Shin

Meticulously re reading this journal ...

Still better that not trying to chase the best thing that could happen for you. That will always haunt you, consciously or inconsciously. You don't really have a choice anymore, your innocence is gone, so don't try to avoid it, it's will just bring you even more suffering.

I wish I could

It's not wasting time if you enjoy it ? Btw I almost feel like your smile emojis aren't sarcastic now, I'm proud ?

I say that because you were pretty productive the last time I checked ☺

So you're lying in your journal ? ? To add a bit to it, whenever you desire to quit comes, it's actually one of the best moment of the meditation cause it's when you can catch the ego at full speed. If you know that, then you would actually want to continue, you just have to be passive and very alert at the same time when it happens ?

@vanish So you're basically saying that we should kill ourselves, like a ball in our head ? Like 1000% physically dead ?

It is laborious. When I'm not in the «zone» I want to quit every 5 minutes. It's just that I know all the excuses I will say, since I was such a slug, and I just don't listen to it anymore. Do you take a train or a subway or something ? If you do, just close your eyes and listen to sounds around you. You have to do that commute anyway, so your mind doesn't use the «waste of time argument» there ?

DEAL WITH IT ?

Yes, but I was too lazy to actually do real stuff, so I waited until I got enough balls ???

Careful about your wording. Unless you don't care if someone commit suicide ofc.

@Psyche_92 Btw, if you want her to take you seriously, you should leave a selfie here

I did for some weeks one year ago, best sport ever, your sweat goes away immediatly, since, you know, you're in water ...

«This is stupid Fuck Fuck this shit FUUUUUUUCK This is bullshit It can't be done It's impossible What the fuck am I doing OK OK OK WHERE AM I WHERE AM I WHERE AM I *Tearful eyes* WHERE THE FUCK AM I COME ON BITCH ...»

It's not that funny when you know it cannot be done, but at the same time you have no choice but to try. Oh wait it's actually pretty funny

No it doesn't, have to submit the message, hide it, then start a new one, thats's the only way I found.

Best time to meditate like a motherfucker ?

Can't, I love dicks remember ? ?

Hottest guy so far ?

You stole my reput points ... Oh wait ...

Just take some vacation in France in 2 months ? Or do you prefer that I come ? ? @Natasha Good good ?

Give me the power to teleport and I will ?

When all your friends are out having fun and you're like

Thinking is words in your mind. Imagination has a visual component to it. Imagination is more powerful ?