Shin

Face every fears that is in your mind, this is the only way, you either trust in yourself now, or it might take years/decades of suffering to realize you have no choice. You think 4 years wasted is a lot ? Most people waste their all life, you still have the choice, appreciate this.

Thank you Leo Thank you everyone Thank you me Thank you god Thank you life

You are powerful beyond measure ...

Basically, meditate the shit out of your free time.

Don't take anything seriously, EVEN ENLIGHTENMENT There is NOTHING to learn, you don't need time to be what you already are, just sit still DONT'T SEEK FOR IT ...

Does insomnia can lead to a mystical/enlightement experience ? Anyone tried that ?

Well, you're old, you should expect that ...

All these quotes makes perfect sense along the path though, you don't even need to be enlightened to fully understand most of them.

In the meantime, like TJ Reeves said, you could eat her way more than the usual, but you could also use toys on her. If she's your girlfriend, she just want to have a great time with you, so she won't really care. If she's a random girl, she most likely doesn't give a fuck about you and just want to get some orgasms, so she won't care too. You could also learn some breathing technique, like breathing slowly from the mouth, it helps a lot. You don't necessarily have to go slower while doing that, but at first don't beat yourself up if you're not as brutal as before. @TBurg82 You can also continue to fuck her even if you've come, it's not that hard, it's all about willpower and how much you care about the girl.

When you know that you don't know what you are

Of course you can't know, you wouldn't be seeking if you did The only thing you can know, are the concepts on how to proceeds And they are only helpful if you actually do the hard work of facing your emotions and following your intuition. Holding them as knowledge counts for NOTHING >>>NOTHING<<< @Afonso When you won't even know if you're a human being or not, this is where it starts to be fun

Instead of letting the discomfort of contradictions to exists and see what is really true (or accepting the fact that you don't know), You run from it, creating a new belief (or strenghten the old in a sneaky way) to make your point of view is valid in your own mind. Don't lie to yourself, stop this bullshit and face the fact that you may be wrong/ignorant on many subjects. It is about your mental and physical well being. You can't experience true peace/love if you disagree and judge everyone (even yourself) for what they know, or don't know, if their opinions are the same as yours or not, if their actions contradicts your morality. Most importantly, you will never love yourself if you don't accept the fact that you are wrong and not aligned to your inner wisdom. You have to see and accepts your own imperfections to actually make progress, there is no other way.

I'm not gonna write in a non dual writting when I don't even understand fully what all this means. Maybe "you" can understand that, but we don't, hence the duality terms.

Dolphins "rapes" their female in group, and kill their babies ! That's all I have to say here !

I did it for like, well I don't know, maybe 2 hours. Wanted to do it in the forest too, but it's a real bad idea at night, so much mosquitos So I'm doing it now. HERE WE GO !

Congratulations, now comes the part when you have to drop all concepts and stop taking your mind seriously when he seeks. Not that easy to do, even when you're totally present, there is still a tiny fragment of your mind seeking in the background This fucker never stop

It's easy to know if you're enlightened yourself. Can you stay 2 full week at your parents house without getting triggered ? Probably not

Every people that are living their passion and sharing it with the world loves you, more than you can ever imagine. Every seeker past a certain point don't seek for themselves anymore, they do it for you, anyone of them loves you. Every enlightened people who awakened on the level of heart loves you, more than themselves. Even people that are totally inconscious loves you, they are just afraid of it, ultimately they do want to love you, they just can't at their present awareness level. You love yourself more than 10 000 sexual orgasms combined, you will realize this, in the meantime, just know we all love you Everytime you feel lost or lonely, think about that. Face the loneliness or sadness instead of running from it. You might find something very important hidden in it. Something no one can teach you, not even Jesus fucking Chris.

What do you do when the psychosis or existential crisis comes ? @Dan Arnautu Next time don't do that, let it submerge you, see what happens.

Not cryptic concepts though. Eckhart Tolle, Rupert Spira, Leo Gura, Bentinho Massaro, Teal Swan, Adyashanti, Alan Watts These are all great teachers that are very direct, I wouldn't recommand anything more, that's already too much concepts to learn.

Now meditate all the time and watch every one of your thoughts as if they weren't your thoughts. Sitted meditation is just a more focused meditation, meditation can be done anytime anywhere, that's how you go deeper into the rabithole. You don't need to know.