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I think you meant: How happy are you compared to your old self since following actualized.org ? Not only there is no way to quantify happiness (unless you have some scientifics friends), but you'll never know if someone is truly happy or if he's faking it (some people are master at this). Even if you could know it still doesn't matter, because it is only through your happiness/authenticity/synchronicity with life that you can impact others anyway.

You are my child and my parent My lover and my enemy And everytime I close my eyes I see me in absolute grace Within time and space All together in this wonderful whole Which has no bottom Which has no beginning nor end All I am, we are Our love within us Will flow endlessly

Personally, I enjoy a lot akwards moments, simply because it shows me what I have to improve (if I can feel it comes from me) and because it is fun ! It is fun to see people misinterpret what you say or thinking they deserve to be entertained, you just kind of see they are judging you by their tone voice, and it is fascinating to me how much they can judge so quickly (positives and negatives) ! There is a certain kind of play that comes from it too, you never know where a conversation with lots of akwardness moments can lead

I can't call you, I don't have your phone yet !

At some point you'll have audio and visual hallucinations, you'll literally see and hear Santa Claus talking to you about raping little children ! Don't give up now !

I would just add that, it's not because nothing else than spirituality makes sense to you anymore that you should be a monk. There is plenty of paths to follow and ways to raise your consciousness and those of others (if that's what you are into): - Working in an association related - Translator of spiritual books - Spiritual teacher/blogger/youtuber - Writer with strong spiritual influences - etc ... Actually, being a monk is probably one of the worst way to contribute, (unless you're high ranked) because you'll just meditate and doing practical stuff for the dojo. There is nothing wrong with that, if your intuition really makes you understand that's what you have to do, But for most people, I don't think that's what we really want, we feel an urge to practice more and to be the truth yes, but you really don't need to be a monk for that, don't make this confusion.

No, not "before the week end", today. Otherwise it'll always be "tomorrow", and at some point an another dude will get her, it's not like she's gonna be into you forever.

Everything mental is mental masturbation ^^

Waiting until it pass, because that's just your ego which tries to make sense out of the meaningless of life. Try to reach a master, they probably have some tricks on how to resolve this faster, and you probably need to meet some people who know what you're going through (well at least it will be a bit easier to go through). http://in5d.com/getting-through-the-dark-night-of-the-soul/ Don't know if this is what you're experiencing, but if that's the case, you have to confront it, there is no other way. You don't, but the master will.

SO, DID YOU PUSSY OUT OR WHAT ???!!!

I'm at the point where I hear my mother asking me to come down when trying to sleep (with a creepy voice, horror movie style), while she's obviously can't be in the appartement. Next step is hallucination I guess, cool shit, no need to sleep right

When you focus on being the best version of yourself, you find your authentic passion. It's not that you can't help people if you don't take care of you, it's that you'll be able to help/influence/inspire way more people by doing the thing that's most authentic to you. You can only do that if you decide to kill your current version of you, to be the unknown and true you. That is scary, and no one will help you to do that but yourself.

Brute force a samadhi state, and then you won't be able to come back.

He made a 34 lines post about it.

I'm not joking, it's not like she's gonna refuse to see you on a sunday if you tell her it's important. You're friends right ? She won't refuse to see you.

NOT TOMORROW, NOW, DON'T BE A PUSSY !!!!!!!!!!

Call her now and ask her if you can meet, then ask her about her feelings, NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOW !

Are you depressed when you sleep ? :3

This is relevant as fuck

Can you see your problem ? Try harder. When you get really deep, there is no consciousness, what the dude say in the video is true. When you get in the void, it is like deep sleep, there is nothing, nothing at all. You can stay there for 1 hour and feel like you've been there for 1 second.

You'll never know for sure, just do it.

And even when they care, it's all in their mind too ! Thoughts, about how you speak, how you dress, what you know, what you don't know, what you look like, how you move, how you look, how you smile, how you act, if you care enough about them, if you care too much about them, and it goes on and on ... All of that, is just resistance of reality, they don't accept that someone or something is not how they think it should be, so they get mad about it !

Ask her "Do you have feelings for me ?" You'll see what you need to see in her eyes in the first 0.5 second.

Very simple and quick exercice (30 minutes). Just ask yourself, what you truly know about life in general, and be really precise about how you know these things. Here is what I got: The things that I don't know: I am born: I only know that through my parents, I never saw my birth certificate nor any pictures of it, and even if I did, it would just be a paper and a picture -> That's a thought. I'm going to die: Apparently, science tell you that a certain point you'll die, but I never saw people die except on TV, and even if I did, I'll only see a body which couldn't move anymore, what about the mind/spirit/consciousness -> That's thoughts/assumptions. The sun exist: I can see it, and I can feel its warm -> But right now, yeah, it's a thought ! The moon exist: I can see it -> Same thing :3 What is reality: I couldn't even answer to this question, the only thing that happened was me starring at the room trying to find an answer ^^ The things I know: Other living beings exist: I can see them and I can touch them, I also can interact with them. I can't know what they are thinking about, nor does how it feels to experience life as their body/mind, therefore I don't know if I'm the only conscious being alive, It feels like I'm the only one. Logic/rationalization is limited: I remember all the times I thought I was right, with lots of arguments to back me up, and everytime I was wrong in the end, or it always felt that the truth was slipping through my fingers. I am not my thoughts and my emotions: I can dissociate myself from them, and I can feel space around them, therefore I cannot be them. I want to know the truth: That's what my intuition is telling me to do, and I have no clue what intuition is, other than a weird knowing that I have to do certain things without knowing why.