entities. Only entities can help me One is Rooberstifin Second is Gaurgoul Third is a snake Then I have Larka 1, 2 and 3. The others include The other characters are Alpha male 1.....and Gaurzeugus. Nelhemina Nelhemina Gaurzeugus Alpha Male 1 Larka 1, 2 and 3. Gaurgoul - any night entity that is ghostly and romantic. A skeleton. Rooberstifin Snake

Got so much off my chest. Lifted a burden off my shoulders. Now I need to start thinking about my future. See everything happens for the better.

Quiet. Orientation Observation . Decision Action

I like eating detergent.... Umm.. Sometimes. Just scraped off and ate a little bit right now.

It’s a complicated tale — about culture and privilege, guns and mental health. But it’s also about sex, pornography, and the increased pressure on young men to live up to some mythical “player” status — now amplified in a thousand social updates and dating apps. American college students today may not actually be having more sex than their parents, but it’s easy to see how an isolated young man might perceive the opposite. Like most boys, Rodger described seeing his first porn at age 11. It’s a safe bet that what he learned about sex on the Internet was not the stuff of three-dimensional women.

I'm dancing like crazy right now. Like this.. Lol.

If Columbine taught us about school bullying in the 1990s, then the brutal killings at UCSB give us a glimpse into the toxic way that failed sex, misogyny and modern masculinity are intertwined.

Right now I'm dancing to this song. I like the beat. It's so much fun. So much fun dancing to this.

Elliot Rodger had never kissed a girl. In a culture of casual sex, he was a virgin — at 22. He was lonely, angry, humiliated, depressed, and also likely struggling with mental illness. He couldn’t understand why others got to have what he didn’t; why girls always seemed to go after the “obnoxious jocks,” not the nice guys like him.... why he had to see it all around him — from porn to campus party culture — as if taunting him. He was always missing out.

I won't be able to structure this in the best possible way because of my low IQ, autism and my lack of ability to articulate properly. Anyway I'll give it a try. When you want to feel someone or know something about them, read their character, energy, heart, mind etc you have to use your emotions. There's nothing wrong with this. Like Flowboy said the only way to know if someone is being genuinely good is through intuition. And for intuition you need to rely on emotion. Whereas once you have used your emotions to figure things out, remember to trust what your emotions are telling you. They are your basic guiding tools. Use it abundantly. What to do next? Once you have it figured Then... Use your intellect.. Like this — I have highlighted the stuff in bold. I don't want to talk about it any more. That's not how I interpreted the situation, but it doesn't matter how I interpreted it. What's the point of that bullshit? Stop worrying about Leo or other people on this forum. Focus on working on your own life. I am telling you to let it go because you are clearly overreacting. Leo is not a horrible racist you paint him to be. But arguing with you about it is useless so I am telling you to let it go instead. I am telling you this not because I find you annoying but because I can see how worrying about that distracts you from actually changing your life for the better. You don't like Leo? Fine find yourself another teacher who you like. Or just figure stuff out on your own. But don't get stuck for another 10 years bulshitting about useless shit over and over again. Can't you see how you are wasting your life that way??? You are right about quitting the forum though. I should do that as well. After using your emotions you have to use your intellect and wisdom and do what's necessary to ground your life back to where it belongs.

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I feel slightly relaxed right now..

After glancing through the posts above, I have come to the realization that I indeed have a few shadows to work on which are probably the reason why I am so resistant to certain people and certain ideas... Its like every time these things cross my path I pull out a dab dance move. These shadows are — Shadow against rationality and logic Shadow against success and successful people (refer Robert Greene) Shadow against tough love Shadow against masculine energy Shadow against money. This is okayish Shadow against honesty Shadow against criticism Shadow against selfishness and machiavellianism Shadow against narcissism

Everytime I listen to these two songs I feel strong male energy coming towards me. Is it just me or others feel it too when they listen to these tracks? Do you catch the same vibe as I do?