ajasatya

your words made me speechless. i'm actually fascinated by the illusory curtains of maya right now. so tell me. what's this thing that's been hiding stuff from you?

@aniss you call them because you want to be known as a good person. you want them to acknowledge you. you suffer because you crave for external approval. even reading these words may hurt like hell, i know. try this: if you truly love your friends, wish happiness for them in silence. you don't have to look concerned. a sincere feeling of compassion doesn't even need to be expressed. it just has to be felt. you'll notice that it's an impossible task if you lack self love. love yourself first. take care of your body and mind first.

awesome report! i read it while listening to the song you linked. thank you for sharing

@Nervewracking i'm studying it with the help of ayahuasca. in the last few sessions it felt like i was able to experience the memories of an indigenous man called "nkaka", which means "son of a great beauty". it felt extremely vivid. i had never heard of that word before and i could feel its meaning very deeply in my heart. i don't even know in what language it was spoken. nkaka would introduce himself hitting on his chest with the right hand while pronouncing "n" and then waving the right hand pointing to the sky while pronouncing "kaka". sometimes nkaka would say that he lives to honor his name. the atmosphere was very green, full of trees. and as he ran in the forest like the wind, it felt like i was the one running in the forest. and oh man, that was some incredible feeling. was i experiencing some memories from the akashic records? was i visiting past lives? was i living fine products of the source of reality that were being made right away? for me, these questions ring a huge bell. it feels like they're pointing to the same thing. can you feel how mystical this very moment is? because if you do, universal memory, past lives and raw creativity make complete sense.

take your time because it's a long process. do you know why you should purify yourself or are you just believing in what we say?

@Wouter you haven't understood what i said. it doesn't matter if you don't want to compare your numbers with others. what i said is that even comparing your numbers with your own numbers will drive you in the opposite direction. if you really want to progress in meditation, you have to sit down and give up completely.

@Wouter i can't come up with a better technology than awareness. can you imagine zen monks comparing their performances with the numbers from last week? drop it. if you depend on food for your ego, you better give up already. this certainly isn't for you.

oh man, how old are you? it seems like you haven't suffered enough yet.

good question. the sense of possession is just as illusory as the sense of self.

what is contemplation?

@kieranperez great honesty. as adyashanti would say, those moments of true sincerity with oneself is the deepest longing for any human being, and yet, the hardest thing to do. adyashanti himself was a sportsman and struggled with competitiveness. and nowadays he's one of the greatest spiritual teachers out there. you might want to take a look at his book from which i quoted him: the way of liberation. you can download the ebook for free from his own page.

i've been where you are and yes, you got it. use this situation to grow exponentially. in a few years from now you'll be grateful for all this turmoil.

@Psyche_92 work towards compassion and gratitude. if you start to feel more special, more aware, smarter or more enlightened than others and start to behave as someone who cannot tolerate the company of those who suffer, you'll get stuck.

i'm writing a book full of practical exercises that one can perform throughout regular days to achieve mental/emotional mastery. right after finishing the introductory chapter, when i was about to start writing the actual content of the book, a heavy rain of negative thoughts about the book started to fall. i waited for about 5 minutes and then the rain stopped so i could continue writing. i was able to see very clearly how those who are identified with thoughts would have probably given up at that moment.

it's interesting but i don't think we're volunteers. i don't think we chose to help humanity in some other plan of existence. i think we choose it everyday as time goes on. i think we're the balancing result of complex "equations" that Life itself follows towards the expansion of consciousness. too many "i think"s and "i don't think"s. i'm babbling a lot of beliefs.

that's even harder to comprehend. there's no way other than experiencing the very nature of reality.

the best resource is yourself, really. nothing compares to direct experience.

wonderful! you've had the chance to feel it! can you understand now? that gross layer of latent suffering must go away. otherwise it will crawl into your thoughts, words and actions 24/7.

yes. thoughts are located in a spectrum of higher frequencies of Reality and your confusion is a result of your attachment to such phenomena. sit down and let go of thoughts about thoughts. you may have seen enough for today already.

@nexusoflife great words of sincerity. i hope you finish your book. there's a new kind of school arising. wouldn't you like to contribute to the education of our children? i agree with you. our current educational system is breaking down.

@AilinKyung any human being suffers greatly if he craves for a loving partner. i'm not saying that you shouldn't do it. if that's what you feel, then do it. let nobody else tell you what you should do. but be sincere and honest with yourself. soon or later you'll realize that it's impossible to find happiness in someone else. it's not in your money, it's not in your social status, it's not in your relationships. i did something similar to what you want to do. but i can't deny the fact that i was being needy, which is a helpless mindset.

@AilinKyung warning: deep suffering incoming. get ready to experience the pain of growth.

nah, staying alive is just a simple task. and since we're alive, we're free to do whatever we want. the problem is that people cannot free them from themselves. free time feels like ultimate hell because they cannot get rid of the mental harassing self-talk.

@Principium Nexus it's not about doing nothing all the time. it's about living with the minimum amount of obligations and having LOTS of free time to do whatever. listening to people, drinking ayahuasca, dancing while singing the mahamantra with krishna devotees, practicing ashtanga yoga, contemplating, replying on this forum etc. my life can go on like this forever. my only obligation is to survive. and that's because i cannot choose otherwise, even though i've already tried.

GREAT question. yes it's possible to be happy just working enough to eat enough, drink enough and sleep enough. this fulfillment would be based on nothing at all. it's one of the greatest wonders of life.