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Internship - Making software for funeral directors. So they can reserve a spot on the graveyard.

Re-read mastery Key 1: Teachers. When starting out teacher's help a lot. A self-thought individuals runs the possibility of reinventing the wheel and learning bad habits. When choosing a teacher hold these rules in mind: Look at credentials Look at the amount of positive and negative feedback Look at his patience with beginners To master the teaching of slow learners is to master the thinh that your teaching to the minute detail. Key2: the master of any game, is a master of practice. He eats practice for breakfast, lunch and dinner and he loves it. You need to learn to love your practice. Then you get better and this in turn makes you love it even more. Key3: surrender to the path. Sometimes you need to surrender your hard won proficiencys to go to the next level. There are no experts there are only learners. its a journey, when you could see the end you won't even start. Key4: intentionality, vision fuels a master on his jouney. Key5: the edge, the hard thing is not just to push the envelope but also to walk the fine line of endless goalless practice and achieving your goals.

Not Knowing Wow almost done reading the book of not knowing and the exercises in it are just simply said Mind Blowing. He has a guide on contemplation which is quite amazing. Also a note to self is when actually writing down or articulating a concept to yourself or to somebody else it really really forces you to understand it yourself. So actually writing about the thinks I read really helps articulate it in my own words and I remember it way better and clearer. When you just assume you got it, you don't really got it bro.

Guess who's not back Reading a lot lately in the bus (have to commute 4 hours per day O_O ). Almost done with reading the book of nothingness, it is so profound. I now get where a lot of the content leo generates come's from. All the topics discussed in the book can be contemplated by yourself and there would be endless content. Genereting some content for myself too I got so many idea's for video's I'm now doing a course for SEO and ranking in youtube so I hope that will give me some actual traction for creating video's that actually get watched. I really don't have a lot of free time, about 4 hours per day where I need to eat, shower and keep my social connections up. I'm quite amazed at the fact that I could still produce this video. Here it is hope you watch it and tell me what I can do better in the comment's thanks!

Guess who's back Wake at 5:15: 1 Animate: 2

I travel every day for four hours so should I do self-inquery, meditation or concentration? What do you all recommend?

Personally I just can't stick with one thing. I'm always wondering if this is the right thing to do and then eventually I quit and concoct a new plan. So it is lack of focus and indecision.

Shit man this is some good motivation right here! Just like everybody else I got a couple of questions too. 1. What do you think about the effect of psychedelics on mental health? When you get really fucked up because of it is it just the subconscious coming up. Because if you are not able to face it you will be fucked up forever so how do you know you can handle that shit? I want to do it but I'm scared I won't be able to function anymore because of distorted thoughts. 2. My life purpose is also within computer science, studying for that too. I'm still pondering if I should go for app development to raise awareness or machine learning/big data. But all that aside, how did you manage to do so much inner work, study and meditation and still do your life purpose effectively or did you but that on the back burner for 2 years? Your an inspiration, I hope you keep raising awareness. PS: you have to look into quantified self, it's like big data on humans. Here is a good resource http://online.liebertpub.com/doi/pdf/10.1089/big.2012.0002

I'm not able to focus on one topic. I decide something and then 3 days later I forget about it. I'm in constant distraction. The first day I'm like yes lets do this, the second day too, the third day I just do it, the fourth day I just do it, the fifth day I get distracted. 5 days later I remember that I wanted to do something. Then I say fuck it. Concoct a new plan and repeat.

I would just be straight to the point, saves both our asses time. Just 5 minutes in the conversation I would say this. "I know where this is headed, and honestly to save us both some time and effort. I'm really not looking for anything right now. I'm sorry. I'm sure you will find someone else. "

I also get into really deep territory on weed. Once I saw that life was like some kind of loop, every day again. I started to question wheter I could be happy if every thing stayed like this forever. I had to surrender to death and the fact that life will always stay like this inside. It gave me a whole new perspective. I was really panicy tho. Have to work on my anxiety that came up to. Social anxiety, it comes up every time I smoke. It shows that I sill have some blockages although I never realize it when sober.

So I have a question: Do you think it is a viable option to develop apps and websites plus at the same time developing understanding of self-development to become a life-coach? This is my situation, I'm 19 and still studying computer science. I know I can't be a self-development coach of some kind because I lack life experience but I know this is what I am most passionate about and what I mostly enjoy doing. Still I need to get life experience, so I could set up a career in software development and then later in life when I have more leverage because of life experience, status, money and already mastered a skill people will listen to me more because I have more "value" switch to full time self-development. Now I know that when you do 2 things at the same time it doesn't really work so I could also put my development career on autopilot, get a reasonable paying job and focus all the rest on self-development. But this will inhibit me from really becoming the best at software development and I don't know if self-development will ever become profitable. So it comes down to: should I first master software development (which I still love doing) and do self-development only in free time. Or should I try to master personal development (which is what I really believe in can change the world) and as a side job do programming to support my self-development? Thanks for reading and replying

@Franz So I should first do more inner work? Or handle my surroundings and mindset better? Or should I just always stay away from it, I mean I want to do it but I won't untill I know I wont go mental.

I feel the same way, every time I do an attempt of changing my life and I look back half a year later everything is just the same.

Yhea I'm also really interested in this topic. I'm a little bit hazardous of taking strong psychedelics because in the past I have had some psychotic episodes on marijuana. So I'm wondering what will happen if I take for example mushrooms or DMT. All my psychotic episodes were up to the point I lost track of time and didn't know if I would ever be able to get back to my normal thinking. My rule's of daily life fully dissolved and it felt like I was stuck in a loop. But every time I recovered and got back to my "normal" state of mind. So is there anyone with some more knowledge on this topic?

@Dan Arnautu Thanks for your feedback really appreciate it!

@Dan Arnautu Thanks for your in depth reply! So I'm just making excuses, but what about the reality that people don't listen to 19 year olds without life experience? ........ after some thought ..... So what do you think about the idea of setting up a software business as a tool of getting more life experience in order to leave that business and create a personal development business?

DayToDay So I got myself an internship, quite cool to see a big corporate building from the inside the first time. Started school again and worked on that. And realized that Leo is just telling me to stop everything I'm doing and only do consciousness work. Well I want to do it but first I need to fullfill my orange needs. Get some money and go hermit vanning, yes that is still the plan. Already worked out the money so managing that currently and working as much as possible

DayToDay Habit Streak (2): Meditation (30 min) Woke up and applied for some internships. One called me two hours later so I have a meeting on Friday. I'm in a analytical rut again. Saw the new Elon Musk interview on ted, straight up inspiration:

Resistance Habit Streak (1): Meditation (30 min) Looking back I can see that my whole day I was busy resisting what I actually needed to do. Straight war of art type shit. I just resisted making my art today because I am still scared because I don't think I'm any good yet. So I played some games and watched youtube. shitted my whole day away. The only thing I did was update my work application brief. I need to find an internship for school.

DaytoDay Habit Streak (2): Wake at 7 Woke at 7, worked the whole day. Nothing really interesting going on. Just another day in the rat-race. Feeling discomfort towards society and how we structured this world, feeling like I need to understand this more.

DaytoDay Habit Streak (2): Wake at 7 Woke at 7, worked the whole day. Nothing really interesting going on. Just another day in the rat-race. Then I came home didn't have the motivation to do anything so watched a leo video on neurosis and came out with this interesting list: Can’t get out of bed Always want music Always want to look good Want people to like me and be cool can’t finish what I start These are my top 5 neurosis, I have reduced most of them while doing inner work but they still remain.

DaytoDay Habit Streak (1): Wake at 7 Woke at 7, went to school the whole day. Nothing really interesting going on. Just another day in the rat-race.

Mountains Habit Streak (0): Wake at 6 Woke at 9, then I decided to make a video about a passage from the book Zen And The Art Of Motorcycle Maintenance. Unfortunately the writer of the book passed away yesterday. I finished the video because I had the whole day to work on it, it actually came out quite well! In the evening I chilled with my gf. The only time I allow my self to watch stupid shit is when I'm with her, currently watching breaking bad. But we only watch one episode per time so this will take us like half a year lol. The video is about making your own path and just starting.

DaytoDay Habit Streak (2): Wake at 6 Finished my book flow, went to school and worked. "The goal in itself is usually not important; what matters is that it focuses a persons attention and involves it in an achievable, enjoyable activity" - Flow, Mihaly Csikszentmihalyi