andyjohnsonman

@dimitri thanks ill watch it

Because It could just be me experiencing not being able to experience their experience like in a dream?

Yea nice thanks but the only issue is all of that could be happening within the thought feelings and perceptions i am having right now without being separate.

Yea my hunch is it's A too but there's literally no way of knowing! Rupert Spira thinks it's A too if that means anything.

@Danioover9000 Yea maybe a good idea this is a really heavy duty topic and i'm sure its the first thing that will come up as soon as i get back on the psychedelic train.

@dimitri OK so say it's not my ego. Its just thoughts feelings and perceptions happening, but are there other thoughts, feelings and perceptions happening simultaneously or just the ones that are happening as I am typing this now?

Yea OK but my question isn't from the absolute. The question is at the point that the bubble (seperate ego) thinks he is a bubble are there any other bubbles?

@Danioover9000 I wish it was good but i got stuck in a thought loop for hours contemplating whether or not my parents who i love the most actually exist it really wasn't pleasant. My ego really wants it to be A more than anything! @Red-White-Light what do these bubbles signify?

Exactly thats why i had to add a circle around them to eliminate the thinking element. I don't get how it can be either surely the truth is the truth? Even If "I" rests in being when thoughts come you must know if you and other have thoughts (A) or you are the only one thinking. At this point i suspect it's A but I had an LSD trip which freaked me out as B was revealed to me.

Yes but i mean from the egoic perspective ok ill redraw it so its clearer to show what i mean that everything is one but from the egos perspective....

Yea 2 things i'v found are important are knowing not to do it if you have a cold/ run down and not tensing up while in the cold as this will create stiffness in the body. This video might help with understanding that...

David Hawkins

day 3 - 4 rounds breathing followed by jumping in the river for 1 minute wow that was quite the step up and i was so cold when i got out of the river that I had to do press ups to get my blood circulating

Day 3 much easier. 1 minute hot water 30 seconds cold 1 minute hot 30 seconds cold nice way of doing it.

I was just watching Eckhart Tolles new video where he addresses this pandemic saying "Humans don't awaken in their comfort zone, they awaken when they are out of their comfort zone. This is a time of great opportunity." He talked about using this time wisely as a great opportunity to go deeper through adversity. It got me thinking that he should do a live guided meditation that could be available for the millions of people quarantined at home right now. Does anyone know of any live guided meditations? I think they would be pretty powerful. There's many people doing virtual pubs where you video call your friends and have a few beers and a chat. I think this would be a great time for virtual meditation.

This is a very interesting analyses on the current epidemic from Yuval. https://www.ft.com/content/19d90308-6858-11ea-a3c9-1fe6fedcca75

Apparently it's fake - https://www.independent.co.uk/news/uk/home-news/coronavirus-bill-gates-fake-news-the-sun-letter-naomi-campbell-instagram-a9421251.html

Day 2 done. 4 rounds breathing 30 seconds cold shower. Was alot easier than first day I could have gone longer plus my skin didnt turn red and no uncontrollable shivering after.

Hi Silene. Thanks for the websites. I had a look at them and signed up but they are a bit out of my price range. I thought with everything thats going on right now with the massive move towards online classes for everything that there would be some spiritual teachers doing live stream online meditation on youtube in a time where a lot of the world is run on fear we need it more than ever. I am yet to come across any but if as i am currently in self isolation with free time I think doing group meditation would be a cool thing to do. I have done om meditations before as a group and really enjoyed that. If you wanted i would be keen to do something and if we could get more people from this forum to do a group meditation i think that would be great. We could set up a time and get each others Skype accounts and i feel a lot of benefit would come from that.

I just did it this morning. It felt like being whipped across the body for 30 seconds. The longest 30 seconds of my life but oh my I feel good now!

I found a booklet which I feel will help everyone who wants to try this. Wim Hoff workbook.pdf

Im going to start this tomorrow i think especially now is a good time to boost immune system. Do you have a plan of progression for the duration of the cold showers?

So i've been having these constant thoughts over the last few months or so about sex. I was with a girl a few months ago and I couldn't perform. I'm trying to get to the bottom of it. I know it's a limiting belief and it's causing duality as I want to pursue sex but i'm holding back because of my last failure. I think the fact that i'm moving into spiral dynamics stage green as before was in orange might also play a part in this. I see women now as equal and basically the same as men. I don't hold them as sex objects like i used to as a sage orange person. However i'm worried this might have a part to play in it. I also have been getting into meditation alot and feel this might be just lowering my sex drive as i dont get the same cravings. The girl i went out with I didn't find that attractive physically but she was very nice. When undressing her I reacted to one of her nipples being a little wrinkly which caused me to completely lose interest. I then told her i wanted to sleep. But i wanted to prove to myself that i could have sex with her so i invited her over again and failed to perform again. I feel this was an ego self deception as i just wanted to please the ego regardless of if i liked her. I just wanted to prove to myself i am a "man" and can perform to make myself feel better and ofcourse this didnt work. I have now not been pursuing sex even when dating girls and ofcourse this is because of this worry. I decided to journal about this to bust this limiting belief. I am open to thoughts about the whole thing: Busting Limiting Beliefs (do with each limiting belief) 1 Where did this belief come from? 2 Holding this belief helps me feel protected from harm, like a baby blanket, in the following way… 3 How is this belief only a partial perspective on the world? 4 An alternative – equally valid – interpretation of the facts that caused me to adopt this belief is… 5 How is this belief flat out false? 6 What would an impartial 3rd party say about my holding this belief? 7 Three counter-examples to this belief are… 8 An alternative belief that might be even more accurate is… 9 Would I want to pass on this belief to my children? 10 The cost I incur for holding on to this belief is… 11 Do I want to keep holding on to this belief? 12 Is it theoretically possible for me to drop this belief? 13 If I dropped this belief, my life would improve in the following ways… 14 An alternative and still valid belief that would get me better results in life is… I can’t have sex and dont want to have sex because I couldn’t perform last time. This is because I’m actually more worried that I can’t control my mind and that I will get worried when I get down to business which will cause the flop or the flop will cause nervousness which will have a snowball effect. Does seeing girls as humans affect my ability to fuck as I dont see them as sex objects. As I transcend to stage green in femininity? Im putting too much emphasis on having to perform like its my duty. Its not your duty if it works it works if it doesn’t it doesn’t. 1. It came from not being able to get erect last time I was with a girl even tho iwasnt that keen on her 2. It makes me feel safe if I dont try and have sex I can just pretend that I’m fine even though I know deep down that there is an issue that keeps popping up. It makes me feel like. Its easy to just play the victim and say that you can’t have sex. How do you even know you can’t have sex? You haven’t even tried. Your mind has just concluded from one experience to protect yourself. 3. As its just one girl in one situation. I wasn’t even attracted to her when we met. If you think otherwise you were self deceiving. You just wanted to try and get a girl to please the ego. Its one situation. 4. An equally valid perspective is that I wasn’t attracted to her. I was putting too much pressure on myself. I cared too much and didn’t treat her as an object like I did with Chinese girls. So I cared about the outcome. I didn’t let go of the previous flop. 5. Because I have been able to have sex in the past and this is just one circumstance and was because I was putting too much emphasis on it Its best to just be like - if I can have sex cool if I can’t thats also cool. 6. That you were just worrying too much and you should let go of it and start chasing girls again. Enjoy the moment forget about the pressure to have to be erect. 7. I can get erect when I wank, I have had other girls with no issues, I wasn’t interested in her sexually, I put too much pressure on, I saw her as a person not a sex object. 8. Same as 7 9. No 10. dont want to try and have sex with women as I worry I can’t perform 11. No 12. Yes 13. I would have the duality of wanting sex vs not trying to pursue it due to worries. 14. I wasn’t attracted to her. I was putting too much pressure on myself. I cared too much and didn’t treat her as an object like I did before. So I cared about the outcome. I didn’t let go of the previous flop.