Shin

Suffering

To most people this isn't the case, and this is why they are annoyed (suffering) when she asks those kind of questions.

I'm using it to vent I was actually crying lol If in 10 years I still am where I'm at and read this kind of post, I will be so mad

Supreme Leader Bentinho gave you his grace. Follow his teaching and the Jedi will perish !

BOW DOWN BEFORE ME REBEL SCUM !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yeah, talking to you everyday must be hell. Only a living god could do that.

To give some motivation, Last night I had a wet dream with 3/4 naked girls that were 11/10, perfect on everything. They were doing foreplay between themselves while inviting me to come. The dream didn't make me cum, and I forget about fapping in 5/10 seconds when I woke up.

Start a journal like @Vitamine Water and the whole forum will be your partner.

Does he look scared ?

We're in a self developement forum. You automatically expect people want alternative perspectives. In real life almost no one wants to be challenged on their perspectives. Perspectives = What they believe they are You challenge that in any way you're attacking them and make them suffer. It's a bitter pill to swallow, but 99% of the people you meet, you will never be able to help them, even with the best arguments/proofs and scientific studies.

No, I only quote her because of what there was in her comment, I'm not really talking to her or anyone in particular. @Key Elements But I only know her because I choose to read her books and movies, not because someone told me I should read them. If she tried to force me, or subtly trying to manipulate me to read them I would most likely never did.

If they didn't ask for it, yes.

Watching closely. Need to buy some glasses apparently?

Trying to change anyone, even if it is done at their level, and with a lot of compassion is still the ego trying to impose itself on reality. As long as there is an inclination to change something that isn't «quite right», then we're still not being, we are still doing. Not only it pushes us further from the truth, but it almost never works anyway. We can't force someone to change without using violence, whether it's subtle or passive doesn't matter, it's still violence. We would be much better served by helping people who actually wants help, people who come to you by themselves, those are the one we can really help.

Even if the articles were 100% true, It would still not matter. This course helped me greatly 1 year ago, So why can't it help you too ? If I told you I knew a book that has a 100% chance to awaken you, But it was write by a teacher that fucks one different girl every night, do cocaine and is friend with Donal Trump. Would you refuse it ?

Saturday After comtemplating for days I got to the conclusion that like Leo said in the Ox video and reading a certain passage of the book I'm reading now, That whatever I do to awaken won't work. You can't do anything. The only way to awaken is to be fully, and in order to 100% be, you totally have to stop doing. Which is impossible, because the mind is always active, It is always seeking, even knowing this it still seeks something. Now I don't want to do anything else, nothing else seems interesting anyway. It is not even frustrating, to know that I can't do anything and at the same time that the only thing I want to do is to try. It is a paradox that is quite ironic when I think about it I don't even know if I can say that it is all I want. To say that would mean I desire it, but it is not quite what I feel nowadays. I just feel this is what it's supposed to happen, not in a fate kind of thing, but because it is what is naturally happening. Some teachers says you need a burning desire to awaken, some others say you need to let go of the seeking completely. I'm in neither of this case

Couldn't get up until 13:00, too much pain to process until then, so I let myself do that. Missed two classes, but fortunately I met a good potential friend two days ago that already cares (as a friend I hope) quite a lot, I like her, she's quite funny and seems like a good caring and open-hearted person. I don't think I will get a new relationship that soon, I have to get a rock solid, consistent daily routine first. I need to get from 30/1 hours a meditation a day to 2, and add a 1 hour self-inquiry. Adding 30 more minutes of reading would be nice too, but that isn't a priority. I noticed a hint of jealousy when a female friend got approached today, even though I don't even want that girl, but fortunately I was conscious enough of that and let it pass, even later told her (genuinely) that I was happy for her. I also noticed that sometimes I internally fake my confidence, especially when I'm tired and feel weak, as if always looking confident was important. I still feel arrogant and insensitive at times. Arrogant because I assume I'm better and well informed than most people, even if it was true (which I can't know and is probably not true in most cases) it doesn't matter because those are signs of identification. Insensitive, because I tend to speak too fast before analyzing how my words and ideas could impact other people (example: Saying that one of the reason I'm doing sport, is because I don't want to get fat, while forgetting that a fat person was just besides me). Even though I would like to tackles those more in depth, I have to tackle my manipulation issue in priority, because you never know what is on the corner, and if I fall madly in love, I doubt I would be able to say no to that, not now, I'm too inconscious and I don't have the resolve to stay single if that happens. I don't want to hurt anyone like I did, if I lose or have to break the relationship for other reasons, fine, but hurting someone like this cannot happen again. The main goal is still to awaken to serves the whole, and if something really threatens this, by making me too inconscious, it should be cut off of my life as soon as possible. The remaining distractions are Movies and TV Shows, potentially friends (even though going out once every (two) weeks is acceptable imo). Even college if I go to the extreme, because I already know deep down that I won't be a traditional psychologist, if a psychologist at all. I'll deal with that later, the priority is to get the daily routine done and get so used to it that it feels natural. I still don't feel the need to take psychedelics, I should comtemplate if it's because I'm secretly afraid, or if it is because I genuinely don't have the will for it. Even if it turns out that it's a genuine lack of will, I should probably still eat some mushrooms and 5-meo to at least get to some extreme mindfuck once for each. Things I did today: Studying for two hours with a friend Doing the "I am honest" affirmations 45 minutes of meditation Working out for 30 minutes Swimming for 1 hour Things I didn't do today: Reading for 30 minutes

The camera could be as tall as 90 cm though …

He's tall enough to stand in front of the camera. That's all we will ever need.

Teal Swan is an alien !!!!!!!! https://medium.com/@bescofield/the-gucci-guru-inside-teal-swans-posh-cult-36168edaf62f This website seems so legit

@8Ball How are you doing ?

The Supreme Leader Is Wise (Sneaky bump )