Shin

Stop trying to change the world, change yourself. You can't change how people think, and you said yourself that talking about these kind of things are uninteresting to you, so why complaining about it ? Let people be, and find people that aren't that inconscious if you need a social circle, because you'll never make them understand how they are biased, and you don't have to.

Don't know if it's related, but recently I realize that I have a major shift in consciousness whenever I quit work. After all the socializing and labeling that I have to do, it feels like an instant shift, reality feels instantly more "dreamy". Especially if I go take a walk in the forest, I don't even know if I'm dreaming or not when I'm there, it's absurd.

Had a similar thing, but it was like an infinite void spreading from the "inside". After this I was able to see more easily the "isness" of all things (except maybe humans). So you're definitely on the right track

Just be who you are, who you really are, without the fears and discomfort you have now. With the skills that you always had but never had the chance to truly embody/master. If you do that, you will know/find the right kind of girl for you, my take would be that it wouldn't even matter if you can do all that. Having a girlfriend for a man isn't that important really, only weak men are needy for women.

Truth is beyond awareness :3

Tell that to a Zen master and let him take you in charge.

Wet dreams are so nice, the girls never call back !

@Toby "Your god doesn't exist" "How can you be sure there is no god ?" The two questions to instant trigger almost anyone

Find your life purpose, until then, don't drop college and work hard to get the degree. If your 100% sure of what you're purpose is, and if you're sure it's not your ego trying to manipulate you, that it comes from your intuition/inner wisdom, then you can drop college. Do some retreat and some hardcore meditation week end on your own, that will help a lot.

It's what they enlighten in you that matters, not which one is more deep into the rabbithole, it really doesn't matter. After a while, teachers doesn't matter anyway, only you can find the way.

I had thoughts of doing some stupid things just for that. It's the only way to meditate all the time without having to do anything else when you think about it

The only way out of suffering is through meditation and awareness. The situations you think are bad in your life, that's all in your head. Either you face your negative emotions or you don't, there is no magic pill, sorry.

What kind of competition ?

So I was thinking a bit about my experience with women, and I realized that during the year before high school (like 14/15, don't know the US term) I had an easyness to get girlfriends. I had like 7/8 of them, half of it I didn't even tried anything, it just came naturally. I was wondering how that could even happened, because I was very calm, reserved, not really that funny (sometimes I was). Now, when I think about it, most of these girls were pretty introvert, or at least, enjoyed a lot their alone time, so maybe that's one reason. Apparently, I was very detached about outcome when it came to girls, I didn't really cared about them, it was just nice to have fun with them. That was before something really crushed my self-esteem really hard and make me fear social interaction. Is it possible that confidence and detachement alone can be enough to attract girls ? It seems like it, sometimes I didn't even realize they liked me until they invited me to their home or hinted at me they wanted hugs/sex, I just thought we were friends Paradoxically I was too much of a pussy to engage sex, but I guess that was because I was still a virgin and very young, the pressure was maybe too much for me, I don't know.

Ok, I'm doing it, I'm going TO DIE, NOWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW. EDIT: Still a human being, still can't fart rainbows and turn water into vodka

They don't have any concepts, they can't live in past or future. They are basically child all their life, which is why they are so awesome and loving !

The level of confidence you get when you drop an addiction is so high that it snowball very quickly (coupled with consciousness work). If you can quit porn and masturbation, every other addiction will be so easy to drop, it's unreal ... It just takes time, your psychee won't allow you to do everything at once, otherwise it will backslide big time. Just so you have an another example, that is what I've been able to defeat in 10 months (since I started to meditate). I was in a very bad shape 10 months earlier, one of the most neurotics and anxious guy you could meet. With so much fears and insecurities that all my thoughts were negatives and self-destructive. So, If I could do all this, this little "I", who was so weak and fragile, each and every one of you can. It's just a matter of time

That is to expect, but if you did consciousness work, it shouldn't bother you too much. You would just watch yourself thinking and acting stupidly, but it would be funny to you at this point.

The tranny zone looks appealing, no crazyness and maximum hotness !

The Power Of Now is all you need to awaken.

Yes and no. https://www.eckharttollenow.com/new-home-video/default.aspx?shortcode=vx6itm

When you help someone, and they ask you why you did it.

To me, the lyrics are about reality, not women