Alex bAlex

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  1. Can you drive while microdosing? I have to drive for a living and as far as I know driving on psychedelics is a No No. Otherwise I have to stick to modafinil and exercise?‍♂️
  2. So drinking coffee is sort of no fap challenge. You can fap but in moderation ? In regards of cut off time,I know that it should be at least 8 to 10 hours before you go to sleep. So probably a cup in the morning is the best. Thanks
  3. So how often do we post here. Or how many?
  4. @rNOW Gosh- even on speed and X I couldn't stay awake more than 3 days. Are you talking about black tea (which contains caffeine) or fruit tea? @Shiva I got the headache the first 3-4 days after ditching the coffee. It takes about 5 to 7 days for me to get off its "witch spell" ?
  5. OK, so as a form of art I want to start to play a bit with a DJ deck, to see how's going on. Otherwise, reading fictions seems appealing but I find it a bit empty, as I don't get a message at the end of the book as I might from a self-help book. Nonetheless, I'll have to give a try to some fiction to expand my creativity. Love, peace and unity
  6. Hello peeps ? Starting the self-actualisation journey means getting rid of the addictive habits which includes movies,media,games etc. Now trying to redesign my life, I am asking myself (and you), what are some ways of healthy entertainment? Or everything is just a distraction and we should be aware and dead serious 100% of the time? And of course -everything in moderation, otherwise we get back to square one. Cheers!
  7. I went for a couple of months to learn tango dancing which I enjoyed so far, but had to take a brake at the moment as life gets too busy. So busy that even the reading and meditation habits have been put aside. Nevermind, declutter and reorganize my life is the starting point ?
  8. Thank you guys. Great new ideas,many of them never considering them entertaining. I have to redefine the term entertainment ? Cius.
  9. Hello forum. Just got the news from my work place that they'll start doing random drug test. Anyone know if modafinil /modalert show positive? In the UK is illegal to sell but ok to buy. I got if from the Internet so I do not have any prescription. Also I have to use it sometimes to help me focus while driving due poor sleeping some days. Thanks.
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  11. Do we produce weaker and weaker generation due to comfort level? Were we are going from here? - we make all the efforts to avoid pain, but pain equals growth (at least to some extent) Does it make sense? Cheers
  12. Cabbie man. I left the boring lorry driving to become a taxi driver. However the same shit, different day(not really but I like to complain ?) Kind of difficult tasks, as I am fighting with a lack of identity. All the time I am asking myself "who am I?" I get nothing to be indetify with (or at least I am aware that I am not the job, the diet or the nationality that I have been born with). And all this leads to some confusion and hopeless(?). There has been a few situations recently when I have been asked who am I and my response was long delayed because I was thinking to "who the fuck am I". Nonetheless first I answered "aammm nobody" then after a poker face from the other participants I start to construct a response to match the needed answer. - to be fair I would like to become a dj but I am afraid that I will invest x£ in tools and time only to get dust on it - Got back cooking and feeling much energized and focused. Green power ? Felt that and is amazing. 4, 2,5and 1 moths are the best I have done so far. But it seems that I am fighting for all this only when the pain is at high levels and I see no other way of dragging myself out. Hmmm more discipline! Harder Better Faster Stronger
  13. Boy, I thought that after two years I'll get a promotion or something similar, only to get back to square one. Meditation practice went out the window, the same with exercising and nutrition (although with the nutrition I am still paying some attention to what's going into my body). - not to say that I am not change but it feels like sand running out of my hand - I feel no drive to progress or to do something with my life. My financial situation is getting worse instead of getting better and all I am doing is watching myself fucking myself I am watching the episode of how to overcome the addiction and now it makes so much sense. So how long have you done basic self development?
  14. @flowboy @LastThursday @RawJudah @Average Investor -Duuuhhhh!!!! Thank you so many guys for all the replies. The rollercoaster sometimes slows down only to get more velocity later on. Going back to the old days is exciting and fun ...for a couple of moments. Then my new eye lens senses the bullshit and the misery that I am heading towards and give me a buzz of "hey douchebag, wake the fuck up". All this "downgrade" starts to happen after the vipassana retreat at the end of May- didn't think that the ego backlash could be so bad. Nevermind- I changed houses, got self-employed, made new friends and experience a lot of growth on other sides of my life. (becoming self-employed require a lot of self-discipline - I can't imagine the level of discipline required to be the director of your company). But becoming self-employed and having the freedom of choosing my working hours brought me down, as I start to have more days off instead of working at least 60 to70 hours a week as I planned, to get out of financial troubles, Never mind- only a cry here. Sorry Thanks-love!
  15. Hi there. I tend to believe that I was a humorous guy till about 6-7 years ago when I developed a mentality that the people who laugh are hiding something or try to find neglect their problems. So I put aside all the humor for a while. Sure I was watching a bit of Family Guy but otherwise, I became a "bleak" guy. Now I want to develop my humour and I am asking for materials to watch or read besides Family Guy. Thank you ♥
  16. Thanks guys. I had first season of Curb your enthusiasm, 3/4 of Dr Strangelove and I have to prepare for The Office. Much appreciated
  17. @Identity the best Photoshop editing ever ??