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When I say world I don't mean trees, I mean reality as a whole. And by not caring I mean that the reality is already just with no injustice and that everything that happens is perfectly fair but if you feel like it's not, it's only your perspective but from the broadest perspective possible there is nothing which would be unfair or bad or incorrect. I hope you get my point

In the big picture if you want to know why the universe sometimes doesn't bring justice and why the world is unfair, you gotta understand the world doesn't care about any of those things that you care about and the world certainly doesn't think of injustice as you perceive it to be, to the world it's perfect harmony with no unfairness but to you not so much. So it's your problem how you want to deal with people who hurt you because the world doesn't care about that .

Honestly? Have you experienced such a thing yourself?

Heey I feel so spiritual I was listening to Teal Swan talking about periods and it made me feel so much better about the whole process which I would normally moan about . I do believe that there is enormous power inside us which can go totally uncovered even for an entire life time if we don't choose to harness it. I told you PMS helps me with uncovering my deep psychological issues and dealing with them. Turns out wasn't the only one who knew of its healing powers. The ancient people were much more aware of their inner workings . But when it comes to women being naturally more tuned in with the universe and being more spiritual , the question always comes up that why then there have been so few female heroes in the history doing great stuff and that always seems to be indicating that women might not be as great as id like to think but maybe it's not that simple maybe the reason women don't choose to go out and save the world so to speak is because they know better to want to interfere with inner wisdom of the universe . that to me sounds like a legit explanation cause look at what happenes each time someone tries to change the world, it always backfires for example : the prophets ruining everything for years to come, tech industries and people like Steve jobs and zuckerberg, the kings and leaders of the past, all those people set out to so sth great but it ended up bringing more suffering for people oh and I forgot about Einstein's discovery which led to the creation of nuclear weapons. As you can see women have been wiser for not trying to mess with the world. And also everyone knows women were never the ones starting wars and doing all that bloodshed in the history of mankind. Anyway just this change of attitude towards my periods feels great already. Not feeling ashemed of going through periods is such an up lifter. Embracing my inner cycle and letting the emotions percolate through me . Teal swan said to celebrate your periods and actually my mother and I always congratulate each other for that every month. Haha I'm thinking if I could someday set aside some time to go to nature and live totally naturally for ten days and see the difference in my well being , it would be great. I'll defiantly plan for such a thing . Okay that's it for now.

The energy Leo put into that video was dramatically different. I was supercharged after watching it. So awesome

I realized recently that dreams sometimes do have a meaning related to real world happenings and people. Once I had the most awkward dream ever and the strange thing about it was the life like texture of the face of a girl I saw in the dream; it was sth totally different. That day sth relating to that kid I saw in my dream did happen and I took the hint and acted as I was supposed to. Obviously I didn't take myself that seriously until lately when someone in TV said she had also dreamt about a girl with very specific facial features so when she wakes up, she goes looking for that girl in the orphanage and they tell her that they do have a girl with those features but she's been transported to another city for a surgery. Eventually she finds her and raises her and I saw her too in TV . that made me realize that my previous dream about that kid might have not been pure accident after all . The dreams with some meaning to them are stunningly different from the normal ones. There's just sth off with the whole thing. Latly I've been having dreams in which I go to the same place each time . a dangerous place .

I know what it says but excuse me if I can't trust it .

Exactly That's where the corruption starts. Starting from the most foundational principals , corruption happens .

That's so familiar . in Islam it's called tohid and it's the most foundational principal and everything else is built on that .

Hey I feel all sorts of intense emotions right now. In my stomach, my chest, I am breathing hard as well. I did a very very stupid thing yesterday. I mean why on earth would anyone do that!?!!? Ahhhh It was fun at the moment . really fueled my desire for excitement but now I feel sick about it. That's the problem with wanting too much excitement. It's always followed by regret. Fuck God . By the way, I don't like Leo anymore. He totally sounds he's lost it. From this point forward I can't trust him anymore. I mean I never should have anyways. Specially with spirituality, you should never trust anyone. It's simply too personalized for different individuals. What he says is good for him only. Generally speaking most spiritual masters didn't have teachers. They were self oriented . well Buddha had teachers but you could say he wasn't as influential as the so called prophets . either way at least with Leo I won't follow his advice in spirituality . all he knows is from drugs. He's generally not the spiritual type but more the intellectual type, good with philosophy . whatever type he is I don't trust him anymore. He changes his opinions all the time. That right there tells me I shouldn't take his word . he himself also says we shouldn't take his word on things, so. Whatever I knew writing would make me feel better. All the tense feelings are gone.

Haha You guys really don't understand , do you? I'm saying this not to get reactions or make you think of what you should do about it or anything else. I'm just stating a fact I've realized, that if you dig deep enough you will realize you are a puppet of nature with no freedom. Just by the fact that you are alive, you are bound to the limits of your body. That's why they say die before you die, to at least get as close as you can to feeling infinite and free. This is a realization and not sth to want to do sth about. That's how it is . This one's beautiful . @Outer It's not really what you think about Iran . But it's a sure thing for me to move .

Just take a quick look and compare your life with the life of prisoners. You are caged and imprisoned by society more than actual prisoners. Since birth you are indoctrinated with beliefs about cultural norms, in school you're indoctrinated with beliefs that would be in service to your government . Then you are forced to work and make money to survive otherwise a death penalty awaits you. At least prisoners are not faced with that situation. You are imprisoned by the social norms, your thoughts, your ego, your body, your mind, your fears, your shoulds and musts. You aren't really free as long as you act your way to survive.

If you didn't want to be a lone wolf living alone for the rest of your life, you'd have no choice but to live by the society's values

I know I don't mean it literally

You mean those muscles that also move the ears a bit?

You don't really have to concern yourself with world problems. Focus on yourself. That's the only true way of helping others , ironically. If you focus solely on how to make Your life better , you'll see that there are tons of ways that you can solve money problems, relationship problems , anything which might be bothering you now. Take it one step at a time. Thinking about the world that way is so depressing even if you don't believe you're actually attached to those thoughts, it still can be affecting you in ways you don't really want to. PS: putting imbalance and health together as problems is actually funny cause health issues and the death of people solves the imbalance problem so they counteract each other and nothing to worry about. But generally if people are unhealthy it's their fault and they can always turn the table around , it's not a matter of not having options and being forced to be unhealthy due to lack of resources; the earth's resources are way more than you could imagine. People are discovering more new resources everyday. Besides, have you noticed how small the space humans inhabitat is? Just take a look at the map, it's such a tiny little space . you've been fed with the wrong information . there's no such a thing as lack of resources and imbalance . don't assume whatever people around you are saying to be true. For the most part they're not. Even if you search it in the Internet you'd still get misinformation . trust me, I've came across a lot of misinformation in the internet .

If I'm being totally honest, here's why: I came here firstly to ask my questions, share my concerns and to know if I'm on the right path in certain areas. Then it became an addiction very soon afterwards . Then as I was starting to lose interest in here I found the journaling section and started to use that as a way to let go of my addictions and stick to my plans . Then after that idea failed due to realizing my main problem of not sticking to plans is more of an emotional and inner issue and what I actuality should focus on is my inner emotions fueling my actions so I started journalling about random thoughts I had during the day and my emotions and going through a therapeutic process. Currently why I keep coming here is because I can't stop myself anymore and it's also turned into an ego pleasing action . I come here to get my ego stroked . So I guess you could say a life wasted PS: I never came here to help anyone or anything like that. I always had a selfish motive . but I accidentally did give some advice , I dont know why never actually wanted to .

@Leo Gura then how can you set them apart? If they get conflated how can you distinguish first order from second order?

I hadn't watched the full documentary when I wrote the previous post but now I have and a lot of cool possibilities keep coming up about the future world. Now people are working on the communication of objects together . first there was the connection of people through Internet now the connection of objects . if that fully happens , it already has happened but not fully, the potential capabilities that comes with it are grave beyond imagination. Off course nothing can be left unimagined but just for the sake of being dramatic here, haha. It can be huge in many different facets including the methods of war that will come up in the future. It would be chaotic if done too rapidly without boundaries put in place. There was one part of the documentary where one of them said the youth will see this and they will react and I was already thinking about how I could go about doing that stuff. Haha. But I realized it was done already so I gave up the attempt . Let's think about the future of technology . wow if the objects get connected together and the network of communicating objects were fully formed then objects would feel like other humans we can talk to and would totally feel like having our objects as workers in a more efficient way we do today. Except if those objects malfunctioned in an ingenious way, there would be no way to stop it , the whole world would be taken out of the hands of humans . The thing is that with a network of objects we could be potentially creating a brain. Just like the neurons coming together and being able to talk to other neurons can create such a powerful thing called the brain, objects no different than the neurons coming together can form an intellect of their own . and from there on I don't want to imagine further but it's totally possible. Now with what Leo says about brains not existing well you can't deny that the evolution worked so hard to form those connection to create a brain and to allow us reach this state of awareness cause the ants obviously don't got what we got so there is definitely sth at play when huge amounts of connections are made and possibilities open up. Other than that we don't need to go far really , we can already see how the interconnectedness of objects can create powerful impacts that you might initially think well how can a movement of electron possibly impact a life being taken or an explosion happening and releasing radioactive stuff that then would impact earth in unknown ways which then could impact rays emitted from the earth impacting the galaxy and so on and so forth . off course that's not intelligence being created but it shows the possibilities that could come from that if it were done on a larger scale. Well speaking of intelligence I might as well ask myself what it actually is . The Wikipedia says : It(intelligence) can be more generally described as the ability to perceive or infer information, and to retain it as knowledge to be applied towards adaptive behaviors within an environment or context. Isn't that exactly what computers and programs do!?!! No debates, they are intelligent . actually right now programs can apply their intelligence only in limited ways just like other animals which have intelligence but apply it in limited ways but if their plain were to be expanded and they were to be written in more sophisticated ways and they were allowed more connections, they would operate just like humans do . at least I can tell you this, that what we are made out of , objects are made out of that too so whatever abilities we can have through certain wirings that we have, objects can have that too . To me it looks like a closed case for now. Maybe I'll revisti that view in the light of new experiences .

I came across a documentary called zero days related to the stuxnet virus . I remember back in the time when the name of the virus was all over the news but only now do I understand it was meant to target nuclear facilities in Iran. Kinda cool I think. It was also the time of those assassinations. I really feel bad for those nuclear scientists who got assassinated that easily , I mean why the hell would you let your nuclear scientists go around the city that unprotected , at least the government should care enough to not let that happen . those poor scientists got murdered in front of their kids , 5 year old kids or maybe they got killed too, I'm not sure of the details but in one case I know their kids and wivies were there. At the time I remember we made all sorts of jokes about it . very happy people who joke around even when their scientists get killed Whatever sanction and political crisis happens here , the people always joke about it and go to comedy shows laughing their misery away . Only one group of people actually get affected by these sanctions , the middle class. Cause the politicians don't really care in fact it gets better for them to do their money laundery and fraud . the rich ones don't care either, actually they get richer . the very poor ones don't mind either cause they would be poor even if they lived in the wealthiest country of the world cause some people are just meant to be that way and no one can help them. But the middle class are usually the ones working for the government and the employed group receiving their monthly payments from the government and they're in neither the position to do money laundry nor in a position of financial independence from the government like the wealthy groups. So their salary stays the same while the prices sky rocket . and the majority of people by definition are middle class so basically the majority of people do suffer . But there are always people who can joke about absolutely anything. One other thing I heard in tv today made me cry . in the Iran-Iraq war 40 years ago a pilot gets captured in Iraq . this pilot had had 50 flights since the start of war and in one month to the Iraq soil and has been so successful in defeating the enemy that there were news about it all over, at the time . so after he gets captured as soon as they realize who he is, they don't show any mercy and kill him in a terrifying way. They tie his hands to two cars and start pulling him in two different directions until he gets torn into two halves. Personally I can't imagine how it's possible to get torn in half . I just can't wrap my head around how that would happen cause the bones are there , the skull is a major obstical , it just seems so weird to be true . And off course the Iraq government hadn't talked about that and the way his wife got to know what had happened was through some other soldiers who were also captured and had seen that incidence with their eyes and when they come back they report the story and his wife gets that news after 22 years of waiting for his husband to come home. That's hard to go through. I am used to it now. To see and realize this amount of suffering happening all over the world but not caring anymore. I really worked on myself a lot to convince myself that my caring doesn't change anything when I'm in no position do to sth about it other than to depress myself. So I don't care anymore although I realize tremendous amount of suffering the majority of people are going through all across the world . This one guy really helped me in that. I got to know him in this forum and he has been involved even in Isis and was forced to join them and generally a whole bunch of other hardships in all the scopes of his life but now through that he had gained so much growth that no one in this community would believe and although he himself had gone through a lot he said that there's no point in worrying about the suffering of others cause suffering happens for everyone only in different shapes and forms which is the reason that grows them so its rather a beneficial factor. Wrote a lot this time. I'd better go now.

I just want to write I don't even have anything to write about Well I am happy right now. Very happy. Like I've found the love of my life. Haha. It is all very interesting . I am very much enjoying myself for no reason . You know what ? Haha I remembered sth right now This morning my mom came to wake me up and I was having wild dreams , I don't explicitly remember but it was an action sort of dream. Each time my mom comes to wake me and sees me that dead tired she feels guilty to force me to wake up so she says when should I come back to wake you. This morning she asked me that and you wouldn't believed what I said, haha, I said one divided by the neper number ( it's easier to say it in my own language though) I was thinking of if you limit that number in infinity you'd get zero so it would mean I'll wake up in no time ( actually when I woke up I realized that's not really true and if I had said one divided by n and then the limit of that in infinity then that would be zero) but anyway , my mom totally lost it , seeing that I'm saying nonsense in sleep and kept asking did you just hear yourself? I'm asking you the time , what are you talking about !! There have been other instances like this before . I say all sort of crap when I'm not fully awake. Actually no one trusts what I say when I'm still not fully awake sometimes I really want sth but they don't do it for me cause they think I'm talking in delirium . me and my dreams !!

@Ibn Sina einstien spoke three languages and he learned English at 54 which is hard. I don't understand why they say his language abilities were low. Maybe he had problems with grammer exams which is totally ridiculous in every language

Ingeniousness to that level is just not sth you can have if your not born with it. It's a brain structure that not everyone has. With these great geniuses what we see repeatedly is that they showed their ingenious from very early age. The only thing you can conclude from that is they were born with it. If you just want to reach your own highest potential there are ways but it all depends on your potential

Haha I'd get the same reaction from my mom. I never let her see Leo's face, cause even his face combined with what he says would create a devilish view of him in my mom. One time I told her about how there can't be evil in the world and she was shouting at me for hours for even saying that. Never talked to her about this stuff anymore