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I will try until it starts making sense

This is indeed different than what I usually do. My breathing is largely unconscious.

What does "doing nothing" mean?

Gold advice. Thanks

How does kriya yoga help you, in contrast to how meditation helps you?

I am aware that I am typing this. What does it mean to focus consciousness on itself?

I have an instagram channel, but they shadow banned me. So, right now, there is nothing in particular.

I want to be aware of all the traps I keep falling into. To give an example, I mindlessly pursue pleasure sometimes, be it porn, Instagram, Netflix, you get it. I want to develop enough awareness to be able to see the consequences of my urges, and to take an action which would be more loving to myself and more conscious.

@Consilience Lol. It is merge_clancy https://www.instagram.com/merge_clancy

Yeah

Hear me out. So Leo, talks about deeper levels of awakening, he's reached, through psychedelics. Mystical experiences are rare amongst the crowd here. Most of us are glued on to the pursuit of enlightenment and doing spiritual work, but we take on ideologies from what we hear and turn it into a gooey mess. And even enlightenment, to us, is a very basic and proto concept. In a word : non-duality, but is something, most of us don't experience. And the majority of the time, we are distracted from even the basic idea of spirituality. So, some of us who venture into it, find it very deep, in the sense, that there could be a million different experiences, and there is nothing to measure it or compare it against. And the major thing is - If I become more loving, and more accepting of other's opinions and feelings, and of my own repressions. Now that is a few steps up the staircase, i was talking about. And the only reason I'd be more loving and more accepting, is cause if feels good, and it's now a part of who I am. It is devoid of reason and meaning, but it feels better and purer, in an intuitive sense, of which I have nothing to compare it with. The whole spiritual process, feels like a leap of faith, a jump down the mountain with eyes closed. No one knows what I might encounter next in life cause of the decisions I have taken, and whether I have could have had a certain person in my life, had if not been like I was. What is it all about? This struggle, this urge, and this feeling to climb up the stairs? To god knows where.

Wow. You are spot on. And i could see chains holding me back.

There is no separation. The object, the seeing and the knowing of it, are all one and the same.

@Javfly33 Yeah, much more than anything else.

@Nahm When I tell people about enlightenment, i tell them how, it sometimes feels like : the fingers I am typing with, the hands attached to my fingers, the the laptop in front of me, the entire room, and my body, and even my entire self, is part of a big machine. That all of it are just forms with distinct features, but they are all made up of the same thing. I don't know what they are made out of. But it does feel like every single object that I perceive, is analogous to how there are objects in the dream. The other thing I tell them, is how the world would appear different, and it would all seem magical and mysterious, when they get enlightened. But i don't know what I am talking about, cause i haven't experienced it myself.

Of course, I am working towards getting myself to see the nondual aspect of reality. When I tell people about things like enlightenment, which I haven't experienced myself, it does seem like, I have taken on ideologies. To even think there is a thing called "enlightenment", i have to believe, without experiencing it, and that's what I have done. That is not possible. Cause my world is personal and i don't think anyone else experiences my joy, and my pain. It does seem like that. Cause i begin claiming it as my ideology, although i might have borrowed it from elsewhere.

Acid twice, dose of ~ 150 mics. And Marijuana, both by smoking, and edibles.

This is all theory to me. I am unable to experience any of it, to feel it deeply. I am unable to reason my way towards spirituality.

Non duality.

@Nahm An opening up of an aspect of reality which was previously unknown in my experience.

It's a transcript of Leo's video- Advice for Young People - I

Here's an attempt to make notes from the transcript. It's exhausting. It's 23 pages and I have to tone it down to 2-3 or 5. There was someone who made Actualized.org textbook, that was awesome. Is someone out there making notes now? Advice for Young People.docx

The ideal conditions are : Having infinite money and everything could be brought by money, even people. So access to all resources on Earth. So, having a great mansion with a lawn, pool, all amenities. with all comforts, having the tastiest food possible, all pleasurable drugs. Not having to do any work. Not even dusting or cleaning dishes or anything. Having access to all paid porn sites, being a patron for customized fetish content. Paying women or men (in case you're a girl or gay) to get laid with almost every person you want to get laid with (those people who could be bought with money) So, the priority of pleasures being sexual, and then video streaming (You Tube/Netflix/Movies) and then (Instagram/Tiktok/Reddit), using the body and the mind, for maximizing pleasure. No limit to how many times to fap, or to anything. Just following one ideal : Maximizing pleasure. Would this kind of hedonism lead to the best life possible? if no, why not?

I love her. And I feel like my energy is stuck with her. It's not like I want to free myself of that bond either. I am afraid what would happen to her if I completely withdraw? I constantly worry about her. She is the type who's not so open with communicating her emotions. She is too afraid to be vulnerable. I feel like she's too delicate. Sometimes, It does take the form of toxicity when there is a mismatch in what we feel. I feel like I cannot communicate with her, she just cannot understand. What my heart truly desires is the best for her, and I don't know what that is. My intuition tells me that withdrawing is the thing to do, and that she'll reconnect if she feels the need to. What have you done in such a situation, when you faced it, if at all?

@Keyhole @The observer Thank you. I know what to do now.