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2016, oct 13th healthy meals university career time investment happiness sharing meditation yogasanas self-inquiry & dharma contemplation i had the same insight again about happiness. happiness cannot depend on anything external. i caught myself depending on external factors, which was making me suffer a little bit. then i meditated on letting that go then i was fine. i realized how important my yoga practice is once more. i went to see people from nacion pachamama. we meditated together. we sand mantras. i played the guitar and we sang kundalini yoga mantras. everyone loved it. it was amazing! then i went to eat açaí alone. such a liberating solitude. i really enjoyed that. back at home i meditated a little more before writing this journal then sleeping.

karma is all there is. wrong comprehensions of karma may contain: an ego-identity that produces karma an ego-identity that suffers ("good" or "bad") consequences of karma an ego-identity that that evaluates karma an ego-identity that materializes consequences of karma the proper comprehension of karma leads to nirvana.

yes. something like that. the topics don't have to be exactly those ones. the layout of course is up to you too.

i had to find my happiness alone. full realization. unconditional love. then i was able to find someone i'd like to be with. if you're trying to be someone else to find a lover, you'll find a partner for someone else. why don't you use this opportunity to achieve celibate (no porn, no masturbation, no sex)? you may get in touch with your deepest peace.

@Lorcan wow... you're so young! your journal is very inspiring. since you've asked, my recommendation is to use topics to summarize your accomplishments. for instance: meditation body workout healthy meals career time investment so everyone knows what you're aiming for and it's easier to track consistency. that list i typed out was just an example. you can check mine and others' to inspire you so you can create your own layout.

@dude TSP is too hard haha. if you have to solve it on a 2D context, like a map, check the euclidean TSP version. cheers!

2016, oct 12th healthy meals happiness sharing deep talks self-inquiry & dharma contemplation yogasanas music dancing meditation zen passo a passo time investment ashram duties spent the entire day with my girlfriend. when we woke up, we went straight to a very deep talk about reality and consciousness. then we had a great lunch. we finished the matrix trilogy today and then we came to the ashram where i live (we were at my parents'). while i was practicing yogasanas, she was learning how to sing this song. she's an amazing singer. her voice is so sweet. after my hatha yoga practice, i picked up the guitar and we sang nina oliveira together. and after that we danced kizomba. i'm kinda teaching her how to dance kizomba. she's loving it! then we meditated together in the zen passo a passo program. after that, while she cooked a delicious meal, i cleaned the meditation hall. then we had dinner! she's sleeping now. such an angel <3

@Gabriel Antonio we're welcome!

2016, oct 11th healthy meals university career investment happiness sharing self-inquiry & dharma contemplation meditation yogasanas deep talks master classes are really really good. i'm enjoying this master degree. meditation was so deep. lasted for 1 hour but i think i could have gone for longer. the yoga teacher arrived and i had to stop. these yoga classes are really changing my body structure. fixing old patterns, healing my lower back. as i advance, my body feels younger. going to my parents for a visit with my girlfriend!

@Mr Lenny do you know people interested in meditation? you could create your own group. if you wish to do so, i can help you with the methodology if you want.

@Mr Lenny don't do anything without self love, otherwise your progress will be rather slow. find a sangha. in my case, i went out on the city where i live looking for many meditation groups. i found dozens of them. i practiced with all of them. i met awesome people. you can try it. connect with people

@spicy_pickles about helping others, you may find out that we can only help those who know that they need help. and the best help we can offer is being happy. they will be curious or even inspired by your presence. be careful not to be cocky, though. we're better off if we have happy friends, not ill friends. your friendship circle may (very likely) change during this journey. you'll find happier and happier people as you progress on your own happiness.

wow! your reports are awesome!

enlightenment is the end of suffering that comes from ignorance. who'd want to suffer?

you can't know about this with your mind. you have yet to realize the truth of no-death and no-birth. if you touch it, you'll see that it's impossible to die. you're here right now. is it possible to exist consciously without being able to perceive the fact that you're simply here? it feels as if we were always here and there's no way out of IT.

take a break from meditation/self-inquiry and recover. come back when you're stable. these things can happen.

i found this technique "by accident". i was curious about the beginning of a thought, so i thought: "i want to witness the beginning of a thought". then i started to meditate. i went to total presence with one exhalation and i put myself in a diligent perspective, thinking "ok, where are you, thoughts, now? i want to see you coming." what happened? total silence. no thoughts! my insight the observer is just a thought and we cannot be conscious of two thoughts are the same time.

i was in the same situation as you are right now. finding a zen center and starting yoga classes was my salvation.

you can think like that. you can also think that the city is where human beings need help. why don't you start a meditation group or something like that? a zen sangha, maybe? if you want to do so, i can help you with that.

2016, oct 10th healthy meals actualized.org contributions compassive listening happiness sharing yogasanas meditation ashram duties my girlfriend gave me a fright while i was creating subtitles to leo's video. i was so focused! haha we talked about her mystical experiences from yesterday (sunday). she said that she was filled with love and i could see it in her eyes. she also said that she feels ready to experience complete celibate (no sex, no porn, no masturbation). as someone who's experienced it myself, i was very happy for her. it's a life changing experience! she could practice yoga with me, which made even happier. she's recovering from a lesion in her knee, and being able to practice yoga again is really something! after that, i went to the daissen ji sangha to practice zazen. i was happy that my friend from yesterday was there. he was able to sit for the whole session. i think he'll be able to keep going once a week! back at home, i cleaned the meditation hall and then started to write today's journal.

you may also try kinhin.

hello, @spicy_pickles i can see your struggle. there's nothing that you can grasp and say "this is me. i'm being myself" unless you're experiencing reality fully conscious, aka experiencing enlightenment. but about being someone or something, you have to stop trying to fool yourself and be aware that you're playing a role as a human being. ego is needed unless there could be no interaction. from my direct experience, i can recommend some practices for you to build an ego that won't cause trouble and will also increase your experience with any kind of relationship. become a listener. the dharma is so rare and almost everyone suffers deeply. learn about their sufferings by knowing what they have to say. develop a compassionate mind that is able to wish happiness for everyone around you. smile and look deeply into their eyes. this practice evokes sincerity. be gentle and stop demanding people's attention. this is a world of hungry ghosts. get out of that hole.

@Prabhaker nailed it. his first response says everything.

@Elzhi thank you. i really need your guidance. i shall include you in my list of spiritual teachers so you can be the only one there. peace, brother. it's easier to see when we're calm, but you feel special because you want to shake things up. how can we be special if we aim for separation and do not value listening properly?

hello, @Elzhi . i'm sorry for whatever you're going through in your life. and i'm sorry for everything you've been through. we can't go very far only with intellectual pride and preciosity. where is your heart?