I'm gonna maybe sound like an idiot, but how actually? I have OCD and at times I procrastinate to the level that is very tough to let go of the time you lossed and do the hard work from then so on. (in my case studying) and then even worse; I consciously on purpose screw myself over even more. (eg. I should study, then I procrastinate and procrs... ... and then I completely drop it, and then I can't even trust myself on anything).
I guess I already have the answer:
1. I think it's because I don't exercise (I think If I did exercise, it wouldn't be this tough)
2. after years of procrastination I destroyed my panic monster (the stress that you get when you should do something that is necessary for your survival or generally necessary, like studying, etc
3. I watch porn (used to, and still sometimes, and then after I masturbate, I see no point into preaching myself with words like: "you need to wake up from this fantasy, etc." and I just say to myself : "just shut up, you did it on purpose, what else you need to say, you already showed what you really want your life to be like")
I meditate a month back and as soon as I saw some results I dropped the whole thing, and the my obsessions that were gone for a week or so just came back and also my porn addiction.
Now this gonna sound really funny: How do I actually stop screwing myself over with my own hand!?
