SMS_Kelesis

After seeing a regular visit with my endocrinologist the fatigue may have a cause that she can help with. Last year she said something about the pituitary being "empty/small/or something." Another test last year showed some low numbers and that could be the fatigue, but the new tests haven't been done yet. Still she's with me on the idea if seeing a chiropractor.

I was never told about any. Everyone is telling me chiropractor around here and how wonderful they are.

Wow. I really really need to keep that in mind.

So I've been suffering with chronic pain(Fibromyalgia) and Chronic fatigue for well over a year or so now that has worsened over time. We exhausted all the causes hence those being my diagnosis. Well, some pain doctors tell you to certain things, but you know you can't really bring yourself to do the things he suggests when you're in that kind of pain. You flat out don't feel like doing it, because it really hurts. The other thing would be things like Lyrica, which only do certain things for it with that it'd need to be pain related medicine. That's a huge problem though. Meloxicam was found to be the one that was the most effective, but after taking it for a whole month each day, my kidney function was low. So, now I an take them, but only once in a while and I must drink more water. Ok, so I'm drinking more water and my kidney function is going back up, but it'd be even better if I didn't take them at all. So there in lies the problem. It seems medicinally that it's just not something I can take care of. It was highly recommended that I see a chiropractor and just who they knew and heard was the best, so I'm starting with that soon. The reason he was recommended is that he flexible with payment for people with low income. Most insurances will not pay for chiropractors. I'm on Medicare, because I'm disabled and that has to do with mental health. Unrelated. So obviously it's out of pocket. So has anyone else had experience with this?

For the first time ever maybe half a year ago, I've noticed that I care much less about what others think, but this is based on how I am around all the people I know from a psych rehab group. I'm still having to get out and meet people, rather than just go about my day. But I'm questioning whether or not what I currently have is less self-esteem and more self-image based. Reason being, I messed up a little and ended up crying in another room. Now, steps in taking control of my self-esteem is really hard due to medical issues Chronic pain and fatigue that I'm working through. However on my better days I'm making it a point to just say hello to random strangers. Most of the time it's either met with indifference or more often just a hello back. Baby steps. I've learned exercises that I have yet put in place. Like talking good about yourself in a mirror for 2 minutes a day. A friend of mine online suggested writing notes (as he does) and stick them in various places in the house where you'd see them. Reminders of how good you are of a person and various other reminders. For instance "People are just as flawed as you are. They get insecure, too." etc. I put that into place. Now recently I sent this friend a song that just come out called "Heavy" by Linkin Park. Some of the lyrics are "I'm holding on to what's bringing me down. If I try to let it go, I'd be set free." "There's comfort in the panic." Things he identify with and so do many out there. And He said some thing like I was "reading his heart." and how thoughtful I am and how he's glad to have met me. Like that stuff really makes me uncomfortable to hear from my friends and barely anyone really tells me things like that and I know that that has to do with low self esteem. I haven't really gotten myself to tell him that I appreciate that, but feel very uneasy about it.