Btw this is my my first post here , So Hello everyone !
So basically I am frustrated in a many aspects of my life. I am 27 years old and i feel completely lost in life. I also recently lost my job and i'm financially unstable , which adds to it. I feel its now or never time for me to turn my life around. So i'm looking for some guidance.
Reasons Why i am un happy :
No direction in life
I do have vision of what my life should be - But i just don't know how to achieve it.
i Feel like i loose most of my days in thoughts of what could be.
what ever i have done till now does not feel like steps in the right direction.
Never had a fulfilling positive romantic relationship
Never dated or at least got passed the first date.
Can't recall the last time i flirted wth a girl.
Silly as it is. Its something that is really pain full for me.
Starting to loose my self to addictions
porn ,marijuana - starting to feeling like doing either or both is the only way i'll get to sleep at night.
even worst is that i'm feeling dissatisfied after.
junkfood - starting to live off it.
Not really sure of what i want do professionally
i have been working for over 5 years now as an apps developer and i'm good - but i have nothing to show for it
sure i can wealth of knowledge but can't seem to show that in interviews
i really want to work on something that will solve real world problems. Not fun toys
Strained relationship with family
Had a bit of a rocky childhood
Very negative role models - both parents
Positives :
Heath and fitness
i was 80-90 pounds overweight. Now i'm 10 pounds overweight
i was never athletic but managed to train and complete a full marathon.
I also do long distance cycling.
I have every intension of completing an iron man triathlon.
Music
its something i am really passionate about
i can sing (well kinda) and i was learning the violin.
Things i believe are wrong /i really need help with
Keep loosing focus
i keep getting distracted and putting my life goals on hold
every few months i look back and think where did all that time go.
Low confidence, self esteem and love for self
i am not happy with myself .
i define my worth with respect to everyone options around me.
Finding work in what i'm passionate about
i really want ot feel that burning passion that i used to feel when i started out .
Dealing with loneliness
This is my kryptonite - i don't have any means to deal with it yet.
Dealing with emotions
i am a very emotional person - specially when it comes to people
i do make most decisions logically but i get very bad emotional whip lashes when i do
So i am going through a lot of the videos here and they are really help full . but i'm more a people person . i guess what i'm looking for a someone to talk to about these things a mentor or something. To discuss how to move passed my problems and maybe point out things that i am not aware of . i'm not really sure where to find such a person either.
