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He actually isn't hating on science. He's just saying that science is not the ultimate perspective. Let me put it to you this way: Do you think the scientists that work in the Matrix, can use science to realize that they're in the Matrix? The answer is no, if they live in a perfect Matrix like we do. That's because they are studying reality from within the system of reality. They have no ability to get an outside vantage point. So, science is incredibly useful within the illusion. It's great at observations of how things work, which can then be used to invent things within the illusion. And its a hallmark of human development that's allowed us to thrive as a species in many regards. Having said that, it's horrible for recognizing the illusion for what it is. That can only be achieved in the firsthand experience, which science is a part of but is not outside of. But you don't have to believe me or Leo or anyone about this. Just be able to separate belief from things that you actually know about reality. And once you can separate the wheat from the chaff, you'll realize that it's all chaff. And it will be in your best interest at that point to realize that you're in the ultimate blindspot. You know no more about the actual nature of reality than you did as a newborn baby. That's true no matter how deep your scientific knowledge and understanding goes. So, if you are in your living room, you don't know if your bedroom actually exists. For all you know, everything could cease to exist every time you stop perceiving of it. All you'l ever have of reality is your little bubble of reality and its consistency of patterns and understanding. This gives the feeling that there is a continuity and 'realness' to it. But for all you know, it could be a complete and total illusion. And you can never know one way or another. All you'll ever truly know about reality is the awareness of the present moment, which is a non-point because the present moment has no set duration. So, all you know is the fodder of the mind, which is just sounds and images floating around in your field of perception. But to boil it down to basics; science is the wrong paradigm for examining questions of an existential nature.

Turquoises are genuinely in touch with their emotions and are naturally empathetic to the suffering of others, and are humane as a result. So, it doesn't have anything to do with "reason" as reason is a function of the mind and empathy is a function of the heart. So, if you are conscious of the suffering in a really palpable way, you will naturally not want to contribute to it because the suffering of others is LITERALLY your suffering. You can FEEL it. It's a function of the heart which is superior to the mind in these matters. But it also won't make any logical sense to contribute to the killing/torture animals when it can be avoided by eating other things. So, it's not like the mind won't play its part. But don't look to the head for understanding. That will bypass the emotional awareness that you need to become more conscious. It's easy to hide away from your emotions in your head and be like, "Well, technically plants are alive too. So, why is it worse to kill animals?" But that's just the mind intellectually bypassing the awareness of the emotions using reductionism and logic. You'd be essentially using the truth to lie to yourself. If you look (and really look without retreating into the mind), you will FEEL the difference between killing an animal and killing a plant. And those feelings are valid and should be listened to. The mind may tell you otherwise to keep you in homeostasis though. It's good at rationalizing things away and creating blindspots that keep us in our comfort zones.

You should do a gaming channel if it's what you're really passionate about. Your emotions should tell you what's right for you. Don't feel obligated to bypass things that you're genuinely interested in because they are "low consciousness." Not everything has to center around "high consciousness" things. In fact, notoriously "low consciousness" things can be done in a conscious way, and "high consciousness" things can be done in an unconscious way. Don't bypass your genuine interests.

She probably won't refuse. But I guess the answer is not to do anything that's going to make you uncomfortable. If you're pre-occupied with that worry, you won't really be able to let go and enjoy the intimacy. So, because you probably want to have a sexual experience with her to be in the moment and enjoy it, and because you probably will be too worried to let go and enjoy it if you don't know her STD status, then it makes sense not to do it.

When I was dieting and exercising to lose weight after my pregnancies, I weighed myself first thing in the morning every single morning. I always did this after using the bathroom and prior to eating or drinking anything. It was super motivating to see that I was losing a few fractions of a pound per day. And it didn't take me long to lose all the weight. The first time I was even able to get down to 118 from my max pregnancy weight of 195. The second time I went from a max weight of 195 (again) and got it down to like 122. Now, I'm like 130 because I haven't been paying attention to my weight. So, I need to get back on track with an exercise regiment and get back to paying attention to what I'm eating and how much.

I think the not taking dating advice from women thing can be generally true. Most women are told a lot of mixed messages about what they should and shouldn't want. So, it's a very difficult knot to untangle. And even when you untangle it, it takes a lot of bravery to admit to those things because there's always someone there trying to use it to demonize or oppress. That said, I do know what I want, and I imagine that most women work at least somewhat similarly. So, I think that it's important to listen to female perspectives on what they are interested in and how an attraction actually comes about from the firsthand experience. The PUA guys will tell you what works in a very specific kind of situation. But they won't necessarily understand the firsthand experience of how it works or why it works. You can only get 'what works' from them. So, to take advice only from other men on dating women is a little foolish. And I can tell by looking at it that most men who are taking the advice will get it all wrong. But I understand why they only cover what works in particular situation. They basically boil down female attraction so that it becomes slightly more actionable to spark an attraction in a woman. But I can tell you that almost all the advice I've heard on the topic of how to attract a woman, would leave me (personally) just not very interested. I require a lot more platonism and ambiguity to build up the tension necessary to create an attraction powerful enough for me to really swoon for that guy.

I would express to her your concerns and be really honest. But do so in a way that emphasizes that it's just your paranoia and not meant in a way that shames her for her past. Then, let her know that it would just put your mind at ease if she did that, and that you want to be able to let go of that worry when you're intimate with her. She will probably understand and not take it personally. I was worried about that before I lost my virginity and later relaxed a little with it when I became intimate with my long term partners. I think it's really common, and she probably has had similar worries in the past. But you know it is better safe than sorry. And you'll probably not want concerns like that circulating around in your mind, because it might ruin the experience.

Who exactly would benefit by pushing that narrative? If it were some processed Cocoa company, then the raw Cacao companies that they're trying to 'beat out' by conducting such a study would be able to avoid it by beginning to process their Cacao. But I looked it up and it appears that the study was funded by the Brazilian government. And they found that 98% of Raw Cacao sourced in Brazil contained a significant amount of Mycotoxins and the fungi that create those Mycotoxins. So, if anything, they stand to lose something by conducting that study as I'm sure they make a lot of money in taxes off of Cacao export. But even ancient peoples in South America soaked and roasted their Cacao. They didn't consume it raw. So, it's not a new thing. I trust that they knew a bit more about these things than modern raw foodists. Also, human beings are part of nature and cannot actually go against it even if we tried. So, given the fact that all human societies have cooked their food, it means that cooking is natural for us. Choosing to eat a raw diet is also natural for us. Eating meat is natural for us. Going Vegan is natural for us. Basically, every diet that will sustain human life is natural to us. Human beings are what I call "adaptovores". They eat whatever they can eat. And once food is abundant enough and a variety of food is possible through export, they can choose to eat more ethically. So, I choose to err on the side of caution, and only eat Cacao here and there in small amounts. It's not like Cacao is some miracle food that must be consumed to stay healthy. There are plenty of other raw foods with similar or better benefits and none of the drawbacks.

Be careful with Cacao, and only eat it in moderation. On the packaging for it you'll see that it's not recommended for pregnant women because it can cause birth defects, because of the presence of Mycotoxins. I'll paste a little information below that I found about Cacao a while back. "Whilst it may seem that raw cacao is the sure ‘go to’ choice, there is a grey area that shouldn’t be ignored. According to the National Confectioners Association (US based), the raw and un-roasted form of cacao, which lacks the heating process, makes the beans more susceptible to bacteria and toxic contamination. This happens because any heating and roasting process will destroy bacteria. Over half the microbes that contribute to fermentation naturally create mycotoxins. Mycotoxins are fungi that contaminate food and are unseen to the naked eye. When the roasting stage is removed, like it is with raw cacao, the mycotoxins remain present. Alfatoxin and ochratoxin are examples of mycotoxins and according to renowned nutritionist Georgia Dind have the following effects: • Neurotoxic (destroys nervous tissue) • Immunosuppressive (suppresses immune function) • Genotoxic (causes genetic mutations) • Carcinogenic (cancer causing) • Teratogenic (causes birth defects)"

Huge swaths of the population are becoming more conscious since right after the 2012 shift, and those who are not becoming more conscious in that way are reacting against it strongly. And the shadows are rising and taking hold of those who aren't becoming conscious, bringing light to that which has previously been swept under the rug for those who are becoming more conscious. This is why there are an increasing number of Trumpers, Incels, MGTOWs, Red Pillers, climate change deniers, misogynists, defenders of crony capitalism, hyper-rationalists, white supremacists, Alt-righers, and anti-feminine pseudo-intellectuals (like Jordan Peterson). They are walking examples of the collective shadow. Then, there are also those who stay stuck in neutrality because neutrality had worked in the past, and they created an ideology around always taking the middle ground. So, they get swept into unconsciousness and the shadows are taking hold of them too. And the shadow of humanity have taken hold in these groups, BECAUSE we are becoming more conscious. And the defenders of the status quo are resisting that consciousness with so many buzz words and ideologies. And this acute emergence of resisters and status quo defenders lay bare in gruesome detail, the ugliness which has always been there underneath all the niceties of society. And now, like turning over so many rotting logs, it makes it uncomfortable to be a person who is aware... which in turn begets even more (unpleasant) awareness. But many of those who are becoming aware are largely silent, because they know resisters to consciousness will jump down their throats and call them names. So, the loud voices of the resisters to consciousness, drown out the voices of those who are becoming conscious. But that doesn't meant that they aren't there. They are, in fact, a larger percentage of the population than the defenders of the status quo. So, it isn't just people on Actualized. These are just people who are conscious enough to see what's happening around them. So, consciousness is coming whether its unpleasant or not. And consciousness is coming in the form of these Shadow people and what we can learn from them and their self-created prisons.

I agree so much. If a guy comes right out with sexual/dating intentions toward me, it's such a turn-off. I much prefer a guy that I know who I have a platonic relationship with, who's maybe slightly flirtatious with me in an ambiguous way. And the more ambiguous the flirtation, the better. I don't want to know that he likes me. That's what builds up the tension is not knowing if he likes me like I like him. And I have to feel like he is selective with his sexual desires, and not just trying to find any woman, and wants me in particular. Self-control with sexuality is very important to me. Then, I can wonder how he feels about me, and get excited at things unspoken. Then I can fantasize about the moment when things finally go in a romantic direction, which builds up more tension. A man who wears his sexuality on his sleeve, takes all the tension out of the situation. So, most of the time, it's too boring to feel anything other than platonic toward them. So, I agree. The person who posted would probably do well to get to know more women in a purely platonic way without needing it to move toward anything sexual. And eventually, someone will be interested in them if they aren't trying too hard.

Oh, I should have mentioned that I'm not sure if I actually ended up in Paris. That's just where I intended to go. I ended up on a pedestrian walkway, which emerged from the gray of the inside of the door that I jumped into. And on that walkway I materialized right up in the girls' faces who were conversing on a bench. They didn't see me, and it was too close for comfort. So, I walked down this road which lead to a bridge that sat near a river, where there was a mountain-like structure that reminded me of something that you'd see in a place like Arizona or New Mexico. It was made out of redish-orangish rock. But I didn't pay any attention to what I was wearing. I was more focused on seeing if the scene had consistency. So, I walked down that road a bit. And I came back, and the scene stayed consistent. It was still the same place I had just come from. But I met up with these three people, one of which is a well-known spiritual teacher. We were on that road and conversing together about some kind of plan. But the funny thing is, I can't really remember what we were talking about; just the general vibe of it. But I've never had any issue with getting back to my body. I've had the opposite issue, where I can't sustain the experience. So, staying out for any extended period of time is highly unlikely. Probably the longest experiences I've had with Astral Projection have lasted less that 30 minutes. But mostly I can only sustain it for a minute or two. So, I wouldn't worry too much about that. But entities can be an issue because they're scary. So, I don't experience them very much anymore because I've done a lot of inner work. At least I believe that's why I don't experience them as much as I used to.

It could be that you feel limited to the current persona that you have. Maybe you feel like you'd be being inauthentic to come across any other way. So, I would focus toward creating an understanding of yourself as being competent and and normal, and building up a new persona that reflects that. And be willing to bluff a bit. The thing that separates the average person from a person who is needy, is just the way they come across. Most people have crippling insecurities. But on some, it's more obvious. So, to get past it, you might even try creating an alter-ego of sorts. This is essentially what teenagers do when they create their identity. And if they do so in a healthy way, they will be able to fit in. But if they don't create a persona that has the ability to blend and look normal, they will run into problems So, that's probably what's brought you to where you are now. You've not created a persona that's well-adjusted to the social landscape and its unique challenges. And your self-defeating thought processes keep you trapped in that ill-fitting persona. So, all you have to do is create one that is well-adapted. Then, once you can bring yourself above water with your persona, you can build it up even further in whichever way you want. But the one thing to realize is that ALL personas are created. And you can create your persona any way you want. The sky is the limit. The canvas is yours to paint on. So, paint something new.

Thank you.

At the ultimate level, all is one thing. But there is a duality that can be noted within that one thing. So, there are two polar subtle energies of Yin and Yang that ebb and flow in all living and non-living systems. They are like the code that programs reality. But at the end of the day, they are one and the same, as they are the fodder of Maya. This is why Shiva and Shakti are depicted in the Yab Yum position in eternal intercourse with one another. They are never separate.

My thought is that there must be an issue with how you're approaching. It might be the vibe you're giving off. Often times, men with low self-esteem who lack self-confidence, unconsciously put a lot of pressure onto women. This makes them very uncomfortable. For example, when I was 20, I went out to a jazz/cigar bar and I met this guy who was kind of nerdy looking and overweight. But he seemed cool at first. We were playing chess upstairs. I knew he was interested in me, and I wasn't completely not interested in him. Either way, I was enjoying his company. But then he got really insecure about messing up the interaction with me. And I realized that he was putting too much emphasis on the interaction. Like I knew that he felt like I held his worth as a human being in my hands. So, this immediately scrubbed all potential for romance or even friendship from my mind, because I felt that pressure that he'd unintentionally put onto me by giving me that much power and significance over him even in just having met him. But he asked for my number, and I gave it to him. I didn't want to hurt his feelings. And I gave him my real number too. Unfortunately, I was very poverty-stricken at the time. And I couldn't even afford to keep the lights on in my apartment. And so, I wasn't able to pay my phone bill, and I never used it anyway. But one night, a few months later, I was out playing my guitar on the street. That was how I made my money at the time. And he walks by and confronts me about giving him a fake number. And he was pretty confrontational and aggressive about it. So, I told him that it wasn't a fake number. And that I was struggling financially. And I showed him my phone, which I still had (even though I couldn't use it). So, that he could see that I hadn't given him a fake one. So, the situation de-escalated. Then, I get a text from him a few minutes later, and I ignored it. Too much baggage, too quick. If you've ever had a person try to be friends with you too quick, it's the same thing. You know that person desperately need a friend, because they don't have any. But you also know that if you agree to be their friend, they will put too much emphasis on the friendship too quick. Edit: I guess I did have my phone back on at the time. Otherwise, he wouldn't have been able to text. Either way, my phone was unpaid very often. So, when I gave him the number, he got the message that the number had been disconnected.

I think that just taking action is going to be your best bet. You can waste a lot of time in your head mulling over it. But it's basically a comfort zone where you can continue to solidify your pessimistic outlook on your dating prospects. So, I recommend going out and meeting some people. Go to a club where you can find women who are looking for something fun or romantic. And then just get some experience, even if it's just a one-night stand. I feel like once you get past that initial hurdle, you'll be able to realize that the thoughts you're thinking are just limiting beliefs with no basis in reality. I'm sure that there's nothing about you inherently that is keeping you held back in this avenue other than your mentality surrounding this issue.

Yin and Yang are two polar subtle energies that make up every living and non-living system. So, as human beings, we have a unique ratio of Yin and Yang that constitutes our pre-conditioned personality. So, we are whole as we are, because we are a complete system. We need no one else to be a complete system. But during intercourse, a brand new system is born between two whole people which necessitates its own Yin and Yang interplay. So, during intercourse there are two whole systems functioning within one whole system that encompasses them both. This is similar to how our heart is its own system, but it also works as a part within a greater system which is the body. Or how atoms are a system in and of themselves, but they bond together to create different types of molecules which are also systems. And (speaking heteronormatively) in the system of intercourse, the Yang aspects of the man will connect with the Yin aspects of the woman. AND the Yin aspects of the man will connect with the Yang aspects of the woman. This will make the system whole and unique to them. And it may produce yet another new system in the form of a new child who is also a mixture of Yin and Yang as well. Now, it is more likely that the man will have more Yang than Yin and that the woman will have more Yin than Yang. This is what's most common. But there are plenty of exceptions. And (speaking heteronomatively again) there is basically a circle that's created between the man and the woman. A man penetrates the woman's body (and heart if the chemistry is right) and the woman penetrates the man's mind (and heart if the chemistry is right). And there is basically a flow of erotic and life-giving energy that moves in that circular path created between the two.

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This article gives basic run-down of what the risks are for women with regard to intermittent fasting. It also gives some alternatives to intermittent fasting, so that you can pick a fasting schedule that doesn't mess with your hormones. https://blog.kettleandfire.com/intermittent-fasting-for-women/ But basically, the idea is that if a woman's body registers that food is scarce, the reproductive functions will start to shut down. Basically, it registers that you're starving and wouldn't be able to have enough nourishment to feed both yourself and a baby. So, the body makes it to where you can't get pregnant by stopping menstrual cycles, releasing less Estrogen, shrinking ovaries, etc. I also read in another article that it can increase Testosterone production, because your body wants to gear you up for hunting in a food scarce wilderness. Basically, allowing you to fulfill the male role of provider in the earliest days of humanity.

@crushangel Yes. Those are astral projection experiences. It can be difficult to leave your house. But definitely try to. I once jumped into my front door. And everything went gray, and I decided that doing so would bring me wherever I wanted. So, I tried to go to Paris (for no other reason than it was the first thing I thought of). I ended up in the middle of a pedestrian walkway. Then I went walking around in that location, and saw a lot of cool things. I even met up with a few different people and had a conversation. That's the furthest I've ever consciously projected to. Most of the time I have trouble leaving my house. But occasionally I can make it out to the neighborhood and walk around. Once I make it that far away from my bed, it becomes a lot easier to sustain the experience.

My experience is that the external judgment usually comes first, in the form of 'othering'. But external and internal judgments have a way of snowballing, because they both feed into one another. But I suppose that internal judgment could spring up first too. Sometimes, it is the way we're taught to view ourselves and the world that begets internal judgment which translates into external judgment onto those who deviate from our worldviews. But regardless of the origin of a judgment, you should be able to become aware of it as its happening and watch it with detachment. This is the most important thing.

Another one of my fave sagely quotes.

What I'm saying is that my attractions come about spontaneously and without seduction. They happen when he's not even there. And part of the thing that makes me attracted is not knowing whether or not he's interested. So, the attraction happening (for me) is not active on the man's part. He's just being himself, and I start to get attracted without him doing anything other than being himself.

@billiesimon I think beginning with seeing the label of "good" as fairly arbitrary can be a good start. Ultimately, it is one word and can't really describe a person who is multi-faceted and flawed. But if you have any of those violent images come up, it can important to understand that they aren't coming from you. Nothing in the internal experience comes from you. There is no actual "you" inside the mind that's producing images and thoughts. They are just spontaneously springing into the internal landscape. They mean as much about you as the tree in your back yard. They are just there. They are happenings. But they aren't happenings that "you" caused. So, imagine that there is a thunderstorm that's happening, and it's destroying some things and making some trees fall down. Then, there's some crazy guy who's freaking out because he believes that he's somehow causing the thunderstorm to happen. So, he's panicking because he can't figure out how to stop the thunderstorm. He finds himself completely unable to control it. Now, we see that this man is crazy to identify himself as the cause of the thunderstorm. We know that he has NOTHING to do with the thunderstorm at all. The thunderstorm is just happening, and he's perceiving it. But he makes the mistake to believe that because he's perceiving it, he's the one that's also causing it. As crazy as it seems, this is the same mistake that people make about their internal landscape. And they make that mistake because they identify with the happenings in their internal landscape and they make it mean something about themselves. So, if they perceive a thunderstorm in their external landscape, they don't make it mean anything about themselves. They just try to stay safe from it. But they don't think, "This thunderstorm means that I'm a bad person." They would recognize that as crazy. But with the internal landscape, when they perceive of destructive drives, thoughts, and urges, they fall into that trap. They think, "These internal phenomena mean that I'm a bad person." And if they can't stop it, they do their best to ignore it and create all kinds of protection mechanisms to divert their attention from what is a threat to their ego. But I would imagine that you can't necessarily see the depth of the resistance to the feminine. Most of it is probably unconscious because it would threaten your positive perception of yourself. So, look first to the most overt judgments you come across that relate back to women. Your judgments will show you what you're also judging in yourself. Then you can begin to deconstruct these beliefs by questioning their truth and validity. A lot of it will come from emptying your cup of falsehoods that you've learned from your family, your culture, and yourself.