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Techno Party Habit Streak (3): Meditation (30 min) - SDS Programming Subconscious - Streak (68) deep-work session (60min) - 2 sessions (21) Habit Streak (1): Meditation (30 min) - SDS Programming Subconscious - Streak (68) deep-work session (60min) - 2 sessions (23) Had a techno party, held myself back from drinking too much. I'm proud, I didn't fuckup my whole day. I worked for a bit. - Consciousness is the key

I think I got IT Habit Streak (1): Meditation (30 min) - SDS Programming Subconscious - Streak (68) deep-work session (60min) - 0 sessions (21) Habit Streak (2): Meditation (30 min) - SDS Programming Subconscious - Streak (68) deep-work session (60min) - 2 sessions (23) I think I want to make website's and earn cash. - Consciousness is the key

Life Habit Streak (3): Meditation (30 min) - SDS Programming Subconscious - Streak (68) deep-work session (60min) - 2 sessions (21) Watched a movie it made me cry a little. Shit hits me hard "me earl and the dying girl" its about life. Did school work, Did thinking about my future, the wheel's should be hitting the road. But I can't decide what I want to do. I just need to start. - Consciousness is the key

Another Great Day Habit Streak (2): Meditation (30 min) - SDS Programming Subconscious - Streak (68) deep-work session (60min) - 4 sessions (19) Got out of my bed, exactly 8 hours of sleep under my belt. Dabbled a bit thinking about where I want to take my life. Meditated good session. In the evening put my programming cap on and straight worked for 4 hours on my program. Making a goals app, where you can actually write your goals down and it reminds you every day. I already got the app down because I quit just need to make some last adjustments. I need to stop fucking with dabbling immediately. - Consciousness is the key

Binge Working Habit Streak (1): Meditation (30 min) - SDS Programming Subconscious - Streak (67) deep-work session (60min) - 7 sessions !?!? (15) Got out of my bed very late and went to school. I came back home exshausted but I still went and worked on a new video. I worked 7 freaking hours on this video. I have to learn adobe illustrator and after effects so I'm learning a lot but because of this I didn't meditate witch is not good. - Consciousness is the key

Snowboarding! Habit Streak (1): Meditation (30 min) - SDS Programming Subconscious - Streak (67) 7 o'clock dayz deep-work session (60min) - 0 session (8) Went snowboarding with my mates, awesome! I'm making a new video gonna be awesome too! Now I'm tired need to rest... - Consciousness is the key

Mostly everybody stuck in denial. Habit Streak (1): Meditation (30 min) - SDS Programming Subconscious - Streak (66) 7 o'clock dayz deep-work session (60min) - 2 session (8) Just shut down my browser by accident have to type everything again. I regurgitated some information from DEEP WORK for my video in my 2 deep work hours. Also waxed my snowboard for tomorrow I will go to Snow-world. It's a indoor ski hall because we don't have mountains or snow in Holland *crying in a corner*. I'm really looking forward to shredding tomorrow YHEA! Watched American Beauty, quite depressing. - Consciousness is the key

Do or Die? Habit Streak (1): Meditation (30 min) - SDS Programming Subconscious - Streak (66) 7 o'clock dayz deep-work session (60min) - 0 session (6) A lot of school things. Tomorrow I will have a lot of free time so I need to get on that deep-work! - Consciousness is the key

Busyness Habit Streak (1): Meditation (30 min) - SDS Programming Subconscious - Streak (65) 7 o'clock dayz - Woke up jumped back into bed deep-work session (60min) - 1 session (6) School and such late night deep-work, reviewing books. - Consciousness is the key

Deep Work Habit Streak (1): Meditation (30 min) - SDS Programming Subconscious - Streak (65) 7 o'clock dayz deep-work session (90min) - 3 sessions (3) Great day, I did some programming for school. Basic .NET CORE website. Yesterday and today I fully read Deep Work by Cal Newport. Very interesting topic especially in the context of life purpose. Marked down the good points and will of course make a mind-map tomorrow. The book also says you should keep a score of your deep work hours, so I will do that to optimise value creation. I also watched the movie Apocalypto, it's about a tribe in mexico that get's captured by Mayans. Puts the whole evolution of the human race in perspective, quite amazing how fast we have grown as a species. - Consciousness is the key

Focus Habit Streak (2): Meditation (30 min) - SDS Programming Subconscious - Streak (63) 7 o'clock dayz Went to school and did some programming on my own. Realized that I need to narrow down my focus and focus on the mastery process and 10000 hour rule. This is maybe one of the biggest blocks that is holding me back right now. I don't focus my attention on one special area or skill. Instead I just dabble around. - Consciousness is the key

Meditation Habit Streak (1): Meditation (30 min) - SDS Programming Subconscious - Streak (62) 7 o'clock dayz Worked and had some deep conversations with my family. Told them about meditation and stuff, they knew but I told them more about it. My sister came to me and told me about mindfulness. I told her about meditation and she is trying it too now. Quite fun to talk about it. But she has to discover this on her own. I can't push it on her, I can guide her but no pressure . If the time is ripe she will understand and do hopefully. - Consciousness is the key

DERP Habit Streak (1): Meditation (30 min) - SDS, not the best Programming Subconscious - Streak (61) 7 o'clock dayz Well that was fun... - Consciousness is the key

LP Habit Streak (1): Meditation (30 min) - SDS, not the best Programming Subconscious - Streak (59) 7 o'clock dayz Read my whole journal back its cool to have for that purpose too. I can see how I have managed to live a half year and do nothing. Quite extraordinary. Going to a party to night there won't be coming any productive things from me for 2 days. I'm dabbeling too much, still even tough I know this concept and I know I won't be extraordinary when I dabble. Focus on LP focus. - Consciousness is the key

Your Life Short, Don't Ever Question The Length. - Mac Miller Habit Streak (1): Meditation (30 min) - SDS Programming Subconscious - Streak (58) 7 o'clock dayz - Deeper Motivation Or Night Person? This one is tricky. Did a video but recognize I need a better vision and deeper meaning. Funny how a lot of the times I just see things as they are. Ego's clashing fucking apes in a cage, so low consciousness but I still do it sometimes too hahaha. - Consciousness is the key

Habit Streak (3): Meditation (30 min) - SDS Programming Subconscious - Streak (57) 7 o'clock dayz - 7 o'clock yess Woke up, jump out of bed straight downstairs so I don't jump back in! Thee, Programming Subcontious, Read, I'm on a roll. To school with Leo in my ear, going back home with Leo in the ears again. Yhea reality is fucking weird, back home, homework, make a video, damn best day ever... - Consciousness is the key

Habit Streak (2): Meditation (30 min) Programming Subconscious - Streak (56) 7 o'clock dayz - 6 o'clock! School, went to the eye guy for the measurements of my eyes so I can order my new frames . Its time to upgrade my swag. Then wasted my time on Shameless series. Did do some home work and planning. - Consciousness is the key

Hey @Venus thanks for the love, appreciate it. I will watch the video immediately. I saw one of his video's before but this one I didn't see, the channel is really helpful. I realize that self love is very helpful and important but still experience my ups and downs in it. So it's not reliable yet to use as motivation I think, if I develop it more it will be more steady. But I realize that life in general has ups and downs so unless I get enlightened I will have to deal with that.

Work Habit Streak (1): Meditation (30 min) Programming Subconscious - Streak (55) 7 o'clock dayz - Sad Boys Work, Work, Work. Tired, but I know I actually had to work on my Life Purpose. I didn't do anything. I think that I couldn't sit with the confusion of if life purpose actually is a solid life path. I logically that it is but deeper down I still feel doubt. - Consciousness is the key

Fuck Yhea it is !

@Venus First I sit down for 5 min and repeat my life-purpose to myself and then I sit down another 5 min to contemplate my life-purpose. And with contemplation I mean, asking how I'm going to realize my LP, what the effects will be on my life when I realize my LP, why I do my LP. I got it from the Life-Purpose course of Leo. He says that you have to do this 90 days in a row than you will become a boss so that is my goal.

Documentary's Habit Streak (2): Meditation (30 min) - 20 min Programming Subconscious - Streak (54) 7 o'clock dayz - RED Love documentary's went with my dad to the International Documentary Film Festival Amsterdam. Seen some great and weird silent movies and two documentary about zero days (hackers) and South Africa (connecting to my roots). - Consciousness is the key

Life Purpose, Burning The Boats? Habit Streak (2): Meditation (30 min) - SDS Programming Subconscious - Streak (53) 7 o'clock dayz - GREEN Wasted a lot of time but got everything green yay! Watched two episodes of Shameless and a lot of bullshit YT. Interviews with rappers and shit. Got the idea of watching the life purpose course again because I realized I did not fully implemented and "went into the woods". I'm more like standing before the woods going in 10 steps and wondering if I didn't begin the path in a wrong part of the woods lol. aka dabble dabble shit. I know my life purpose and feel a drive but also resistance, need to slowly dissolve that. - Consciousness is the key

The Game Habit Streak (1): Meditation (30 min) - SDS Programming Subconscious - Streak (52) 7 o'clock dayz - Need to practice my routine again Meditated, went to Amsterdam to game with my friend. 5 Approaches, gotto say it's nerve wrecking every time. Need to practice consistency but can't until I live in a big city. So fuck game for now, I'm focusing on online money to move. Did some research and made some changes to my website.

Two Gold Nuggets Habit Streak (1): Meditation (30 min) - 2 times 30 min Programming Subconscious - Streak (51) 7 o'clock dayz Feeling better than yesterday, I found myself a bit back today. Two major things I need to talk about. Tomorrow I will wake up at 8 so I get better sleep it is already late now. Yesterday I couldn't sleep all night, probably because I fucked u p my sleeping pattern in the weekend. At first I was worrying about things I know that were nothing to worry about. So I decided to read Happiness By Design by Paul Dolan at like 12 in the evening. Then I tried to sleep but couldn't again. Then I meditated for a while don't know how long exactly but at least 15 minutes. I tried to sleep and couldn't again, so now its 2 o'clock in the morning. Then I got onto a crazy train of thought. I was thinking about: why do I do personal-development? I realized I was slowly introduced to it and I thought I always watched it with some awareness but then I realized I wasn't. I realized that I was sort of binge-watching self-help content and that if I would have watched it with full awareness I would probably adjusted my life. I realized how much asleep I was otherwise I couldn't have lived my life like I was living it, with a lot of self-sabotaging habits. This tripped me out so I dug deeper. I asked again: Why do I do personal-development? I realized that I'm doing it because I want to change my life. I asked why do I want to change my life? Because I'm not happy with where I'm at. Why didn't you change your life then? At this moment I saw how much asleep I really was how fucking much. Then I formed a picture in my mind of what I was striving for and I felt such motivation such a strong drive to do something that I couldn't sleep. The picture became clearer and clearer and then eventually I fell asleep. I woke up at baseline level again, I'm trying to get my vision back I lost a bit of it. The second thing is the video under this post. The times where I felt happy and I was floating through life were the times that I thought: "You just have to share." Now I see this concept before my eyes and I recognize how true this is! (yes the second point is smaller ) - Self-Awareness is the key