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@BuddhaPixel Ye that is a good video explaining the differences. @The Monk You should check it out.

@AlwaysBeNice That's all I've been doing. Feeling it, doing specific meditations for it, contemplating it. But it's rooted deep in my psyche. Therapy will hopefully help me dive deep into the cause.

Ye social anxiety is tough. I started developing it when I was 8 years old. Now it has become something that I have a lot of troubles with in my daily life. I can't really go to school anymore because any time I am near people I don't know this resistance to everything starts coming up. It mostly ends in a panic attack and then I am forced to go home. Hopefully when my therapy starts I can start working on this. I've tried doing it myself but it wasn't something I could do anything about.

I have been contemplating this recently It is insane to attach yourself to something materialistic because it is finite. So the thing that brings you entertainment or fulfillment one day, created suffering the the other day. You are bound to suffer when you attach yourself to something materialstic. Am I on the right track with this?

@Shiva Hahah I recognize it! It's from Sadhguru thanks for the reminder

I know this is very hard, but go sit down with that pain. Don't condemn it, don't deny it, really feel it. It is not good that something like that from the outside can control your inner state. Work on that. Work on not caring what other people think. An amazing book that could help you with this is Six Pillars of Self Esteem - Nathaniel Branden. Also, Leo has a video too, Not caring what other people think. But first you have to confront those past memories. Sit with them and completely surrender yourself to them. This not easy at all but when you shine awareness on these memories and trauma's that come back, slowly you start to accept and open yourself up to them. Good luck. My best friend got bullied too during our childhood, and he is still affected by it too. So I can see how this is troubeling you very much.

So then, the mind's tendency to attach is in itself already a problem?

@Azrael Using the Rupert Spira metaphor I like it

Hi friends, I've noticed my body shaking heavy after I hit the around the 40 minute mark during my meditation. I'm not really interested in getting rid of it , but I was wondering if there is a specific cause to this. On a side note, it doesn't matter how comfortable I sit. Even when I'm in a very pleasant armchair instead of sitting on the floor, there is still heavy shaking.

Everything that can happen, will happen. -Murphy's law A lot of weird things will be happening during your time meditating. ups and downs, Highs and lows. Find what remains during those times, what is always the fundamental thing that doesn't change whenever you are going through hard times or amazing highs. And remember there is no such thing as a meditation gone wrong, no, every meditation session went exactly as it was supposed to go.

The belief that I have to be in a certain state before I can become present-consciousness. Which is obviously fake because I am that presence, and I will always be it.

@JustinS I'm not really sure, what it is. For me it is mostly my lower back just constantly twitching. and eventually my upper back starts shaking. Not really any good feeling coming from it though. It gets pretty uncomfortable during a 1 hour meditation session where I have commited to not move at all But that's fine I will just see where it takes me.

@Shin hahah, well I'll save that for another time

Great video, if you haven't watched it already, I highly recommend it.

@Erlend K I'm indeed doing awareness of breath. What is Piti exactly? @Azrael I asked for an explanation and you gave a perfect discription. Thanks man!

@lennart Yes Hans Zimmer is really a genius. I'm going to learn how to play interstellar's main theme on piano. It's so beautiful

@Socrates Yes I'm really trying to get that going. I've always been socialy scared, but with my consciousness work all that stuff has been coming up a lot. It's now ten times worse, like as I already said in my first post, the fearful sensations can become so worse that I have to vomit. I will start therapy soon so that will help me work this out while also doing self inquiry and meditation. Should be very effective hopefully

So today is my first day on my new school. No friends will be going with me, I'm completely on my own. If I consciously contemplate what the worst that could happen is, it is not something that is even worth worrying over. Still my unconscious automatically goes into fear mode, so far that eventually the fear is so overwhelming that I feel like I have to vomit. Even with all the self actualization that I've done, my mind is still hardwired to worry to death. How could I get past this And rewire it? Or what could I do to make the sensations less overwhelming? Thanks you guys

@momo because if you do so you start of the day with a clear mind and you go into your daily life with a higher quality of consciousness.

@Principium Nexus Yes it's always the mind fantasizing about it. Which is not actually real. Now that I'm back, it wasn't actually that bad. This happens often as this was a habit I had when I was not self actualizing yet. Always worrying about what COULD happen. Now that I raised my consciousness quite a bit this doesn't happen that often, but sometimes I still fall into my thought processes Going to a therapist soon. Hopefully I can get through this and have my subconscious working with me aswell

After being halfway into the book Way of The Peaceful Warrior, I cannot help but think 'How can one walk the path without a mentor ?' Ofcourse, you do the work all by yourself. But a mentor helps guide you in the right direction when you fall into traps, etc. When you are completely on your own, how can you see your own mistakes and traps that you are not even conscious of? Self doubt is inevitable

@MasterNigel No, the breasts only starts producing milk when there is a baby on the way. ( I had biology in school :p)

@Mario hahahah that'd be awesome. Sadly most spiritual teachers are not that into modern technology, social media, etc (Except Sadhguru) ;p

Well tell me about some teachers in Holland since I live there too I go to a zen.nl gathering every week, but I've noticed people are not really working on waking up, but more so of just talking about daily life etc. Not really sure if that's something good. Also I'm planning to go to a Rupert Spira talk in Amsterdam next month so that is my first real interaction with a teacher, quiet excited about that.

To Existence/Presence/Beingness, there are no obstacles or problems. There is only ever more of itself. -Bentinho Massaro