Eller

I am 26 now and have been having depersonalization since I was about 12 years old. I have no idea how I got it, but it may be from trauma as it states in the wiki. I always wonder if my disorder has led me to conscious work by asking of what awareness is. Or if my curiosity has led me to the disorder. Maybe it's just some types of people who get it. I really don't know, but I would like to know as well.

This sort of love reminds me of what Leo's teaching has led me too.

HOZIER LYRICS "Arsonist's Lullabye" [Humming] When I was a child, I heard voices... Some would sing and some would scream You soon find you have few choices... I learned the voices died with me When I was a child, I'd sit for hours Staring into open flame Something in it had a power, Could barely tear my eyes away All you have is your fire... And the place you need to reach - Don't you ever tame your demons But always keep 'em on a leash [Humming] When I was 16, my senses fooled me Thought gasoline was on my clothes I knew that something would always rule me... I knew the scent was mine alone All you have is your fire And the place you need to reach Don't you ever tame your demons But always keep 'em on a leash When I was a man I thought it ended When I knew love's perfect ache But my peace has always depended On all the ashes in my wake All you have is your fire, And the place you need to reach Don't you ever tame your demons, But always keep 'em on a leash...

@Hanski I have had depersonalization every sense I was eight and have now lived with this for 14 years. This had led me wanting to understand consciousness. Let this motivate you and face your fears. It will feel like you are dying, but this in turn will make you more tolerant and motivated. DP makes you see the world from a different lens, new perspective on consciousness. Let this get you closer and closer to non-duality. You may see the very truth and start to appreciate your gift/sickness.