ajasatya

his first one

@Aamir King why so much fear? investigate it. solve it. ask yourself why you feel it. "i'm scared of going to the gym" "why am i scared of going to the gym?" "because i'm scared that people will record me and embarrass me" "why would that make me feel bad?" etc... always question your lack of self love. investigate and see for yourself if you can find a solid reason not to do things you want to do. you have to do the work. "sit down, shut up and ask yourself what's true until you know it" (jed fucking genius mckena)

@Aamir King you are on planet earth. there's no escape. such place with such perfect conditions only exist in artificial contexts... zen monasteries for example.

@Scud hello. you are in the perfect spot of life. these situations don't happen very often. why do people keep coming back to this state? because they want to run the fuck away from it without knowing why they're there. get in touch with your suffering. sit and do the work. nobody can do it for you. there is a popular story about a guy called sidarta gautama. by the age of 29 he noticed how meaningless his life was and started his quest to figure out this thing for once. he tried following spiritual teachers. he learned everything the teachers had to teach and moved to another teacher. then he quit trying to find a teacher that would fulfill his needs and started practicing austerities. then he quit austerities and started to meditate. on this process he discovered the 4 noble truths, which tell us about suffering, its origin, its cessation and the path that leads towards its end. i always recommend starting with the 4 noble truths. that's where i started from when i was in your place.

@Markus enjoyment is now.

@Shane Roberts people will respect you as much as you respect yourself

@dice how was your original face before you were born?

@Green Warrior whatever those waves are, you observe them as sensations. that's all, sensations. leave them alone. marijuana hinders the meditation process. actually, it drives you towards distraction, which is the opposite way you're supposed to go.

@quantum are you truly sincere about giving up on your avatar/costume/character on this dream? if you think so, lead yourself to that question. your heart should pump the fuck up and you should feel a cold sensation in your viscera. it feels like you know you're going to die and this can be quite disturbing. do you really accept leaving your parents behind? your house, your friends, school? don't lie to yourself. why are you doing all this? it's your universe. there's nobody else here. you're on your own. that's how it's always been and that's how it will always be.

being mindful is also about doing one thing at a time. if you want to hear voice as a sequence of words, do it. and if you want to hear voice as sound, then do it. select the contexts in which you want to practice indifference.

@rush stop imagining and fantasizing other people's happiness. if you want to know, meet someone who has the characteristics you described and ask him/her. ask them if they're completely content with their lives.

@LaucherJunge enlightenment is something you can't neither attain nor stop. it's totally out of the ego's control. you may sit back for a while, but that won't get the job done. you'll know it.

@Shin the only help i can give to someone is the one i gave to myself. the way i did it was facing it straight. when i saw the practical teaching to quit desire, i followed it fearlessly. i was left with the desire for food, water and sleep. that's how i inserted zen in my life and that's what i recommend. go straight at it. you may see yourself in nirvana in less than 1 year if you practice zazen as well.

@Shane Roberts nobody is walking over you. there's no you to be walked over. stop being needy and find peace in solitude. there's no spiritual growth without suffering. accept it. accept it all.

our last buddhas hit us with some solid and precise teachings that seal the deal, pushing us towards the pathless path run by Truth. i think we could share our last buddhas so people can get in touch with accurate teachings as soon as possible and have proper seeds planted in their hearts. mine was jed mckenna.

@ULFBERHT don't do it. it's frustrating because we need to deal with the very source of our frustrations. it can be disturbing, stressful and sad. all the lies you keep telling yourself about yourself will pop up and you'll have to admit you've been lying to yourself for quite a while. if you stop by and do what we try to do here, there will be pain. why are you doing it? this won't make you a better person.

@Rali you noticed the nuance of my comment and asked yourself about your reason for doing all this because you're used to being sincere. that's good. something you've done before, for sure. i teach because i enjoy teaching. there's no big meaning to it. no altruistic justification. "save all beings"? "helping to extinguish suffering"? fuck all that bodhisattva bullshit. feeling compelled to do whatever is not true spiritual liberation. reality has it's own ways to wake up to itself through human beings (on this planet). whether i'm part of it or not it doesn't matter. the ego is too ignorant when it comes down to enlightenment as a reality thing doing it's own stuff and using egos as fundamental tools. in some way, my teachings actually CAUSE a certain amount of suffering and mental confusion. you know the drill. for a career based on teaching, i recommend mastering either adyashanti's style (calm, slow, patient) or the alan watts' style (funny, entertainer) or both. love your videos. keep it up.

one of the most elucidative teachings is asking people why they're doing all this. most of them won't be able to give an answer.

fortaleza, brazil

@Dimples i use this anguish as an energy that compels me to move on and expand my relationship range. so i go out. i throw my body on the world. i meet older people. i join many meditation groups. i teach yoga to strangers for free etc.

2016, oct 24th this is my last post on this journal. i've done it. there's nothing else to do. i've been living in this ashram for 4 months now and i'll be here for 2 more months enjoying stillness. this journal contains the last 20 days before my enlightenment. it took me 1 year and a half to finally realize truth completely. no more internal battles, nothing to achieve and nothing to attach to. life is a game for us to play with.

once this insight touched me: internet is a tool for Union. it's an expression of non-duality trying to be. and this kind of thing we do here, watching and sharing spiritual videos, reading about who we are, talking and learning, this is the real deal. i love the internet. i can't fight it. if i am to be sincere, i really really like to be here.

2016, oct 22th healthy meals bike rides happiness sharing meditation self-inquiry & dharma contemplation reading deep talks deep insights enlightenment i went to pick up my girlfriend's keyboard but it was not fixed yet. so i got back home for lunch. after lunch i watched this adyashanti's video, and it felt great. then i went to the beach with matu and we had a great time. after the beach i went to practice zen with this sangha. great practice. great talk after practice. on my way back home i was hit with a shocking wave of contentment from having realized who i am. this ecstasy is lasting until now and i don't think it's going away anytime soon. if it does, no worries. but i'm feeling completely fulfilled right now.

i'd recommend no less than 25 minutes. on the first 20 minutes we usually just witness mental earthquake and no actual stillness.

i see. well, deep deep deep inside, the courage to live and the courage to die are the same. time will tell you. hopefully not very late.