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"The belief of a limit, is the limit itself" YoloFrankerZLUL

Nobody said that we must cling to Leo's ideology. Leo's only giving us the tools, and since he still has an ego, he could be biaised (just like anyone else) by his culture. That doesn't mean what he says isn't true, that means you should always interpret what he says (where he came from, what his life is now). Don't be a skeptical maniac though, most of what Leo's says is pretty accurate, and his cultural background has very little influence on it.

There is one critical thing you didn't mention, homeostasis. All you mention is great, but you can't do that without thinking strategically. YOU MUST know what homeostasis is if you want to eradicate your addiction/self-actualize, otherwise you will fail:

By believing it, your mind will try to know if it's true by direct experience work. By not knowing it, your mind wouldn't be conscious of it, therefore it wouldn't seek direct experience to prove if these theories are true or not. If I didn't know a relationship can't fulfill me, I would put the blame on my current girlfriend instead of doing self-actualization work.

I was watching a video from Leo (can't talk about it cause it's from the life purpose course), and I suddenly felt that I was him, When I looked into Leo's eyes, I wasn't looking at something external, I was talking to myself. I also felt the pain he had saying what he had to say, I knew he was sad, and not just by looking at his eyes, it was deeper than that. It was painful yes, but so beautiful at the same time, it really can't be described with words, it's way, way, WAY beyond thinking. It reminds an another experience I had years ago: I was randomly walking in my town streets, and suddenly I was aware in a very deep level of every situations of my life, how everything was unfold. I think at this moment (it lasted 10 minutes, probably less), I was seeing threw karma, I could litterally know intuitively why every good and bad things happened in my life. It wasn't traditional thinking, I didn't control anything, it felt like someone else was thinking. I even start to think there is a lot of "supernatural" possibilities out there, there is too much shit the mind can't understand, simply because it isn't wired to do so. It makes me remember of a video where you see Tony Hawks falling, he was in intense pain, but he still started the jump, and break his record ... How could that make sense ? He was in a worst shape, probably not even in condition to walk, and he break his own record ? How could this be "logic" or "possible" ? He also said in the interview following his record "I don't know how I did that,there was this intense flame inside me" (not the exact quote, don't have time to search for now).

It happened again. I was doing my daily walk, meditating along the way as usual. Then I saw a dog I see often, just sitting here looking at me. I instantly looked into his eyes and was aware that the dog was in fact me. It's difficult to explain, but, everything was exactly as it always has been, except that when I looked at the dog, I felt it wasn't something "external" to me. Reality is exactly the same, only the perception of it change. Also, for some seconds after that, I was seeing the whole world more alive, and me, "me", was just a sort of ghost walking through it (the feeling is very hard to put into words sorry ^^).

The point of enlightenment ? Identification with everything and everyone as yourself which leads to infinite happiness ?

Read "The power of now", from Eckhart Tolle.

You'll always have some kind of fear, even if you see through the illusion. The difference is that you'll know fear is just an emotion, and that you can conquer it. I guess an enlightened person fears too, but I guess they just sees that emotion at an even greater distance, which means fear can't make them act against their values.

If you clearly explain why you need some time alone, and your girlfriend/boyfriend still doesn't respect that and bitch about it, Yes, of course you should leave her/him.

It has an impact on your capacity to feel satisfaction too. I realized that some weeks ago when I did stop porn for about 1 month, when I was surpassing myself in an activity. I had better excitment level than before, and it was the same kind of experience. If you think about it, what are you doing by watching porn ? Aren't you switching partner that you couldn't (probably) not have in real life ? It isn't real yes, but your mind interpret it as a reality. That explains why you feel less/any satisfaction anymore, because the part of your brain which is responsible for that is fucked. I guess that also explain why depression is easier to have while watching porn.

Laughing at someone having huge issues or laughing at someone who's trying to help ? Huge signs of a disfonctional ego.

Tell yourself for 5 minutes every morning, in front of the mirror, "I have no problems and I'm advancing in life".

You can already understand it and feel that it doesn't work right now. Doesn't mean your subconcious is ok with it though, that's why your ego needs to do stupid things from time to time, Like tryharding Hearthstone's ladder fully knowing you don't give a shit about being a good hearthstone player ...

"The only way to know many things, is to realize you know so few"

By doing practical work that pops up in my mind after some of his videos. Not too much at the same time though, doing only 1 or 2 things max at a time is how you really change your life, not by trying to do everything at once (otherwise you'll experience backsliding). More actions, less thinking, more meditation, less bullshit activity.

Of course it does, that's why 99.9999% of the population thinks their dreams are stupid and that they should focus on a normal/cosy life.

"So much so that I'm waiting for something huge I've never felt before to shake my little world so hard it's impossible to mistake it. Is that bad?" The thing you're searching is egotic love, not true love, and it just doesn't last, it just can't. True love isn't about loving someone or something in particular, it's just being happy whatever the circonstance, and it has nothing to do with relationships. Now, that doesn't mean you can't have a relationship, relationship are nice, they help you grow because you have to be mindful of how you act and take care about someone else. It is also really cool to have someone to talk about deep subjects, cheer you up, having intimate sex and cuddling. But all of that isn't necessary at all, it is a plus, a nice one, but that alone (even if you have all of it) won't fulfill you in the end. Also, at some point you'll realize you can be with pretty much anyone (except extreme neurotics/annoying girls), you'll love that person as much as anyone else.

Eckhart Tolle is definitely the shit if you are into personal developement. Most people think he's just some weird spiritual teacher, but he's so much more than that. In my mind, he will have a greater impact than the Buddha had, because he's doing exactly what the Buddha did (with a lot of exposure), the direct and no bullshit approach of what reality/presence/consciousness/enlightenment work is. And you can SEE that he's not lying, or that he's after money, you can litterally see it on his face if you listen to him talking.

Why would anyone want to be successful and unhappy over the alternative ?

It is like saying that mc donald is a good foodchain because they have lots of consumers. Quality doesn't always involve quantity, it all depends on how you perceive the message in this case. The way Leo talks and do his video is very different than the norm, it can't appeal to a large audience because he doesn't treat you like a child, he literally tells you to stop wasting your life and/or be stupid in most video (it's not always being said that clearly though). I get that's not how you think, you think that other people can't believe Leo's teachings are worth it because he isn't a rockstar with millions of view. If you have some people who thinks that way, and they see you grow, and they still don't think Leo's video can't help them, well, you can't help them.

The problem is that you have a debt (I assume you're American), I suggest to keep up and repay your debt by doing a well payed job after your graduation. Debt is the one thing that can fuck you up very deep in the ass, so unless you want to yolo and live as a monk in some other country, you should keep up with college. You can do both college (and have good grades) and self-actualization, don't fuck it up.

You wouldn't need an outside stimuli to do that one thing yes, it will be your all life. If you try to do something else (an another hobbie), it could still be enjoyable, but you'll know it's only a side thing that mean pretty much nothing to you, and it's fine. That's the problem with most people, they do so much unauthentic things to them, that they need more and more about theses things, always chasing something they can't describe (most of the time they don't even know they're chasing something), and therefore, they are never satisfied, at least not for long. So now, ok you're looking to grow, it's good, but at some point (or unless you become enlightened very fast) it won't be enough to fulfilled you in a deep way.

It inspire everyone you know, it's the search of genuine happiness that everyone seek, but very few find. Being an excellent human ? What does even mean ? And what point there is in that if you can't do something for others with it ? What is contribution to you ? Your "one" singular answer is your consciousness seeking to overflow your body, but right now it is filled with your ego and therefore it cannot express itself fully. That's one of the caracteristic of enlightened peoples, they just do what they feel is important for others (and ultimately them), there is no second guess. The problem is that in our limited egoistical form, we tend to overlook that, we tend to look at our dreams as childish and stupid things. In reality, these dreams (if you do self-inquiry to check if they are authentic) are what you are looking for, but some of them looks scary because they actually needs you to become something totally different than what you "are" now.

You need to see yourself as a wave of energy running its course. The course of this energy is something very specific that will only appeal to you, it is a task to do in this word, and it's the only one that will have a meaning for you. Consciousness/god wants "you" to do something very specific because it wants to expand itself, that's the only meaning of life, Create something new out of nothing, that's what infinity is. The only reason why you need a motive to do something, is because you didn't find your life purpose, yet. Check Leo Life purpose course or take an another, but that's what you're missing apparently.