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@bslpiontds I know it's a possibility to master it, it certainly is, but the question is, do I want this to be my main domain of mastery in my life? I love the game with all my heart, but as of right now I don't think that's what I'll pick. After I finish the Life Purpose course I might have some further insight in what I want to do. Right now I started playing guitar and keep creating drawings. Who knows, maybe art or music is something I want to continue further with

So after quitting video games 2 months ago, I've finally opened up the evening to do other things. So the evening these last 2 months primarily went towards reading books and doing consciousness-work. But the thing here is, counter-strike (which was the game I played so much) was the thing I was trying to master. I spent 2+ hours every day improving my aim, improving game-sense, learning strategies for the terrorist and counter-terrorist side, developing great areal awareness, etc. I was so incredibly motivated to improve and become a pro player. Now that I've quit on one hand I feel great, because so much time is free now to work on myself. On the other hand, I feel quite lost and I don't know what to master in life. I really want to pick up something that I can master and have passions for as much as I did for that game, but I simply just don't know what. I'm pursuing drawing at the moment but I still feel kind of doubtful if I want to choose that as my main mastery in life. Even though I love to draw, it doesn't really bring up this strong emotions and motivation as counter strike did for example. My question here is, how could I find what to master? What is a good way to approach this issue?

@Shiva Thank you, that's actually very helpful, I've never thought of that! I really love the English language though , but I will consider.

@Torkys Your notes look very good put together. I think I take way too much notes or not the right ones atleast. How do you do it while watching the videos? Does taking notes increase your watching time by such an incredible amount as mine too?

@Colin Yes! I love this, very creative and beautiful game.

@Soulbass I had 1900 hours in csgo

@LaucherJunge haha I practiced that so much as well. My best longjump was 278. Good times

I will wait till you come to the Netherlands doesn’t matter how long it will take

@LaucherJunge The thing is, to really master counter strike, it takes way more than 2 hours every day. Aim practice, watching demo's of yourself and amazing teams and individual pro's, learning the maps, learning to throw right smokes, flashes, and Molotov's, learning strategies, the list goes on. I stopped playing counter-strike all together because I can't halfass it, if I play it I want to succeed. Now that's exactly why I quit. But this is not to say I don't enjoy other games that are not meant as something competitive. I strongly believe that games are a form of art with which you can express so much emotion and passion. The problem here is that most games don't have that higher consciousness meaning and purpose to them. Just imagine how much you could change the world if higher consciousness games came on the market. Making people see what's really important and helping them radically turning inward would be something that can be accomplished through that. I don't want to say "ahh, all games are bad. lower consciousness stuff that wastes your life away, etc." Like all other things, it's not the medium that is necessarily bad, it's the one who interprets it and chooses in which way to make use of it. So I will maybe play some games here and there, but I will not use it as an escape anymore. I've found what I want to do with my life and I won't use gaming as a way to not experience reality anymore, since reality always catches up and always is present. It's an illusion to believe that you've temporarily avoided the problem. It's just temporarily looking somewhere else to not see the big problem that is in front of you.

@SFRL hahaha, hit the nail right on the head

@Leo Gura Mhh that's true. Titles can also be something that you identify with, but ey, which positive attribute doesn't the ego identify with? The challenge is to be able to see who as experience without instantly creating a bias if they are 'higher' or 'lower' than you.

@Leo Gura I think it's a good idea to remove the thumbs up stuff since there will be less bias of what is a 'good' post and a less informative post. Although seeing that some people have participated longer on the forum can be quite nice. Maybe implement a function that will give you titles based on the how long you have been active on the forum.

I want to learn how to study and embody knowledge. For example with school work most now that I have test-week around the corner. How do I embody the knowledge best, how can I make sure the connections in my brain are made, etc. I want to ace my school grades and get my foundation right. Also with the Life purpose course and any other self-help, and consciousness-work material. How do I take in information best? Do you guys have videos, books, any information that can help me become a better learner? I would appreciate it very much.

@Psyche_92 No I haven't haha, that's a big one! Thank you

@Jonson I’ve been trying to take care of my own food lately. My mom makes amazing food but sometimes there is food in there that doesn’t support my psychological and spiritual growth. So I’ve been trying to take more responsibility on this myself. Try to become creative, do research on what food aligns with your personal development and create your own dishes that make you excited and feel energized. I started with steaming vegetables such as brocolli, carrots, and red bell peppers. I love this dish a lot and it gives me much energy and doesn’t bog down the mind. Pick some healthy foods and start experimenting with creating you own dishes, it can be very enjoyable and satisfying.

I really felt this meaninglessness when we were counting down for new year. Currently everything is starting to lose meaning for me, which is good, but can be really depressing as well. So seeing everybody so happy and excited for something that looked like the exact same evening as always was pretty weird and there was this painful feeling of being different then the rest coming over me. I used to really feel this excitement too, but now there is just nothing anymore It's at this moment where I can really tell how culture influences people's perception. Also nice taste in music. I love me some Pink Floyd from time to time too. Do you like Led Zeppelin? @Joseph Maynor

More time = more reputation points eh? Well, I do 1 hour in the morning, half an hour in the afternoon.

@solr But there's dairy in it right? I'm still learning a lot on nutrition but what from I've heard, dairy causes a lot of unwanted effects for your health and bodily state. This is the main reason I've been avoiding it.

@Ether Well that’s exactly why most people fear death. Because it’s unknown ”Beyond this place there be dragons”

@jse For me it helps to ask "Who is the one who is receiving these thoughts?" You then shift the attention away from the object (in this case thought) and let the attention return to its source

@Leo Gura I just turned 18 a couple days ago but I still miss that feeling of self-trust and responsibility. As that will grow in the future and I get more conceptual knowledge on psychedelics, I will consider trying them. Thanks for your concern. Happy new year Leo, I wish you the best for 2018!

Same to you bro! Happy new year, much love

@Leo Gura I’m open to try although pretty scared to. I don’t have the possibility to try any heavier kind of psychedelic as I still live with my family at home. What would you say are some of the softer substances I could experiment with when I feel ready?

Ahh I love this stuff, awesome! How did your relationships and interactions with people change since the awakening? @Azrael Living without self is such a strange something for me. There is a belief that for interaction and communication to exist, there first must be a self to think and have a position to something. Also, I’m very much interested in a guided skype session. That would be awesome

@Leo Gura I’m kind of happy that this big rush of existential fear came over me recently. It made me realise that indeed this is not some game or something nice to have, this changes everything completely. What I discovered with my reaction towards this fear is that I am not radically open-minded enough,since I couldn’t fit the experience into the box of my concept of awakening/enlightenement. This brought up a ton of resistance. What would you say are the best ways to open your mind? Currently I’m reading the outlines of Pyrrhonism as your video on skepticism pointed towards this philosophy as helping with me this. I also watched your video on Radical Openmindedness and I continue to do the visualisation. I also realised how attached I am to the things I view as my character and behaviour and my way of perceiving. It hurt so much to see that I had to let all this go to get further, unimaginable. So I guess I will have to take this process much more serious and contemplate why I want to awaken/ find out who I really am in the first place. My determination to find Truth was not nearly strong enough. I was only looking for it because it seemed like a ‘cool’ experience, as a means to relieve suffering.