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The suppression that was laid onto you by this negative depressed culture caused you depression; probably mostly from your parents, and later at school. Meditate, and very important, go through the suppressed feelings by finding them and feeling them completely, I like this guided meditation a lot https://vimeo.com/187391631/

Yeah, there might not be a border anymore between belief and knowing/direct experience then. Perhaps that's where the wisdom lies here though; why belief things in the first place? Perhaps creating the belief is the ego holding on to it's identity, whereas surrendering to just truth is letting it go and being free. 'Do we need beliefs to function?', indeed do we? I didn't watch the complete video, but one thing that struck me was that beliefs can really really hold us back when experiencing reality (saw this very clearly on weed once) and it reminds me of the quote in Conversations with God. God: "You cannot know God until you’ve stopped telling yourself that you already know God. You cannot hear God until you stop thinking that you’ve already heard God. I cannot tell you My Truth until you stop telling Me yours."

All my life, I have never had attained one moment of lasting happiness. All these things I've done in my life all led to nothing : p Of course this is obvious when look at what our 'world' is, a hallucination created by your brain arising in your consciousness. And so anything created by the first hallucination is just not real. Be glad to be on spiritual path, because it's the only thing that actually bears lasting fruit, becoming who you really are, as a joyful happy peaceful ex-static kid and or boundless blissful consciousness is the only thing that's actually real, and it's lasting, forever. Wow!

No I'm not there yet.

Yes, it's a grand manifestation but there is no joy in the world because there is no real world, as it appears in you, and thus you give it all meaning.

Being a failure in society's eyes is a beautiful opportunity to learn self love

I like ex-static better

I have the Bashar forum, not super popular but you are very welcome (it's about this guy https://vimeo.com/187391631 (no, not the kid)).

Done by people. But not unconditionally.

This book is better and free, Conversations with God by Neale Walsch (was on the new york best seller list for a 140 weeks or so) www.universe-people.com/english/svetelna_knihovna/htm/en/en_kniha_conversations_with_god_1.htm

Ye, a bit of a superior vibe and he still believes in a reductionist model of the world as dogma

If he's helpful for you then great. Personally I don't find him worthwhile to listen to, given he actually blatantly copies a lot very specific concepts from Bashar without giving credit and you can see he's still has it's own doubts (though not that that invalidates a teacher, but it's worth noting). The part of his source of inspiration, Bashar, I can very much recommend, best guided meditation ever I've listened to for example, helped me ball my eyes out multiple times

Boredom comes from resistance which comes from unresolved negativity or trauma, just go meditate or get over the fear of what you want to do. Don't play the victim, it helps you 0.

@Azreal What do you think of the potential for MeO to be used to help you embody states of enlightenment, do you experience your meditations differently already?

I would recommend focusing on meeting and befriending like minded people who are interested in spirituality, God, consciousness. See then if you still feel like hanging out with your old friends.

Putting yourself in the victim mode creates more havoc than any release of old emotions can bring, it can be done with ease in my experience

I would say, aside from of course the more obvious direct cause and effect things, like smoking giving you cancer (which a surprising amount of people even will act the victim of). Also things like the butterfly effect, how your small act of kindness can change the whole world: 'You give JK Rowling a smile after her 19th rejection of her book when you walk past her, she musters the courage to try it 1 more time, and creates a lovely viral book series' So in that sense we are very connected, and we all create the atmosphere from which actions and motivations arise.

I have not, it's an active part of my life. I said it specifically to argue that self-inquiry is actually very much like meditation if not the same thing. After all, they also bring the same results and for both you need to look away from the world.

'It's just a chemical, it's just a drug' At an early point in your awakening you will see nothing happens by coincidence, as God is playing in all of us, nothing every happens by accident. And so certainly it is no coincidence nature produces these chemicals/neurotransmitters like DMT or 5-MeO, in so that we can take them externally if we want(and yes, you can experience it (eventually) without these molecules externally as they are produced in our bodies naturally as well). And you are high on normal neurotransmitters right now, and if it improves their life, especially then why would it be invalid? Also thanks for posting OP, I asked God for guidance last night and the first dream I had out of deep sleep was a dream of the toad, OM-ing with him or something.

The act of looking within it self is an act of meditation imo. But in my experience, self-inquiry alone, as in something you ask yourself a few times and look is just not going to cut it, maybe for beings almost naturally enlightened anyways. You can say it worked for Ramana Maharshi but he spend a few decades(?) sitting in stillness/silence while others would sometimes help him put food in his mouth. Also Ramana himself, who popularized this method, often recommended 1-2 hours a day of meditation and being focused on the self during the rest of the day.

'Once the purification complete itself, you will end up being all clean and happy (10-15 years from now). This purification comes in waves so expect several stages of neurotic behavior.' Only if you chose to go along with the ideas arising, you always have free will.

No, it's a disproved assumption. Quantum mechanics shows matter is not separate from consciousness, there is no evidence that the brain creates consciousness and there is a butload of evidence it merely receives it http://evidenceforthesoul.weebly.com/

Yes, I love it, my dreams are becoming increasingly more vivid and conscious as well, I know some dreams can be a sort of middle ground between realms of pure consciousness/spirit (aka the afterlife or thought realms), and our lives , based on one confirming experience I had. Very exciting stuff, especially because of some interactions I've had with my deceased father.

Consciousness is contrary to popular belief not an elaborate hoax created randomly by dead matter, quantum mechanics has long proven this. And further more, there is no evidence that indicates the brain creates consciousness, or free will, that also isn't evidence for it being a receiver. And there is a ton of evidence for the brain being a receiver: PSI research, (verifiable) near death experiences, (verifiable) reincarnation testimonies, precognitive dreams, shared dreams, shared psychic experiences and most easily testable shared psychedelic experiences, either in hyperspace or while conscious here. Though a regular DMT or 5MeO breakthrough should make you open minded enough to be able to objectively look at the evidence from there. Also practicing spirituality seriously will reveal life's wonders directly to you as well, constant synchronicity will eventually be the norm of the day.

The main reason for this post is because there is a lot of hysteria/misconceptions about mental illness, especially once people start to get into spirituality and psychedelics some people may sometimes be afraid they will one day 'trigger something that breaks their functioning mind, free will, emotions caused soly by some genetic predisposition'. Luckily that's a bunch of bullshit, though triggers and collapses may occur, the real cause is simply trauma, which can be dealt with. No developed mental illness (which is what we will be talking about) has ever been diagnosed through a biological test, it's a mere opinion based on symptoms (whom vary a lot, and of which not all are negative or even unhealthy), which creates a very very vague field: For instance, 10 people may have a cough, yet they may all have different diseases, but because the diagnosis is based on the symptom, they are all labeled with the same illness. (not to mention, a biological correlation also does not imply a cause, i.e. (mental) stress may still be the underlying cause) And other example, schizophrenia is based on just 2 out of 5 symptoms for a diagnosis: 'The positive symptoms of schizophrenia (delusions, hallucinations, and disorganized speech) can look like a manic episode of bipolar disorder, while the negative symptoms of schizophrenia (apathy, social withdrawal, and low energy) can look like a depressive episode.' Did you experience something unusual or belief in some unusual things? Do you hear voices sometimes, or see something not seen by others sometimes, either positive or negative? etc. Well, even having just a few of these things may already end you up diagnosed. Does that mean something is wrong with your body/mind per se? No, it means this particular culture created an arbitrary system to label the strange. However most people diagnosed mentally disturbed, are most often damaged broken individuals. Often schizophrenics and other mentally ill come from a unhealthy upbringing, were taught no confidence or love, in worse cases were (severely) abused by the parents or environment, didn't fit in socially and that has caused an unbalanced mind with all sorts of negative beliefs, low self worth and no tools to deal with it. In my own experience, I have been diagnosed with schizophrenia, yet recovered from all symptoms remarkably fast. Long personal story: My youth: I had rather emotionally weak/insecure parents, spend almost all my free time behind TV and later video games, I was bullied, my dad died at 15 and at the same time, around age 15/16 I did recover socially (thanks to new friends and weed at the time (weed actually opened my eyes as to realizing I wasn't the only insecure being on the planet, but that it was in fact rampant). However not much later I started getting into mushrooms somewhat frequently and after some intense trips I realized we are spiritual being who could be living a ecstatic life if we decided to live in oneness without fear (among a few other things), but because I had no further tools or guidance and I was still walking around with a lot of emotional trauma/self-repression, and lacked the courage to be my true self, my negative ego flourished; I had no motivation for the regular world anymore, stayed in my room all day/night, I didn't know how to let go of all my fear and emotional trauma, and I wanted to die. But since that was not an easy or seemingly smart thing to do, I tried the next seemingly best thing, trying to imagine a better world for myself, I wanted to belief I was more special than others because I felt so inadequate. and I wanted to belief the moment was more special because I felt so shitty; this resulted in delusions and even in some rather small but (partly) self induced hallucinations (belief is a powerful tool) (though not of all can be said to be definitive hallucinations). After about a year of that me and my mom both thought it was a good idea to hospitalize for depression and psychosis (though in my eyes at the time, I believe I was just depressed, given I simply lived very unconsciously). I was hospitalized for psychosis, I hoped to receive good therapy, I imagined someone who would just talk to me so I could cry it all out. Strangely enough, despite living a developed first world country (The Netherlands), none of that happened, I was asked to simply take medications and was pretty much put away with similar (but nice) individuals with a short group therapy once a week, despite that, nothing really happened except a few. very short, talks with a (apathetic) psychiatrist. A wonderful business model to keep people taking drugs for their whole lives and not actually look at their problems indeed, luckily I refused all medication and they didn't pat attention. I was diagnosed with a schizoaffective disorder (schizophrenia with emotional imbalance) at the end of my year long hospitalization, overall, it was an OK time to simply get to myself more somewhat with no responsibilities, though that did not really help that much at all, luckily, I later did find the cure. Getting rid of mental illness At the end of my hospitalization of about a year I started meditating and things got better quickly, I just went home, got back to school, continued my practice and also started practicing self-inquiry, quickly in about a year time all my delusions/hallucinations as well as the dreadful depression simply faded. I went from very mentally restless to less and less until I was more neutral, until the neutrality birthed a small joy. During that time and time after until this day, emotional trauma surfaced (regularly) and is released, making me less afraid, less tense and free-er. Years later the progress has simply continued and I'm a happy, peaceful person and productive person, still there is some healing to do and there is a long infinite way to further to live and progress into total harmony, oneness and bliss with God,- thank God. And with no mental or emotional disturbance that ever surfaced again, even after taking psychedelics again numerous times, In fact living more in harmony with your inner-self makes you become actually one of the more sane people, and living in sync with life which gets wonderfully and clearly reflected with consistent synchronicities and a more conscious communication with the divine/yourself (through synchronicity, feeling, inspiration), despite how delusional that might sound to the common man. And now, in hindsight, I can look back at a dreadful depression and delusional moments with some gratitude, as it provided me a great useful contrast to more fully know who I really am and what actual happiness is. The gene myth As you may already have figured, trauma/negative imprints and the fear is what causes an imbalance in thought and behavior. Gene's do play (a rather small) role, as well as your environment, though ultimately it's the mind that decides what it beliefs in and how it wants to function in relation to it's beliefs. So no. Schizophrenia or any other developed mental illness does not get suddenly triggered caused by some gene; the concordance rate between identical twins and schizo. is around 25% and the concordance rate between fraternal twins is about 5%. This shows that people with exactly the same gene's have a 25% chance of getting schizo. together, not a 100%. Although the number is higher than of the fraternal twins, this may be caused be cause they are more susceptible to receiving emotional imprints, perhaps psychic functioning or because they were simply raised more similarly and gotten into the same circumstances and mental health system. So in short: gene's do not cause any developed mental illness. Well explained by some of the best professors in the world here as well: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=36HquPzdxf4 It's caused by trauma Because of my own experiences I strongly belief that all disturbances simply come from being raised in an impure, dishonest, negative and simply insane world (which in truth is anything that does not display oneness), which we soak in as children which may or may not make us then extremely insane, or simply just a bit more so than the rest. This is not my view alone, I came to found out, there are quite a few (renowned) psychiatrists who see it this way as well, to name a few good psychiatrists and researched: Charles Whitfield (very good), Colin Ross, John Breeding, Ben Sessa and the list is not complete. - so TL:DR Don't be afraid of developing any mental illness, it can only come from too much emotional/mental baggage fundamentally which you can simply heal through (and probably mainly through) spirituality/meditation/self-inquiry and other modalities (expressing yourself, openly talking, music etc.). - (One of the most useful things I found is to conjure up fear through your imagination, to then feel in the body to then meditate on it.) Peace <3