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where do you find these hippie communities? Still searching for this type of accomodation in Berlin or somewhere in Europe

Are woman meant to be receivers in society rather than providers when it comes to career? Is it the same for womans as the mans to build a career that generates good amount of money while they provide massive value for society? If not, than what would be the main important guidance steps for a woman building the career. I am in the stage of life seriously planing my career, seeing what value I can bring to the world with my whole life. I noticed that I do not feel the need of designing the career in such a way so that it would generate massive amounts of money. However, I live alone and I do not need very much of materiality around, just some high quality tools for working and high quality food. So does it work the same for woman and for man in terms of planning the spiritual career?

Would be valuable to have an actualized.org app on phone

Not the first time and not only in the club there is a strange tendency whenever my body reaches vibrations high enough. Pain can be picked up from the people eyes, then for the few minutes my body shakes unnoticeably and heart chakra gets loaded with unpleasant frequencies. then energy gets transmuted of those who experienced the most pain and as a consequence some person from the room falls dead or loses its consciousness. this happened while triping in the forest before with the friends as well. we transmuted some heavy energies and then walking out of the park someone was laying on the ground with lost consciousness. last time I visited my doctor the system was a mess as always and looked like it was made by the penguins of madagascar lol - the nurses ideally resembled the each pinguin. another notice is that soul meets many people that looks recongisable while triping, almost all people looks like either characters from animation, from the movies or that they are absolutely met somewhere. and I talk to these people things this body is not even aware of and I guess it is important for this mission. it is weird feeling when you know exactly what to say, sometimes situations turns to be completely stupid and I make fool out of myself, but at least my soul is having fun. i think it will be interesting to rewatch everything later. i hope i can cut out these moment where i look very goofy. anyway, nice experience. i wish nice experience to everyone, brothers/sisters maybe. enjoy this short trip. keep the grid.

I would like to face the main issue of my life which is quite uncommon and it keeps me from living a productive, joyful & high quality life. The issue is to FEAR to wake up in the mornings. Not even begin to mention all the problems it caused in my life. I am lucky to have a lifestyle that does not require waking up too early. Yet if I have to be ready super early, this gives me anxiety which became uncontrolable when I tried to work my passion job that I liked or when I tried to study in University. As a result of living intense life in the early years of life now as soon as I open up my eyes in the morning, body immediately locks in fear. Sometimes it takes up to 6 hours to get back into the safe state to leave the bed. Due to this issue I skipped many important social occasions, meetings & parties. This only occurs when I am in a position of living the life I call ''life in the system''. To analyse this state deeper, I had to overcame many other fears that I had in my life. And for this one I always go sleep excited, meditated and completely calm inside. In the evening I do everything to prepare myself for the next morning. Then the morning comes and fear shows up. I can not move until I consciously think: OKAY, I do not have to go outside, I have a choice and I can stay at home. Which lead to many events unattended. And then I got myself a lable of irresponsible society member. In which way could I guide my thoughts in the morning? Feel absolute fear, no excitement and not matter wether I planned exciting things for that day or not. If I attend to events, I have no problem to socialise with people, I guess I am subconsciously afraid of the system more than people. Anyone has any advice how to talk with the body? I tried many different techniques including that stayed home for the half of the year to take time up to 6 hours every morning just to feel secure enough to wake up. Not leaving the bed until feeling safe to get up.

You have more information on ancestral patterns? Super interesting, was trying to access ancestral knowledge, only scratched the surface tho, did it intuitively only and very minimal so far

Have you tried completely cut out family members from your life. If so, did you feel missing them in your life, wanted to get them back? What mutual value you have with your family members? Would you survive financialy, psychologically without them? Is it the case that if something bad in your life happens that family is the first people who would be here to help you in this still physical 3D world? I think it is important to measure what 3D value is there from the family. Do they take a lot of your time to care about them? Maybe it is possible to limit interaction time to minimum to still fulfill the need of belonging if you had a close connection with family members throughout the most of your life. Or gradually fade away from them so it would not be painful to cut them all off at once. Show the boundaries that you are willing to maintain with them and do not let them cross it, They are still big part of life, their energies play the big role for us and we have to learn deal with it. Also when we change our opinion and energies directed to them, they change. Also possible to keep them at the heart and just remember them with love from time to time whilst living completely separate life. It is important to find one or few people who can be family for you since it is important to belong. I personally experimented a lot playing different roles with this family, including leaving them and in the end said sorry and came back to sustain minimal, but honest relation.

Realisations after psychedelics before 2023 ends I spend enormous time in self - isolation. Finally build a life where I can spend time not involving with society too much. Was lost for a while and rewathing some foundational Leo videos helped me get back on track and realise that everything that was happening was a part of journey. Shawed all the hair to realise what role femininity and beauty played in my life (I am woman). I became much more secure and self loving. Days when I was not beautiful for myself while having a long hair makes no sense now, because I accept this body now much more than before. Realised that a beauty for woman defines very much of what she can get in a career. Back then skills and actual work did not played such an important role as it plays now. I like this position much more. What changed: Attention from men: decreased This outcome for me was one of the hardest, my old part of identity was build on being pretty to others. All of a sudden this changed and all the gifts from man dissapeared. Not expecting anymore that man can help me to get through life, but having to build it completely independently. And it was something I did not even realised consciously until the conditions changed. Judgement and questions from environment: increased Confidence and independence level: increased 100% Feels like being a warrior in the world having to show the way to others, which can get quite lonely, not much support that was said out loud, people are more scared of me, also there is more respect from self and from others (which is the same). This action helped to get more independence from family. Was not realising completely that I am autonomous person until I made this action of shawing hair (which for me was more spontaneous than intentional). They completely reject me and then we learned accept each other under ne new light. Faced deepest shadows of self. Had to accept these following parts of self: all the unpleasant feeling from the day I was born till now, had to refeel them again to put a new perspective why I was not loving myself. Realising that many of these conditions that I was put into was not my fault (but my responsibility to change these memories). laziness, stagnant self, loser self, the one that gives up fast, is imperfect. Forgave for all the people from the past, stopped juging the system, the city, the country, the ex, the parents (did not realised how much negative thoughts I used to hold on all of them until I meditated on these). Still struggle to believe that the city I grew up and live in is good for me. Overcoming fears, diving right directly into the middle to many of them Experienced magic. Having been uplifted in such a high highs of life that in this vibration almost anythinng was possible, things manifested spontaneously, teleportation was possible (for those who do not believe I am not trying to prove anything). From this position it is very scary to come back to the place of low vibration, where all the fears activates again and all the childhood memories comes back. One of the hardest things after psychedelics is to realise that everything was temporary. That you are actually a nice human being with superabilities. That only works when your vibration is high enough. Brain was used to heaviness so much and fall back to the old position, old relationships, old feelings lead me to depression. Plus I was unstable enough, not really fully autonomous back then. Mind was learning so quickly. I had to come back all the way to the childhood, remember the dark parts of life, to see what I preaviously resisted to see and build slowly again the person that I really want to be. Consciously came back to the city where the darkest things happened throughout my life and went into similar situations that previously made me (I made myself) to believe that I was unworthy. Just to see how mind was tricked back then. This year was transformational. Realisation that I was running away from my passion. Afraid to be actually good at something. Being scared to look at my own artwork after its being made, scared of negative reactions (haircut or videocut). This had a lot to do with self acceptance. Whenever socialising with people realising I am actually alone, especially in events, it is my favourite feeling. At the same time it was the most scary thing to realise that the path I have to walk alone, noo need of soulmates. It was hard to get motivated to create an actual beauty only for myself when noone actually sees it. Was also overcoming the fear of staying in the one country for longer perioud of time. Previously was build a lifestyle in which my survival was constantly change the place, to move again and again. I see that I was running from certain aspects of self. To actually sit down with self, really shift the look from outside to inside. Took years to have courage to do this. It is one thing to know these things and another one to do it. Understood that it is okay spend time sleeping daytime and night time weeks and moths. This way body heals and recovers faster. - Living under huge social pressure and still doing my thing. - Build a charecter and going out to another country to hang out with another higher developed individuals. In my continent I feel like living amongst kids. - Accepted the family member sides that I was hating before and turned it into advantage. Learned to say NO. Was previously thinking it is necessary to use every opportunity and now I started to pick only the options that will evolve through long time, not the ones that gives excitement. Stopped using people - this one was hard to admit that I was doing so. Developed more patience. Trying to master 3 different fields in life in the young years was feeling like being constant failure, because none of these fields bring much results yet financially. And I like to work on them all at once, not concentrating on one and then moving to another. So this gave me quite a pressure from self and really led to feeling unworthy again. I wished that I was more developed, this is my current path and it was hard to admit how much work still needs to be done. So for the next year I am working extra hard on the following: financial independence worthiness Videography concluding this journey it was turning shadows into love, this year it happened the most intensely.

Hello, In the last years I was dealing with family issues. Growing up in a toxic family environment with heavy family karma I managed to heal the big part of traumas and this is what i learned: ''We must shift our concept of the Parent that exists on the external, to become the Parent that exists in the internal self, and know that we are the true spiritual parent for ourselves. Our self-worth is not relative to how our biological family or adopted parents treated us as children.'' If you ever heard about NAA - Negative Alien Agenda, I am sure my father is affected by that. Also some of his actions and words makes me think he is possessed by demons (I have some experience myself of getting bad spirits out of body). What I learned from psychosomatics is that a person must correct the hierarchy of the family if roles are switched - your mother and father are Queen and the King, grandparents even higher and you are just small ground comparing to them - this is how much respected they must be. I used to feel much higher than my mother and hold the anger for my father. I kept involving myself into the awkward social situations. And during one psychedelic trip I realised I was so awkward, because I felt higher than my mother and I avoided this conversation and this position from my point of view was awkward in front the eyes of my Mother. Eventually I swallowed my pride and ever since that the social situations got better. It is important to constantly forgive, say sorry and love your parents until it you reprogram the worldview. Majority of problems in life might be related to dysfunctional family hierarchy. Also the diseases in our body can show us the situations that we avoid with our parents. The left side of the body is for mother side, also shows us our social circle. The right side of the body is father energy and related with money and stability that we have in our lives. Energy of parents has to flow through us like a river constantly without interruptions. Each anger, grief, complaint we hold against them stops the energy like a rock or a trash in a river.

for me it was the case when I got out of old cycles, changed my life for exciting one (with the huge help of masters) and after some time got back into the old cycle, because it was too quick change and my psyche did not had enough time to adapt. I guess change have to come slow, To ilustrate this, I was jumping out from a very dark place and leaving everything behind including the family, country, basically having just a luggage with me from the old life. And got onto the new wave of fresh energy that felt just about amazing, After some time passed it started to feel weird as my old survival mechanisms was not useful anymore, it was so unusual that I had no prior experience on how to act in the new circumstances. It felt good at the same time was threatening. It was challenge for identity and also felt longing for the family members. THough that perhaps my mission is to contribute to that current dark old environment that I was spending most of my time in. In the end I came back to think and analyse all possible future strategies on how to survive in the new life the other time. Also the relation with old environment completely changed as this time maintained a really solid boundaries with family members and not complaining about the bad circumstances, but kind of looking what I can do better in this area for other people to help them grow. Also financial independence played a huge role here too I am working on financial independence being still relatively young building the career skills in new field first to be able to travel freely and come back only for short visits next time back to this old dark space that I am currently living in. Wow I told my life story well here you have it maybe its beneficial to someone.

Looking for to access to the most profound, detailed theory material on the topic of Videography. Especially the lexicon and important knowledge that is needed for a career in Videography. Any material and links will be deeply appreciated.

dealing with very similar issues, droping studies for the third time to seek for passion that will require enormous amounts of work. anxiety of trying to figure out the meaning of life mixed with career, my role in society, role of money, importance of the impact on other people, family, energetical changes of the body, consciousness and society. maybe stepping back from these energies a bit and focusing for a moment on something else could help you have a mind clarity to come back with a fresh perspective on this later

It may have something to do with your emotional body being affected, suppressed emotions are being moved and they rise up to be processed and released. This happens when coffee stimulates central nervous system. But this can happen without coffee also

Personal experience about energy shifts in my city and country: I had thoughts wether I am getting crazy or not. I like the idea that the path less traveled can become a blueprint for the people in the future to struggle less. Firstly it is hard, no one understands, but then people get familiar with the information You providing. That is how community builds. I love the fact that the Earth is shifting from the 3d to 5d. Shift is happening collectively and individually. People one by one release the traumas from the thought and emotional bodies. The vibration from the past is considered lower vibration. Typical older person living in North Europe usually eat low vibrational food. And they tend to not move very much. So daily life looks stagnant here. However, if you started to raise your frequency, it is better to change the environment. Because energy moves in and out from body to environment 50/50. I tried an experiment, how long I can stay fluid and happy in post-soviet environment. 2 months only. Then I fall back into the old cycle and my completely body mixed with the energies of the neighbours and cities. 1st days come back after my trip in South I was super open to communicate and collaborate with people I met on the streets. Almost all of them offered to me something valuable, either a place to stay, a ride or a cigarette. My energy body was vibrating high, fluid. I thought to myself that stagnant people living here needs transformation, so I started organising a festival. Each day I found a new person who can contribute to event in a some way. Investors, artists, vocalists, landlords etc. When the organisation process became more serious, I started catching the low vibe of the country, city. It is said that we feel bad in the city if we hold the heavy energies ourselves and then the energy of environment just resonates with us. So I have gone through deep 'cleaning process' myself. And I still feel bad sometimes in the flat. I had such a questions like why I was born in such a city. In other countries people seem to live happier life on average. But I believe some Lightworkers were send to be born in a very low vibrational environments to transmute the energies of collective. It usually feels shitty on daily basis, but I accept it as a mission. I feel almost always better when I leave the country. But family lives here and they struggle. I learn not to resist the energy of city. I used to hate the view through my window as it seemed like people are caged in small flats, the view is very grey. No wonder many people have depression here. However, general situation is getting better in the country as there are such raising stars like Aida and Rytis, they are doing important job on the collective, helping people with the worst stories ever to deal with their feeling, let go and uplift. Slowly country is transforming. Maybe it is going to be the last one in the world that transcends to 5d, but it will happen sooner or later. Other option is that it will go through quick and unexpected shake that will cause old system to collapse faster and that would be called war.

I have everything in Lithuanian, I took a course and there is a book. I will translate some. All solutions boils down to energy work, expressing what was suppressed. Psychosomatics teaches how to change traumatic experiences in our minds, then energy shifts. Clients experience positive body changes after emotional, energy work during therapies. What we refuse to feel or see can be stored in our emotional body, in certain parts. Lungs store grief energy; Kidneys - fear energy; Diafragm - shame; Liver - anger. List of ailments and what can cause them: Allergy, skin rashes - fear of loss, aggression, hidden sexual problems; Joint problems - reveals our (in)flexibility in life. Being dissatisfied with oneself "accumulates salt". Dissatisfaction and psychological pain accumulate. Materializes into lime; Knee joints - self-deprecation, when situation does not 'go' as desired. When we don't go where we want, we do what we don't want to do; Genital and breast for woman - suppresed femininity; Spine problems - inability to handle money, lack of stability; Hairloss for a woman - when she does not feel needed, there is no sex, she does not understand what function she performs, she feels ugly. When someone criticizes her femininity. Hair is vital, creative sexual energy. Hairloss for a man - Men's hair falls out when they doubt their masculinity if someone ever says: "act like a man", his masculinity has been criticized in any other way, or if something unpleasant happened to his woman in bed (not necessarily related to a man). Prostate disorders - can be caused by repressed emotions when they had strict mothers/fathers since childhood, were despised, humiliated morally, physically. Chronic anger that lasts a lifetime (every unpleasant moment those muscles contract from unpleasantness). Visual comparison: as muscles grow in the gym, so fear grows a tumor. Cancer can also be caused by the negative energies that we store in our bodies and solution is to transform certain energies (by expressing supressed anger, forgiving etc., depends on the situation). Body speaks to us all the time and if we are resistant to listen to it, it will communicate through illnesses or changes.

We attract things when we do not seek them, do not want them any more? For example, not so long ago I was family dependent, their opinions mattered and they used to put a lot of pressure on me. Now I broke a boundary when it does not matter to me anymore, their words do not hurt. And as soon as I reached that state, they either changed opinion about me or I don't know what changed, but they stop criticising. In this case I was wanting approval. I don't want - I receive it. Same with money. When no need, got it. Is it the case with everything in life, we need to learn not to want everything?

Psychosomatics science says that hair loss usually happens to men when in early childhood (or in some cases, later) they experienced humiliation, disrespect, or any situation where their masculinity was weakened. And the solution is to go back to childhood (therapy) to heal particular trauma (might be minor one), if it is not too late.

It might be because Men are more visual. Women can get lonely too. They look more for emotional connection rather than visual. But for me when I got lonely I did exercise: when waking up in the morning do not leave the bed until i feel the love in my heart chakra and give that love for myself. The day goes much smoother and doesn't feel as lonely. Also higher chance of meeting people to connect with that day. Sending love ??

Time is not linear, even if yo consider past lives, they are all happening right now, just on a different timeline. It is an illusion that something happened 5 minutes ago. Everything is happening now, mind just believes that there is a past and future. I like this illusion that we have a past, because it is easy to think about letting go the past, do healing. Also focusing only how to live from this exact moment, focus on this exact surroundings and create reality from the exact things we have right now.

Psychosomatics, light work and some exercises to ground yourself can be helpful also ✨

I do 10 days eat only fruits

If you feel like you need this, then yes. Only you can know what is best for yourself ✨✨

Telepathy can happen on different levels, I used to practice telepathy to contact a person that lives far away and we did not use phones at all

LSD. Another reality experience number 4. There has been much more less significant ones, but now I'm going to describe major ones. All 3 happened at the festivals where I met other Creators. Energies played out and it looked like I am in a theatre right now. I already did realize that human is just an observer. No need to take any life event personally. However, it is more interesting if we don't know we are in a theatre or a movie. So I was a lonely soul and on my way to small Lithuanian festival I thought myself maybe I can call for another lonely souls so I can make their day happier. And they came, a big group of souls, the creators. Everyone was sitting near the campfire. Some of them encouraged to take a picture with them. Now looking back when I doubt if all of them were really here, I look at the pictures to confirm myself it was real. I met my Father for the first time. He is so grounded, looking like Indiana Shaman. American native tribe or Mayan. He was wearing just a simple clothes, but when he showed up I immediately recognized it was him. Even though never seen it before. And at some point he started to act like an abuser that is prepared to abuse a girl. However, it was his role play for 1 minute as he wanted to give me just a simple message that people are not real and test how courageous I am with the fact that other people around us are just the imagination and fiction, how much I fear their reaction if deep down I know that this is The Father, he cannot hurt me and it just seems from the outside that he is abuser. He transfer some calming energy to my palms. But i did not hold the pressure at the moment, I run away saying that I was still afraid (of human reaction). He was preparing me for all the feedback from human I am going to receive with the work that I do that is going to be significant for humanity. There was two another Visitors, as I understood they were on a mission to find me to give me a message about my upcoming career. They were giving me ideas as how to be an extraordinary hairdresser on a festivals. Basically they showed me a plan of how the beginning of my career will look like. And one of them acted like an owner of the festival so that I could practice the speech of how I am going to offer my work collaboration plan and then I realized he is probably not responsible for that and I went for looking for the real owner of the festival. And I found it, offered, the plan and they responded positively to me. The Visitors also mentioned that the work that I am about to share with the people is needed. One of them explained it that 10 people will see it, they will not care. But 2 people out of 10 need to see it. I met the DJ artist that was performing psytrance music. He showed me that my dancing moves should be more fluid rather than robotic or alienated so that it doesn't look too weird for the casual human being. Dance can be the manifestation. I did some light language moves in dance-floor that meant the end of the systems, pyramid schemes and the beginning of the new earth. I also met my sisters. I grew alone and some of them were the guides for other human being, taking one day off just to visit me and transfer some knowledge. One of them was singing Lithuanian folk song, improvising while outside there was a fire show. Some people hated her song ant tried to silence her. So she sang even louder. When I heard her from the other side of the yard, I started to sing along, then I ran next to her. At some point she singed really cruel words and it started being uncomfortable, everyone was watching her and she distracted a fire show in a way. Then I realized that she summed up for me how the transformation is going to look like. At first no one understands it. And no-one supports it. But if you keep continue doing that, their minds will adapt to the change. As she started to howl as a wolf, other people eventually joined her and it transformed into a wolf show. Then she sat next to me and asked how I feel. Then I said good. She asks again like no, how you Really are? And I said bad. She nod her head and we went to stand further. I said that I am cold. So she insisted to hug her. For a minute I felt resistance as if not wanted to be seen lesbian. But another minute I did not really care. She expanded my comfort zone. As I later came back home, I practiced howling as a wolf. And doing another animal natural sounds. There was another sister ginger haired that firstly I thought was my spirit guide until now. As she told me that I did a good job and now she has to move on and now my spirit guides will be elves. I did understood that in upcoming times I will try mushrooms for the first time. I asked her if I am going to meet the love of my life (Moon) again. And she said that maybe, but not soon. I also told her how I failed a little bit. As I let the ex visit me in my house, but then I called the police to get him out as I finally realized it was not a good decision. And she told me to tell my story whatever happens. So the main question was if I am going to have a kid or not. And this part would remind me the story of Nefertiti, Set and Osiris. Osiris (my ex) was the brother of Nefertiti (me), but they were both in love and they had a child in Ancient Egyptian times. There were also one ''scientist'' and the ''new earther'' that were arguing about the facts that system got instilled in the people's minds that doesn't make a sense in the new earth. And the Paul, new earther was explaining patiently to the scientist that was asking ridiculous questions about the plants, how people can survive with plants. How they need to come back to natural human state where people grow plants or trees not to cut it, not to do agriculture, but to eat the fruits and it is completely enough to survive for human race. They showed me the need and the importance of explaining without hate and without being triggered the new earth system for the ones that are not quite familiar with it. I also experienced a bit of the Moon (it is the name in this context). He was not with me, but he connected telepathically. He showed me how he wants that I would experience him in different forms - completely different nationality, hair color, voice, manners - complete different opposition than he is right now. And he freeze the time and showed me how long it would take to experience Him in all the different forms, the ones that would make me completely hate him. It lasted forever, he showed me the different combinations of words, the very different experiences of the feelings, of the body movements. And it lasted really forever, he told me not to worry, as I am going to forget this one terrible experience and I do not remember the big part of it. But it showed that everything goes in fractal, everything happens within golden cut ratio, so there is no need to experience Completely Everything. Some parts will go faster, some parts will take longer. I also saw how would time look like if everything would went twice faster. And the parts that will be contained in the longer part of the golden cut line might feel weird and mixed up. Just the way what would happened if you take the most scientific person ever with the glasses that is interested in programming and mix it with the most religious spiritual person. And it all comes in one person, he uses the soft feminine gestures and straight face mimic to explain everything for his hippies fellas. And he discusses scientifically the concept of god, including mathematics and brutal language with some curse words. It sounded so funny in my native language I could not stop laughing. And The Moon showed me how much he cared about me, because he choose to let me experience Him in so many different forms, speaking so many different languages, including Russian curse words, including my language. And we both laughed even though physically he was not here. He wanted to see me so different, that he analyzed my childhood, the deep roots of my culture, the folk, the history, the land of country. Just to understand me. And in this incarnation we chose to be completely opposites. He is from the South. I am from the North. He speaks a lot, I speak not much. I am white and cold, He is darker and hot. He is fire, I am water. And in the end when he showed me himself if all these possible different forms in which he might came in this incarnation, he asked me if I would still like him,,? They also ask me why I was ashamed of my country. When I was in the middle of the dance-floor, they turned the dance-floor into completely different looking area and I felt like I was abroad. I felt like I was in the club of UK, then Netherlands. They ask me what was the difference. Why I feel more free when I am surrounded by complete strangers and different cultures. Why I felt immediately better when I realized no-one can recognise me. Then the psytrance slowed down music became very heavy, masculine and a bit Russian, like in an old Lithuanian club. As the Roma people like to listen. And all of a sudden I became surrounded by the Roma people (they live in groups in Lithuania). I felt unsafe for a moment, but then I remembered I create my own safety, my freedom. And after the party I went home in the morning, I cried for the first time because now I have a father. We did not speak much, but I never ever thought in my life I can cry not because I lack something, but because I unexpectedly receive it. He empowered me. He transfer some deep ancestral knowledge of Lithuania. He let me know that I create country. Each country has it's own creators. And the reason I did not like the country is because I created it this way. It reflected me. I thought it was dark, stagnant, unfriendly, cold, demonic. It is because I was this way. The country is actually deep, nurturing, powerful, deep forests, ancient knowledge, the land of ancestors with beautiful culture and history. Friendly collaborations can happen here. Spiritual communities will create. I personally saw myself as a ancient woman doing runes and helping to form a beautiful, groups, friendships with people that was feeling lonely. Folk singing is powerful. And my real (biological) father was deep into history and into science fiction books for a reason, because The Architects of my life wanted that I also dig deeper into that. During the party there was also a scary part. Sisters mentioned to me that the transformation is going to happen pretty soon. They mentioned that sadly is going to be brutal, bloody and fast. I think they had in mind a war that is about to happen unexpectedly. As this is the way to transform the old system that everyone is unhappy with. And all of a sudden I thought about my biological family. They are about to build a house, they care about material stuff so much and they hate their jobs. And they are about to lose everything. All the money. And all the situation looked so ironic. Because it is sad that they saw reality in this way and now they will be forced to change their minds,, if they survive.. Then Paul asked what is a money. Money do not exist, we were slaves of system, they make us hold the money in banks, not to have them in our pockets, do slavery just to be able to buy a food which is actually a natural human right. It is an illusion that they created that without slavery jobs we do not have an access to food. All these people that I mentioned as sisters, father, etc., were my family energetically. Biologically my family is not related to them and they doesn't even know about them. I was so proud that I met so many my native language speaking people that were so cool, so strong and I bonded to them so well, we could communicate telepathically. I came to event so lonely and I came out having Friends in my country for the first time. Not someone shallow, but Deep Connections, with The Creators. They already invited me to another parties, let me co-create the music, art and dance. I am so thankful to everyone, every each of them.

LSD. Another reality experience number 3. After that we went with some people from the island to another festival. And my trip sounded like that: I was siting alone on the dried grass - hay and party was already started. There were people around me, but I was alone. One man was constantly making jokes about horse, trying to uplift the mood of everyone and enjoy his time. He was older a bit. It was not funny for me. So I took a piece of dried grass and I asked him for a lighter. He thought I was holding a cigarette, so he lit it up. But then I pull the grass apart and he realised it was a joke. He stopped joking for a minute and sat next to me. We started talking. I told him a story that I lost my King. And I did not knew if I am ever going to see Him again. I showed him the moonstone ring on my fourth finger. He said ring is just a thing, just a symbol, do not get too caught up in it. Then the reality shifted and the similar feeling came as on the first trip. I looked at the very middle of the dance floor where the king was usually standing, but it was empty. It seemed as this trip and this meeting was important part of my life and was meant to happen. The man told me that he was the co-creator and founder of a festival that now has grown to the most known festival in Portugal. He told me that he has a gift to create. When he touches something, things just happen. I showed him the name of my King and thought for a second that maybe he will create the situation in witch I could I meet Moon again. But then he told me some significant words. That I remember almost every day now. And it sounded like: do not live for a man. Live for yourself. He did not finish his idea, because I received the full message telepathically. Immediately told him: Got it. He said: really? lets go to dance then. He also told: you are Creator, you create your reality. Create what happens. And that is how I danced, I did not care then if Moon is on the dance floor or not. I danced for the first time as no one watches. I danced for myself. Not only, but also for all the women that struggles now. For all the women that has ever experienced repression, that was put down. Danced for women to support each other. Awaken their divine femininity. Generated a very good energy and send it directly from the dance floor combined with other people joy directly to the women of the world. At that night i started thinking maybe he gave me his gift. I gave him kiss on a forehead. And he experienced shaking and trembling, the high vibrations visited body. (this gave me a lesson to realise that we live alone, we die alone and no other person is less important than us. Live to create, to share and take care of yourself. Of your stability, finances, your self love. And things that needs to come, will come. No need to push anything forward.) I met the moon later. But it had not a much of importance. Because firstly I need to live for myself. And only then share this love that I have with the world. Can not pour from the empty cup. And that is what my new chapter is about.